I’ve probably remade this profile about 50 gazillions times because none of them seemed genuine, or me enough, just something I’d settle for. Sooo…

Let’s try this again.

My name is Dynastie, I am 16, African American, and Bi. I love miniskirts, normal sized skirts, long skirts…I just, LOVE skirts. I hate floral patterns, but I love plaid. I also love argyle (in the winter). My favorite fabrics are Lace and Leather and this is starting to sound like a fashion column, but honestly up until a few months ago (Say, February 2012) I couldn’t have cared less what I wore, I just let my mom dress me in whatever she thought was cute. (Thankfully she didn’t like anything too terrible) I JUST gained my style and so it’s important to me now. On that note, I also want high-tops badly and crop tops as well, not to be a skut (Skank A slut) But because I just like them. Not like I have much to show off anyways.

Ok, Now. Let’s talk about sex ;)

No?

Ok.

Let’s talk about me instead then…. I have Social Anxiety disorder, On and off Depression and am currently suffering from the anxiety severely. I don’t have any friends where I live but have made a few online, that I now text. It’s sort of hard on me, but I survive with a bucket load of tears.

My tears save me..

So I don’t care if they make me WEAK. They keep me ALIVE. Crying is a form of release for me, it’s like self-harm, without the pain. Unless you count stinging red eyes as pain..

I’m use to it :D.

My other form of release is of course, writing. WRITING is another factor that has kept me from doing the unthinkable S word. No not sex. The other one. In fact Fanfiction.net is special to me because some people on here, seriously convinced me to live, at my lowest points, though I won’t put names cuz that’s sort of embarrassing to them, no? If they ask me to, I will!

I love the show Victorious, I tend to become attached to people easily, I LOVE cheese, anything cheese and I will LOVE it, and I’m also very insecure about myself in every aspect of life. Appearance, ability, etc.

Although this is true, my good quality is that I am caring. I think that IS in fact my only good one. I just love people.

All people.

I don’t care if you’re gay, bi, straight, trans, disabled, filthy rich, or poor, atheist, or Christian, Muslim, Asian, White, Indian, A stoner, an Alcoholic, emo, Prep, punk. Heck, I don’t care if you’re screwing your cousin, I’d still care for you deeply and if needed, be there for you.

I like to describe myself as a newborn baby or puppy. I’ll whimper at the slightest kick or cry at the slightest bit of neglect but be Loyal to you ‘til the day I die.

I’m an open book and if you have ANY questions, Pm me them. I won’t hesitate to answer and will welcome questions with open arms.

If you need a free online therapist you can count on me there too ;0. I mean, I may not be as good but free is free and I’m a good listener, haha!

Ok..Enough about me. Onto my inspirations.
Feel free to click off here, i'm sure its gonna get boring as _.

Literature : Andre Gibson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Clm8w8_eOnc
Her brilliance simply cannot be explained..but only heard through the human ear. Just listen, and a part of your life will be changed forever. I can quote something from her that will continue to touch my heart, everyday, however.

"My mother says most people have heartbeats that are knocking on doors that will never open, and I know my heart is a broken freezer chest ‘cause I can never keep anything frozen."So no, I am not “always crying.” I am just thawing outside of the lines. and even if I am “always crying” it is a fact
that salt is the only reason everything floats so good in the dead sea" ... It explains how I feel, to the point whenever someone calls me a 'crybaby' or something along those lines.

Musically : Tegan and Sara http://www.youtube.com/teganandsaravevo
Though all of their music may not relate to me personally, I ALWAYS feel connected to every song they sing. They just have the ability to do that to me, and many others. What I admire about them other then their pure raw talent is their relationship with each other. A sisterhood so strong always makes me want to cry. They support each other and have something a girl like me could only wish for. Listen to them, you won't regret it.

Other people I love are, The whole cast of Victorious, Demi Lovato, Justin Beiber, (As A human, not a singer) the nice people who deliver be chinese food, Comfort (A dancer from SYTYCD), Jennette Mccurdy, Mary J Blidge.

Things I want. (In order of how bad I want it)
1. A true friend, that I know in real life. Just one, atleast. (Or maybe, I NEED that)
2. True Love, or just a boyfriend or girlfriend that cares.
3. To feel worth it, one day.
4. Laser strecth mark removal, and then another Lasery therapy for something else.
5. Better looks.
6. A better, less shallow number 5.
7. Hope
8. More stamina
9. A way to forget the past.
10. An education.

Things That Irritate Me

I've noticed a lot of things irritate me. I never let my irritation turn into anger, and I usually keep it inside. But now I need to vent. Don't like it? Then here *Gives a cookie* That will make up for it.

Number one thing that irritates me? Politics. It's everywhere. My god. I don't give a fuck. Maybe it's because I cant vote yet, but I doubt it. Even when this shit will start to affect me, i wont. It doesn't make a difference. Every president will be fucking terrible in every opposite side's opinion. My opinion? Whoever wins needs to get a new bunny, not a dog. Those bastards. Thinking they're amazing and shit. Bunnies are just as good, okay?

I hate when girls sneer at me when I say I like pink, as if them declaring their dislike for pink makes them anymore tough as human beings, and as females. It fucking doesn't. You are still as weak/strong and fragile/tough as you were before making that ugly snarl you just did. You're welcome.

I hate when people don't believe in mental disorders and there they are driving around in their fancy cars with their millions of friends, not a care in the world. No. If you're like that, stay the fuck away from me. I like rich people, just not ones with their heads stuck in their asses so far that they think everything about life is wonderful if you just 'do this' or 'do that' No. Screw you.

I hate when people think I'm mean or stupid for hating these things. (It hasn't happened yet, but im sure it will O: )

I hate YouTube fights. So ignorant. Get a life. If you actually have a valid point, it's not going to get through on there so just be the bigger (Yes fatter :P ) person and just fuck it.

I hate when people hate girls because they're pretty. I think im hella ugly, and I CRY when i see other beautiful girls, (Only sometimes) but I would still smile genuinely and be their friends if they're kind (if I ever got the chance..hasn't happened yet) . I'm not a bitch. I don't let my envy rule me, I wont be mean to a person because they got blessed with something I feel i didn't. How fucked up is that?

I hate how people think only the insecure people make fun of someone pretty. (I don't, I was just using that as a example! :P )

I hate how I cant cuss in real life no matter how hard I try...it ends up sounding like a little girl trying it out for the first time. But with less 'uumph. -.-' ...my only outlet is writing it down. Then it seems cool. Fuck my life.

I hate when people say 'they're so bipolar' okay, albeit, they are just joking and don't know the seriousness of the matter..But it still irritates me when they say it over and over again not knowing how severe of a thing it is and how many people are suffering from it.

I hate deadbeat dads. I have one. No fun. I love him though *.* has too..

I hate my period..

I hate how many people just squirmed when I said period. PERIOD.

I hate how my mom and dad think I'm an anorexic. CANDY MAKES YOU GAIN WEIGHT TOO DAMN IT. I'M EATING. -.-

I hate how much I don't understand myself, and how it sometimes translates into me being a hypocrite because I don't quite know what I like, and sometimes what I hate changes day by day. I'm not a liar. I'm a changer. It's irritating as fuck. But im finding myself. Give it some time.