Okay... sooooo I'm just really bored and I am in a very weird mood where I just really don't want to do anything other than babble soooooo I'm gonna babble. Here I go: My friends call me "Sam", or "Alpha" after Sam in the twilight series cause apparently I'm very calm or self controled... I dont understand it... cuz inside I swear I live in a city of havoc run by Mayor Emotion... I just went to a party on Friday and omg the best i've ever been to! it was my friend tony's birthday party and we pretty much danced for about oh... four and a half hours! it was sooo much fun. Tony also put up a video on youtube :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3f6JDJ9rGs

Unfortunately though they shot it after all the girls left "glower" cause aparently we're not cool enough... Psh! but yeah check it out it's pretty cool.

My likes: Cats, love dogs more, books (I wouldn't be here if I didn't), uhhhhhhhh... hmmmmm... lots and lots of rings, fire, water, swimming, chlorine, green hair (not that I get it! darn it!), friends, music, the colors blue and black, and for some reason emo kids ( I love them! and I try to steer them off the course of emoness a little, making sure they're happy most of the time) I also love any song from Yiruma Go check him out on youtube! he's amazing!... ummmmmmmmm... that's all I can think of... oh wait! knifes! lol (its a joke between two of my friends... im not emo)

My dislikes (grrrr) : black girls who think I'm racist (which I am so not! I treat everyone equally, if I don't it's because me and that person has had some SERIOUS PERSONAL PROBLEMS in the past I have problems with people my own race, their not that bad though to come to think about it, really anoyance issues that never seem to end...) the color pink (ewww), Hollisster (it gives me a headache and it's too dark AND you have to find some dark corner to try stuff on because the dressing rooms are ALWAYS full), when my phone dies, when I get sick and can't go to church, or when I'm to busy to go to mutual (grr, sry guys! I miss u!)... all I can think ooooooooffffffffffffff-ah...

My sudden obsessions:

Um... I've had a sudden obsession for the song "Man! I feel like a woman" from... shania twain I do believe... don't ask its a good song though...

Favorite quotes!:

Miroku: If it is truly big then we are no match for it. It's irrational. It's impossible. It's against my religion.
Inu-Yasha: You oughta be arested.

(Inuyasha episode 18)

Sesshomaru: Your stupidity knows no bounds. Run and hide while you can. That and only that is the only choice left to you. Then again perhaps you should stand up and face your death, atleast you would die with honor.

Inu-Yasha: Blah-Blah-Blah! The guy starts swinging a big new sword around and suddenly he's looking for a soap box to stand on and preach to the world!

What a Boyfriend SHOULD do:

When she walks away from you mad
Follow her

When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you
Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cussing at you
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she lays her head on your shoulder
Tilt her head up and kiss her

When she steals your favorite hat
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
Reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she likes you
she really does more than you could understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold hers and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
don't look away until she does

When she misses you
she's hurting inside

When you break her heart
the pain never really goes away

When she says its over
she still wants you to be hers

When she repost this bulletin
she wants you to read it -

Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.-

When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you-

Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her-

Treat her like she's all that matters to you.-

Tease her and let her tease you back.-

Stay up all night with her when she's sick.-

Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.-

Give her the world.-

Let her wear your clothes.-

When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.-

Let her know she's important.-

Kiss her in the pouring rain.-

When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's butt am I kicking?"

If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will :
Call you.
Kiss you.
Love you.
Text you.

Guys post as: "I'd be this boyfriend."
Girls post as: "A true boyfriend " or " what a boyfriend should do"

okay I got this as a foward message on my phone and thought it was just to cute and adorable so here it is : )

Girl: What's wrong?

Boy: I like her so much...

Girl: Talk to her!!

Boy: I don't know. she won't ever like me.

Girl: Don't say that. You're amazing.

Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.

Girl: Then tell her

Boy: She won't like me...

Girl: How do you know that?

Boy: I cant just tell.

Girl: Well just tell her.

Boy: What should I say?

Girl: Tell her how much you like her!

Boy: I tell her that daily.

Girl: What do you mean?

Boy: I'm alway's with her. I love her.

Girl: I know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he'll never lie me...

Boy: Wait. who do you like?

Girl: Oh some boy.

Boy: Oh. she won't like me either.

