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Author has written 19 stories for Matrix, Constantine, and House, M.D.. It's been quite a while since I first created this profile, and since I've been honored enough to have quite a few people reading the things I've been writing, lately, I thought it might be time to update it a little. Me? Well, on the surface it doesn't look like there's a whole lot to say. I write software for a living, have written two PC games(the latest here: gnosis(dot)truthofthespoon(dot)net(slash)Synchronisma.html) and do a lot of web design for a contract coding agency, and have the same pitfalls and passions as anyone else: we all bleed, after all. On the inside... well, that's a different story. I'm what you might call one of those "crazy-insane-headvoice-soulbonder people"; although I've come to loathe the term "soulbond" over the past three years or so. My website, linked above, explains a better definition; the "Matrix" memoirs below help pick up some of the pieces; and the stories I've written for House, M.D. might explain the rest. Suffice it to say that I seem to be not the only one sharing my headspace lately, and people tend to either think I'm crazy and should -- to quote one random stranger -- "go die", or they seem or hear or feel the truth in the things I say, and accept that if I had any reason to lie, or were gaining anything at all from being who I am, I'd have a load of money in the bank and a far less worrisome life. Not whinin'; just sayin'. There's a saying that's so painfully cliche that it's like literary diarrhea: "I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not", and even though I should be too old at 29 to use such an achingly pitiful example, it's nothing but the truth. Anyone who wants more information can easily contact me -- I have absolutely nothing to hide -- on Livejournal or via e-mail, etc., and I'm always willing to talk. I really thought about putting a smaller explanation of the 'bonding phenomenon here: I used to have a foolish dream that someday, like DID, it'd be simply mainstream theory or metaphysics instead of a reason for total strangers to send me death threats. But it's just a part of who I am; and if anyone really wants to know more, I'm here. Simple as that. What else? I play the piano, guitar, drums and (badly)violin; I used to compose and sing rock music up until a few years ago, even played in quite a few clubs in various cities and states. I've visited seven countries and almost every state, have moved five times in the last year and a half, and oh yeah: I'm disabled. I'll spare you the sad details, except for the irony that I know what it's like to have a bum leg and walk with a cane, and struggle for pain relief in a paranoid time. Among other things, I'm busy trying to make use of the time I have. Why I'm here? That's in the website, too. Why Greg's here... is anyone's guess, although I'm in the process of taking several paths in my life at the moment to make sure that if I can help it, I can maybe keep other people from having to fight the same battles I did. I'm also happily engaged to my wonderful fiancee, think a certain House "fandom" BNF is overrated, love my dog and have a whole slew of bizarre habits that I'm too damn tired to list here. I also am a music whore, for everything from blues to rock to jazz, Ryan Adams to Nirvana and AC/DC, Kiss and the Stones and the Pistols to Cake and Massive Attack, the Pixies, Miles Davis, A Perfect Circle, Dave Brubeck, Leonard Cohen, REM, the Jim Carroll Band, Fleetwood Mac, Rage Against the Machine, Thelonius Monk, Bush, Matchbox 20, Evanescence, Ani DiFranco, Marilyn Manson, Sisters of Mercy, Eminem... the list goes on and on. I've always got tunes playing somewhere. To all of the wonderful authors and readers out there: thank you so much. You've made it worth it, and you've given me a whole lot of joy in these last few months. I'd keep doing it if only to know that I'm making people happy. (I got a review the other day saying that if the person failed their exams the morning they read Dressed to Kill, it'd be on my head; that was one of the greatest feedbacks of all time. ) The rest... well, I guess you'll have to ask. Either one of us. >_> | |||||||
1. Royal Flush reviewsRed. It's red he remembers from that moment on: the red of her dress, the scarlet fire of last minute flowers. Red, like that lipstick she wears that drives him insane, like the printed tabs on the folders she'd handed him what now seemed a lifetime ago.House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - General/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,252 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 6-25-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete2. Six Degrees of Something » reviewsSix chronological snapshots into the mind of Greg House: the lessons we take from life aren't always the ones life wants us to learn... or the ones other people want us to have.House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 6 - Words: 3,103 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 6-25-06 - G. House - Complete3. Haunted reviewsIt’s always there, that little orange bottle. On the edge of the sink, maybe, or when it’s really bad you leave it on your nightstand for easy reach in the night. Like a shadow, like a memory that’s always just out of reach.House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,399 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 6-23-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete4. Dressed to Kill reviewsThey never touch. They never admit a single damn thing. But they both know desperation all too well... and sometimes, for just a moment, they exist outside that world: when they risk losing everything.House, M.D. - Rated: M - English - General/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,230 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 6-22-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete5. Faded Edges reviewsFor thirty