A Bit About me:

To begin with, I am officially obsessed with music. Music is my second way of breathing, it is the basis of my life, and it's not surprising that I began my obsession with POTO because of this. I play flute, (hence the pen name), I try to play piano but my fingers are too short and I can't reach all the chords gracefully. I can never play the violin worth crap, butI adore the sound of it along with the xylophone... I could probably listen to a good musician play it all day and never get tired of it. My favorite classical piece of music ever is Danse Macabre by Camille Saint-Saens. And my favorite piano solo ever is Claire De Lune by Debussy along with any nocturne by Chopin. Not because of Twilight but because of my own choice

I'm my high school's marching band and I enjoy that practically everyday added on top of school work creates a very busy life, along with being involved with various music groups and concerts, writing only exists late at night meaning nine o' clock.

Besides music, I have an uncanny fascination with words and writing. My room is filled with stacks of books and notebooks of which I've probably filled out or just about to. I have so many little ideas floating around in my head, any normal person would think me being insane with all the alter-worlds I could put myself in.

I hate a lot of things... including bad writing. I have too many pet peeves that I can't name. I enjoy learning about conspiracies more than learning about the "facts" of life... I believe that there's an actually more interesting life out there other than what our teachers tell us. I have an entirely different mind than most people I know... I don't think there's any other way of living except living with your own voice, and I believe that teenagers my age are too concerned with what our textbooks tell us than what we think. You might notice this through my writing, but I'm not too certain... I'll just forewarn you to begin with.

My favorite obsession next to music is Phantom of the Opera. I have seen the musical on stage only once but am determined to see it again sometime this fall when it comes to my state. I enjoy researching about POTO because there's usually something in me that is just begging to know more and more... maybe that's just me, but I'm sure there's plenty of phans on the site who are the same way:P I even considered making it a school research project but the sites I used were entirely in French... so I decided otherwise.

Random facts:

- I'm a firm believer in Christianity
- Muse is the best band in the world.
- I don't want to tell you my age because I think it may degrade me a little bit... and I'm not sure if it's that effective on some people... but I just won't tell you unless it's very important.
- I really really really want to go to Europe...
- I really really really want to get my master's degree in music at Juilliard.
- I can't draw.
- My favorite genre is fantasy
- I wish I can draw.
- My favorite person in the world doesn't exist... Now think about that for five seconds.
- I have the strangest dreams ever!
- The best part about life is hearing Matt Bellamy sing in French.
- I know a good deal of French which is mostly learned by myself, and then the other third is from school.
- I suck at math. Don't even get me started...
- I can't list anymore random facts without writing an entire essay on them.

Phantom of the Opera

Ok... Now I have my own little space where I can rant on and on and on and probably nobody will care enough to listen/read. SO.

1. The ALW movie SUCKED. I'm sorry, but Gerard Butler is no Angel of Music... if I heard him singing through my mirror I would drop everything, scream, and run because all this bad-singing, sun-burnt, emo Phantom is, is everything the REAL Erik should NOT be. Erik IS NOT sexy, He IS NOT a bad singer, and his operas are supposed to be like... candy for your ears... and when they portrayed it in the movie it was very disappointing. And DO NOT get me started with the deer in headlights... Emmy Rossum... UUGGHHH...

2. The 1925 version... Suicidal Erik? Wow... pushy. But, it was the closest to the book and that is all I care about, but who is with me when I say that there should be a color, sounded, amazing, noseless actor that portrays Erik in a movie that is almost exactly like Leroux's amazingly insane, beautiful character as Erik. (well, not physically beautiful, but how could one such as Erik have a heart to love? To me, that is astounding and something that I could go on for days and never tire of talking about)

3. I saw the stage version of ALW's musical, and that was the first time I think I ever cried over a play because I was bawling when he sang that last line. I saw it with John Cudia (my second favorite phantom with a tie in first with Michael Crawford and John Owen Jones and Gary Mauer). I fell in love with Phantom then, not so long after did I read the book. AND I am waiting for my order of Kay's Phantom, impatiently, so impatiently that I think my hair will fall out from worrying so much.

