I am studying to become a writer.

I am eighteen years old.

I have Asperger's Syndrome.

At the moment my favourite tv shows are:

1. Grimm

2. Yu-Gi-Oh (GX, 5D and original)

3. Merlin

4. Young Dracula (vampires, need I say more)

5. The Big Bang Theory

Favourite Books:

I am an avid reader so this is hard to say. I do really love Kelly Armstrong's books and the Angel Fever Triology.

I have studied AS English Lang & Lit, AS Media Studies, Journalism,A2 English Language and Literature, A2 Media Studies and Creative Writing at New College.

I am studying Home Cooking, Volunteering, AS Sociology and AS General Studies at New College.

I love to read fantasy, especially dark fantasy. I just love to read.

I am female.

I'm a Gothic Alchemist.

I can't read facial expressions or body language very well. When a neuro-typicals do this, we Aspies call this mind reading.

I have an obsessive nature, as well as an addictive personality.

I compare humans to animals in order to better understand and communicate with them.

Do NOT ask me for my real name. I am very cautious about internet safety.

I know more things about mythological creatures than I do about real life.

I'm a Wicca (which is a type of neo-pagan, it is where witchcraft originates, I don't agree with curses and hexes though so don't worry... too much)

I am editing my first book right now. This is the one I want to get published.

I am making a second book for the series that will join my first.

I am writing another book to make another series.

I want to walk from my home in Swindon to London, where I will find a publisher. The walk will be done to raise money for make a wish foundation.

I have body dismorphia.

I suffer from Emotional Outbursts. (Not like the anger outbursts most people see. This is a diagnosed condition.)

I hate music that has little meaning in life and the singing is bad.

If I think that band is good at singing and thier songs have good meaning, then they will be granted my attention and respect as musicians, (sorry One Direction).

I love music that has good lyric and good players for the instruments.

I love rock music.

I love music with meaning.

Top Ten Songs:

This is War (Thrity Seconds to Mars)

If I Die Young (The Band Perry)

Wavin' Flag (K'Naan)

If Today Was Your Last Day (Nickelback)

Lullaby (Nickelback)

If Everyone Cared (Nickelback)

Never Again (Nickelback)

Side of a Bullet (Nickelback)

Trying Not to Love You (Nickelback)

Invisible (Skylar Grey)

Song Lyrics:

This is War

A warning to the people
The good and the evil

This is war

To the soldier, the civillian
The martyr, the victim

This is war

It's the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world from the last to the first

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world

A warning to the prophet
To the liar, to the honest

This is war

To the leader, to the pariah, the victim, the Messiah

This Is War

It's the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world from the last to the first

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world

I do believe in the light
Raise your hands into the sky
The fight is done
The war is won
Lift your hands toward the sun
Toward the sun, toward the sun, toward the sun
The war is won

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world from the last to the first

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world

A brave new world, the war is won, the war is won, a brave new world

If I Die Young

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Oh oh Oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time
And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I've never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There's a boy here in town says he'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Oh oh

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need them oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

Wavin' Flag

When I get older
I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a wavin flag(x2)

And then it goes back (x3)
Oh

Born to a throne
Stronger than rome
But violent prone
Poor people zone
But it's my home
All I have known
Where I got grown
Streets we would roam

Out of the darkness
I came the farthest
Among the hardest (survival)
Learn form these streets
It can be bleek
Accept no defeat
Surrender, retreat

(So we strugglin')
Fighting to eat
(And we wonderin')
When we'll be free
So we patiently wait
For that faithful day
It's not far away
But for now we say

When I get older
I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a waving flag
(And then it goes back x3)

Ahhho ahhho ahhho

So many wars, settling scores
Bringin' us promises leaving us poor
I heard them say love is the way
Love is the answer that's what they say
But look how they treat us
Make us believers
We fight there battes
Then they deceive us
Try to control us
They couldn't hold us
Cause we just move forward
Just like buffalo soldiers
(But we strugglin)
Fighting to eat
(And we wonderingg)
When we'll be free
So we patiently wait
For that faithfully day
It's not far away

But for now we say
When I get older
I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a wavin' flag
(And then it goes back (3x)

