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Author has written 39 stories for Buffy: The Vampire Slayer, Let the Right One In/Låt den rätte komma in, Glee, and Spring Awakening. "Don't give me songs, Give me something to sing about." For general information, I only post here and on my LJ page (warped_in_time). Anywhere else and it's not me. Story Updates Different Destinies, Constant Fate 27.01.12: A year later and I have finally updated. Go me. Rendezvous with a Ghost 1.8.10 : Okay, I'm going to have to admit this story is on hiatus currently. I will finish it eventually (of course by then, no-one will probably care) The Second Cut is the Deepest 1.8.10 : Again, this is on hiatus unfortunately. I will return though. Musings of a Penniless Author I decided to add a section to hold any and all niggling rants that pop into my head and won't go away - so ta da! And, perhaps unsurprisingly, a big passion of mine is the infamous Willow/Oz/Tara debate. I've read a lot of boards and people's opinions and arguments about Willow's persuasion and true love - and the major consensus that I come across is that people like both but believe that Tara and Willow are the best couple. Obviously a lot of that is just people's personal preferences, which is fair enough - just as I will always resolutely be a Willow/Oz shipper - but some of the arguments I just don't agree with. Something that really grates on me is this inference - and often downright assertion - that Willow and Oz just had a sweet innocent teenage love, but Willow and Tara had all the sexual chemistry. Yes, Willow and Oz were both young and (gasp) in high school when they found each other, but that doesn't mean it should automatically be written off as high-school sweethearts and nothing more. It doesn't matter what time in life people find each other - love can strike at any time and it makes it no less potent and powerful. Clearly, their youth and comparative inexperience meant that their love grew slowly, which made it all the more real and strong in my opinion, so obviously they didn't go in hot and heavy with the lust and sizzling tension that was played a bit heavy-handed in my opinion with Willow and Tara. And because the show split them up so early, just when both of them - and especially Willow who was just beginning to blossom and embrace her sensuality - were growing up and becoming full adults - there was so little time to see that side of their relationship evolve and mature. But passionate chemistry was definitely there throughout their relationship - mostly brimming just under the surface, built on the deep love, tenderness and respect that defined their romance. I also really resent this idea that Oz was a nice romance but that Willow only found 'true' love when she met Tara. That he 'warmed her up' in a way, for the 'real' love of her life. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against Tara - she was a nice character and her relationship with Willow was sweet, caring and full of genuine affection and love. And I'm always a huge supporter of all positive and honest portrayals that increase exposure of gay/lesbian relationships. I don't know...maybe I just fell in love with Oz and Willow too much! But I just strongly and honestly believe that they are a better couple. That their love is deeper, stronger and meaningful - just a better match together. They complimented and suited each other perfectly - Willow's babbles to Oz's stoic silence! I always thought there was huge potential for their dynamic relationship and it definitely wouldn't have fizzled out - if only Oz had stayed to find out. There was no way they could ever just be friends. To quote a soddin' brilliant British vamp on another fateful couple; "You'll never be friends. You'll be in love til it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other til it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends" Though...they'd probably never hate each other - c'mon this is Oz and Willow! Again, no disrespect to Willow/Tara shippers. This is just my own strong opinion, and my reasons for it. Plus - this is my page - I can rant about whatever I want! ;) Another argument put forward is that Willow didn't love Oz as much as Tara because she chose her over him. New Moon Rising has to be one of the most painful episodes to watch! There's so many conflicting emotions; joy at Oz being back even for only one show, mixed with the utter frustration and sadness at how things were forced to be. Oz had to leave because of the Initiative, and Willow picked/stayed with Tara because there was no way Seth Green was coming back for good. As is so often the problem with great shows, actors end up betraying their characters for their own careers. Which I suppose I have to grudgingly accept - but it still sucks big time. I'm just grateful he gave us Oz in the first place, and he lives on forever in fanfiction (if I have anything to say about it!) Circumstances forced everyone's hand; and Willow was obviously hugely torn up over her love for him. As to the theory that Willow loved Tara more, that they were the true soul-mates, because she tried to destroy the world when Tara was killed - I'd say that, well, Willow was pretty much already on a dark, dangerous path and had been getting increasingly unstable for a while. She was only one step away from evil-veiny-killer witch, and that pushed her over the edge. If she had been as powerful with her magic and her and Oz had been together - I'm pretty damn sure she would have gone the same way. She showed the depths of her hurt over the loss of her love, when she tried to curse him in Wild at Heart, and she nearly became a vengance demon because of her destructive magic after he left. Magnify by a hundred times-more-powerful-Willow and you get an early glimpse of the Black Eyed Wicca and we would have definitely had another apocalypse if she had lost Oz for good in the same way. Don't know about other people, but I think there was pretty much no way Oz's abandonment wasn't also there in her mind during that dark, hopeless and vengeful time - driving knives into the already fragile wound of loss, plunging her on in her despair. I think there is mainly agreement though that Willow's sexuality is fluid. It isn't a matter of straight or 'gay now', or