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since: 01-22-01, id: 37838, Profile Updated: 08-11-09
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Author has written 46 stories for Digimon, Legend of Dragoon, Final Fantasy X, Sonic the Hedgehog, Tales of Symphonia, and Tales of the Abyss.

dear ffnet, I will never change my password. please quit telling me.

The writer
Hey. I'm butterflie. Sort of a silly penname, I suppose, but I've had it since 2003 and I'm a bit loathe to change it now. And just to get it out of the way: I'm twenty-three, I'm gender-confused, and I live in the United States. I also obviously like fanfiction. A lot. I've been into it since early 2000, when I first discovered it while looking for gundamwing images. Actually to be precise, some friends and I googled "wufei's head" and a gundamwing slash fanfic is what popped up... Woo-hoo, corruption. I've never quite been the same since. Err. Not that I'm complaining.

As regards to fandom...
Fanfic preferences, well... I have them of course, but I'm pretty open-minded about most things. I like both slash and het, and over the past few years I've developed a huge love for genfic. I fully sympathize with those who say there isn't enough gen in fandom. To me, there can never be enough. (So why do I still write mostly slash/pre-slash...? Even I don't know.) I highly adore angst, and also don't have a problem with most kinks. Pretty much the only things I stay away from at all costs are mpreg, genderbending, and certain pairings that just don't sit right with me.

The early days
I have an older account on here; if you are interested in reading incredibly bad gundamwing fanfiction, you can check it out at the ID 12443, penname Twilight Nuriko. In regards to fic deletions: I rarely delete old fics that I hate, because I know what it's like to remember a fic you used to be fond of, decide you want to read it again, and go back to find it gone. I regret deleting the ones that used to be posted. While I'm not going to bother reposting them, I'm willing to send anyone who wants one copies of old fics, provided that I still have computer copies available. If, by chance, you are looking for my Final Fantasy X fic Sometimes Wanna Die, you may find a download at http://daath.net/arcane.

Read and Review?
My review policy pretty much is: I don't. In the past two years I've given out maybe five reviews (if that), and two were merely to point out minor errors. I've become really disillusioned with this aspect of fandom over the years, and now I no longer bother. Don't take it personally. Trust me, if I favourite your story, I enjoyed it quite a bit. Don't be fooled by the amount of favourites, I don't favourite even half of what I actually read.

So I story-alerted your fic...
Yeah, I know. I'm horrible about updating. I'd say I'm sorry, except, well, I'm really not. Other than that mild lingering sense of guilt. But if you can't handle waiting months or years for an update, or perhaps the possibility of never getting an update, simply don't read the story. Personally, I'm always glad of the chance to have a partial story than to have no story at all, but I know not everyone feels that way. I do try to finish all my stories, and the ones I know I won't ever finish I make sure to mark as discontinued. Anything else, I still intend to finish if I can. Eventually. Someday. I just seem to have hit a huge writing slump, and hate forcing my writing. It always comes out horrible.

Horizon Road
It's... iffy. It's not marked as discontinued, because I still have a huge fondness for the first two chapters. But I lost the first draft of the third chapter when my word program screwed up, and the second one, the one that's posted, never felt quite the same. It sort of killed the story for me. But I'd like to salvage it, if I can. I do, however, have bits of the fourth chapter written. You can find them under lock at my fic journal.

Rubicon
I do actually have the story plotted and outlined. I estimated it out to be a rough eight chapters or so. I deviated from my outline a bit at the end of chapter two though, and then realized something I needed to change, so I need to get off my lazy ass and fix that up and get on with writing the damn thing. But unless I just lose all interest in writing fanfic, this one should probably be finished one day. In the far, far future.

badfic the first
This is nothing more than a joke fic I wrote for a friend, and then it sort of got out of hand. I don't remember which of us suggested I post it here, but then it developed a semblance of a(n awful) plot, and... yeah. Maybe I will, maybe I won't, but I don't think anyone will be heartbroken if it's never finished.

