"Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructable as we believe ourselves to be. ... We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail." -John green

12/3/12 Update: I'm back !! I have taken a bit of a hiatus (if you can call two years that) and I'm geared now more than ever to post regularly. A new chapter of Lullaby has been released as well as a title change to 'lost' i will do some things other than narusasu probably but it will stay the yaoiness we all know and love. missed you all

ello. welcome to my world. It has a high concentration on narusasu yaoi-ness as well as a few drabbles that fall out of my demented brain. I'm so happy to see have you here on my page and in my mind. I dont beta everything and use a lot of occ. Enjoy !!

On with the ramblies,

Name:my name is quite lovely but you can call me H or HH

age: i am the fun fun age of 20

location: i am proudly from america (and to any of you who want to troll about america im not some redneck hick. i just happened to have been born in this country and if your on my page then we already have something in common)

gender: i don't know why people need to know this but whatever i'm a girl. i don't know to many guys who would let it out on the internet that they have such an unhealthy obsession with sasunaru butt sex

sexuality: so though i write about guy on guy i'm straight. i have had the occasional heated kiss with a girl, but honestly your life is not complete until you have.

favorite couples: (sorry there are only a few but i really only watch and follow Naruto anymore. message me if you've read a good one that you think i should check out)

Naruto:

kakairu (even though im more obsessed with narusasu kakashi and iruka are my one true yaoi loves)

narusasu (i cant hardly stand to have naruto with someone else it just seems wrong i even did a gaara naru and i felt bad writting it)

gaaraneji (when i do a school one this is narusasu gay friends to hang with)

kibahina(even though they aren't yaoi they are so cute i dont think ill put any in here if i write one ill stick it in my quizilla but come on how could you not love that)

nejishika

sasushika

narugaara (only other person i can bear to see naruto with but even that depends on the story type)

izukot? (the reason for the ? is i think they are very cute together but writting them as yaoi makes me feel like I'm dirtying there pure friendship)

there's probably more but that's all I can come up with for now

GirlGotGame (aka Power):

EniYura (I know it's not Naruto but yura is so hot I figured I'd throw that in)

least favorite couples:

itatchisasu (i know they are both hot but really what is the obsession with incest)

anything with kiba gay (i just dont see him gay)

shino (i dont like him personally he creeps me out with the bugs)

sasusaku or narusaku (sasuke and naruto are ment for eachother not that pink haired bimbo!! this is my number one hated pairing)

well that's about everything I feel is important right now. Um my grammer is not the best out there so sorry in advace for any troubles. A universal disclaimer my stories are all M for some reason or another. Pay Attention to them and I don't own any of the lovely characters just the stories I put them in.

Love ya

please feel free to message and rate and send me any topics you want me to tackle.

You know you’re a SasuNaru fan when:

1)You think about SasuNaru 24/7;

2)You dream about SasuNaru all the time;

3)You try to throw stuff at Sakura, when she try’s to ask Sasuke out;(if it wasn't for how sad Naruto would be I wish the little bitch would just die...or hook up with sai and get out of everyones way)

4)You squeal whenever you watch episode 202 and see that the number one favorite fight was between ur two favorite bishounen;

5)You almost fainted when Sasuke leaned over Naruto after the Valley of End…uh ended;

6)You go aww whenever Sasuke and Naruto have another one of their lover’s quarrels;(soooo cute)

7)You hate having to wait for the fillers to be over;

8)You pray with a little hope that Masashi Kishimoto would add some more SasuNaru hints in the timeskip;(or just get over it and let them officialy fuck)

9)Everyday u sit at the computer hoping that an idea for an great SasuNaru story would hit u soon;(I have an app to work on it when I'm out and get one)

10)You think that people that like couples such as SasuSaku and some others that are not SasuNaru XP should all go to the most horrible place in the world, hell for example;(except kakaruka!!)

