July 18, 2009
If there is one thing I have always felt I owed to my readers, it is an apology.

I stumbled upon this website when I was barely a preteen. Grew with this website as I grew in life and allowed this community of writers and readers to inspire and shape me into who I am. There are many things I regret about my behavior here… too many to name. But in retrospective, I am thankful for everything I learned here. Everyone that I met. Whether we conversed through a few reviews, or over a few years. I am sincerely grateful for having met the wonderful people that I did during such an impressionable and naïve age. You made a lasting impact on my life when I needed it most, and I am forever appreciative.

Looking back, I think it was because I held my readers in such high regard that I became a coward and fled. I wanted to disappear somewhere where no one would know my name, and would judge my writing with unbiased eyes. What followed was a mish-mash of sorts, as I ended up in various fandoms all over this site, with a total of 5 accounts and a couple dozen stories to date. Sometime later, I returned here and selfishly deleted the majority of my stories. At the time, I believed it was self-less; my stories were riddled with logical and grammatical errors, they explored themes that ought not be explored for the intended audience, they contained characters whose reckless decision making was not an example to be followed. I didn’t believe my stories would do any newcomer any good, so I deleted them. It was only after they were gone that I realized it was the wrong thing to do. These stories weren’t just mine; they, in a way, belonged to my readers as well. They held certain memories and feelings that I abruptly and selfishly took away without warning. And for that, I am truly sorry. I was immature, impulsive, and a coward.

That’s not to say I no longer am, as I am sure I am filled with many more faults and flaws than I’d like to think. Life these days is harder than when I first arrived here 8 years ago, but I’m happy. I’m a university student now, and am in professional school. I eventually hope to join “_ Sans Frontières” within a few years, and be able to make a more tangible impact on the world outside the online community :)

The purpose of me updating this account was to apologize for my stupid, teenage ways. And, with greatest humility, I thank you. I’ve always said that I appreciate every reader, every reviewer, every person I've met here -- and I mean it. You guys are my superstars, and you will always have a place in my heart. I give you my love and wish your futures all the best.

Yours truly,
Says TB

sayto_TB@hotmail.com