Bloodlust
Considering this is already a rewrite of a fic I never managed to finish the first time around, its future doesn't look so bright. Not to mention I'm not really fond of the idea now. I've left it open for now, but I'm pretty close to just saying the hell with it.

Sortilege
This is being rewritten, on and off when the mood hits, and when I have the time. The rewrite is being posted under the title Stigma, currently posted at my fanfiction journal only. When I finally manage to finish it I'll replace the original Sortilege chapters with the new Stigma ones, and add all the new chapters of course.

Links
- fic journal
- fic journal backup
- personal fanfic archive
- personal final fantasy x fanfic archive
- fic rec/listing archive

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1. Make Haste Slowly reviews
The first time you do a haste spell, it isn't at all what you expected. Tidus, ficlet.
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 560 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7-7-09 - Tidus - Complete
2. Fade reviews
Sin is Jecht and Jecht is Sin and he can never ever make it back to Zanarkand
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K+ - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 983 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-6-09 - Tidus & Jecht - Complete
3. Affinity reviews
He'd never even known magic existed until he came to Spira. In Zanarkand it was always just a fantasy in a fairytale. Tidus, Lulu, Yuna; ficlet
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,217 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7-24-08 - Tidus & Lulu - Complete
4. Phobia reviews
He knew Auron could take on the world and easily come out on top. A measly storm was nothing to him. pre-game, ficlet
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K - English - General/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,168 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-13-08 - Tidus & Auron - Complete
5. Wonderful reviews
He often dreamed about what it would be like if Auron were to go away. ・Tidus, pre-game, ficlet・
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,090 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2-10-08 - Tidus & Auron - Complete
6. Aimless reviews
Always bring a map. [Tidus, Rikku, ficlet]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K - English - General/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,075 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8-20-07 - Tidus & Rikku - Complete
7. Speed reviews
Blitzball is all about balance. [Tidus, Yuna, ficlet]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 554 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8-20-07 - Tidus & Yuna - Complete
8. Stranger reviews
Tidus' first meeting with a stranger. [pre game, ficlet]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K - English - General/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 520 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8-16-07 - Tidus & Auron - Complete
9. Fragile reviews
He knows that he has irrevocably broken something between them, something important and fragile, even if he does not know just what that something is. [Auron x Tidus, pre game, ficlet]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 831 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7-26-07 - Auron & Tidus - Complete
10. Contradiction reviews
Sometimes it doesn't feel real. [Luke, Asch, spoilers]
Tales of the Abyss - Rated: K - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,231 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-15-07 - Complete
11. Rubicon » reviews
Being a guardian isn't as easy as it first seems. But Tidus has made his choice, and he can't go back. [AU, mildmild TidusIsaaru]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: T - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 10,805 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 2-17-07 - Published: 1-3-07 - Tidus
12. Under His Skin reviews
Despite all the distance he tried to keep between them, the boy had still somehow managed to get under his skin. [Auron x Tidus, pre game, drabble]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 340 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 10-27-06 - Auron & Tidus - Complete
13. Gambler reviews
He had an obsession with money that had somehow survived the transition from mortal to fayth to Aeon. [Yojimbo centric, ficlet]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 707 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-27-06 - Complete
14. Too Much reviews
Takeru, and wanting too much. [one sided Takeru x Yamato, Takeru x Hikari]
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,958 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 10-25-06 - Takeru T./TK & Yamato I./Matt - Complete
