"he couldИt believe how easy it was

he put the guИ iИto his face
baИg!
so much blood for such a tiИy little hole
problems do have solutioИs, you kИow
a lifetime of fuckiИg thiИgs up, fixed
iИ oИe determiИed flash
everythiИg's blue
everythiИg's blue iИ this world
a deepest shade of mushroom blue
all fuzzy
spilliИg out of my head"

Greetings. My name is Joseph. I am a fifteen year old male author from the United States; in particular, New York (where God can't decide what weather we need). I am not limited to writing fanfiction, though I tend to catch myself writing them more than OCs, though I write quite a few of those as well. You may know me from the Wikia network (and as a general annoyance on the MangaFox forums), whereas I was once an administrator on Creepypasta wiki and now remain a normal user. I have many favorite authors on this site or otherwise, but in truth, the vast majority of my inspiration mainly derives from the music I listen to. I consider musicality a large part of my life, and the largest reason I decide to keep moving forward in being an author (and life in general...) is because of the sheer power of music. I have a large interest in anime, manga, and cartoons I am probably too old to be watching nowadays.

I have bipolar disorder, so if I seem a bit moody or "pissy" at times, please note that I do not mean to offend anyone (and no, I am not using my disorder as an excuse for sympathy, unlike a certain person I know). Usually, though, I'm a quiet but still fun-loving guy, and I can guarantee we will get along for the main part.

Music: Obviously, I love music. I could probably list a full amount of bands off of the tip of my tongue that I love in five seconds, but to stick to the basics, my favorite bands are as follows: Nine Inch Nails, Tool, Electric Wizard, Nirvana, Alice in Chains - and again, many more I could list but would just waste your time in doing so.

Stuff I like and will likely write or am writing for: Saki (Koromo Amae is my love - I don't care what anyone says), Invader Zim, Courage the Cowardly Dog, One Piece, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, Ren and Stimpy, Tremors, The Outsiders, The Warriors, Ed Ed n' Eddy, Bleach, Naruto (sometimes), My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (spare me please), early Spongebob Squarepants, Cthulhu Mythos, Lord of the Rings, Total Drama series, Fairly OddParents, The Godfather, The Oblongs, Stephen King's stuff, Kafka's stuff, The Keys to the Kingdom, Something Wicked This Way Comes, The Matrix, Resident Evil, Black Butler, Hellsing, Edgar Allan Poe's writings, Most of Disney's stuff, Hungry Joker, Soul Eater, The Demonata, etc.

Favorite authors: H.P. "Harry Potter" Lovecraft, Stephen King, Eiichiro Oda, Ritz Koboyashi, J.R.R Tolkien, Franz Kafka, Edgar Allan Poe, Darren Shan, SlimeBeast (excellent Creepypasta author)

Favorite all time professional writer stories: The Thing on the Doorstep (H.P. Lovecraft), 'Salem's Lot (Stephen King), The Judgment (Franz Kafka), The Murders in the Rue Morgue (Edgar Allan Poe), The Lord of the Rings (J.R.R Tolkien)

Favorite all time fanfictions: I.E.A.B (Invader Zim fanfiction by CrazyMonkeyFox - it has since been down since I last read it in 2007-08, sadly as it one of the best novels I have ever had the pleasure of reading), The Mirage That Refuses to Disappear (Saki fanfiction by Grand Phoenix), My Immortal (Harry Potter fanfiction by Tara Gilesbie - simply one of the greatest for it's "so bad it's good" factor), When Worlds Collide (Total Drama fanfiction)

Favorite all time character(s): Koromo Amae from Saki (my love/anime crush and a wonderfully developed character to write about; I could go on all day about how awesome she is but I won't for the sake of your time), Sonny Corleone from The Godfather (just because he's FUCKIN' SONNY!)

Extra notice: Any discussion or slightest mention of the book 50 Shades of Grey at all affiliated on my Fanfiction.net page, on reviews of my stories or otherwise, will be fined a 500$ lawsuit by the Federal Bureau of Investigation directly to that person's bank account. In addition, a mobster goon hired by yours truly will hunt you down and assassinate you mercilessly. You have been warned. :3

Stories upcoming:

The Downward Spiral: A Saki fanfic. Based on the Nine Inch Nails album of the same name. Teru Miyanaga's fame and hatred of her peers, family, and past begins to flush her life down the drain. Alone and angry, the mahjong demon's life begins to spiral downwards...and you could have it all, her empire of dirt.

The Inferno Games: A crossover fanfic. One person from a handful of universes are unwillingly chosen to participate in a deadly game hosted by a mysterious man named Mr. Loss. Why have they been brought here, and what challenges will they face? Supernatural/Adventure

Bewitched: A Saki alternate universe fanfiction. Takes place during the Salem Witch Trials of 1692-93. Two friends, Koromo Amae and Miyanaga Saki, are accused of witchcraft during the Salem Witch Trials of the 1600s, as a result of their inhumane abilities. In an effort to save them, the friends of the two girls go out of their way to rescue them from impending death at the hands of the witch hunters. Friendship/Supernatural

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working on the corner because no one will hire a transsexual women.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother's hand through the pain, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let in my 27 partner into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the most loving family I ever had; I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for 3 weeks, and in another year, I'll be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks after graduating high school. It was simply too much to bare.
We are the couple who have the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom to go into so no one will call management.
I am the mother not allowed to see her children that I gave birth to, nursed and raised because the court says I'm an unfit mother since I live with another women.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who suddenly had the support system go cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner was also a women.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who had no support because I am a male.
I am the father who never hugged his own son in fear of showing affection for another male.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me when they realized I was a transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped going to church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their door on my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what the world needs, love.
I am the person who is afraid to tell his Christian parents that he loves another male

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"We have been brought up to experience ourselves as isolated centers of awareness and action, placed in a world that is not us, that is foreign, alien, other, which we confront, where as in fact the way an ecologist describes human behavior is as an action what you do is what the whole universe is doing at the place you call here and now. You are something the whole universe is doing in the same way that a wave is something that the whole ocean is doing. Now, this is not what you might call a fatalistic or deterministic idea. You see, you might be a fatalist if you think you are a sort of puppet which life pushes around, and you are seperate from life. That's fatalism." - Alan Watts, The Tao of Philosophy

"Others may hate you. Those who hate you don't win. Unless you hate them...then, you destroy yourself." - Richard M. Nixon

"There's no love in fear.

Staring down the hole again.
Hands are on my back again.
Survival is my only friend.
Terrified of what may come.

Remember I will always love you,
As I claw your fucking throat away.
It will end no other way.
It will end no other way."

- Pushit, Tool