Updated: Ap. 21, 2009

REVISED IMPORTANT NOTE: I have yet to fix my older stories. I'll get to it eventually. Thank you for sticking around. I have just recently started writing again, and it feels great. I don't know if I'll ever get back to The battles of Heaven and Hell, but I'm really going to try to finish Losing Control. It just might take a while. Keep looking for oneshots and poems while you're waiting though! Thanks to everyone, and I hope to keep hearing from you all! It's a new year, and I'm starting it kicking!

I am J X.

I write mostly slash and abuse stories. I have another file with some other, older stories that you will most likely not find. I don't know if I've abandoned them or not.

I used to write mostly Harry Potter.
Now I'm getting into a Covenant groove.

Most of my stuff is rated high kuz I don't want trouble. Just a safety precaution. :)

Please review if you've read my stuff. I want to know what you think... Unless it's a flame. Then keep away and don't waste my time. My theory is, I warned you and it was your fault for reading it. If you don't like it, tough cookies.

About me: I am finally on livejournal. dragon013

I am Sparkling Dragon Tears. I am J X. I am Silver Slasher. Find me where I lie amongst the depths of the internet. Find me and you will find worlds of my imagination. Find me and you will find my kinks, my fetishes. Find me, follow the breadcrumbs and you will know me. I am here, I am there. I write, you read. You write, I read. Find me, read me, know me. I am there. I am... the dragon, kiss my tears away, or let them drown you. I am the slasher, I bleed yaoi. I am J X, I am the letters and words you know me by. Until then, I am lost in the tangled web of the internet.

I'm not the best writer in the world and it kills me to know that poorly written work is given more credit than better work. My goal is to touch someone with anything I've written. I know there are better writers out there. I know that I often don't take the time to develop plots, scenery, even characters. I tend to go on the feelings and actions. But as long as someone likes them, it makes it worth it. I think the best thing I've ever written was probably Until the last leaf falls. Maybe I'll come up with a killer idea someday and write that one story that everyone has read, that touches everyone who reads it, that makes everyone tear up. That will be my goal.

Also, I find it worthwile to note: I hope that my writing touches people, but I don't write to impress anyone. I write for me. I write my feelings, my thoughts, and my soul. And if you don't like it, I'm not sure I want to hear about it. There are plenty of people that appreciate it. And if you think you can do better, go for it. But remember, my writing is me. And frankly, I don't care if you like it.

Enough of me.

Pairings I like a lot:
Harry Potter
Slash
Draco/Harry Flat out my fav.
Draco/Blaise at times.
Ron/Harry sometimes.
Ron/Draco I've seen once and I liked it.
Weasleycest. Please don't hate me. I like it.
Fred/George Twincest. I love it. Sorry...
Oliver/Fred/George
Oliver/Draco. Sounds strange but I think it would be interresting if done well.
Cedric/Oliver Rawr. 'Nuff said.
Cedric/Harry I read for a while, but only a few were good.
There's probably some I can't think of. ...Harry/Draco. :D
Non-Slash
Draco/Ginny
Ron and Hermione were meant to be:D
I don't like (In Harry Potter)
I was not too fond of Harry/Ginny, but since the the last book, I've accepted it. It's better than Harry/Cho. I don't like Draco/Hermione, but it can be ok.
I don't like pairings with Snape. That about sums it up. Anything with Snape isn't my fancy. Nor any femmslash. Not a fan.

Back to things I like.
Pirates of the Caribbean
Jack/Will
There's a few creative pairs, but they have to be done right.

Covenant
Mostly any way you can combine the boys.

Life with Derek
I'm a Dasey shipper. Sorry. :) I like Derek/Casey and Lizzie/Edwin.

That's most of what I read. I like abuse stories, slash, angst and fluff. I like stories with alcohol and drug use, cutting. I like stories that tug at your heartstrings and make you feel the char.'s pain. I'm a sucker that way.

My stories:
Previous: (Complete)

Denial
Next in the Control and Nausea series.
Denial-Failure to acknowledge an unacceptable truth or emotion or to admit it into consciousness. 
Eating Disorder. Poem. 

What you're doing to me
Out of all of the annoying things about Jude, Max finds that he loves the Limey anyway.
Prompted fic. Slash, Jude/Max, Oneshot. 

For the longest time
He paused for a minute, looking at Tyler like he just realized he was there. "You drove six hours because you had a feeling I might need you?"
Prompted fic. Slash, Pogue/Tyler, Fluff, Oneshot. 

