Author has written 6 stories for Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy XII, Fifty Shades Trilogy, and Kingdom Hearts.
I am 19-year old (single) girl from western Finland, nowadays I live in the southern part of the country, I am at school studying to become a chef, and that for me is the perfect business since I can move almost constantly, I am not stuck in front of a computerscreen or anything else that includes sitting for a 8 hours straight, I can write as hobby (and when I am on a roll I may be sitting for longer but then I have to go for a walk afterwards or just run around the house irritating my folks ;)), but I could never work with it, I just get too restless.
well, I am 155 centimeters long, tiny, I know. I have brown eyes (glasses) and dark hair, my real color is dark brown, but I have it black right now. I have gone thru hell and back because... I simply am myself (dull looking and a bit overweight, but that's not criteria enough to bully someone until they stand on a bridge thinking about jumping), I have been bullied, by kids AND teachers and I have been tripped on ice destroying both my knees (that was an accident, so I don't blame anyone anymore) and overall had a tough childhood, but that's all over now.
what I want to say about that it simply this; kids, don't pick on others just because they look a bit different, it's not right, I have seen people my age and a few years older picking on people who are disabled, scarred or even just... nothing special. people have been laughing at me when I am out walking with my grandma (she doesn't know the difference between the stove and a sink), anyway I don't care anymore, but there are people that do. and some take it really hard. beacuse now I know, how would those girls have felt if I actually jumped off that bridge? could they with a clear heart come forward and telling my parents that they had done nothing wrong against me? I think not.
During this time I started crawling into my own bubble, thinking about how it would be, living in another world, a world of witches, wizards, talking animals, and fancy dresses. I would read books and watch movies definitely not meant for my agegroup. and somehow, I started writing about a world consisting of these and things that just plopped into my imagination, just like that. I found the diaries last summer when I cleaned my room. I have since then rewritten and tried to make it make some sense. I cannot post it here since FF doesn't allow that, but I am really proud of what a 12 yearold could imagine.
alright, back to now. I am happy, have a good sense of humor and take one day at a time. why stress and make a halfgood job when you can take your time and make a perfect job? I guess I am bit of a perfectionist when it comes to handiwork, if it isn't perfect or just a little wrinkled, out with it (I hade to bake a whole new cake beacuse of this once... heh). I must admit that I may be difficult to be with, I have moodswings, I may scream and kick for no apparent reason, I cry for nothing (I like to blame that on my past but I just don't know), and I may babble for minutes, maybe even hours and then you hardly get a word out of me. but I am not that hard to understand, if you have done nothing to offend me then you have nothing to fear, and I don't want to lose anyone, so I try my hardest to keep everyone I love close, they know my issues and they still love me.
I love my friends, more than anything, but there are three things I can't stand; it's people who claim to love you for you and then give you a verbal beating over e-mail and then pretend as if nothing has happened. if there is a problem say it face to face. that's just weak.
second thing; I can't stand people who put on an whole another face depending on who they are with.
third thing; liars overall.
I am from a tiny town on the Finnish westcoast and I am not a citygirl, for example, I could never live in like NY or even London (not even Finnish Capital Helsinki, I just feel closed in with so many people around me). I mean, I am from a place where everyone gets their driverslicense as soon as they turn 18, and where a traficjam is four to five cars behind a tractor. and that's why I am a proud countrygirl.
"Reality depresses me, I have to find fantasy worlds and escape into them."
Things you didn’t know about me.
Full name? –
Film? – Titanic/ memoirs of a geisha/ Valkyria/ Advent children
black or white? - black
[x] I am shorter than 175
[x] I still cry to disneymovies
[x] I have driven more than 300 km one day.
[x] I have lost myself in my hometown
What does your dreamguy look like? young Laguna Loire xD
favoriteband? - Within Temptation and Sirenia
You May Be A Writer If-
1. Every time you hear a song, you think of a new story or one you've already written. (At times)
Borrowed from GuilelessAesthete.
I am pretty stuck on Final Fantasy right now (especially VIII), but I also write Legend of the seeker, Lord of the Rings, Fifty Shades of Grey (ironic I know), Game of Thrones and a few disney movies (not saying that all of those are coming up here but...).
Pairings I like/writing about:
FFVII - Genesis/OC(Ami), Cloud/Tifa & Zack/Aerith
FFVIII- Squall/Rinoa, Laguna/Raine, Selphie/Irvine & Quistis/Seifer
FFX & X-2 - Tidus/Yuna, Rikku/Gippal, Paine/Baralai & Lenne/Shuyin.
FFXII - Ashe/Rasler, Vaan/Penelo & Fran/Balthier.
Lotr- Legolas/OC, Eomer/OC & Galadriel/Celeborn. w00t, why is there NO Aragorn/Arwen?! I just don't write about them, I don't dislike the them, i just don't write, same thing with Eowyn/ Faramir. ;)
the first ones I made a HUGE mistake in, I used - instead of ". I am aware of that so, please don't say anything about that. I know.
Nothing is impossible: is done, first one, rushed like heck, but turned out pretty good still.
They can't break what's inside: update when I find time, easy as that.
Regret: as I already said I hate the idea of Rasler dying, I have not changed my mind. also I wouldn't like to kill the main characters. (I got this idea when I was bored on the train, at first I thought It was an horrible idea, but it turned out pretty good) this is the first I am completely satisfied with.
Never Told You: I was bored out of my mind this morning, so I sat down and started writing, this is the result :) I KNOW about quotationsmarks, sorry if anybody felt like their life ended.
Unwounded Soldier: I know, I should work on TCBWI, but I am starting on this one because I just have to get it out of my system :)
Things I think about posting:
Darkest Night (FFVIII) AU Rinoa/Seifer and Rinoa/Squall.
They say a bird need the freedom, so did she. But where do you go when all the windows are locked and closed? You sit still and wait for your punishment.
Scared (FFVIII):AU Seifer/Quistis and Rinoa/Squall.
Everyone else saw them as beautiful, healthy women. He saw them for what they were, prisoners trapped in their own bodies.
Nothing Left (FFVII): Genesis/OC & Cloud/Tifa.
he lost his mind, that's what he did. And there is one against whom he cannot win or escape.
How You Remind Me (nearly every FF there is): Squall/Rinoa, Ashe/Rasler, Lenne/Shuyin and Tifa/Cloud.
not in a million years had Rinoa thought that her hardly-says-a-word-but-amazingly-cute boyfriend of hers would start to sing. Let alone dedicate a song to her.
Dogs Of War(FFVIII): Squall/Rinoa, Laguna/Raine.
With no-one wearing their real face, It's a whiteout of emotion. And I've only got my brittle bones to break the fall.
songfic of Poets of the falls song War, my all time favorite song :).
Love will last for a lifetime(FFX-2): Lenne/Shuyin.
In war, there are no unwounded soldiers.
"but first we need a word with brother, he likes to pretend he's not part of the family. and it brakes. my heart." everybody knew Kadaj was out of his mind.
Switching from my old phone to a Nokia Lumia 820 was obviously a good one, I can update by phone. Wohoo!
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