look at me, i'm rare!

gender: male

gripes: anything that could rub me the wrong way (in short, everything, one day)

fandoms i peruse: ccs, naruto (don't know why, but the fanfics are better than the original), noir, read or die, full metal panic, fullmetal alchemist, ffIV(shrugs, i like the game), fire emblem, tamora pierce, and teen titans (cartoon and comics)

main gripes concerning fanfiction: poorly written (i.e. unbearable grammar mistakes, spelling mistakes), poorly plotted, and worst of all, a combination of poorly written, poorly plotted fics. if a fic is very well plotted, i sometimes overlook the poorly written part, especially if the poorly writ stuff pops up rarely.

things that are floating around my profile:

-stories: one for ccs, two for tamora pierce (though it is crossovered with many other thingamajigs) a retelling of fire emblem 7 (i really feel sain should get more loving... that's why, sainxfemtactician... don't look at me like that...), a one-shot of teen titans centering around raven and bb and now a reservoir doing various things with various characters (but still mainly rae and bb), and another doo-hickey for teen titans.

-sung in harmony: the largest thing i have (this thing will eventually start up again...) and it just won't stop growing. i'm afraid it would span at least three fics. i'm scared.

-favorites: you'll find some of the stuff there are from fandoms that i haven't put down in 'fandoms i peruse'. mainly, this is because i don't go to those fandoms frequently.

random stuff:

"i bit the bullet, it tore me to pieces but i bit it, that's all that matters."

"perfect is nothing, because nothing is perfect."

"we don't hate change, we just hate the fact there is a changing period, the limbo between the current stability and the final change towards a new stability. in short, hiccups suck."

"there are many truths in this world and not all of them agree with each other- but that doesn't make any one of them any less true than the other."

"there can't be a hell, hell can't exist. god loves us too much for that, right?"

"emotions are pointless, but we have them anyway and in the end they're all that really matters."

"love doesn't conqueor all and it doesn't fix everything. with that said and done, it's still a nice consolation."

"there never was a beginning, and there will never be an end. there are only transitions, countless, countless transitions. and they're all painfully beautiful."

some quotes (because it's the 'in' thing):

"You don't stop laughing because you grow old. You grow old because you stop laughing." ~Michael Pritchard

“Sin lies only in hurting other people unnecessarily. All other "sins" are invented nonsense. (Hurting yourself is not sinful - just stupid).” -- Robert A. Heinlein

"We don't have fights; we just disagree with flair" ~paraphrased from Danver (ff writer)

"Kung-Fu. Hard work over time to accomplish skill. A painter can have kung-fu. Or the butcher who cuts meat every day with such skill his knife never touches bone.
Learn the form, but seek the formless. Hear the soundless. Learn it all, then forget it all. Learn The Way, then find your own way.
The musician can have kung-fu, or the poet who paints pictures with words and makes emperors weep. This, too, is kung-fu.
But do not name it, my friend, for it is like water. Nothing is softer than water yet it can overcome rock. It does not fight. It flows around the opponent.
Formless, nameless, the true master dwells within. Only you can free him."
- Martial artist and actor Jackie Chan as Lu Yan, and martial artist and actor Jet Li as The Silent Monk in the movie "The Forbidden Kingdom"

"Thoughts have great power, they are like seeds you plant in your mind. The more you hold onto a particular thought, the more power you invest in it. Positive thoughts give us energy and strength. Negative thoughts rob us of power and make us feel tired and strained. We are by nature positive. Negativity is the result of faulty thinking. You can change if you want to. You can't control other people, situation or circumstances, but you can control what is going on inside you. It takes time to change and transform those old patterns of thinking. Be patient with yourself. It starts with a thought... Today!"

Letting Go of Sorrow
If I allow bitterness and resentment to fester inside, it will make my relationships guarded and unsatisfying. The more I close down to others, the more I become a stranger to myself. By letting go of sorrow and negativity, I can keep my nature open and loving. Remaining open to life, with its constant adventures and opportunities to grow, is the only way to reach my full potential. -unknown

Love
"The greatest love of all is not to have one love you truly.
The greatest love of all is to be one who loves all truly."
- stonepeace

"The goal of practice is not to obtain miraculous powers but to transform our being, as to easily generate mental calmness and deep vision." - Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalaï-lama

Knowledge and Will
"Knowing is not enough. We must apply. Willing is not enough. We must do." - Bruce Lee