Nausea
Follow-up to Control.
Fear and disgust, it's all nauseating...
Eating Disorder. Poem.

It's all in the games that we play
Domination is a matter of acceptance, and Chuck Bass is always in charge... Unless he's on his knees, following orders like a whore.
Sub!Chuck, Slash, Nate/Chuck, Kinks, Heavy M rating.

Hello Old friend
Chuck's old habits come back to haunt him after Bart dies.
Cutting, self-harm, light slash/friendship.

Why I'm here
Chuck is back after the funeral. Nate is here to take care of him, as he always is.
Slash, Nate/Chuck.
Smuttier version on the way.

To Ring in a New Year
That's the thing about brothers, they always know exactly what you want, exactly what you're thinking, what you need. "Tell me you want me. And only me."
New Year's inspired oneshot, prompted fic. Kink: Claiming. Tyler/Reid slash

Control
What it means to have control over yourself.
Eating disorder. Poem.

Once Upon A Kink
"You know, there is more than just one kind of kinky." Tyler whispered. That would be something Baby Boy would do, something so innocent that it could break anyone down...
Slash, sex, kinks, Tyler/Reid, heavy M rating. All the good stuff!

A Good Captain
A short, sad poem about what it means to be a good captain.
PotC 3 based.

Little Black Dress
"No offense, but if you're wearing a little black dress, it's probably going to come off."
Slash, Drinking, Drugs, Lang, Het-sex, HJ, R/S/T, R/T, R/S, T/S... yeah.

Tequila Sunrise
Reid's thoughts on alcohol and cheating.
Poem. Written for a guy, so you can take it as slash if you want.

Spiral
A downward spiral has to end eventually... where else could it go?
Tyler's musings. Poem.

How to save a life
Tyler commits suicide. Songfic to the Fray song.
Slash, Language, Char. Death, Suicide, Sad.

Inevitable
Reid's thoughts on the inevitable.
Drabble inspired by diabetes. Minor lang.

What does it mean to be normal?
Normalcy is relative. It really happens you know. What does it mean to be normal?
Oneshot. Slashiness amongst friends.

The rhythm of life
Tyler's rambling thoughts as he lies awake at night.
No real warnings.

Habits
Caleb notices some of Tyler's bad habits and thinks he can help him out.
Caleb/Tyler oneshot. Fluff. Cute slash. One curse word, woo.

Words never meant to be read
Reid and Tyler Drabble/Spontaneous Ficlet.
Poem inside. Drabble/Oneshot. Could be slashy.

Harder to breathe
"It's getting harder and harder to breathe..."
Sex, sex, sex. Micro-BDSM. Controlling Caleb. Slash. Caleb/Reid. Darkish. Songfic. Oneshot. Language.

Sweet Sixteen
Fred and George threaten the unthinkable upon Draco and he turns to Ron for help.
Slashy. Darkish. Oneshot. Non-con. mentioned.

Tears Of Tragedy
Spoiler for Deathly Hallows. George's POV for Fred's death.
Oneshot. Extreme denial. Death (obviously). Sad. Drama.

And the beat goes on...
All she wanted to do was dance. All he wanted to do was swing.
Songfic to Dance floor anthem, Dance Dance and U & Ur hand.
Ginny/Harry and Ginny/Draco. Cheating fic. Dancing, clubbing, drinking, some language, sexual content, not a happy ending.

Sellout
At least she realizes what she's doing. Too bad she can't stop it.
Hermione oneshot. Emoish. Little Drabble that goes with a poem.

Real eyes, realize, real lies.
Harry was there to shag, Blaise was there to comfort, Lucius was there to hurt. Then Draco discovered the truth.
Slash, DmHp LmSs DmBz, child abuse, char. death, alcohol abuse, mentioned rape, cutting, crude language, not happy.

Because of You
Harry keeps coming back, and Draco wants nothing more than to leave his pain behind.
Songfic to Nickelback's song. Oneshot. Cutting, hinted abuse, death, semislash.

Take me away
Songfic to Avril's song.
Oneshot at the moment, but I may add on to it.
Tom Riddle haunts Harry's mind because he is involved with Draco and Tom is jealous. Can Draco save him from the inner demon?
Slash. Mentioned rape. Not too bad.

The Game
When you agree to play the game, everyone plays. Until the predator is caught, there is a whole new generation of prey. Keep your friends close and your enemies closer. People will forever change playing this game. You will create chaos. But it's a once in a lifetime chance. Want to play?
A Hermione gone Dark fic. Hr/D I dunno really what to say about warnings.

The Game: Alternate Ending.
Just as it says. Which do you like?

