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| TurboWiz70 |
Author has written 42 stories for Lord of the Rings, Series Of Unfortunate Events, Harry Potter, Good Son, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, CSI: Miami, Degrassi, Hunger Games, and Keith. All of my multi-chap fanfics have been discontinued. Done writing fanfiction. I have lost interest and plus I have had some personal issues that have led me to stop writing/posting. May read on occasion. PM is still open for anyone who wants to stay in contact. Youtube (no longer posting): http://www.youtube.com/user/TurboWiz70?feature=watch Twitter (no longer using): @TurboWiz70 I wasn't planning on getting into detail on my FFN page about my departure from fanfiction, but I guess I should end the issue now so people can understand. And I'm doing it with a calm mind since most of my tweets on this subject have been heat of the moment . . . Firstly, sending reviews/messages that make me feel like crap are not going to inspire me to start writing again. In fact, that just gives me a reason to NOT start writing again and that I made the right desicion. I am aware of my fanfiction status, but that does not change how I feel inside about posting on this site. I have many reasons for not continuing fics ("If We Hold On Together" in particular) and it is largely due to the fact that I have gained readers (readers who I actually called friends) who I thought would stick around for a while but then they just disappear. If they just stopped reading as readers, fine. But for a friend to just vanish and leave me in the dust period sucks, especially when you see them doing other things with your own eyes and you cannot help but feel hurt and discouraged. I did not stop writing fanfiction due to readers; I stopped partically due to these "friends" and I really don't want to see that happen again. I never said I don't have enough support from readers; it's the lack of support from people I used to call friends that is discouraging, especially when you tried to be there and reach out and by the end of the day your pushed to the side. It also sucks that people say that they will stick around and then they don't; if you knew my history you would see why that is a big issue with me. Another reason is because I was putting so much thought, effort, and planning into "If We Hold On Together" that it stressed me out. I had notebooks of ideas, many plans written out, and ideas in my head that were always changing. I would stay up until the early hours of the morning working on it, rereading, editing, and telling myself not to sleep until I got a chapter published or at least finished. I know, I took it too seriously, but when one has a lot of free time and no one to talk to, you should expect a few extremes. Especially with I had been building up to at this point in the fic, I was making sure everything lined up perfectly so it was a perfect, rational buildup to what I had in store. What I'm trying to say is that with all the effort I put into it, I was a bit discouraged that people did not always have the reaction I had in mind. That makes me discouraged as a writer and so I try to make the next one better by doing the same process only to have the same result. Then I would reread and feel discouraged because then I see that I totally missed the mark on what I was aiming for. Needless to say, that makes me feel like crap. However, my biggest reason for discontinuing my fanfiction writing has NOTHING to do with readers, reviews, my writing style, etc. It has to do with ME AND ME ALONE. From January 2011 to January 2013 all I thought about was "If We Hold On Together." Around January 2013, someone helped me check back in to reality. I realized that I had a lot more around me going on than school and fanfiction writing; I kept writing "If We Hold On Together" but it was starting to lose its appeal to me. I realized that it gave me stress, made me feel discouraged, and it was no longer a happy place for me to go to; it became my life and it was slowly turning into a bad one. After spending time with this person who brought me back to earth, I realized that I did not want to be stressed all the time by a FANFICTION! I have enjoyed writing it, but if it makes me miserable then I should not do it. I continued to write until March, then I decided that enough was enough. I was done. I was done being stressed and I wanted to start living my life instead of creating life for two fictional characters. I thought I would be depressed when I made my decision to stop writing, but I was relieved. I saw a window of opportunity in front of me beyond fanfiction. I am really sorry if that me ending the fic has upset readers, but I am happy with my life and I need to start doing what is best for me. Stress and discouragment are not what I want out of life, so I'm not going to put myself in a situation where I know they will find me. Since I have stopped writing fanfiction and stopped stressing about it, I am a lot happier. I do admit that it is my own fault that I let it control my life for as long as I did, but I cannot change anything in the past and I don't think I would if I had the choice. Everything happens for a reason. I MAY start writing again someday, but I cannot make any promises. Maybe if I find a way to not be stressed with it, if I learn not to feel discouraged, and if I ever find the inspiration, then I would consider picking up my fics again. The chances are low, but I believe anything is possible so that low chance can turn into a big chance in the future. I really am sorry about the sudden ending of my fics and I am sorry that I may have said some things that could have been taken the wrong way. Let me just be clear that I am not saying that the support readers have given me is not enough, because it is; I just get my hopes up too high and I get discouraged because I know my writing has not been that great lately in my opinion (and besides God, I am my biggest critic). I do apologize if there was any confusion on this part and for any hurt feelings I may have caused. At least now you know, so if you feel the need to send me a review or message stating how this is unfair on the readers, just try to see it from my point of view. I do appreciate my readers and I am grateful for the support I have given me. Thank you. If you have anything else to say about this, I'll listen but I don't see myself changing my mind on getting back to writing anytime soon. Love Turbo | |||||||