"In the first stage, man and sword are interchangeable. Here, even a blade of grass can be used as a lethal weapon. In the next stage, the sword resides not in the hand but in the heart. Even without a weapon, the warrior can slay his enemy from a hundred paces. But the ultimate ideal is when the sword disappears altogether. The warrior embraces all around him. The desire to kill is gone. Only peace remains." - Actor Chen Dao Ming as the King of Qin in the movie "Hero"

"A man with outward courage dares to die. A man with inward courage dares to live." - Lao-Tzu

Of life and death...
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush.
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight of night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
- Native American Prayer, Author unknown

Less
A rich person is not someone who has more, but someone who desires less. -unknown

"Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find anything that agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it."
- Siddhartha Gautama (The Buddha), 563-483 B.C.

notations:

music: apparently, people are curious about the stuff i listen to. so, to make things simple, i will tell you straight off the bat that i listen to what my brother listens to. why, you ask. well, simply because our tastes gel. so here's a blog of his, focusing entirely on music, good taste, and audioware. bon apetit! www.tomorrowafterthewar.blogspot.com

TT-OM: i'm beginning to really scare myself. this thing was supposed to be a fun little jaunt through a cartoon/comic book/superheroes with super powers thing that was all laughs and giggles. it's still laughs and giggles, but the things i'm dreaming up for it are weird. lambda drives, hard suits, warp coils- even the green lantern. and that's not mentioning merlin, lord of the rings, jackie chan adventures and MIB... i am going to have so much fun.

TT-ICH: Language Arts, the Lu and Lu Bros meet Trigon, Boy Talk, Slade and Pedophilia. hmm, what else was there...?, Honorbound, Color, Apologizing, Loving too Hard

The Thing About Pairings: why bother? it's their life, and if someone comes up to me and tells me i'm meant for someone, i'd eye 'em warily and slowly back away. leave it alone peeps, they're not real! no need to hurt some poor bloke's feelin's over some imaginary characters' feelings! don't make sense at all... jeez!

emotions: you can't control them, you can only control how you react to them. if you don't know that, well...

There is Power

can you feel it - flowing through you, around you, within you

can you feel it - molding you, undoing you, completing you

it is everything and nothing

obscure precision

it tears you apart only to

put you together again

everywhere and nowhere

trickling gently into all

without a trace

thriving within dreams

living within substance

dying within moments

taste it on the dew

feel it in the breeze

sear it into the eye

A LITTLE MORE ON TT:

it's weird, but i don't like raven the most out of the titans. i like beast boy. it's really funky. i know raven is a tragic character, but i think it's much easier to mope than to actually try despite past experience, despite the odds. i think it takes real courage to plaster a smile on your face and race into the new day despite disappointment after disappointment. and best of all, i love his defense mechanism. jokes rock!

i know raven is strong, with a background like hers, she has to be to still be alive. she has to be empty of emotion. she has to be distant. but i think she's only fooling herself. you can't control how you feel. it doesn't work that way. you'll feel no matter what you do. you can't control your impulses. it's how you react to those feelings, those impulses that you can control.

starfire freaks me out. she's genuinely nice and genuinely good. she has a sht load of crap happen to her but she still hasn't lost her innocence and wide eyed wonder and curiosity. trust and optimism. the cynic in me can't stand her. seriously. he kind of shrivels up and dies a little inside whenever he's faced with her. then he throws a tantrum and raises all kinds of ruckus which really is annoying.

cyborg. big brother. kind compassionate and open. falls for a chick that's currently fossilized at best and a girl that was on the other side of the law. i like him. he's cool, but i was always into the more svelte mech designs myself. a leaner, meaner fighting machine. less bulk, more sleek. there is so much that you could do with a guy that's half machine. not only that, but the supplementation of his organic parts, not to mention the chemistry involved in keeping him alive, is a gold mine for pseudo science.

robin always, unfailingly, brings up an uncontrollable urge to rip things into pieces. something about him sets me off in a way that i really don't like. i'm sorry robin fans, but he does. i don't hate him, but i always, always like to see him squirm. i loved the episode 'Stranded' not because of the robstar elements of it, but because poor robbie was so out of his element. it brought me great joy and delight. something about him seems superhuman and we don't see him falling enough. he seems too /perfect/ and i can't stand that. i also liked 'Masks' and the 'Apprentice' episodes for that too.

Let it be known that I, feifiefofum, have need of a beta for my story Old Magicks. If anyone is ineterested, contact me. Oh, and by the by, I'm thinking about rewriting it too. heh.