Oz was a mistake and she only ever really loved Tara. People love who they love, most of the time it's the person themselves that attracts someone and creates the desire to form a relationship together- gender doesn't limit love. I would never say that Willow couldn't or shouldn't have fallen for Tara. A huge part of Willow's character is her openness and how much love she holds for everyone. I only hold true to my conviction that her and Oz were meant to be together, that they shared a powerful and true love, in a different way from what she experienced with Tara. It kinda bugged me on the show that after Oz left, he was pretty much forgotten. I mean he got the odd mention, but for the most part it was like he had never existed. Like he wasn't important at all to Willow anymore. Which just seems very out of character, since he was such a huge part of her life and had a big effect on her. There was no way she'd forget him, or probably ever stop loving him. And it shouldn't be a case of - Oh Tara's dead, back to Oz! - really it should have been her realising her feelings all along and making the choice - even if Tara had been alive. I just think Willow and Oz are the soulmates. And the course of true love never did run smooth! (A sentiment that I seem to be taking to extremes in my story) Their love is real, complicated and conflicted but always deep and passionate. Rant over. Take from it what you will. "Life's a song you don't get to rehearse, And every single verse can make it that much worse." xxx My story is not going anywhere. So just end it. xxx | |||||||
1. Seven Sins of St Berry » reviewsThe Seven Deadly Sins get the St. Berry treatment.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 7 - Words: 6,547 - Reviews: 36 - Updated: 5-12-13 - Published: 1-29-13 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete2. Caught In Your Bad Romance » reviewsRachel gets an unexpected interruption to her ballet practice, one that turns her life upside down.Glee - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 17 - Words: 95,324 - Reviews: 396 - Updated: 12-22-12 - Published: 6-6-10 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ.3. Redux reviewsJunior prom gets a do-over. Wildly OOC and not a Finn-friendly fic. The result of a frustrated plot bunny.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,538 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 10-4-12 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete4. Meet Me At The End Of The World reviewsSometimes it takes an apocalypse to open your eyes.Glee - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,765 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 7-22-12 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete5. Rendezvous with a Ghost » reviewsThe quieter star-crossed lovers of the Buffyverse. [Nominated at the 2013 Willowy Goodness Awards]Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 16,134 - Reviews: 28 - Updated: 7-11-12 - Published: 7-3-09 - Willow R. & Oz6. Getting It Right » reviewsJesse St. James was never one to walk away from a challenge. Season Three with a St. Berry twist. Also features Klaine, Brittana and St. Fabray friendship. Episode 7 up. WIPGlee - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 7 - Words: 59,294 - Reviews: 102 - Updated: 7-1-12 - Published: 9-25-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ.7. Someone Like You reviewsShe would always be her light in the darkness.Glee - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,061 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5-5-12 - Santana L. & Brittany P. - Complete8. Different Destinies, Constant Fate » reviewsWhen tragedy strikes, what lengths will Willow go to, to follow her heart? Two universes - one choice that will irrevocably change them both. *UPDATED*Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Rated: T - English - Romance/Adventure - Chapters: 30 - Words: 112,060 - Reviews: 175 - Updated: 4-28-12 - Published: 2-24-09 - Willow R. & Oz9. Six On The Second Hand reviewsNo-one should ring in the bells alone. Promises are made to be kept.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,081 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 3-9-12 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete10. King And Queen Of Hearts reviewsProm night didn't end when the balloons fell. Missing scene from "Prom Queen". Part of the BTS collection.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,579 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 12-14-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete11. Better With Two reviewsRachel intends to savour some quiet time, but Jesse has other ideas.Glee - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,742 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 12-3-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete12. The Sweet Imperfection Of Us reviewsWhen Lea is taken ill, he is there without question. RP Jon/Lea fic.Glee - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,350 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 10-15-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete13. Practice Makes Perfect reviewsRachel and Jesse were nothing if not dedicated.Glee - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,957 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 9-17-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete14. Spring Storms reviews"There's just something about thunderstorms."Crossover - Spring Awakening & Glee - Rated: M - English - Romance/Spiritual - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,915 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 9-4-11 - Melchior G. & Rachel B. - Complete15. Crossing The Line reviewsThere's a very fine line between love and hate.Glee - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,158 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 8-18-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete16. Healing Hands reviewsJesse's gaze was dark and assessing as he studied her...It didn't take him long to decide on the best course of action.Glee - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,638 - Reviews: 21 - Published: 7-26-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete17. An Artistic Dispute reviewsJesse is aghast at the wave of 'Bieber Fever' sweeping through New Directions. Part of the BTS Collection.