Dragon's Blood
Breakup poem.
You said it's not fair for me to be commited to someone who can't be there for me. I didn't cry. I said it didn't hurt, but I bled for you...
Kinda in Harry Potter Char. But not mentioned in the poem itself.

Until The Last Leaf Falls.
Until death and beyond, until the last leaf falls, I'll love you forever.
Oneshot, slash DH, char. death, very sad.
Translated into Russian: http://www.snapetales.com/index.php?fic_id=2149 and http://lana16.beon.ru/58-858-fik-po-garri-potteru.zhtml

Scars of a Fallen Angel
PotC
What happens when emotional and physical scars are linked? Pasts will be revealed, but some scars won't heal.
Warning: Rape, abuse, anger, self-pity, cutting. Not happy, but interresting. There's a sql on the way.

Everything you want
Songfic to the song by Vertical Horizon.
Another PotC one.
'I am everything you want, I am everything you need, I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be. I say all the right things, at exactly the right time, but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why.'
One-sided slash JW, One-sided Het JE EW. Sex references.

Writings on the wall
Songfic to Green Day's Jesus of Suburbia. Split into chapters with the parts of the song.
Draco has a hidden lie. He writes his woes on the walls. Will anyone ever see them?
Abuse, swearing, and self-harm.

In the corridors
Guess who Snape finds in the halls.
Oneshot. Cute, amusing, D/H.

The ropes that bind us.
Draco and Harry are in an open relationship. Harry is nieve and weak. Draco is srong and controling. What happens when he takes it too far? Does someone else know too?
Abuse, cutting, depression. Not happy, but apparently people are sadistic like me and like it too, so read it. :D
Trying to find time to reformat it. 

Epilogue:What is today, but Yesterday's Tomorrow?
An Epilogue to Tomorrow never comes. Want to know what happens after Harry leaves? Read.
In Harry's POV. Still nothing to do with the horcrux's.

Tomorrow never comes.
Harry is dying inside. Does he have the energy, or even the will to fight the Dark Lord?
A lot better than it sounds. Oneshot. Draco and Harry, Not Slash. Not totally OOC either.
CONTAINS SPOILERS. After the sixth book, but has nothing to do with the horcrux's.

Candy Cane Kisses
Part of the Home Sweet Home series. Sequel (sort of) to Lollipops. F/Gr and Ginny fluff. Could be a drabble.
Cute, funny, again K+ so not much warning.

Lollipops (and gummi bears)
Part of the Home Sweet Home series. F/Gr get a new favourite treat.
Cute and funny twincest. It's rated K+ for Merlin's sake! How much warnings could there be?

Only words.
Words are only words. Made of letters and syllables. Feelings are not words and words are not feelings. Draco's musings show inside the mind of others. Maybe we aren't all the same...
Hints of Lucius-Draco abuse.

Hell Found Me.
Response to a challenge. Written a while ago. Just posted.
No category. I just stuck it in HP.
Can you really tell when the Devil is watching you? Can you actually see death? Is it possible to have so much power and knowledge, without going crazy? Or is that what this is? Just the disturbed ramblings of the insane?

Storm Series: Random oneshots revolving around Draco's storm fear and Harry's comfort.
Will be adding to it randomly.
-You looked like you needed it
First of the Storm Series. Weak-slash, fluffishness.
Draco finds Harry and as it turns out, the savior of the world is his savior too.
Trying to find time to reformat it. 

-Night Puzzle
Second of the Storm Series. Fluff. Weak-slash. Revolves around puzzles, fear and comfort.
Draco is found cold and alone at night. Will someone ever be his matching puzzle piece?
Trying to find time to reformat it. 

-Rain
Not quite the same as the other two, but with a title of Rain, of course I was gonna stick it under this series.
I can't tell you much and I can't give you many warnings. It'll wreck the story. Just read it. It's a oneshot, with a poem-type style. Different. Of course H/D.
Keep standing in the rain. It will end eventually. Then the light and love will warm you.

Marionette.
Mindless Drabble. Cho on Imperious.
Trying to find time to reformat it.

Addiction.
Oneshot. Different POV than my style.
Poor Draco is abused. His addiction is his way out. Will he take it too far?
Self mutilation, abuse, swearing. The good stuff.

Shadowed.
Idea'd on the song, Shadow, by Ashlee Simpson.
NOT a songfic.
The Weasleys have more problems than you'd think. DEPRESSING STORY, HAPPY ENDING.
Trying to find time to reformat it. 

