02-15-13 - If you already read the two posts below this, great, if not you can if you like. Yes, it is I. Yes, I am alive. Yes, life has continued to pass me by and yes...the world has kept revolving, even if I don't want it to. I have been very busy. I don't know if any of you have ever had to be an executor for someone's estate, but there's a lot more to it than I thought. Rather, it wouldn't be so hard if my asshole uncle didn't exist. He's a piece of work. I'd say that at least he can pass on my Grandfather's last name, except he never had kids. So he's a useless waste of space who never used his artistic talents for anything worthwhile. Sad. Anyway, my Gramps was smart to name my mom for the job and not him. But we have to inventory everything in he house, throw out the junk, get everything else appraised and then split it between my mom and uncle. We also have to pay him for half of the house and car. Yes, at my ancient age of 24, I will finally have a car. And car means able to get a better job. Yay or something. We hope to be moving in around May. May will also mark my, what, eighth year on this site. I have written...a little. We're looking forward to moving. It'll be...different. And I think that's what we need right now. I still don't believe in justice...I don't really believe in anything. But I'll keep moving forward-not because I really want to, but because I have to. You'll be sure to hear from me after I move. Life should get quite a bit better after we get out of this cramped little house. Wish me luck, guys. See ya soon.

04-14-12 - Read the entry below this, please, if you haven't yet. My grandfather passed away on 03-25-12, and now...now, this morning, my dad passed away. I...there are a lot of dark things about my life that I don't talk about and...those things are the reason I'm taking this so hard. Right now...I can't stop crying. I don't know what to think or what to do...all I feel is pain. There is no justice in this world. Happy endings don't exist. Life is full of agony and suffering...I have spent the past painful 11 years coming to this conclusion. I tried...I wanted to believe that, despite everything, things could still end up okay somehow...but I was wrong and I'll never be fooled again. This is reality...and I hate everything. I'll be moving soon...that's fine, I don't want to live here anymore anyway. When...if I get through this, I may finish writing, but for now...I can't face the happy endings that made...when all I see...is tragedy. I'm sorry, everyone. I'm sorry...

03-15-12 - Thank god the winter's mostly over. I like certain things about it, but other things(like walking to work) become a pain in the ass. As I promised(no pun intended, as I just updated my FFVIII story IP) I'd like to speak briefly about my semi-hiatus. Turns out that some pain in my Grandfather's back was actually a tumor in his lung. So now we've had our hands full since then, taking him to appointments, buying his groceries and doing all hir errands...it's been tough and extremely stressful. As predicted, radiation and chemo seem to make people worse before they make them better. It's like a game of "What will kill you first, the cancer or the treatment?". (I'm not implying that it is an actual game or is funny in any way, obviously.) He's 86, so it's been very hard on him. Not to mention other complications...but anyway, point is, I'm busy with that and pretty stressed out. Aside from that, I'm also on a semi-hiatus because...well, a lot of you are young, so you don't know yet, but...there gets to be a point in your life where you just...have to stop screwing around. Where you can't afford to do it anymore. I'm well past this point...I wish I had my dad's ability to just do whatever you need to do when you need to do it without thinking about it twice. But alas, although I look a lot like him and even laugh like him, I'm not lucky enough to be like him. (It was his Birthday on the 13th...Happy Birthday, Dad...) So here I am, trying to get serious and start really taking care of things...and failing left and right. I don't know how to not be influenced by my mood. In my life, well...there isn't much left to be happy or optimistic about. And I'm a pessimist by nature. Anyway, I'm trying to do all the things I've been avoiding all these years because it feels like things are...going to change soon. And probably not in a good way. I may end up moving if my Grandfather dies, I'm not sure. It's just a lot to handle. As far as writing goes, I will keep doing it, but I won't promise anything to be "next week" or even "soon". I'll just do the best I can. Also, it would probably be easier and more realistic for me to work on finishing one story at a time, starting with my oldest, which is I Promise. (It can get hard to change between settings and characters so much from one story to another) So I'm going to continue to work on that the most until it's finished. I'd like to say that if they remain so long, chapter 40 could be the last one. Not for sure, just sayin'. I'm certainly not religious(rather, I don't care for organized religion) and I don't know if any of you guys are, but if you guys could give a kind thought/prayer/whatever for my family, that would be nice...I hate seeing them struggle just as much as I am. If it was just me, I wouldn't ask...anyway, take care, friends. Hope to update again soon.