And then it goes
When I get older
I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just
Like a wavin' flag
(And then it goes back (3x)
Ahhhooo ahhhoooo ahhhooo

And then it goes

And than everybody will be singing it
And you and I will be singing it
And we all will be singing it
Woah woah woah

When I get older
I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a wavin' flag
(And then it goes back (3x)

And then it goes
When I get older
I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom
Just like a wavin' flag
(And then it goes back (3x)
A oh a oh a oh

When I get older
When I get older
I will be stronger

Just like a wavin' flag (3x)
Flag(x2)
Just like a wavin' flag

If Today Was Your Last Day

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each days a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned
Leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
If tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have
If today was your last day

Going against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts cause there's no second try
So live it like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your whole life
If today was your last day
If tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have
And would you call old friends you never see
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies
And would you find that one your dreaming of
Swear up and down to god above
That you'll finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark
On ending a broken heart
You know it's never too late
To shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
Cause you can't rewind
A moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
Cause the hands of time
Are never on your side

If today was your last day
If tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have
And would you call old friends you never see
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies
And would you find that one your dreaming of
Swear up and down to god above
That you'll finally fall in love
If today was your last day

Lullaby

Well I know the feeling
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge
And there ain't no healing
From cutting yourself with the jagged edge

I'm telling you that
It's never that bad
And taking that something is where at
Lay down on the floor
And your not sure
You can take this anymore

So just give it one more try
To a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And you can't tell
I'm scared as hell
Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Please let me take you
Out of the darkness and into the light
Cause I have faith in you
That you're gonna make it through another night
Stop thinking about
The easy way out
There's no need to go and blow the candle out
Because you're not done
You're far too young
And the best is yet to come

So just give it one more try
To a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And you can't tell
I'm scared as hell
Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

Well everybody's hit the bottom
And everybody's been forgotten
When everybody's tired of being alone
Yeah everybody's been abandoned
And left a little empty handed
So if you're out there barely hanging on

Just give it one more try
To a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reaching out
To let you know that you're not alone
And you can't tell
I'm scared as hell
Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

Well honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby

If Everyone Cared

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars with satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing A-Amen, I, I'm alive (I'm alive)
Singing A-Amen, I, I'm alive

[Chorus]
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day, when nobody died

And I'm singing
A, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
Would show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing A-Amen, I, I'm alive (I'm alive)
Singing A-Amen, I, I'm alive

[Chorus x2]
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day, when nobody died
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day, when nobody die ahha ahha ahhh ahd...

When nobody die ahha ahha ahhh ahd...

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

[Chorus x2]
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day, when nobody died

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day, when nobody die ahha ahha ahhh ahd...

We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody die ahha ahha ahhhh ahd...
We'd see the day, we'd see the day,
When nobody die ahha ahha ahhhh ahd...
We'd see the day (died) when nobody died

Never Again

He's drunk again, it's time to fight
She must have done something wrong tonight
The living room becomes a boxing ring
It's time to run when you see him
Clenching his hands
She's just a woman
Never Again

I hear her scream, from down the hall
Amazing she can even talk at all
She cries to me, Go back to bed
I'm terrified, That she'll wind up dead
In his hands, She's just a woman
Never Again

Been there before, but not like this
Seen it before, but not like this
Never before have I
Ever seen it this bad
She's just a woman
Never Again

Just tell the nurse, you slipped and fell
It starts to sting as it starts to swell
She looks at you, she wants the truth
It's right out there in the waiting room
With those hands
Lookin just as sweet as he can
Never Again
Seen it before, but not like this
Been there before, but not like this
Never before have I
Ever seen it this bad
She's just a woman
Never Again

Father's a name you haven't earned yet
You're just a child with a temper
Haven't you heard "Don't hit a lady"?
Kickin' your ass would be a pleasure

He's drunk again, it's time to fight
Same old shit, just on a different night
She grabs the gun, she's had enough
Tonight she'll find out how fuckin'
Tough is this man
Pulls the trigger fast as she can
Never Again

