My obsessions :

Anne Rice's vampire Chronicles (at least before it got a mess) and Buffy TVS (and other vampire related stuff, but those 2 most of all)

HOLMES/SHERLOCK:

I got interested in Holmes after last year's movie (because it was SO different from my childhood cartoons memories and soooooooooo not boring - Holmes is crawling on the floor ??? holmes is in fact dark and crazy and fascinating ??? and watons kicks ass ??? and omg the interaction between those 2 is just too much and all) Anyway, that got me reading the Conan Doyle's stories (I'm not finished though: RL, huh, never enought time), and I fell even more for it all and then WOW the bbc version, such original yet such literally, textual adaptation (I'm SOOOOO glad I read some originals before, it's like he, that's in a story, and he, that too, and he ...), THUD - couldn't help it, I got obsessed...

Brokeback Mountain: the first movie that got me to actually WRITE:

I saw Brokeback Mountain FINALLY (when it got out here we were too busy moving in and out and he didn't stayed up as long as i thought it would where we live, and after, we just didn't had the opportunity) about 6 months ago. God i loved it. The landscapes and the music are really amazing, the actors are just SOOOOOO perfect, and the story is just SOOOO strong. I'm normally not the crying type, but it really touched me, deep, deep, deep. All this passion and desire and longing and love (I swear, the "meeting again" kiss is the strongest kiss i ever saw in a movie, it reminded me of what it is like to really long for someone ... we used to be countries apart for years, my boy and me, and this kiss is just SO true with how you feel then when you meet again after awhile ... and we never had to wait for 4 years !!...) and so much sorrow and waste and unsaid and undone and regrets and well, missed lifes... it's just so true and so painful. The end is really awful, though it gives us again one of the most beautiful moments ever in film history (the shirts ...!!) Anyway, it became right away one of the few movies which, in a way or another, had touched me so deep that they actually ARE a part of myself. The others are The Big Blue (1988), Leon (1994) and Interview with a Vampire (1994), so it doesn't happen that often ...

Heath Ledger died since, and it really felt bad. Still does. Not that I knew him, but I've always been fond of him (I mean, he was just mindblowing), and after seeing Brokeback and his heartbreaking interpretation of Ennis, he was one of my precious few, which had known how to touch my heart in such a special way. All this talent now gone to waste, while he had so so much to give, it's just sad. And he was my age too, so it felt maybe close to home.

Anyway, I decided then that I should sort of keep him alive, at least in my head. I've read fanfics for long, since the "Buffy" time, but I never wrote anything. I sure always had enough stories in my little head, but they just never made it until paper or screen life ... So the all writing thing is quite new ...

Notice: To all those who think Homophobia is wrong and want to fight for a better future for our gay and lesbian friends please re-post this into your profile:

I am the girl kicked out of her house because I confided in my mother I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister that holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks and in another year I would probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school it was simply to much to bear.

We are the couple that had the Realtor hang up on us when she realized we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed and raised. The court says I'm an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic partner who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because he grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the Home-Economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church not because I don't believe but because they closed their doors to 'my kind'.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong do your part to end it.