LEMON NOTE

NOTE ABOUT LEMON NOTE: I don't know if these links even work(so I removed them)...it's been a long time since I've touched AFF, so...sorry guys. In an ideal world, my stories would automatically publish themselves there with magic and raindows and all their goodies intact. But it takes time and things I don't have...I barely get around to updating my stories as is. So for now, you'll all just have to put up with messaging me to get the goods. Sorry.

UPDATED:

I am officially removing my ideas from this page. Most of them will probably never get written and I'd rather the ideas not be taken and written in a way that I probably would not approve of. I'll let you know what I'm working on or if I come up with something else. Such as: SOMETHING DEAD IS COMING BACK TO LIFE! Which would be an old FMA favorite An Incurable Pain-the rewrite! Details below. Feel free to question or comment through PM or email and I'll get back ASAP...a lot faster than I update. x_x

For Devil May Cry: 1 Story--In Some Kind of Progress--

For Death Note: 1 Story--In Some Kind Of Progress--

For Kingdom Hearts: 1 Story--In Progress--, 1 Story--Waiting--

My Sanctuary

Sequel to Simple and Clean, which will appear directly after that one is finished. Takes place during the second game. And who knows, by the time I get there, Kingdom Hearts 3 might be out, and then I can do a third! Ha ha ha...right.

For Bleach: 2 Stories--Not Started--

NOTE: I'm sad to say that life's been a little too busy for me to keep up with watching Bleach. I got to after they rescued Rukia, and that was it. I hope it isn't planning to go on forever like Naruto...that would make me sad. Usually, animes that have an end are best, otherwise you may start to outgrow them(partially cause they get more and more stupid as they go along). Anyway, I still plan to write these eventually, when I get back around to it. I should probably figure out some IchigoxIshida stories, once I rewatch it all.

For Naruto: 7 Stories--Not Started--, 3 Stories--In Halted Progress--

NOTE: Aside from seeing the first couple episodes of Shippuden(that's what it was, right?) I haven't been keeping up with Naruto...but I heard from a friend that Kakashi died. He said he wasn't sure if it was forever or just a "Surprise! He's not actually dead!" kind of thing. Though, I haven't heard what the answer was. So...if any of you guys know, feel free to tell me. But, I mean...Kakashi's my favorite character. If he dies, I don't think I'll have much respect left for Naruto, though I may still do these someday.

For DNAngel: 2 Stories--Not Started--

For Gundam Wing: 1 Story--Not Started--, 1 Rewrite--Waiting--

For Yami no Matsuei: 1 Story--Not Started--

For Full Metal Alchemist: 4 Stories--In Progress--, 1 Rewrite--In Progress--, 1 Rewrite--Waiting--, 5 Stories--Not Started--