4. Yeston/Kopit's mini-series version is one of my favorites as well. The Erik is the most lovable man I think I'll ever see on a movie, and my heart tore in shreads when Christine begged him to take off the mask and then when he died...aaaaaaaawwwwwwww... I'd give anything to be THAT Christine.

5. Kay's Phantom baffled me to the point of tears. The writing was excellence on paper, and her portrayal of Erik was touching and very amusing... I think I was laughing just as much as I was sobbing, and you should have seen me when I was reading the end of the book after taking my final exam. People thought I was insane for crying at a book. Anyway, I don't think it was better then the original for the ending kind of stumped me... I mean Erik dies of love not morphine overdose rolls eyes and then the whole torture chamber part annoyed me a tad with Erik being all weird because he's confused between wanting Christine and then not wanting Christine because for her own rights... but anyway... Love it. I deeply recommend it for every book Phan!

My Current Stories (pride and joy)

Forever Violet:
"I'm finding my parents, if I die for it. And I'm finding Lucile whether she likes it or not, or whether Nicholas has died or is alive. I'll defend my friends even if we all lose. Because I'm horrendously obsessed about getting things back to where they have been for centuries. And I could care less about the things about the same amount determined to change that... because death awaits them, and I can only hold back a storm for so long."

The story of a 209-year-old vampire is never an easy story tell. Who else is better at telling that then her herself? Love-burdened, hopeless Violet Sharpe has been losing her sanity and humanity slowly over the past two centuries. She finds sanctuary in her coven of older vampires that acts as parents, a little sister that she will excuse any purpose to kill, and a brother who will so willingly do everything to get away from her. Desperate, will the spirit of a 16-year-old boy regain her humanity and forever-lost soul? Or has she exceptionally and eternally "lost it?"

This story has been receiving my utmost inspirtation for a little over a year now, the characters haunt my dreams and all I'd like to do now is flaunt it. I finished the entire book about 6 months ago, started the sequel, not finished that, now I'm re-writing it to fit the needs and to finally throw it down and say goodbye. But no. I can't seem to say goodbye... therefore I'm still working on it, but currently on hiatus until the idea comes for an exceptional next chapter places in my head. I love Violet and I hope you'd be able to love her just as much if you read this. Cristicism... Oh, god... how much I want it.

When They Wake:

(Sequel to Forever Violet)

"Who would have thought in all of my years of existence, it would come to this? A love triangle consisting of my murderer, creator, and madman. And the other's of who's lasting heart I crave and long to have in this strange connection... Who to choose? Then to make it all the better: my choice could be deathly."

Violet Sharpe never had it this bad. At first, it's a death threat to her family, via the largest and most powerful coven of vampires in the world who want nothing but to destroy the family which is hardly a threat. And then, with the most insane, yet riveting and seductive vampire that has always posed as death to her, wanting Violet for something that could simply just be much too dangerous then imaginable. Mark still hanging by a thread... will Violet ever cope?

UPDATE!: This story is on momentary pause. Not for long but just a while. I think I need to cope my writing for a while, putting forth more effort into the rewrite than into the current creations. ON HIATUS

In my Childish Fears

Christine is an orphan that's been wandering up and down the coast looking for the perfect home, though she knows that she'll never find it. Her final chance before going to a lonely foster home for all the teenage rejects of different families. She finds her last home to be... well, huge. Her new guardian is slightly strange if not off the brink of sanity, and he wears a mask. She pretends to not be scared, and goes through by being dazzled by his evident charm and beauty through the strangest ways. But will she realize what he's actually up to before it's too late? Will she choose being with the insane or try to escape?

This story just recently acheived my inspiration and admiration. As much as I have a deep, passionate adoration for the dark Erik, I couldn't help but write even more for him. I might as well just kiss it I love writing it so much. Not only is Erik such a creeper in this, but I think I'll get to the point that all Eriks tend to acheive in the whole love part of it... But I would like to make you shiver just a little for this, and when I have met my goal, I'd like to prance away with it for Erik is my true love:P