Girl: She does.

Boy: how do you know?

Girl: Because who wouldn't like you?

Boy: you.

Girl: You're right. I don't like you, I love you.

Boy: I love you too.

Girl: so are you gonna talk to her?

Boy: I just did.

Songs of the month:

Stolen- Dashboard Confessional

Decode- Paramore

Man! I Feel Like a Woman- Shania Twain

Animal of the month:

Crow- because you can nevere deny that they are cool :)

Poems That just pop in my head unannounced

Doubts

How can I feel special?

The way everyone forces me

To cut myself off

From the world?

How can I feel selfless?

When I want somthing so badly,

And when I finally get it

I no longer want it?

How can I feel beautiful?

When I’m told the opposite,

From the people close to my

Ugly, stitched and swollen heart?

Why is it that I’m eager?

Eager for something forbidden,

Unattainable,

And dangerous?

Why wouldn’t these tears fall?

Fall down my cheeks,

When I have suffered beneath

This smile?

It's true, Edward Cullen prefers brunettes. Sorry, Barbie you aren't Bella, and Edward isn't your Ken.

If you've met your not-blood related twin (in resemblance or personality), copy and paste this in your profile

If you slap anyone who tells you that Edward Cullen is not real, copy and paste this into your profile

If you have gotten more than three of your friends addicted to Twilight, copy and paste this into your profile

If you're mad at Stephenie Meyere for falling in love with Jacob and losing Edwards voice, copy and paste this into your profile

If you think everyone's out of their mind, copy and paste this into your profile

If you truly believe that there is an Edward Cullen somewhere for you (Doesn't mean his name has to be Edward Cullen, although that would be super cool), copy this into your profile.

If whenever you see or hear the name "Edward" you freak out and have a small fit because you love him so much, and then people stare at you, copy and paste this into your profile

If you have ever tripped over air, copy this into your profile.

If you've ever tripped UP the stairs then come tumbling down, copy and paste into your profile.

If you've ever walked straight into a pole, copy and paste this into your profile.

Weird is good, strange is bad, and odd is when you don't know which to call someone. Weird is the same as different, which is the same as unique, than weird is good. If you are weird and proud of it, copy this onto your profile!

If you know someone who should get run over by a bus, copy this into your profile.

Ninety-five percent of teenagers are concerned about being popular. If you are one of the five percent who aren't, copy this, put it in your profile.

92 percent of teenagers would die if Abercrombie and Fitch told them it wasn't cool to breathe. Put this in your profile if you would be part of the 8 percent laughing your arse off.

If you've ever had a mad laughing fit for no reason, copy and paste this into your profile.

If you're hyper, like being hyper, and are hyper all the time, COPY THIS INTO YOUR PROFILE

If you think those stupid kids should just give the rabbit the freakin' Trix, copy this into your profile

Okay i use lots of ancient names that I find online, it's sort of my weakness, hehe. their not just names on a whim either i'll have a certain meaning for something and i'll search and search for the name that means the closest thing possible. So they always have a meaning. Do you see how much time i put in to help you?! i will never stop loving you because if I stop I will be like: "leaving you was the darkest kind of blasphemy." sound familiar hehe. so here r the meanings!

Meaning of the ancient names for "Beth":

Aegle: radiant, bright.

Adrastos: Not inclined to runaway

Melanthios: Dark Rose

Lycurgus: deed of the wolf

Acantha: Thorn, Prickle

Meanings of the ancient names for "The Sandhya Society":

Sandhya: twilight (hehe)

Kali: the dark one

Tuulikki: Little Wind

Casimir: Destroyer (something like that)

Cast for Sandhya Society:

Bella: http://media.photobucket.com/image/olivia20hussey/xmrsdanifilth/oliviahusseysmile.jpg?o=39

Peter: http://media.photobucket.com/image/toby20hemingway/Bina78/Toby20Hemingway/5ru5duy5f8gju.jpg?o=2

Edward the older:

Alice: http://media.photobucket.com/image/celebrities/ImFamousForThat/celebrities/alexis3.jpg?o=162 (Okay I wanted to make her look intimidating because they live in a world where they have to be so thats why she's like all up in your face te-he)

Okay I will put more up as they come into the story.