| dOMITUPSYK |
WARNING: This account will no longer host stories. The original creator of the identity dOMITUPSYK has chosen to bid this identity farewell and assume a new identity in the interest of moving on with her life. dOMITUPSYK, I rather enjoyed being you for the 4 years I had the name, as did Jacquelyn, but I was 13 and she was 15, and we're both 22 now. She has moved on, and it's time for me to move on as well. For anyone wondering why I'm making such a big deal out of this, it's because my aim has always been to distance my true self (the person I am online and to my friends) from the person I have to be (the person I show my family), so this identity was a very large part of my own identity. It very well did take part of my personality, and anyone who's done the same as I'm doing now understands why this IS such a big, and admittedly bittersweet, move. I don't mean swtiching internet names, but relinquishing something they know is hindering their progress moving on- the pacifier, a friend, a lover, an address... parting with a part of yourself is a difficult thing to do, but I'm not the same person I was at that time. With that, I part from this identity to embrace the new one. With permission, that authoress' name was Jaquelyn Pierce, who assumed the identity from the years 2005-2009. In fact, I did not use it from 2004 onward, and after the identity being stagnant for a year, loaned it to a user who was having a time coming up with a handle. While the two of us are much alike, we are also very different in other ways. Everything about the identity was mine, down to the birthdate and birthplace she used- however, it was not actually me that was using the account at all. The entire identity of dOMITUPSYK was created in 2003, and I used it until 2005. Well, the Youtube account is fully mine, and those are my videos, so I guess I can't COMPLETELY say I didn't use it, but we were in the process of switching back, so I didn't FULLY begin using it myself again until 2009. Also, I remember her talking a lot about something called LUO, and she once asked my permission to post some pictures of me. I sent her some (feet? Was she posting to a foot fetish board? XD) and allowed her to then, but they are not her. Also, I allowed her to say that she had a condition of mine (brachysyndactyly), but she does not. She wanted to remain completely and totally anonymous, and since I was the original identity, allowed her those liberties. However, she did talk freely about certain aspects of her life that have been shared by many people, including myself. Pretty much everything else, I allowed her to use- in the interest of anonymity, she essentially became me. I only allowed her to use information that I didn't mind being public, though- the name of my high school, the names of my cats, things of that nature. Although, we talked a lot, and she wasn't exactly right in the head, so she may have told some stories that were indeed mine, remembering them as hers. (TBH, I'm not the sanest person either, but Jaqi almost seemed to have Alzheimer's.) At that point in time, she may have even believed that she WAS me. However, at the point in time that she started leaving the internet and I started getting back on it, she found out she had a mental disorder (so do I, but mine's not anywhere NEAR as bad as hers was...), and was seeking treatment. Those of you that were her friend, I hope you understand why she pulled away- those were very bad times for her, and the only way for her to move on was to pretend it never happened, and that unfortunately included leaving behind some people that didn't deserve it. As far as I can remember, the only I account I held personally was to Fanfiction.net. (Although I did borrow the account back to create a Myspace that I wound up abandoning after a while.) All other accounts, up until Youtube shortly before I graduated, were created by Jaquelyn and not me. Everyone she got to know during that time period, every friend or enemy she made, note that I am not her, I am someone else. While we're similar ages (we're both 22 but with far different birthdates), and similar mindsets, we're still two different people. Our similarities are what drew us together initially, however, we simply grew apart and wanted different things from the world. | |||||||