11)You know that one day SasuNaru would rule the world!;(really narusasu but if they are havoc sex thts all that matters)

12)You love reading this reader’s profile (lol..);

13)You pray that somehow and someway Sakura would die somewhere along the timeskip;

14)You get mad every time Hinata trys to make a move on Naruto (does anyone else see kibahina awe)

15)You wait for SasuxNaruislove to post new doujinshi’s;

16)You search deviantart more for SasuNaru then any other thing;(honestly I think it's the only thing I search for)

17)You decide that typing this up would help people understand why you love SasuNaru(narusasu) so much;

18)Your favorite colors are blue and orange;

19)You feel like you wanna punch Sakura for even thinking about the word Sasuke;(I wanna punch myself for even thinking sakura and sasuke in the same sentence)

20)You just wanna go and hug the little adorable Naru-chan and tell him he and Sasuke are so kawaii together;

21)SasuNaru is your Anti-drug;

22)You talk about it all the time and ur friends have no idea what SasuNaru is; (haha actually I keep it private cause I have uber straight laced friends)

23)You once tried to start a club at school; (I was in one once)

24)Whenever you hear the word “sauce” you add a “sue nah roo” to the end and then shout ;(oh my fucking god I did that once at the grocery store once... people staired)

25)You almost break ur computer after watching the episode where Sakura “touches” Sasuke to calm him down after using the Sharingan with the cursed mark; (don't touch him EVER why's worse is when she comes on to poor naru)

26)You were just about to explode when Sasuke left Naruto alone at the Valley of End ;(sad sad I swear I thought they were going to kiss)

27)You cried at the flashbacks they played while at the Valley of End ;

28)You like reading this long list and find it mildly amusing;

29)You have written 5 or more stories about them (ha! It be a shock if I wrote that few in one day, though I obviously don't post them all)

30)You ignore other pairings and focus more on the “obsession”;(I must apologize narusasu is my current obsession but alas kakaruka is my otp)

31)You put 20 or more pictures on ur ipod for later purposes (*looks away embarassed*)

32)You try to convince some of ur close friends to like it; (fail)

33)You wonder what ur mom and dad would say if they found out what “it” was;(massive password locks lol)

34)You sigh as this list ends;

35)You were also screaming at Konohamuru in chapter 347 (page 10) and You were awwing when Naruto dispelled the jutsu;

36)You replayed the credits ending to Shippuuden 65 over and over until your fingers cramped...then kept going anyway

added content by yours truley

Copy and paste this into your profile if when you were young...

There were only 150 Pokemon.(I used to pick my pokemom cards by which pokemom were cutest) Digimon was popular.(...changed into digital monsters to save the didital world !!digimon, digital monsters . digimon are the champions! that show was the beast me and my brother still bust that song out on occasion) Yugi-Oh actually had Yugi in it. (who the hell is that brown haired kid) You didn't get weird looks when you went Trick-or-Treating. Nobody cared what you looked like. Hamtaro ROCKED. Catching a pidgeon was cool. Pirates before Pirates of the Carribean. Nobody knew how to spell 'Volcano'. Pinky and the brain were cartoon characters, not body parts.(narf) Saying 'moron' was a swear word.(and pissed) Fire was considered dangerous. The only thing you had to worry about were cooties.(not me i had a cootie shot haha) Cursive writing was just a bunch of swirly lines. Multiplication was scary. Dora the Explorer and that goddamned monkey who follows her EVERYWHERE didn't exist. (but telitubies and sesame street rulled!!) The first Harry Potter was the coolest thing since sliced bread. (i snuck to my neighbors house cause my mom wouldn't let me watch it) If you were, copy and paste then write your name. Catemonster, Angel Dumott Schunard Collins, Palinana, Kaz-za-15, Taijiya Mizu, DarkBombayAngel, Schizzar, Ruka-x3, hoplesslyhopeful

I recently took this ukeseme quizhttp://semeuke.com/quiz.php so here is the answers I got the three times I took it (always take quizes three times and average an answer)

CHIBI SEME:

Mischievous, loyal, and intelligent, the Chibi Seme always seems to have a quiet energy whispering around them, suggesting that there is much more to them then what there first appears to be. Laid-back, and not one to call a lot of attention to themselves, they tend to guard their creative, forceful, (and somewhat manipulative) inner self behind an easygoing and playful exterior shell, which makes it impossible for most to truly know them. It takes a special Uke personality to see into the Chibi Seme's deep hidden self and release their sensual side, but once the Chibi Seme has let in that one special person, they will be forever loyal, loving, and protective. A Chibi Seme will never be completely happy with just the ordinary. Setting themselves somewhat apart from the rest of the world, they need someone like-minded to keep them challenged intellectually and spiritually - a partner to inspire their dark naughty adventures and give them the motivation to take control.