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,539 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 7-10-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete18. The Masculine Click Of Designer Boots reviews"Epicness" gets a new definition. An alternate twist on the "New York" finale.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,649 - Reviews: 27 - Published: 7-2-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete19. The Shadows Bring The Starlight reviews"I know this place." *Warning* Dark fic with themes of suicide. Not a crossover fic in the traditional sense.Crossover - Spring Awakening & Glee - Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,591 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 6-23-11 - Melchior G. & Rachel B. - Complete20. Idle Thoughts reviewsJesse and Rachel steal some much deserved alone time. Even Broadway legends deserve a holiday.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,045 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 6-6-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete21. The Scars of Your Love Leave Me Breathless reviewsA confrontation was owed. Missing scene from "New York".Glee - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,651 - Reviews: 31 - Published: 5-29-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete22. When Characters Don't Behave reviewsRachel Berry gets her 'Glee' storyline brief… and is less than impressed.Glee - Rated: T - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,456 - Reviews: 32 - Published: 5-5-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete23. Unpretty reviewsRachel needs an honest answer...Part of the 'Behind the Scenes' Collection.Glee - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,189 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 5-4-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete24. Fever reviewsFever can do funny things to people... Part of the BTS Collection.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,893 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 5-1-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete25. The Art Of War reviewsCompeting for the upper hand had never been so much fun. They weren't about to stop now.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,813 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 4-16-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete26. Everyone Falls In The City Of Angels reviewsRachel takes a trip after the events of Valentine's Day, and discovers that some sparks never die. Part of the BTS Collection.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,941 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 3-20-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete27. Proudly So reviews"I'm so yours."Glee - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,446 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 3-13-11 - Brittany P. & Santana L. - Complete28. The St Berry Effect reviewsIn which Jesse St. James gains a new appreciation for Britney Spears. Part of the 'Behind The Scenes' Collection.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,058 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 2-5-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete29. All You Can't Leave Behind reviewsWhat you didn't see at Sectionals. Part of the 'Behind The Scenes' Collection.Glee - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,356 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 1-16-11 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete30. Baby, It's Cold Outside reviewsBritish winter during a heating crisis is anything but fun, as Rachel discovers to her dismay. Jesse makes it his mission to find an up-side.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,914 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 12-27-10 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete31. Witness reviewsBackstage is a small world. Part of the 'Behind The Scenes' Collection.Glee - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,625 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 12-18-10 - Jesse sJ. & Rachel B. - Complete32. Reading Between The Lines reviewsThe truth lay in everything they didn't say. Jesse makes one last gesture. Part of the 'Behind The Scenes' Collection.Glee - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 819 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 12-7-10 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete33. Sooner or Later, Everybody Comes To New York City reviewsA night in the City of Dreams brings more than Rachel ever expected.Glee - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,415 - Reviews: 26 - Published: 10-17-10 - Rachel B. & Jesse sJ. - Complete34. Broken Strings reviewsOz was rarely recklessly impulsive, as anyone who knew him would readily confirm. There was really only one exception.Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,357 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 9-13-10 - Willow R. & Oz - Complete35. San Diego Secrets reviewsThe morning after the night before. Takes place during "Laryngitis"Glee - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,952 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9-7-10 - Jesse sJ. - Complete36. The Second Cut is the Deepest reviewsWhat if Wild at Heart had ended differently?Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,666 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3-22-10 - Willow R. & Oz37. Snow Angels reviewsA Scoobie-kinda Christmas.Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,709 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-7-10 - Buffy S. - Complete38. Meanwhile reviewsA wandering life, glimpsed through the eyes of a stranger.Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,240 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-21-09 - Oz - Complete39. No Ordinary Day reviewsOskar reflects on his life and future, on a very significant date.Let the Right One In/Låt den rätte komma in - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,570 - Reviews: 16 - Published: 8-16-09 - Complete
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