I'm going to describe myself via a text that I posted on my weblog and was originally in Dutch, becauseI live in Holland. I hope it gives you a general idea of me that is somewhere close to the actual me.

I have a lot of peaces in my head, cut with my brain scissors, so I'm going to tell you some things.

I wore my hair loose today and it was pretty. I really like Madonna's new cd. My favourite subject in school is Latin and I love my good friends, I really do. I was asked to writesomething for oursenior yearbook about our year. I'm going to study psychology. I think the song My Humps from the Black Eyed Peas is cool, but Sarah thinks the text is gross. I have the same opinion about Madonna's Hanky Panky, but I'm not bothered by dirty texts. Three times already I've decided to start talking proper Dutch. I like the forest close to my neighbourhood. I've lost myself in studying acetaminophen on my own and I think that's great. t.A.T.u. hasn't dissapeared from the face of earth after all and, although I think they aren't of very good quality, I can really appreciate their songs. My Sarah-Michelle-Gellar-calendar is beautiful and so are my posters. I'm going to eat more healthy food, I'm going to exercise more and I'm going to dofewerthings on my own that are useless anyway. I love writing so unbelievably much, and now I'm not dreading my Dutch writing exam about the shortage of prison cells in Holland anymore. I'm looking forward to my old school's ball and to St. Nicholas and Christmas. I enjoy being around somebody so much. I like to rhyme, said Mr. Mime. To smell of sweat yourself is annoying and others who have peanut butter breath are less attractive. My life exists of school, but I don't feel like a mindless automaton. I can cry while watching the Buffy episodes 5x22 The Gift, 7x05 Selfless and 7x22 Chosen or if I hear the Buffy and Angel love theme or the song of The Gift spontaneously. I'm giving myself lessings in radiating more self confidence. The carreer choice advisor thinks I shouldn't choose clinical psychology, because I don't look so rock solid. My sister thinks I shouldn't study psychology, because she asked me the rhetorical question if I saw myself as a psychologist. I'mless suspicious and paranoid than I used to be and I enjoy it. Contrary to what I used to say I do get angry sometimes. Anger is an emotion you can only have if you have self confidence, because otherwise you're always going to think that others are better and that they're right. My eyes always tear when I'm cycling and when I think about the fact that they could get wet. I love myself. I would like to be able to hear what other people think, but only when I want it and who I want to hear. Yesterday my feet were wet and hot with transpiration liquid and I've thrown a lot of T-shirt in the laundry already and that's because the sleeping bag in my room is so deliciously comfortable and very warm. I would to be able to read or hear all interesting truths or that nobody would lie to me. The oldest e-mail in my inbox is from ICQ and dates from March 29th 2003. I've become so unbelievably more open and social and people have never just pushed me down heartlessly. My physics teacher laughed when I told him my selfmade joke about the old photo camera. Saying things without thinking is better than not daring to say them. Everything is going to be alright and people will still love me. Sarah told me once when I didn't dare to go of the water slide in the Goffert pool that I think too much and she doesn't think enough. I've been in nine different classes, but I've never moved to another city. I've concluded from my own experience that I have a preference for brunettes, but blonde or red can also be so beautiful! The worst emotions are uncomfortability, guilt, shame and regret. The new Madonna cd is called Confessions on a Dancefloor. I don't dare to dance. I want to learn how to dance. I have a gene which stops me from being able to win, even when I'm better at something. I don't like pity, but when I was younger I used to try to fall off the stairs, because I wanted the attention. I stiffen when people stand in my aura, even when I like them. I'm less afraid. I would like to learn how to embrace people without freezing. NC-17 is not meant for my age. I would like to have a girlfriend, but I'm afraid to go to the Dito night. I become homesick when I'm without luxury and I don't like different cultures. I get angry at people who expect things from me without asking me for anything. I don't like to be push into having a specific emotion or into agreeing with someone, just because I'm not orally capable enough. I don't know how I'm going to survive this winter. I bruise easily.

My name is Loes. I'm 16 years old and I live in Holland. I hope you enjoyed my profile.