Current: (Working on)

Losing Control
Smut turned story.
Reid/Tyler. Slash. Vampire Tyler.
I'm trying... 

The Battles of Heaven and Hell
Sequel to Scars of a fallen angel.
I personally think it's better than Scars so I'll put a quick re-cap in the beginning. That way it's not necessary to have read the first one. However, it could benifit you to know all the thoughts of them and what actually happened, so you may want to read the other anyway.
My only WIP.
Jack takes Will on his adventure to find a new crew. The next thing he wants is to get Will home safely, but the boy doesn't want to leave the ship. Problems arise when one of the new members, Blake, challenges Jack's authority. Blake likes Will, but Jack doesn't want to share.
Blake Welsch is another original. He's blonde with bright green eyes and a melodic voice. He is like the lighter version of Will, in too many ways though. His past is just as traumatic as Will's has been, but he wants to help Will recover without Jack's help.
Warnings: Posessive thoughts, depression, anger, more cutting, possibly death, slash, flashback to abuse (not terribly graphic, although the rape scene is in there.), and I shouldn't even have to warn you about language, it'll be rated high enough.
On hold. I lost so much of it, I don't know if I can recover. 

Painted Red.
This is a set of Weasley ramblings about their addictions. I wrote it in a totally emo mood after my friend died. So please read and enjoy them.
Warning: Alcohol abuse, S&M, self-mutilation, implied incest and slash.
Working on the epilogue.
On hold. I lost what I had. 

Home Sweet Home
A series of random Weasleycest oneshots. Cute. There's more to come!
On hold. I don't know if I have the files.

Future: (Started but not posted yet)
Note: I might take this out soon. I lost a buncha files and don't even know what exists anymore. 

Back to the sea
PotC
Will and Elizabeth have married and have a son. He looks like them except for unexplained dark eyes. One day, Jack returns and Elizabeth says the words every man fears: "Jaiden might not be yours."
Jaiden finds out. He meets Another one of Jack's children. They instantly click and make plans to get Elizabeth, Will and Jack back to where they wish to be: Back to the sea.
Two original children I made, and Abby's mother (but she doesn't matter much. Least, I don't think so, it's a work just starting.)

Yet another. Dunno a name. Close to done, I think.
Yet again our poor blonde young Malfoy is abused. But Harry finds out. Along with some other things.
SLASH :D Slash, abuse, I dunno.

Families alike.
Your typical Harry is abused, Draco is abused. They find out, become friends, live happily ever after. NOT
Their lives suck. They will never be friends, but can they learn to help eachother when they need it?
Harry, Vernon. Draco, Lucius. There's also a nine-year old blonde thrown in the mix.
What's gonna happen? Hang in there to find out!

(Not sure of name yet.)
Party fic!
Summary: Take 1 spoiled teenager, add a parent-free mansion during summer break. Mix in hundreds of teens, music, alcohol and magic. Let brew overnight. Result: Everything R rated! ;D
Oliver, Draco, Fred/George, Blaise, Who knows! Strippers, Body shots, Whipped cream cloths, Wasted teens, and Snogging galore!
The must-read if you like partying!

Veritaserum
Our favourite truth-potion. What happens when two enemies are more alike than they'd perfer to be?
Of course, Draco, Harry and the spawn of evil-potions' class.
Abuse. Maybe slash. Probably. lol. I dunno yet. haha

DT
The darkness trilogy.
About a member of our favourite blonde family, but not the one you expect. Draco's little sister starts school with him.
Sounds boring right? Well, what went unmentioned, is that our littlest Malfoy has a secret. The power that could prove end to the war against evil... only, the Malfoys are on Voldemort's side.
Torn between what is expected...and what is right.
Elizabeth Malfoy's story.
Abuse of course. Malfoys and Abuse are meant to be. lol.

Another nameless HP one.
A humerous one where the author is attempting to write a cliche Angsty Draco fic, but said blonde is continuously interrupting.
I dunno about warnings yet, but it's funny.

School of Rock/Harry Potter crossover.
I'm not revealing much yet, but it's really long and gets better all the time!

I'm actually thinking about a Zoey 101 fic. I started it but it's not done yet. No name yet...
Logan finally tells someone his secret. Will things go terrible when she tries to get involved?
Logan, Dana and an abusive parent.

I have tons. No names. Theres HP, SoR and even a Spy Kids one, and a Life with Derek one. :)

Sorry I took away the reviewers. There were too many to catch up. :( And Sorry I forget to reply to reviews, I really do appreciate them!

This here is my little brother. He's a new author, so be nice.