Seen it before, but not like this
Been there before, but not like this
Never before have I
Ever seen it this bad
She's just a woman
Never Again

Seen it before, but not like this
Been there before, but not like this
Never before have I
Ever seen it this bad
She's just a woman
Never Again

Never Again
Never Again
No, Never Again

Side Of A Bullet

Uncle Sam taught him to shoot
Maybe a little too well
Finger on the trigger, load it, pull it
He hit the stage so full of rage
And let the whole world know it
Six feet away, they heard him say
"Oh God, don't let him pull it"

Please God, don't let him pull it
How could you put us through it?
His brother watched you do it

How could you take his life away?
(what made you thing you had the right? )
How could you be so full of hate?
(to take away somebody's life)
And when I heard you let him die
And made the world all wonder why
I sat at home and on my own,
I cried alone
And scratched your name
On the side of a bullet
And in the wake of his mistake
So many lives are broken
Gone forever from a loaded bullet
And no excuse that you could use
Could pull somebody through it
And to this day so many say
"God why'd you let him do it?"

How could you let him do it?
How could you put us through it?
His brother watched him do it

How could you take his life away?
(What made you think you had the right? )
How could you be so full of hate?
(to take away somebody's life)
And when I heard you let him die
And made the world
All wonder why
I sat at home and cried alone
And on my own
I scratched your name
On the side of a bullet

How could you take his life away?
(What made you think you had the right? )
How could you be so full of hate?
(to take away somebody's life)
And when I heard you let him die
And made the world
All wonder why
I sat at home and cried alone
And on my own
I scratched your name
On the side of a bullet
On the side of a bullet
On the side of a bullet
On the side of a bullet

Trying Not To Love You

You call to me, and I fall at your feet
How could anyone ask for more?
And our time apart, like knives in my heart
How could anyone ask for more?

(Chorus)
But if there's a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven't found it yet
But I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
Trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
'Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more

(V2)
And this kind of pain, only time takes away
That's why it's harder to let you go
And nothing I can do, without thinking of you
That's why it's harder to let you go
(Chorus)
But if there's a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven't found it yet
But I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
Trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
'Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more

(Bridge)
So I sit here divided, just talking to myself
Was it something that I did?
Was there somebody else?
When a voice from behind me, that was fighting back tears
Sat right down beside me, and whispered right in my ear
Tonight I'm dying to tell you

That trying not to love you, only went so far
Trying not to need you, was tearing me apart
Now I see the silver lining, from what we're fighting for
And if we just keep on trying, we could be much more
'Cause trying not to love you
Oh, yeah, trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more

Invisible

I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair, and cut my skin
I tried everything, to make them see me
But all they see, is someone that's not me

Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Here inside, my quiet heart
You cannot hear, my cries for help
I tried everything, to make them see me
But every one, see's what I can't be

Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Sometimes when I'm alone
I pretend that I'm a queen
It's almost believable

Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Bold is me

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.

I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.(I used to self-harm though)

I'm a NEGRO so I MUST carry a gun.

I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be dumb

I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.

I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be attractive.

I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.

I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.

I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a mature content tape.

I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.

I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch. (I respect others' opinions, but I do have my own and I wish for some respect for them.)

I'm a GAY SUPPORTER, so I WILL suffer. (I beleive in nature and, to me, being gay is natures kind way of cutting down on the population).

I'm a CHRISTAN, so I MUST think gay people should suffer.

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat. (Everyone has an opinion and a belief and I believe that people should make their own choices. I rarely bring up my religion to the table, just get excited when I meet a fellow Wiccan and voice my concerns when I think my religion is in danger.)

I'm ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.

I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals.

I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.

I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.

I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

I TAKE (or used to take) ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.

I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pantsLaughable at best. (No comment XD Some are others are not XD)

I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem. (Irish does not equal drunkard, OK?)

I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.

I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.

I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid or stuck up

I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be an inappropriate dresser. (I do wear skirt once in a while)

I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs. (I don't do drugs, but I think punks are cool and I have never sen )

I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.

I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo. (I am a goth but I can't stand stereotypes.)

I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend. (I would NEVER steal. I find this an insult of the highest order. And I don't nag... I think.)

