1651 Monday, 18 January 2010:

Can't explain the absence, really. Mostly: Writer's block, and I haven't been the internet in about forever and a month and a half. That's mathematically impossible, obviously, but that's what it feels like.

Just to make sure I still have it, I backed up my profile previous to now, so later when I really get more active here, I can kind of restart some of that stuff.

About me: There's the simple version and the more accurate long version. I'll include neither. I was born in Saint-Étienne, France in mid-1988. I moved to Michigan, USA, at the tender age of 3 or so, I forget. I grew up on Grand Blanc, Michigan, and stuff have friends there. I forgot my French before long, and now, my native language and I are strangers to one another. :( It's too bad. About 2 years ago I moved, not entirely cuz I wanted to leave the cold, depressingly ever-grey state of MI, to El Paso, Texas. I have had hardcore writer's block since before leaving Michigan. It's very dry here, and while it isn't again, yet, as of today, it's also very hot. Living in EP also means that I live within a stone's-throw (distance) of Ciudad Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico - where a lot of that border violence is, and has been since around when I got here, happening. Anderson Cooper came here. Last Friday 18 people got killed in one day. Excuse me for mentioning something depressing. And I haven't even brought up the situation in Haiti, which is just as bad.

I'm working on quite a few things at the moment. One novel (it's become that long), I may post here or maybe at FictionPress. More likely here, but I have no idea where to post it yet. What I mean by that is the most clear place to put it would be under Parasite Eve (Parasaito ivu - パラサイト・イヴ), the single most significant inspiration for the book, but I don't think there's very good chance it would get attention there. So where else? I don't know. But I'm going to try to be as active as I can here - well, get much more active - and if I happen to deal with nice, giving people, some of my stuff may get some attention, which is all I really would ask for.

Also: I got stalled, but I'm working on a screenplay called 28 Months Later..., of course part of the 28 Later series. It appears unlikely that Danny Boyle will push through the actual 28 Months that he wants to because 28 Weeks didn't do that well, which is very sad, but maybe he will. (I know a lot about the film biz; and learn as much more as I can every day. That really wasn't a very good run, for 28 Weeks, but I really wish it had been better. The movie's opening gambit sequence alone makes it worth it. In all fairness...it was up against Spider-man 3 and all the power of media giant Sony, so what do you expect, Fox! I mean, come on. The movie didn't have anything like Spider-man's marketing money behind it. In defense of Spider-man, though - it was the bad one. Weeks probably should've been more successful. But it broke the rules of the Infection way too many times to be credible even within itself so I won't pretend I'm all that upset.) Regardless of whether that happens, the whole point of my writing 28 Months Later... is because I set out to write something better than whatever the real 28 Months would be, because...well I won't comment on 28 Weeks because it would be far too easy, but the basic fault of the two-movie series is that for everything cool about it, and its ideas - which are very, very awesome - there are all these damn faults in the two, even in the basic execution of the filmmaking, to say nothing of the story and plot theirselves, which are flawed as well. I love that the protagonists and antagonists are all British. And yeah I realize that within terms such as those, for some of the movie in 28 Weeks Later, the English kids and their dad Robert Carlyle are the antagonists to the American, US Army's protagonists (which is odd), but that's not the part of the movie I'm talking about - I mean, ultimately, that it's Brit survivors versus Brit infected. But as I said I got stuck in writing my 28 Months Later... - writer's block.

I don't really consider myself a writer, but it really, really helps me to try to exercise the storytelling muscles. I also talk funny, and writing in prose form helps me try to figure out why I talk funny, and maybe (it's highly unlikely, but still) someone will write a nice review of something I do and identify, or at least help me identify, whatever is wrong with how I talk, so I can stop talkin' so funny.

-- I'm going to work in film, specifically direct but also be a "cameraguy" and director of photography (DP), and at least work on the writing of things I do.

