Author has written 5 stories for Touhou Project.

10/29/11 Haven't updated in a while, so yeah. Basically, I'm doing NaNoWriMo this year. I don't expect my writing to go anywhere, but it'll be a fun way to spend a month. Oh, also, I've loosened up a lot. Life got less stressful, so expect something more in the tone of Burning Obsession, but hopefully with better quality. 10-12-10

A Note to All Readers

What separates an author from a writer?

A writer is, just as the word says, somebody who writes. It could be grocery lists, party invitations, memoirs... Whatever. They put words on a page, or some other medium.

An author, on the other hand, is, as Stalin said, an "engineer of the soul" (Or something like that...). They can use words skilfully, like a painter at his canvas.

Yes, I'm trying to be that way. Trying to sound overly complicated, like an angsty high schooler. For one simple and very good reason.

I'm burned out, and I didn't have any fuel to start with. I started writing towards the end of last school year as an escape, a way to vent the frustrations of life into a story. I would come home and work on the story piecemeal, caring only about relieving the frustrations of the day, rather than the quality of my work, and it showed. My story, Burning Obsession, my once beloved child, is now a sort of unwanted thing, a bastard child that I want to get rid of, but I know that my other children are no better. I've always tried to tell myself that it was perfectly fine that I wasn't exactly a very skilled writer. Everyone goes through that phase, the crawling phase, the time where you screw up every other note you try to play.

Yeah, everyone does. But how many musicians try and have a concert when they can barely play an instrument? How many authors publish their middle school essays and high school scribbles?

I'm not saying that I can't write, or that I shouldn't, I'm merely saying that it's about time I took another break. I need to relax, I need to grow, and I need to develop my writing style. I have a lot of things to learn, such as proper characterization, sentence flow, proper word choice...

I'm young, and I have a lot to learn. To continue writing now, in a futile attempt to maintain my pace...

I don't want to bloody my head against a wall when I can simply work hard and train myself.

Also, there's another thing besides the quality of my work.

I'm letting my imagined importance consume me. I worry over writing the next chapter, or where the story is headed. It eats up my thoughts, distracting me from my work. I can't keep going on like this, and this hiatus will be a nice way to clear my head of one more distraction.

I don't know if I'll ever finish the current stories. I probably will finish RSA, or at least the current segment, but... Why would a painter go back and finish his first painting? Wouldn't the two different levels of painting clash horribly?

When I return, or at least when I return in full force (For I might want to post a short story up here every now and then), I hope that I emerge as a better writer, an author.

"I'm tired of this. Later, guys."

~Remilia Scarlet, Labyrinth of Touhou