years he's been convinced he's a disappointment: and doesn't care. She knows better. But sometimes the secrets people keep aren't the things that hurt us. House 1st person POV.House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - General/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,153 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 6-22-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete6. As the World Turns reviewsBecause when we make mistakes, people die. She thinks she's clever. He thinks he's right. And they have always been able to see right through each other.House, M.D. - Rated: K+ - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 547 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 6-20-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete7. One Touch reviewsGregory House can't stand Lisa Cuddy. But just sometimes, he remembers that he loves her.House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 737 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 6-20-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete8. The Fire Between reviewsThe people we grow to love often understand us far better than the people that raised us and honor is a matter of choice. He thinks he's a disappointment. She knows better.House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - General/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,323 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 6-20-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete9. Intact reviewsYou might not be able to fix being broken. But shame doesn't have to come with the territory. And once you've watched pity replace lust, you learn fast.House, M.D. - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 946 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 6-20-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete10. Sacrifices reviewsHe'll fucking walk, and if there's no more pain there's no more Vicodin, no more pitying looks or screaming matches in her office, if he can walk she'll believe he doesn't really hate her and maybe, she'll give him a chance to love her.House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,653 - Reviews: 20 - Published: 6-20-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete11. Your Hand Would Be With Me reviewsWhisper in the dark, and everything changes. Say something bitter in rage, and what if it's the last thing you ever say to them? Lying may be a constant, but so is death, and to Lisa Cuddy that's the biggest cheat of them all. Sequel to previous story.House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - Suspense/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,802 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 5-25-06 - L. Cuddy & G. House - Complete12. We Have Dreamed Too Little reviews...when our dreams have come true because we have dreamed too little. Pain is a barrier – it keeps love out. But when it comes down to a matter of survival for Greg House when he crosses accidental paths with death, is it enough?House, M.D. - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,383 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 5-22-06 - G. House & L. Cuddy - Complete13. Falling With Exquisite Grace » reviewsThe things we fear have the power to free us: those in the clothes of an enemy, often those who touch us. Post war, when the peace is merely a ceasefire bought and paid for in blood, Neo's battle is an uphill one. Slash warning: and not what you'd expect.Matrix - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 12,637 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 1-25-06 - Neo & Merovingian - Complete14. The Evil Takes Advantage reviewsWhen you're the only one who can see the evil, the evil takes advantage. Thirteen, locked up for 'seeing monsters', who protects you when the monsters are in there with you? What is real, and what is simply you dying inside? Terror, unadulterated.Constantine - Rated: M - English - Drama/Supernatural - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,959 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 12-15-05 - Complete15. Zero Space reviewsYou have infinite power in your own dreams: but when the entire world is a dream, power is only the beginning. One, Zero, Alpha, Omega: when they collide... reality trembles. And it's FUN.Matrix - Rated: M - English - Adventure - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,795 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 3-3-05 - Smith, A. & Neo16. The End of All Things reviewsThe past is a vortex: we can never escape it. What happened on the Logos as they left for 01: from departure to the final, cataclysmic crash. Neo's narrative.Matrix - Rated: M - English - Angst/Adventure - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,290 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-2-05 - Neo & Trinity17. For Tomorrow reviewsSometimes, the greatest strength lies in losing control: and the greatest love lies in sharing that loss. Short, heart-deep "mini-fic" that cuts to the heart of absolute, unquestioning loyalty, and the unexpected ways one proves it. TrinityNeo.Matrix - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 927 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 12-18-04 - Trinity & Neo18. Pretty Masks reviewsWe deny to others the things we're most afraid of admitting to ourselves." Haunted is a word with many connotations. What does Neo keep dreaming of... and how can it be refused? Or... can it, in the end? A short wanna-be drabble.Matrix - Rated: M - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 559 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 11-28-04 - Smith, A. & Neo19. Only This and Nothing More reviewsAt the end of all things; at the beginning of something else. What Neo remembers, in the void: or wishes he could forget. Just read it...Matrix - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,310 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 10-19-04 - Neo & Trinity