What I mean to suggest by that is I want to tell stories. I'm not the best author-type-writer I've ever encountered, in terms of writing stories, novellas, short stories, novels, whatever else. I'm not the worst. I check my spelling, I'm extremely deliberate in my grammar and don't make mistakes - tho I make occasional typos - and unlike most other authors I'm aware of, including nationally- and internationally-popular ones like Vince Flynn or the unfortunate, misguided Resident Evil novel-series' author Stephani Danelle Perry (I'll check that spelling later but I think it's right), I at least do research, talk to people who know what they're doing, etc., and make it a point to know what the fuck I'm talking about. Contrary to that last sentence I also pretty much don't sweat, just as a person, although if you were with me for a 48-hour period a couple times, I might be caught doing it...a bit. I don't blaspheme.

There are plenty of other things I'm working on. For example, I strongly want to rewrite what I had for the rest of my story here, BioHazard, and post the rest of it, i.e. complete it. I think people who read it, and people who have read it in the past (but of course not been able to read to its finish), would really like it. I just hate some of the specifics of the things I wrote and have to redo it. Drat. I can't remember anything else I'm working on.

Please excuse the wordiness above. My main goal: Become active on FanFiction, and FictionPress, once again! It can be difficult to wade through the things on both of these sites that I do not like, and the fact that FP calls everything a fanfic because the coding from FF wasn't changed for the sister-site, but for all the...let's say "fluff", I love very many things about both of these sites. One story, really a novel, I encountered here was better than anything else I've found here or on FP, and it was also better than many novels I've read by big professional names in the fiction publishing realm. I won't name names, but the story here, which has since been removed, but which I luckily backed up on my computer long before its deletion, was by James Malone, and if I remember right its title was The Four Horseman of the Post-Apocalypse. It was a Fallout-series fanfiction. It was incredible, but not without some faults. Speaking directly its faults were just additional details about stuff that helped in my immersion of the story, but they were admittedly add'l details that weren't quite necessary. I've talked with James a few times, but that was a long time ago. I'm really curious what he's been up to - and why he deleted Four Horsemen, too.

Lately, I've really been enjoying Obsidian Productions' Doom stories (I link to the first cuz I recommend you start there, if you're going to; note that I have not read any of his side-profile stories - those under "Obsidian Thirteen", a new profile). I have my critiques of them, and of course haven't reviewed to show my support or anything, yet, but I don't exactly preoccupy myself with thinking about them whilst reading them. Until my Xbox 360 broke a couple weeks ago, I was also really into the game Dead Space, and care of some favorite-ing by Obsidian Productions, I'm also enjoying Leks Bronks' Homecoming I: One Known Survivor. Somehow it makes me feel odd reading that - by a person who also wrote a one-off porn scene in the same Dead Space videogame's (I consider that one word) mythology, but its author is a 31-year-old female, so it shouldn't seem odd - I don't know why I feel odd about it. "Consider the source," seems like, but "Homecoming I" is still good. A little obvious at times, and the chapter titles suffer from the same affliction...But whatev. I have seen much worse, and that stuff in Homecoming I at least don't irritate me (some things I have come across, as implied, have just irritated me. Seems to happen a lot when I try to find something good, creepy, and so on, in the Silent Hill section. Silent Hill #1 is one of my absolute favorite games.)

My favorite of favorites varies some, but it's basically DoubleBananaBabe, or Morbid Morsels at FictionPress. Sometimes the list includes the TREX (I genuinely like him, but occasionally the specifics of his prose - the way he writes - wear down my patience. But he got way better from the beginning of "Chambered" to later on.) In the pantheon are people I hope I can, like, get to know better and actually be friends with, Cheah and Typewriter King. I also like everything I've read by ClayPigeon12 (everytime I write or type his penname down, that's what I write, why stop now.) but he's a bit of a mess and I'm concerned he thinks he's a little better than he is. That's no condemnation or anything, I'm just saying how I feel, which I know will be gossip to some - but nobody reads my profile so what do I care.

I should probably include this link to my FictionPress profile. I really need a better profile pic/avatar there, I'll try to do something about it soon.

Carradine

My name is Keith.

/edit: 1749: Ha! I just changed my FP avatar to something better. I gotta quit this for now, I have stuff to do.