15. The Road to Hell reviews
Sometimes good intentions don't end up quite the way you wanted them to. And sometimes, it's not necessarily a bad thing. Kratos, as he falls from grace. [Kratos x Lloyd, slash, spoilers]
Tales of Symphonia - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,509 - Reviews: 30 - Published: 9-24-06 - Kratos A. & Lloyd I. - Complete
16. Waiting » reviews
The hell Matt had been living is finally over. Ken is out of Matt's life for good. Matt can now put everything behind him and start over. But a certain gang seems to think differently... Taito. Sequel to US. Very OOC.
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 21 - Words: 91,812 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 9-14-06 - Taichi Y./Tai K. & Yamato I./Matt - Complete
17. His reviews
At last, the pieces were finally starting to fall into place. Fourteen years too late. [Kratos & Lloyd oyako, ficlet]
Tales of Symphonia - Rated: K - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 889 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9-10-06 - Kratos A. & Lloyd I. - Complete
18. Further » reviews
The sequel to Break. Seymour comes across Tidus traveling through Mt. Gagazet and decides to take what he sees as rightfully his... [noncon Seymour x Tidus] [Auron x Tidus]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 17,999 - Reviews: 18 - Published: 6-25-06 - Tidus & Auron - Complete
19. badfic the first! » reviews
Daisuke's got a secret, Takeru's surprised to learn what it is. [shounen ai] [joke]
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 6 - Words: 3,404 - Reviews: 22 - Updated: 6-25-06 - Published: 8-13-05 - Takeru T./TK & Daisuke M.
20. Enough reviews
100 word drabble. Takeru, and wanting more than what is given. [one sided TakeruxYamato]
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3-13-06 - Takeru T./TK & Yamato I./Matt - Complete
21. Break reviews
While in the prison of Bevelle, Seymour takes it upon himself to let Tidus in on a few secrets... [SeymourxTidus non con] [AuronxTidus]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,689 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 12-31-05 - Seymour & Tidus - Complete
22. Logical reviews
What if the cycle had never been broken? Who would be the one to make the sacrifice? ficlet, Tidus&Yuna, spoilers
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K+ - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,015 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 12-26-05 - Tidus & Yuna - Complete
23. Horizon Road » reviews
This is the lack of control, slipping in his mind... AuronxTidus. Pre-game.
Final Fantasy X - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 16,064 - Reviews: 24 - Updated: 12-19-05 - Published: 3-23-05
24. Bloodlust » reviews
DISCONTINUED. .rewrite. He lived a nightmare once. Thanks to the determination of his friends, he escaped. Unable to forget, he fled to America to start anew. But it seems someone isn't willing for it to be over... Daisuke–centric, some Daikari hints.
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Suspense/Tragedy - Chapters: 3 - Words: 5,457 - Reviews: 14 - Updated: 6-7-05 - Published: 3-25-05 - Daisuke M.
25. Jecht:The Real Story reviews
Unrequited love can be so bittersweet... [Jechtx?]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K+ - English - General/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 696 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 6-1-05 - Complete
26. Pants, Shoes, and Newfound Love reviews
None of you will "get this". sort of shounen-ai. Completely silly. Pointless. Read at your own risk.
Final Fantasy X - Rated: K+ - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 728 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 4-11-05 - Complete
27. A Shadow of Death reviews
[SA2:B] A pointless little piece I wrote two years ago. Knuckles reflecting and Sonic moping.
Sonic the Hedgehog - Rated: K - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,036 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-21-05 - Sonic & Knuckles - Complete
28. Second Chance » reviews
Because everyone deserves a second chance to make things right. [Auron x Tidus] [pregame]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 10,463 - Reviews: 37 - Updated: 3-7-05 - Published: 3-5-05 - Auron & Tidus - Complete
29. This Time Around reviews
Tidus, and Auron, and wanting more than what they should have. [Auron x Tidus] [pre game] [one shot]
Final Fantasy X - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,208 - Reviews: 15 - Published: 2-22-05 - Auron & Tidus - Complete
30. Blurry Eyes reviews
I talk about eyes a lot. Mmm.. Taito sap!
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 381 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-31-05 - Taichi Y./Tai K. & Yamato I./Matt - Complete
