Hey, guys, I've been getting questions, and I know it's been years. It's nice to know that I'm missed (most authors seemed to get pissed when readers ask why they haven't updated/when they will, I think it's sweet!)

I'm not going to be writing anymore on fanfiction, if you must know, my life is busy with school and after school activities, so sorry to the people reading that Halloween story of mine. I'm not that big a fan of Teen Titans anymore, making it even less likely (if it were likely at all) for me to update. It isn't the story of TT, it's just that the whole RaeBB against the TerraBB thing is just obnoxious, and the fans hate each other, and it seems like a war, and I think its TOO much for me to handle, I don't want to hate someone because they like a different couple than me... I mean, it's a cartoon show. I think that one of the reason why I hated the RaeBB couple so much was because of those "reviews" that I would get for my stories. They would insult both me and my writing simply because I coupled certain characters (they would say stuff like "no one who supports TerraBB should be writing anything or be allowed to think"), and yeah, I snapped. Those few people really don't reflection the others who support the RaeBB couple, even though I felt like they did.

I think that I am much better now than I was back when I wrote fanfiction. I'm happier now, and no longer lashing out at people simply because they exist. The truth is that I want to completely forget the girl who I was years ago, which isn't possible no matter how much I wish. The things I said and ways I acted were out of line and I cringe every time I think about them and how they must have affected the people around me. I wasn't realizing that some people really care; I was focusing on the people who seemed to (and still do) hate me. I was a mess and falling apart, and trying to take down as many people as I could in the process.

I'm not the girl who I was at all, even though the memories linger. Could one beleive that my favourite colour is now pink, and that black no longer has much appeal to me (I make exceptions with shoes, purses, and jackets as long as they suit my fashion tastes)? Colours are wonderful, people! There are so many to choose from (not to mention, I eventually realized that I look aweful in black; the blond hair and super-pale skin do not match at all; pink looks better). I try to be nice to people now; I actually put in a visible effort; however, my patience only extends as far as that of any other person (aka, continue to annoy and pester me and I will eventually snap, and it isn't pretty). I love my parents now, and I realize that they know the best course for me. I was just too much of a stupid preteen to realize it. Life is good. I get out of bed each day looking forward to it (except for test and exam days; I worry about those souls who look forward to such days).

Some people might wonder: If you aren't calling yourself "Gothic" anymore, then what are you? The answer: I no longer stereotype myself. I do not fit into any of the stereotypes, to start, and they're stupid. I am me, and I am learning about who I am, and I won't know exactly who I am for many years. I don't fit neatly into the teenage label puzzle; nobody does. I'm just a teenage girl who has the same basic teenage worries as everyone else, with the same problems and most of the same solutions. There isn't a specific classification for me, I'm not gothic. I don't think I ever really was gothic, I just kept telling myself that I was because I wanted to belong somewhere and be something different. I was just extremely troubled.

I don't hate myself anymore; that girl is gone. She's faded away to a mere shadow in the back of my mind, hopefully to never resurface again. I love myself now, and I love other people.

It's nice to know that some people care, to those who read that!

Update 8-22:

About me, now? I love musicals.

What musicals? Les Miserables, Sweeney Todd, The Phantom of the Opera, Rent, Chicago, Wicked, In the Heights, to name a few...

I love books (several off the top of my head, I love many more than this): Twilight, Maximum Ride, Wicked Lovely, Tithe, Outlander, Pants on Fire, Airhead, Tale of Two Cities, the Host, many more!

Favourite top-of-the-head Movies: Legally Blonde, Pirates of the Carribean, Marie Antoinette, Lady Jane, those old Disney animated musicals, Scary Movie 3, Tristan & Isolde (however inacurate to the original story), Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Sleepy Hollow, etc...

What ticks me off? (things I will most likely rant at): People on fanfiction who use AIM-speak, or have horrible grammar, terrible spelling, wrong information, etc... If one is going to write on Fanfiction, at least pretend to be educated, please.

What annoys me? (things I most likely will attempt to react kindly to): Cross overs. Please, if Stephenie Meyer and James Patterson characters were meant to mingle, the authors would have made it so. Crossing over simply isn't right. Unexperienced "writers" also annoy me; if you are going to write on FanFiction, it would be best to know the basic format: there is a new paragraph for every new speaker, children, and commas/semicolons are our friends. It also helps if one knows the definition of the large word one is inserting into the fic. Most common word that I have seen misused: inevitable. My recommendation is that, if you don't know the format of writing, consult the actual book; observe when the author starts new paragraphs.

-ShadowCatMage13