Hi...

I love reading and writing fan fiction...

I'm 30 and i have 4 kids,and i hail from a little island named Tasmania that can be found at the bottom of Australia.

Reading is my favorite pastime,i don't get to write as often as i like because the muses don't hit me much anymore since i had my youngest child...

Just want to say to all of you not to lose hope,and to keep on writing,as there is always hope that things will improve...

Update: 17-02-09

I used to be known as Winchestergal78 But i thought i should change my name, seeing as i haven't been interested in Supernatural apart from just watching it for the longest time now... Mostly into WWE now, but i do dabble in reading SGA and SG1 fics still. I cant write for nuts anymore, I get a great idea, then cant get the damn thing to go on paper (or the computer) the way that i want it, and it all sounds stupid. So for now, it all stays in my head! lol

Update : 03-03-08

So, i know this isn't really an area for blogs. But as i was pushing my ex-boyfriend out the door tonight, trying to get him to go home because i don't want him staying with me, i had some thoughts i wanted to share with you all (those of you who find my profile interesting enough to read it anyway lol

As some of you might realize, i come from Australia. To be precise, the little apple shaped state that falls right underneath Victoria, where Black Saturday just recently happened, with upwards of 210 people dying in a mass bushfire in the state.

My ex was sitting and bitching and complaining about how sick he feels tonight, and i was looking at photos of the bush fires, and the devastation that has ensued from people losing their lives, homes, and everything they own.

For those who are interested, this is the link i was looking at the photos on http://www.abc.net.au/news/events/bushfires/ (Warning, some photos are extremely poignant, and i have to have tissues handy when i look at them)

I was saying to him that i would be praying for the people that were in danger from the latest bush fires that are still burning. There are over 2,200 firies out there still fighting 4 major fires tonight, with winds expected to hit tomorrow that are going to be around 150 km/h, and temperatures in the high 30s (celcius)

All he could say in reply was that he has his own problems to worry about, without worrying about them. This has taught me two very important life lessons... The first one is that im glad i broke up with the asshole, and while we have to remain friends for the kids sake, he shows himself to be a real bastard sometimes, tonight being one of those times.

The second thing is that we can always spare a thought for someone else. I feel really bad tonight myself, i am getting the flu again, my blood pressure is playing up, i have a huge blister on my finger, and i have heartburn that would drop an elephant. But to me, its nothing. I would much prefer to have these things, rather than be in danger of losing my home, my belongings, or worst of all, my life.

I think that the people who have no thoughts, no feelings, no sympathy for the recent victims of these bush fires, no sympathy for the ones who have to evacuate their homes tonight, the ones who have already evacuated their homes today - These people are pretty selfish. No thoughts for people who are obviously so much worse off than themselves.

Now don't get me wrong, i haven't yet met someone who doesn't have sympathy for these people, and i am in no way implying that anyone who reads my profile and this awfully long rant is one of those people either, because im sure you all aren't. This is just to illustrate a point really i guess, of how much i feel my ex is in the wrong, and how i really wish that there was something more i could do for these poor people who have suffered so much loss, and the ones who are in danger of suffering so much loss again.

As i sit in my nice comfortable dining room, listening to the wind blow outside (whatever weather conditions are in Victoria generally affect us a lot too) I am very thankful for the fact that i sit here safely.

The Prime minister of Australia said something that i have been quoting him on ever since when the bush fires were at their height of devastation. "There but for the grace of God go I, because any of us could have been in this situation."

I totally agree with him. This is something that any of us could have been facing. I have seen floods over the years, been in the SES (State Emergency Service) and rescued people from waist deep water, i lived with floods every year in the same season, but never have i EVER seen fires so close as these people would have done. If these fires had have been here in Tasmania, the whole of the state could have gone up, because it is and has been tinderbox dry for weeks here. It wouldn't have been much of a stretch to say that this could have been us, reduced to ashes, caught in the breeze, never to be identified.

I'm going to stop rabbiting on now, and say that i got such a wonderful surprise when John Cena (the man which my daughter idolizes) came on before Smackdown this weekend just gone, and said his part about the fires. I thought that was such a beautiful touch from the WWE, and i applaud them for their thoughts of our country and the disaster that has befallen all of our kinsmen.

In closing, keep all of the firies, the people threatened with losing their homes, the people who have lost homes and loved ones in your thoughts, and send up a little prayer for them, wherever you may be. Because one day, we never know whether it will be us in this situation, facing the great loss.

I feel sorry for my ex. He doesn't possess the emotion necessary to realize the true meaning of life, which is caring about others, loving others, thinking about others. It shouldn't come to me as a shock after almost eleven years of hell on earth, but it does. I find it hard to even look at a photo from these fires, of these people who have suffered so much, yet he can sit there without any emotion and shun the thought of sending up a word of prayer for them, just a thought. Oh well, i guess it means i grew up, and came to my senses that i am not with him anymore...

I applaud anyone who has been through this rant and come out the other end. hugs to you all... And remember...

"THERE BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD GO I, IT COULD HAVE BEEN ANY OF US." - Kevin Rudd - 8th February 2008