I'm NOT A STRAIGHT A STUDENT so I MUST be a popular person. (Least popular person in the mainstream school I went. I was even kicked out of the school libary by the students so that they wouldn't get beaten up for being near me.)

I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.

I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking person.

I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be irresponsible.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals

I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a "big one".

I'm EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!

I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin. (Not pretty. Pretty ugly, but that's about it.)

I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.

I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.

I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention. (Opposite actaully. I dress to draw attention away from me so that I don't get killed. I want to live for my family's sake and my behaviour can attract unwanted attention. I also dress because I like it.)

I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual. (Straight as a ruler, yet very much into gothic art and theatre.)

I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist. (I only wish that the animals are well cared for before a humane slaughter. I actually feel that I am against the laws of nature, but I couldn't bare to kill, or eat, an animal, so I made a vow.)

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be 'sharing time' with them.

HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be 'sharing time' with them.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.

I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.

I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser. (I wear what I want to cover my ugly fattness and because I like it.)

I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi. (Only part, and the Nazis would rahter kill me than let me join. I have some gypsy blood and I am autistic.)

I hang out with GAYS, so I must be GAY TOO. (Opposite. I hang out with gays because I know that they will accept me for me and not some poser. They would never tunr on me and kill me, like I know some want to do.)

I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited. (

I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13

I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy

I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy

I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas

I’m a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction

I’m STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent. (Found out what this meant and I have no idea where the association comes from. Why would they be violent?)

I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly...or crazy. ( I am ugly but not crazy (I've been tested) or a gamer)

I'm BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid. (That's just mean)

I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat. (I am fat as hell and I am ugly as anything, but not because I eat lunch.)

I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly. (I am ugly, but I have been asked out. I just can't have a relationship because the sexual side makes me ill.)

I'm a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff.

I'm a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks. (I wear black, but I don't date at all.)

I'm ASIAN so I must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7. (I have to do much homework and I do work hard but I am not Asian or a nerd).

I'm CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.

I'm MIXED so I must be crazy. (I have gypsy circus blood, but I am not crazy. To quote Sheldon in Big Bang, "I'm not insane, my mother had me tested".)

I'm MUSLIM so I MUST be a terrorist.

I'm in BAND, so I MUST be a dork.

I'm MORMON so I MUST have seven wives.

I'm WHITE and have black friends so I MUST think I'm black

I'm GOTH so I MUST worship the devil. (Satanist I am not. Wiccan I am.)

I'm HISPANIC , so I MUST be dirty.

I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser. (Everyone is different, but I know I'm a loser.)

I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control. (This is not the reason for everyone who is overweight, but it is for me.)

I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.

I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid and stuck up.

I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naïve. (Not on everything)

I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.

I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat. (Don't have a license.)

I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon.

I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.

I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.

I'm a PREP, so I MUST be rich.

I don't like the SUN so I MUST be an albino. (It burns me, that's why I don't like it. I have a burn gene and ghost white skin, but I am not albino. I have brown hair.)

I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party

I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.

I couldn't hurt a FLY, So I MUST be a wimp. (It is against my vows to kill, or harm, any creature that is not human. The reason I said any that is not human is because there is no way I could keep with the humans. They try to kill me. I am not a wimp, I am a pacifist.)

I support GAY RIGHTS, so I MUST fit in with everyone. (Am the the least popular, so no. Plus, I don't get on with those who try to kill me.)

I HANG OUT with teenage DRINKERS AND SMOKERS, so I MUST smoke and drink too.

I have an ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don't.

I don't like be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social. (Anti-Social so that I don't get killed. I have a social disability, cut me some slack.)

I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy. (I do have interesting view-points that are taken the wrong way. Like with death and the afterlife. I actually think some deaths are funny. Not for the family or person, but just at how easy it is to die. Like dying by laughing.)

My hair gets GREASY a lot, so I MUST have no hygiene skills.

I'm DEFENSIVE, so I MUST be over controlling and a brat.

I read Comics, so I MUST be a loser.

I'm TEXAN so I MUST ride a horse. (I do ride, but I am not Texan.)