BADASS UKE:

Sensual, rebellious, and intuitive, the Badass Uke can truly be a work of contrasts - an innocent appearance clothed in dark clothing, and a shy smile with eyes that suggest a naughty, darker nature. They are at once easy and hard to approach, as their energy draws people to them, while their intensity and distrust pushes people away... for maybe more than any other personality, the Badass Uke hides away deep in a fantasy world of their own creation, letting few, if any, in. Searching for the one person able to understand their need for something more, someone to protect them and share that mysterious world with them, the Badass Uke can seem lost and wandering, their loneliness sometimes reflecting an inner anger - as they cannot be content until they have been found and claimed, sensually and emotionally.

INOCENT UKE:

Creative, sweet, and shy, theInnocentUke dreams of a peaceful life with the perfect partner - someone to protect them, and lavish them with romantic affection. Artistic and gentle in manner and appearance, the Innocent Uke avoids conflict and decision-making, content in placing their complete trust and happiness in their partner's hands - for all they really desire is to surround themselves with the soft and fluffy fantasy world they've created for themselves. Other common traits of the Innocent Uke include being: thoughtful, trusting, insecure, sensitive, romantic, and loyal.

Weird Inspiration:

so i got inspired at the craziest time. i was at work and which will remain nameless because i dont want to deal with the retardednesd but its a grocery store and is possibly the most boring job I've ever had (and i filed for a whole summer).any-whos i wasattemptingnot to die of boredom or creep out the yummy guy two registers down who i was fucking staring at all night i saw a customer walk by in this bright ass orange shirt that said "im not lucky im just that good" and had a picture of lips on it. at first i was thought, "really you thought that shirt was a good idea" since the guy had kids with kids my age but upon further inspection i realized that the shirt screamed Naruto! especially with the new player attitude i gave him i the story i was writting at the time. so there you go that was one of the most bizarre inspirations ;p

MyLove:

this is irrelivant but here is a link toy personaly favorite organization (just so we are clear I am not telling you to donate to them, but check them out of your own free will) http://www.invisiblechildren.com/home.php

YOU KNOW YOU'RE AN AUTHOR IF...

You talk to yourself a lot. (i saw a family video once and realized i did it on film)

You talk to yourself about talking to yourself.

When you talk to yourself you often talk to yourself like you're talking to someone else. (ha i do that at work im sure people think im crazy, cause i do it loudly)

After uttering a profound piece of wisdom like that above, you stare at the cookie in your hand with awe and say, "Wow,this stuff is great for sugar highs...'

You live off of sugar and caffeine. (i learned to make fresh ground coffee before i could even reach the cabinet, my dad built me a small counter so i could do it on my own)

You'll check your e-mail every day of the week and then disappear off the face of the earth.

You're e-mails tend to be pages long and incredibly random.

When replying to an e-mail, you'll never actually address the point of it. (my ex used to yell at me for doing that...)

No matter where you are in a room you never have to get up to find a pen/pencil and paper.

The letters on your keyboard are wearing off.

You constantly start talking in third person, present or past tense.

You start thinking about making lists like this and start giggling for no "apparent" reason (i also laugh at things that happened in the past at the most inappropriate times)

Your friends stopped looking at you funny for no apparent reason a loooooong time ago.

You have strange nicknames and can tell a detailed story about how you got them.

(copy that into you're profile if you fit one or more of the descriptions)

Thoughts on Gay Marriage:

1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, liposuction and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans...

Copy and repaste if you think homophobia us wrong

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. ( i firmly believe my younger brother is gay but is being forced to pretend hes not because of the worlds standers and rejections) We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman. I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men. I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind. I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

"I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? Yaeh and I awlyas toghuht slpeling was ipmorantt! tahts so cool!"

wow that's alot of writing for a summary. Oh well I'm just not summarized easily I rekin. Hope you all enjoy my stories.

-HH