31. Sortilege » reviews
Yamato stumbles across something he was never meant to see... and now it seems someone may be determined to end his life, at any cost. [on hold]
Digimon - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Suspense - Chapters: 3 - Words: 4,466 - Reviews: 28 - Updated: 12-18-04 - Published: 5-7-04 - Yamato I./Matt & Taichi Y./Tai K.
32. Self Destruction reviews
Will Yamato destroy himself before it's too late? [cut!fic]
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 8,431 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 5-7-04 - Yamato I./Matt & Taichi Y./Tai K. - Complete
33. Bleed » reviews
Something is very wrong with Yamato, and Taichi's determined to get to the bottom of it. [Taito] [Takari]
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 8 - Words: 35,867 - Reviews: 43 - Updated: 4-16-04 - Published: 1-11-04 - Taichi Y./Tai K. & Yamato I./Matt - Complete
34. Carry On Dancing » reviews
/discontinued/ How can you manage to carry on with life when the person closest to you is no longer there? //Taichi/Yamato, character death//
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 2,930 - Reviews: 15 - Updated: 12-18-03 - Published: 12-14-03 - Taichi Y./Tai K. & Yamato I./Matt
35. Within My Mind Barriers reviews
Yamato tells a story of sorts. Taito. [cut!fic]
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Tragedy/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,768 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 12-14-03 - Yamato I./Matt & Takeru T./TK - Complete
36. Soon reviews
on purpose bad!fic. was intended for a MST by Libek that never got finished. ONE-SHOT. COMPLETE.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,211 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-9-03 - Yamato I./Matt - Complete
37. Tearing Me Apart » reviews
Yamato has a secret... and it's tearing him apart. Taichi and Yamato friendship fic. [cut!fic]
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 2 - Words: 16,620 - Reviews: 21 - Updated: 12-9-03 - Published: 12-7-03 - Yamato I./Matt & Taichi Y./Tai K. - Complete
38. Departure reviews
bad!fic featuring very OOC Jou on drugs. One-shot Joushiro.
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 19,616 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-8-03 - Complete
39. Deadly Confessions reviews
Matt and Tai get together. But someone is standing in their way. Will their relationship survive? Taito and Takato. [Warnings: incest, noncon, death!fic, bad!fic]
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 14,604 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 3-8-03 - Yamato I./Matt & Takeru T./TK - Complete
40. Untold Secrets » reviews
Someone is hurting Yamato very badly. Yet Yamato is afraid to reveal his tormentor. Can he manage to speak that one name before it costs him his life? [Warnings:noncon] [sequel:Waiting, found on website]
Digimon - Rated: M - English - Angst/Suspense - Chapters: 2 - Words: 10,617 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 3-8-03 - Yamato I./Matt & Ken I. - Complete
41. Intense Longings reviews
A Shana reflective vignette that takes place on board the Queen's Fury. ShanaxDart of sorts.
Legend of Dragoon - Rated: K - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,652 - Reviews: 15 - Published: 3-29-02 - Complete
42. The Freedom To Be Different reviews
Taichi writes a letter to Yamato. Not your happy Taito. [bad!fic]
Digimon - Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 615 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 10-31-01 - Taichi Y./Tai K. - Complete
43. Nothing Stops the Love reviews
bad!fic featuring angsty somewhat OOC Yamato.
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 622 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 10-31-01 - Yamato I./Matt - Complete
44. And They Met Over A Jar of Peanut Butter reviews
Matt goes to buy peanut butter and meets Tai there. Very short, very strange Taito. Thanks to Empress of the Eclipse for uploading this for me!
Digimon - Rated: T - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 613 - Reviews: 23 - Published: 10-11-01 - Yamato I./Matt & Taichi Y./Tai K. - Complete
45. Things Will Be Better In The Morning » reviews
Yamato and Mr. Ishida have a talk. Not your happy Taito. [bad!fic]
Digimon - Rated: M - English - General/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,724 - Reviews: 16 - Updated: 7-21-01 - Published: 7-2-01 - Yamato I./Matt - Complete
46. Icy Blue reviews
Taito. Second Digimon fic. Bad!fic.
Digimon - Rated: K+ - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,786 - Reviews: 15 - Published: 7-2-01 - Taichi Y./Tai K. & Yamato I./Matt - Complete
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