1. If We Hold On Together » reviewsEli and Clare have been dating for nine months. Now they have to go through the ups and downs of life. Passion, love, anger, friendship, fate, heartache, and everything in between. HUGE EClare with drama! DiscontinuedDegrassi - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 145 - Words: 670,344 - Reviews: 1813 - Updated: 3-9-13 - Published: 2-11-11 - Clare E. & Eli G.2. Faith reviewsCollaboration with eclarefanxxx. The morning after Eli's graduation, Clare realizes that he's really leaving for NYU soon . . . and she does not not want to let him go. ECLARE! Intense make-out session included. One-shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,170 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 3-7-13 - Clare E. & Eli G. - Complete3. I Could Get Used to This reviewsClare is sick and Eli is at NYU. Does that stop him from giving her all the love and comfort she needs? Nope. One-shot. EClare. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,898 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 1-25-13 - Clare E. & Eli G. - Complete4. Thoughts of You reviewsAdam's leaving for the Vegas wedding, but he'll be leaving Becky for a while. But she should not worry . . . he's always thinking of her. Poem. One-shot. BECKADAM. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 210 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-13-12 - Adam T. & Becky B. - Complete5. Natalie's Sonnet reviewsIn a single sonnet, Keith says goodbye to Natalie and asks for her to only remember the good times when she thinks of him. Poem written by Keith. Read, review, enjoy!Keith - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 11-4-12 - Keith Z. & Natalie A. - Complete6. Paying Tribute reviewsAfter the Battle of Hogwarts, Luna pays tribute to a boy she barely knew. One-shot. Read, review, enjoy!Harry Potter - Rated: K - English - Tragedy/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 696 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10-30-12 - Luna L. & Colin C. - Complete7. Our Love for Each Other reviewsHe is my heart, the love that is everlasting. I need him more than air, I would give him everything. Eli is graduating and Clare decides to give him something that is important to her. EClare. Poem. Clare's POV. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 295 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 10-23-12 - Clare E. & Eli G. - Complete8. New York Bound reviewsI believe love comes and goes, but true love will survive through it all . . . including my calling to NYU. Poem. EClare. Eli's POV. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 161 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10-22-12 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete9. Torres and DeSousa reviewsAn acrostic poem about Drianca's relationship so far. Poem. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 185 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9-17-12 - Drew & Bianca - Complete10. You'll Be In My Heart » reviewsEli has become a single father due to tragedy and he and his daughter are slowly getting stronger, but they are still broken inside. Will a new person entering their lives make them stronger or will it destroy what they have left? Discontinued.Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Drama/Family - Chapters: 12 - Words: 35,115 - Reviews: 97 - Updated: 9-16-12 - Published: 10-5-11 - Clare E. & Eli G.11. Their Mockingjay reviewsThe people of Panem are desperate for hope and they find it in Katniss Everdeen . . . their mockingjay. Poem. Read, review, enjoy!Hunger Games - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9-7-12 - Katniss E. - Complete12. This Is Home reviewsThroughout his first few months at Degrassi, Campbell Saunders goes through so much until he can finally call Degrassi home. Poem. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 8-29-12 - Campbell S. - Complete13. Love Is Pain » reviewsWhen a happy couple tries to help a lonely friend, so many things could go right, yet so many things can go wrong. What if they end up harming those around them as well as themselves? A Fimogen fic that includes EClare drama. Discontinued.Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 8 - Words: 21,718 - Reviews: 92 - Updated: 8-26-12 - Published: 4-29-12 - Fiona C. & Imogen M.14. The Philosopher's Stone » reviewsWe all know what Harry Potter's first year of Hogwarts was like, but how was it from some other students? A rewrite of Rowling's work with a lot of changes, twists, and turns. Discontinued.Crossover - Harry Potter & Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 4 - Words: 6,764 - Reviews: 14 - Updated: 7-15-12 - Published: 5-26-1215. All In reviewsIt's a stormy night and Clare is afraid of a lot more than the storm. EClare. Fluff and hurt/comfort. One-shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,422 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 7-10-12 - Clare E. & Eli G. - Complete16. In My Daughter's Eyes reviewsSequel to "I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing". Eli is learning to cope with the fact that his five-year-old daughter is writing a valentine to a friend . . . who is a boy. How can he handle his little girl growing up so fast? One-shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K+ - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,064 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 5-30-12 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete17. I'm Holding On reviewsOur dreams are gone all because of that night. I awoke in a hospital, my husband holding my hand to tell me the worst news I could imagine. I'm carrying pain, guilt, and despair and he is there with me to help whenever I need him. One-Shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,107 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 5-29-12 - Clare E. & Eli G. - Complete18. The Day That Saved Us reviewsAfter pains, struggles, and a decade of separation, they meet again. One-Shot. Post-Frostival. Eli's point of view. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,247 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 5-27-12 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete19. Hallelujah reviewsI am giving Eli the best Christmas gift he could ever ask for . . . I just hope he likes it. EClare. One-shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K+ - English - Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,722 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 5-20-12 - Clare E. & Eli G. - Complete20. Some Hearts reviewsWhat happens when a pregnant Clare Goldsworthy confronts her husband about his lack of affection? ECLARE! One-shot! Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,148 - Reviews: 14 - Published: 5-16-12 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete21. Gone Away reviewsEli and Clare are married. She's eight months pregnant and they are ready for life to fall into place. One phone call turns their plans upside down. One-Shot. Includes character death. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,144 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 5-5-12 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete22. Can't Move On reviewsA story of burying the hatchet and rediscovering what was lost. One-shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,019 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 4-18-12 - Clare E. & Eli G. - Complete23. I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing reviewsA family of three. A terror so heartbreaking. Three simple words that can change all doubts and fears. One-shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: T - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,875 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 4-16-12 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete24. My Choice reviewsEllie puts her feelings in a poem. Post "Whisper to a Scream". Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 223 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4-9-12 - Ellie N. - Complete25. Going On To Yale reviewsA parody about the love that Declan and Holly J share even after they break up. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Parody/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 458 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-8-12 - Declan C. & Holly J. S. - Complete26. Teardrops on My Cello reviewsParody about the Zig/Tori/Maya love triangle from Maya's point of view. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Parody/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 395 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 4-5-12 - Maya M. & Zig N. - Complete27. Don't Stop the Shipping reviewsA parody about two ships getting together and staying that way forever! FIMOGEN! ECLARE! Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Parody/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 337 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 4-4-12 - Complete28. Our Road to Forever reviewsA poem about how Eli and Clare can go through everything and anything and still end up together. ECLARE! Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 316 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-12-12 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete29. You, You, You reviewsA poem about the end and knowing when to start over through Eli's eyes. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-9-12 - Eli G. - Complete30. First Love reviewsA poem about Clare's final thoughts and feelings to Eli after they decide to go their separate ways. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-19-11 - Clare E. & Eli G. - Complete31. Harry Potter and the Parodies » reviewsA mixture of parodies I've written for the Harry Potter series. Read, review, enjoy!Harry Potter - Rated: K+ - English - Parody/Humor - Chapters: 21 - Words: 9,024 - Reviews: 30 - Updated: 11-10-11 - Published: 3-19-1032. Speak Now reviewsClare has realized what she has lost and is now determined to let him know how she feels . . . in the middle of his wedding. One-Shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,632 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 11-1-11 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete33. That's the Way It Is reviewsI begin to think about Clare and me and how she's now dating Jake as we drive back from the Martin's cabin. After reaching a conclusion about Clare and Jake's relationship, I have something to say to him. Not for Clare/Jake fans. One-shot. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,225 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 10-28-11 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete34. Lord of the Parodies » reviewsParodies of Lord of the Rings characters and their adventures. Read, review, enjoy!Lord of the Rings - Rated: K+ - English - Parody - Chapters: 8 - Words: 2,812 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 6-29-11 - Published: 5-17-1035. My Immortal reviewsSummary inside. Basically what I want to happen after I saw the new promo for Degrassi: Now or Never. Read, review, enjoy!Degrassi - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,904 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 5-31-11 - Eli G. & Clare E. - Complete36. CSI: Parodies » reviewsFor those who love parodies and CSI: Miami, this is definetly something to check out. More will be added over time. No particular order, so feel free to skip around! Read, review, enjoy!CSI: Miami - Rated: T - English - Parody - Chapters: 10 - Words: 4,014 - Reviews: 20 - Updated: 3-20-11 - Published: 5-8-1037. The Ultimate Twilight Debate: Miami Style reviewsThe title says it all. For Twihearts and Twihaters! Read, review, enjoy!CSI: Miami - Rated: K+ - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,551 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 1-11-11 - Ryan W. - Complete38. In the End reviewsA poem of the characters of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Read, review, enjoy!Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 174 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4-24-10 - Complete39. Dumbledore's Gay Quatrain reviewsA quatrain about Dumbledore being gay. Not really orginal, but still pretty funny! Please read and review!Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Humor/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 146 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 4-8-10 - Albus D. - Complete40. What Happened to Henry? reviewsA poem of Henry and his evilness. Read, review, enjoy!Good Son - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 208 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-1-10 - Complete41. Oh Baudelaires reviewsJust a short poem about the lives of the Baudelaires. Read, review, enjoy!Series Of Unfortunate Events - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 135 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-16-10 - Complete42. The 7 Things Frodo Hates About the Ring reviewsA parody about Frodo's mixed feelings about the Ring. Read, review, enjoy!Lord of the Rings - Rated: K+ - English - Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 419 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 3-13-10 - Frodo B. - Complete
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