I’m a GOTH, so I MUST be a Satanist. (No, I am not a Satanist)

I’m a CROSSDRESSER, so I must be homosexual.

I draw ANIME so I MUST be a freak.

I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.

I'm an ONLY CHILD so I MUST be spoiled. (Step and Half siblings, but I actually grew up poor and had to appreciate that there would be times where we would not have meals and my stomach would be empty.)

I'm INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak. (I work hard, but I don't think I'm intelligent. I think intelligence is a matter of perception.)

I am AMERICAN so I MUST be obese, loud-mouthed and arrogant.

I’m a YOUNG WRITER, so I MUST be emo. (Goth, not emo.)

I’m CANADIAN, so I MUST talk with a funny accent.

I'm a GUY, so I MUST ditch my girlfriend having a baby.

I'm CANADIAN, so I MUST love hockey and beavers.

I'm DISABLED, so I MUST be on Welfare. (I am on DLA, but am looking to get a job and only use it for the things I can't afford yet. Like specialist shoes.)

I'm a TEENAGER, so I MUST have a STEREOTYPE. (Tell me whatever I am and I will listen and then go. I live by the rules of the law and society, but I am no delinquant and do not deserve to be treated as such. Nor am I a comodity.)

I WEAR A BIG SUNHAT when I go outside, so I MUST be stupid.

I like BLOOD, so I must be a VAMPIRE. (I like blood because it facinates me. But I am no blood-sucker. Although I am facinated by vampires. I don't think their diet would fit with my vegetarian lifestyle thought.)

I'm an ALBINO, so I MUST be an evil person with mental abilities and A MURDERER!

I'm ENGLISH, so I MUST speak with either a cockney or a posh accent, love tea and cricket, and have bad teeth. (English people actually have some of the best dental care, because we are lucky to have the NHS and be very concerned about healthy eating. I do like tea, but I hate cricket and we drink more coffee here than tea. Not many of us keep to the traditional English accent, because we have different accents from other cities and counties. That posh accent is something you only hear the Queen speak in, or the news reporters.)

I’m WHITE, so I MUST be responsible for everything going wrong on the planet: past, present, and future. (I didn't choose the skin colour, nor the past I was born from. I try to heal, not harm.)

I don't like YAOI or YURI, so I must be a HOMOPHOBE. (Why would I be homophobic? There is no reason for it, I just prefere it when the stories go with my favourite characters being together.)

I’m not the most POPULAR person in school, so I MUST be a loser

I care about the ENVIRONMENT...I MUST be a tree hugging hippy. (Not hippie. I could never wear that much bright colours.)

I have a FAN CHARACTER, so I MUST be an annoying Mary-Sue.

I'm PAGAN so I MUST sacrifice babies and drink the blood of virgins. (Neo and no. I don't even think that's legal. Besides, I would have to drink my own blood.)

I'm PAGAN so I MUST worship Satan. (Different religions. Nothing to do with each other. Satanism has more to do with Christianty than with Paganism.)

I'm CONSERVATIVE, so I MUST be against Abortion. (I would never side with David Cameron!)

I'm SWEDISH so I MUST be a tall blond blue-eyed lesbian.

I'm a LESBIAN so I MUST want to get with every single girl that I see.

I like CARTOONS, so I MUST be IRRESPONSIBLE.

I like READING, so I MUST be a LONER. (I am a loner, but there is no need for the stereotypes.)

I have my OWN spiritual ideology; therefore I MUST be WRONG or MISGUIDED. (Why would I even go with it if I thought it was wrong and misguided.)

I am WICCAN, so I MUST be a SATANIST. (Different religions. I want to heal the world, not harm it. I don't even know what a satanist does, but I'm pretty sure that they use animal sacrifices. I made a vow never to kill an animal: it wouldn't follow.)

I DISAGREE with my government, so I MUST be a TERRORIST (I want to heal the world and my country, not harm it. Why would I terriorise?)

I am a WITCH, so I MUST be and OLD HAG and fly on a broomstick. (Afraid of flying and I am only eighteen.)

I love YAOI, so I MUST be GAY.

