Original works at:

http://www.fictionpress.com/~tarshil

Why is my penname Tarshil? I created this account when I was seventeen and back then I read mostly Final Fantasy 7 fanfiction, and I thought the character Reno's last name was Tarshil...I never got to know whether it's true or fan made. But I stick with it.

I'm seriously obsessed with Devil May Cry now and my passion for Death Note is dwindling! It happens. But I plan to finish the stories I have up of course--it is my duty. Without question it’s all Yaoi/Slash. I'm a woman who thinks two men are better than one (wink).

Fellow Death Note fans I must tell you now, before you delve into my stories...a bottoming L makes me cringe. My story Anathema might contain a bit for the sake of realism, but only slight (shudders). L's my favorite character because he is comically the typical insensitive, sarcastic male slob with very odd quirks--but one who believes (unlike Raito) that to be kind is to be just. Hear hear! My fictional idol.

I also started a Gravitation fic because it's such a wonderfully sweet and humorous manga with great characters. Maki Murakami deserves to be worshipped and every writing fan needs to pay her tribute. Shuichi and Yuki are just lovable and endearing.

And I dabble in the Prydain realm now and then. Lloyd Alexander's Chronicles of Prydain are perhaps the only fiction in existence that I've been a devote fan of with consistent passion since I was twelve. I'm a bit wary of writing for this fandom since most of it's authors are amazingly talented but inspirational. I have a few stories--slice-of-life little works--but I don't dare write anything profound just yet until I have grown confident in my talents. As for Lloyd Alexander (rest in peace) he will always be an unwitting mentor that has guided me through childhood with his remarkable wisdom and enkindled my passion for writing.

Like him, I'm currently writing a book inspired by the world around me--though it is not fantasy. I have a piece of it published in Fictionpress.com. For anyone interested, the link is above.

A little insight to my Death Note stories:

Smiling Serpent is my first Death Note fic. I wrote it before I finished reading and watching it but I think it came out decent. Being a lover of ancient history and myths I found a great many symbols in Death Note and incorporated a little of my knowledge into the relationship between L and Raito. The Egyptian god Osiris was one of the earliest gods of Light and Sun. He was killed by his evil brother Set and resurrected into a God of Death with the help of his wife Isis and the God of the Underworld Anubis--which reflects the ancient Egyptian belief that after we die we are reborn as Gods (if the life one leads is a righteous one).

L ponders the irony of Raito's existence, his own secret feelings for his enemy and the grief of never having had the courage to act on them--as well as his impending doom. I sort of got this sense in the rooftop scene shown in the Anime--which is unfortunately absent from the manga.

Anathema is an accursed thing, in this case the Death Note to Justice. Kira to L. One man's omnipotent control to the rest of the Human Race. It's going to be a very long time before I finish this. And though it is Yaoi, it starts at a very moderate pace in order to break the wary tension between Raito and L during the two months between Raito's release from confinement and the discovery of Yotsuba. After Yotsuba the crossroad emerges where Raito makes the decision to change or not. Of course any choice is altered by his reoccurring visions which lead to the revelation of a secret society born from an ancient Death Note that seeks to capture Kira.

The theme of Death Note and the questions it proposes have much in common with many occult aspirations--much like Kira's. The search for godliness, control, justice, power, etc. Not likely to be Ohba's intention but my own interpretation.

And so I cobbled up this humble little story. The occult themes are rather meek since I know most of the readers are very young and won't understand their complexities nor care to.

Divine Command is the meta-ethical theory that states ethical propositions are God's unobjectionable command and independent of individual opinion. The story is a slight AU in that a single element, not conceived by Ohba, changes the circumstance which ends the battle between L and Raito. This single factor which did not deter Raito in the original storyline comes to play in Divine Command. Raito loses to L and is sent to a Psychiatric hospital, diagnosed with Malignant Narcissism, where he meets his psychiatrist with questionable motives and a psychopath who becomes an ally in his plot to escape the insane asylum, and take his revenge on L...

By destroying all political and religious leaders, seating himself as God over Humanity and creating his Utopia--once L is out of the picture. It is severely Yaoi.

Paradise is from L's first person perspective so that readers get to see another side to him; the angry, passionate, remorseful and pain-stricken side that he hides so well. As he dies, he contemplates his immoral relationship with Raito and his regret in having been incapable of saving him. I should imagine watching a loved one destroy himself with delusions of grandeur and mislead righteousness would tear at anyone's heart--especially when dying in said beloved's arms.

This is just what I wonder it would be like for L in such horribly bleak last moments.

Paradise Lost is the sequel to Paradise written in Raito's first person point of view as he lays dying, reflecting the dynamic emotions he underwent during his time with L and after L's death.

That's all for now, kiddies. Namaste.