I flipped a coin.
Heads - I delete my FF.N account, forget about TT, and live a normal life without this sick obsession.
Tales - I continue to succumb to my mindless TT driven fantasies. Never living for myself, or living my own life.
It tumbled into the air.
And landed right in my hand.
HEADS.
It's been a gas, kids.
I started on this site when I was 13.
I'm now 17.
That's not bad, right?
When I first discovered Teen Titan, I was enraptured.
I loved it more than life itself.
Soon, a sick obsession took over.
Not a scary, psychotic one.
Just a normal fan-based obsession.
As I read TT fanfiction, I began to imagine myself as Raven.
(Which helped a lot when writing her character)
Unfortunately, I have a very good imagination.
And, soon, Raven's traits stuck to me.
I became more and more like her.
Which lead to my insatiable hunger for TT fanfics.
As well as my fantasies (nonsexual, people) from Raven's P.O.V.
Recently, I've begun to realize how this...thing...has taken over my life.
As I am going into my senior year, I've noticed my classmates' close friendships.
Friendships I've never had because of my separation from them.
I had acted as Ravn would, though my true self leaked out from time to time.
This made many of my classmates not like me, since they couldn't understand me.
One minute I'd be a loner, gothic even.
The next, I'd be wild, bubbly, and fun.
(I shouldn't use Raven to describe my goth self...that's part of the real me.)
Anyways.
Before I go, I just need to say.
I love you guys.
I've met many friends through this site.
All of you are very good writers.
But you need to offer BETA services to new fic'ers.
Please, they're the next generation.
Don't just flame them, tell them what's wrong and offer to help.
Be nice to your fellow writers.
Respect their pairings and their humor.
And don't act so damn arrogant just because you've been on here longer!
I'm going to miss all of you, so, so, so much.
Esspecially Nerdsavvy, since she's one of my favorites.
(You know it too!)
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Please keep in touch with me, all of you.
(Pm me for details)
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I'm going to keep this profile up until September, then it's going to be deleted.
If you want some of my stories to stay up, you can repost them under your name.
But I'm through with this site.
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I need to get ready for college.
I need to be ready for the real world.
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There are no Teen Titans.
I am not Raven.
I am not a superhero.
I am not dating anyone of importance.
Nor does my boyfriend have green or metallic skin.
I can no longer play in Jump City.
Or Endsville
Or any other Make Believe land.
I am a 17 year-old who needs to establish her personality.
I need to grow up.
And I need to start now.
Goodbye Fanfic'ers.
Enjoy your fun while you can.
But, I need a taste of the real world.
I need to LIVE!
For one last time,
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Love,
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SpiderSquirrel.
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