I'm a PERSON, so I MUST be LABELED.

I'm SWEDISH, therefore I MUST be WHITE.

I'm GOTHIC, so I MUST be mean. (I don't think I am.)

I'm STRONG so I MUST be stupid.

I'm Australian so I MUST hunt crocodiles and talk to kangaroo’s

I go to RENFAIRES, so I MUST talk weird, be a loser, and not be up with the times.

I’m GAY so I’m after EVERY straight guy around.

I don’t want a BOYFRIEND so I MUST be Lesbian. (I am afraid of being ill, so I can't try for a boyfriend yet.)

I'm NOT CHRISTIAN so I MUST just need converting. (Don't even try it. I was a devote Christian, but then I had to convert to Wiccan.)

I love marching bands, so I MUST be a friendless freak.

I DRINK and SMOKE, so I MUST have no life.

I am friends with a CUTTER, so I MUST be a CUTTER too. (Cutter is a self-harmer and this is something I used to be. I am trying to stop.)

I cry easily, so I MUST be a wimp. (I suffer from Emotional Outbursts. It comes with the territory. But it does not make me a wimp.)

I can't help pointing out mistakes so I MUST be an over-controlling perfectionist. (I am on the same spectrum as OCD. It comes with the territory.)

I'm a PERFECTIONIST so I MUST check everything ten times, them burst into tears at one mistake. (Can't comment, but I don't like the stereotype.)

I am WHITE and I like COMPUTERS, so I MUST be a NERDY GEEK.

I AM KIND to other PEOPLE, so I MUST be WEAK. (I try to be. But I sometimes think I could be kinder to people if I commited suicide and never entered their lives again. I can't do this to my family though. It's a vicious cycle.)

I DON'T LIKE to talk about my personal life so I MUST be having problems. (I have some secrets that can never be shared, but that is all. I share the personal sides when I think it can help others, not because I enjoy to share it.)

I'm PRO-ABORTION , so I MUST be heartless

I'm DIFFERENT so I MUST be weird. (Not sure what to say on this one.)

I have ASPERGER SYNDROME so I MUST be MENTALLY CHALLENGED. (I have social difficulties, but I am doing A Levels and they do call Asperger's the 'intelligent autism' because we either genious or abouve average IQs.)

I listen to Rock-n-Roll music 24/7 so there MUST be something wrong with my mind. (Not possible. And I love rock, not rock-n-roll).

I LOVE Disney so I MUST still be a little kid.

I'm a MOE(Has crushes on video game and anime characters) So I MUST be some creepy fangirl. (I find it better to fall in love with someone who I know will never turn me down (because they don't know I exist) than someone who will.)

I'm a OTAKU so I MUST be hated by EVEYONE.

Hello, I'm AspieWriter
I am a 18-year-old, Vegetarian, Wiccan (Neo-Pagan), Gothic Alchemist who has a disability known as Asperger's Syndrome, which is a form of Autism, which is a social disability. I am female, I like guys and I have two gay friends. They are the best because they do not judge me for my disability. I love animals, I could not in good conscience eat them and so I became a vegetarian. My father called me a disgrace to the family because no-one else in the family is one; he even took me to a butchers shop. That was five years ago and I'm still a vegetarian. As a Goth, I do wear black, yet I also collect the cultures art and listen to its music, yes I do use the gothic rituals but I am looking to use these rituals to help heal people, I also use my religion, which worships many Gods and Goddesses (anyone who worships the devil is called a Satanist, pagans and neo-pagans do not worship nature but rather see it as a deity incarnated and natural elements as a power source, Christians actually came to Wiccans seeking their medicines, before seeing witchcraft as evil and a calling to hell in the late 14th century), to provide herbal medications in order to aid peoples' long-term suffering. Though I have a social disability, I can fall in love and have friendships, the therapist said I was also capable of empathy. I am not sure on many facial expressions or body language, but I am learning, it's a pain having to go out convinced that everyone is going to cause you harm because you don't know how to read the signs. As I said before, I can love, there is a problem though: physical relationships make me violently sick (even reading them in books) and I don't like to be touched. Who in their right mind would go out with a freak like that? Although the physical side is uncomfortable, there is a mental side that is really strong to me. I've read loads of romance books (hasn't helped my stomach) I am fascinated by how two people can be so close whether they are of different genders, of the same gender, or not even human. Unfortunately, this is as close to the real thing as I can get. The therapist says there is hope, just takes work. I have exercised so much; I can now read some words that would have made me cringe, not bad for 18 years of practise. Many people pick on me because they don't understand, they have even made me so ill and I coughed up three drops of blood when I was sick. Maybe because I can't understand jokes, I didn't understand how this was funny.

