So it’s been a while since I’ve re-vamped my profile here and I figured that since I haven’t been able to write much of anything as of last I should update my bio at least.
At the end of this month I’ll be 21 years old and sometimes I hid away form everyone I know and think about how behind I feel in life- for the past three years I’ve watched my friends get married, and I’ve seen other’s have children (sometimes more then one) and I’ve sat through more graduations then I thought I would as I watch other people except diplomas and go off to start their lives. Like really start their lives and I smile because I’m proud but on the inside I feel as if I’ll never get my life together and being undecided doesn’t help. I mean, at least I’ve narrowed it down between Law and Psychology (parents, make sure your children develops interests as soon as possible; it will make for an easier time later on) but past that, towards which one I’ll eventually spend the rest of my life doing, I don’t have a clue. Everyone tells me I could do both- I’d be great at both and so on- but come on, I more or less knew that already. At this point, I’ll be working at a Day Care my whole life and that thought could drive me into depression (not to knock Day Care workers but it’s a hard job with shitty pay and not enough rewards. Plus I just don’t want to do it forever). And it seems that every time I think I know which out of the two to pick someone butts into my life with their opinion (yes you, coffee shop guy who decided to listen in on my conversations and then add your two cents about what you thought I should be; thanks).
Anyway; moving on. One thing I know I love is writing, for as long as I can remember I’ve been writing; stupid little stories here and there until I finally decided to share my stories with other people. That was when I found this place and though I’ve been writing for as long as I can remember I’ve only been posing here for about 6 years. I started writing fanfiction because at first I just couldn’t seem to find stories that I wanted to read and you know what they say; it’s like a question, ten to one if you don’t know that answer there are at least five other people who don’t know as well. I figured that if there weren’t any types of stories I wanted to read that probably meant that lots of other people might want to read the same stories I did so I decided to write them myself. I also write because I have a tendency to like couples that probably won’t get together- at least it started that way, recently the couples I want together seem to be doing just that-almost. And, though this may only be my opinion- I think I’m pretty good at writing.
I started here by first reading fanfiction and let me tell you there are some amazing writers on this board; makes me wonder why some aren’t actually writing in the Jane Austin scenes? And then when I finally gathered the courage I decided to post my first fic and I know that they say never to belittle your own work but God I sucked- though I still keep said fic around to remind me. My only hope I suppose is to always advance and better my writing; to grow and learn.
Mostly my obsessions change as I do- it started as Angel and moved to Harry Potter and for quite a while all I could write was Charmed. Recently it had been Danny/Lindsay from CSI: NY but now it’s all Supernatural (which let me say is a damn hard fandom to write for since everyone is so good over there, but I’m working on it). This only thing that seems to stay the same is my passion for whatever I’m writing- if I feel it, it tends to write itself and I find that that always turns out to be my best work; the stuff that writes itself. I’ve learned not to push it, I’ve learned to just let it come and finally I’ve learned (that no matter how frustrating it is) patience really is a virtue.
I aspire to one day decide my future (at least for my poor mothers sake) and then to be good at whatever it is I end up doing. If the world was perfect, I would only write; buy a villa in Italy and spend my days dinking coffee and people watching while I wrote a masterpiece- the world is not perfect and I’ve dealt with that.
-Girlygirl
P.S- Icon by Eyesthatslay over at Livejournal.com.
Important Side Note; Please Help: To every Danny/Lindsay supporter out there and to all the people who have ever believed in a couple even if they never came to be. TPTB over at CSI: NY frequent a certain fan board to keep up with their fans and most of the fans at said board are against the absolutely wonderful couple that is Danny Messer and Lindsay Monroe so I just wanted to post the link to a petition we D/L supporters have going and I am asking you to please, please sign it if you support or believe in this couple. Please sign the petition at http://www.petitiononline.com/dlcanon/petition.htmlAlso to anyone who already supports D/L and is looking for a friendly, D/L board to talk to other D/L lovers here is a link to the biggest D/L board on the net with the friendliest, most helpful people you could ever hope to find; www.Dlchem.net
Quotes: (Remember some are funny and some are not but all make you think):
"Once expanded to the dimensions of a larger idea, the mind never returns to its original size." -Oliver Wendell Holmes, 1809-1894.
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life." -Winston Churchill
“Remember, Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, but backwards and in high heels.” -Faith Whittlesey.
“There are two lasting bequests we can give our children. One is roots. The other is wings.” -Hodding Carter, Jr.
Procrastination - the art of keeping up with yesterday.
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