An Incurable Pain: Rewrite

I know you all loved An Incurable Pain and to this day, it's one of my most-read stories. But I read it over the other day(As I've been rewatching FMA and it was in my To Edit folder) and...it's AWFUL! Ugh...there's so much OOCness, their relationship happens far too quickly(which makes sense considering it's all of 45 pages...) and some of the general plot makes you go "WTF?"...cause half of it just kind of happens and isn't explained. Haha...so I said "This is just...UGH!" and I started writing it over again. It's already pretty much doubled in size(for how far I've gotten...6 pages became 12 and such), though I'm looking to be as true to the original as I can...that is, I won't be purposely trying to make it longer and won't add in other scenes unless I think they should really be there. I'm up to Chapter Nine I think(chapter six is where rewriting it started getting difficult as that is where the "plot" starts to develop...very poorly, might I add. In other words, that is where the real work began.)...but I don't want to post it until it is complete, since I have four active stories right now and I don't like posting things if I can't pledge to update them every now and then. What I'm trying to say is, I will complete it(maybe sooner than I think, after all it only requires half as much brain power as a brand new story) and then post it up, one chapter a week. That should be cool, no? A preview for those who don't know the general plot: "Something is very wrong with Edward Elric. A mysterious pain plagues him on a daily basis. It strikes suddenly, at any given time...but he can't give in to it-no, not yet. Colonel Mustang's honest desire to save him is not enough. He will return Al to his original body...even at the cost of his own life." So there you have it. I'm pretty excited for it, myself. I may or may not take down the original.

What's a Few Years?: Rewrite

I figure that since I make you all wait a really long time, I may as well also spill this secret: What's a Few Years? will also be rewritten, too. I'm not sure when, though. So just look every now and again.

For Fruits Basket: 1 Story--In Halted Progress--, 3 Stories--Not Started--

For Gravitation: 1 Story--In Progress--, 3 Stories--Not Started--

For Fushigi Yuugi: 1 Story--In Halted Progress--, 2 Stories--Not Started--

For Final Fantasy VIII: 1 Story--In Progress--

As you can see, I have way too many fics I want to write!...I wish I had more time.

If I must provide it, a little not-so-important information about me:

I'm 23. I live in a stupid little town that's a speck of fly shit on a map of Illinois, but is fairly close to the best city in the US: Chicago! I draw, sing, obviously write, play piano, and I love video games and anime/manga.

Favorite anime/manga/games:

-Devil May Cry

-Full Metal Alchemist

-Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood

-Naruto

-Yami no Matsuei

-Fruits Basket

-Gravitation

-Wild Adapter

-Gundam Wing

-Bleach

-DNAngel

-Fushigi Yuugi

-Final Fantasy VIII, X(but not X-2) and VII(including AC and DoC) and XIII is okay

-Kingdom Hearts

-Death Note

-Fushigi Yuugi: Genbu Kaiden

-Legend of Zelda

-Hana-Kimi(Hanazakari no Kimitachi [h]e)

-Dengeki Daisy

-Bakuman

-Arata

-Resident Evil(4 is my favorite)

-Uncharted

-The Elder Scrolls(mostly IV: Oblivion and V: Skyrim)

-Can't think of the rest...

Favorite pairings:

-RoyxEd and AlxFletcher and(I know, it scares me, too) EdxAl, EdxAlphonse H. and even a little EdxEnvy

-DantexNero, also open to VergilxDante

-SasukexNaruto (I LOVE Kakashi, but I really can't...SEE him with anyone, ya know?)

-TsuzukixHisoka

-KyoxYuki and ShigurexHatorixAya(gross, i know, but they're the unstopable threesome! XD)

-YukixShuichi or HiroxShuichi OR RyuichixShuichi

-HeeroxDuo and TrowaxQuatre and WufeixTreiz(did I spell that right?)

-IchigoxRukia(NOTE: This is the ONLY anime so far where I actually LIKE the main girl character. Rukia is AWESOME!), possibly ichigoxIshida and I think eventually, after I see more, I will love IchigoxToushiro(cause they're my favorite Shinigami) if they ever...ya know...interact.

-DarkxDaisuke and KradxSatoshi or DarkxKrad and SatoshixDaisuke

TasukixChichiri

-SeiferxSquall

-VincentxCloud or KadajxCloud or ZackxCloud or SephirothxCloud and maybe even SephirothxZack

-RikuxSora. 'nuff said.

-LxLight

-UrukixSoren, and others when I can, ya know, remember their names. I'm a goldfish, okay? (Memory span of 5 seconds.)

-That's all I can think of...

And that's all! Now, I must go and try to update my stories for you all! Ja ne!