May your soul remain in your heart,

AspieWriter

Diary and To-Do List

1. Not to be filled in until after nineteenth.

18/10/2011

Dear Diary,

Tommorow is the day where everything changes. I will no-longer be considered a child, but a "vunerable" adult. The word vunerable is highlighted because of something my mother said. I am still not allowed to be left at home alon, overnight. Bah! Somtimes being me is difficult.

21/10/2011

Dear Diary,

Only ten more days to go untill the big Samhein celebration. I can't wait! I really wish that I wasn't so ill today, as I would have used this time to exercise so that I can prepare for the celebratory dance of the dead. I must say that being ill has no advantages other than bordam (translation: I HATE BEING SICK). Oh! Sounds like my mother is home, or it could be her boyfriend.

26/10/2011

Dear Diary,

AHHHHHHHHH!!! I need to get my homework done! No more fan-fic for a while!

27/10/2011

Dear Diary,

I can't help it! I love fan-fic and it is part of my routine. Well there is the weekend and I will be sure to make some time for my homework. I just have so much to do, but I suppose this is the punishment I get for not doing it at college. I couldn't help it, my support worker is just one of those that I am eager to get away from. Ah well, what comes around goes around. I will just have to prepare the planner and get it sorted to include my homework timetable.

30/10/2011

Dear Diary,

Just one more day to go and then it is a night of celebrations. It is also the last day that I get to finish my homework, well, an hour of it anyway. I must get it done today or there'll be chaos. Really, it should reletively simple to fit into my schedule, but this is me that we are talking about and I am not one with the best schedule keeping skills, even for someone with Asperger's Syndrome. It doesn't help that I panic when I don't keep the schedule, so I basically bring illness on myself. Thankfully, no-one has updated thier stories else I'd be doomed.

11/11/2011

Dear Diary,

Wow. I had no idea people could be so low when it comes to the dead. Instead of doing the two minute silece, some of my fellow college students were gigglling and talking. HAVE THEY NO RESPECT FOR THE DEAD? I know that people believe in different things, but these men and women died so that we, as a country, could be safe from the forces that seeked to control us and enslave us. I know that my kind (Aspies, goths and vegetarians) would not survive under Hitler's rule. I would have been set up for experimentation in order to satisfy the bloodthirsty hunger of a madman. We should not forget the bravery of our soldiers who fought valiantly to save us and protect us from evil (well what we know as evil, but I am not really sure). I had half a mind to let my bloodlust take over and pummle those, those (ah, what would my friend say... ah... oh!) degenerates (hey, that felt good). For the love of garlic, please have some respect. Their souls were truly in their hearts and that should never be forgotten.

04/12/2011

Dear Diary,

Okay I am starting to do my homework. DO NOT DISTURB OR YOU DIE!!! MWA HA HA!

15/12/2011

Dear Diary,

Now that I have started my coursework, things are a little hectic and there is an abundance to the amout of calamity in my life. I fear that there may be none at all, but my spirit refuses to break. Day by day, I feel the need, the urge, to write and to read and boy do I. I have a plan so as to balnce my work life and my pleasures but it is not in motion yet and a little patience would not go amiss. Unfourtunately, this means I am behind in my fan-fics but, like I said before, I am working on a solution. I have completed part of my New Years Resolution, I have seen Breaking Dawn Part 1, but I failed to watch it completely and that just won't do.

20/01/2012

Dear Diary,

Oh goodness, God and Goddess hear me! I have caught some kind of bug, right in the middle of the most important term of my entire life. I must find a way to get better and soon.