Well, I don't think I'm going to write anything else. At least not for the forseeable future.

I do have some final comments to make about my stories though.

Brotherly Love continues to be like marmite. People's reaction tends to be either: 'I love it!' or 'WTF?? BLOODY HELL I DON'T GET IT! YOUR WRITING IS A LOAD OF FAN-PLEASING BULL!'

Talk about extreme opposites... However I am interested to know what I actually said to Starryday in a review all those years ago, it isn't in my last 100 reviews and i really cannot remember. That time's kinda a blur I don't want to remember.

In reply to my critics, including the evil ones :P, yes I wrote the story for my fans, but the actual content of the story wasn't influenced by anyone other than my own twisted mind. And yes, I need a beta. I do try to read back over my stories but tbh it's just not a priority.

Also, I know the incest part freaked a few people out. But in my head I didn't write an incest story, it just so happened it made the plot easier if they were brothers, they could have just as easily been best mates, but one, they wouldn't have an excuse to be in the same situations, and two, 'friendly love' just isn't as catchy :P

I finished 'All I wanna do...', but alas 'All that I need...' won't be completed! :'( I do have an unpublished chapter ( I think), in fact I will finish it now... goes off to write

Guess I am honest :P

I've started on the (slightly bizzare) task of gathering together my things and packing up from fanfic writing. That's right, I'm retiring (for the foreseeable future anyway...)!

I've started off with 'All I wanna do is make love to you' as I've only had half a chapter left to write for the last year, and as it's not originally my story I felt it was my responsibility to finish it. (That and people kept asking me to write the lemon scene, which I have hehe)

I did nearly die of a heart attack when reading the first 8 chaps tho, as I came across Sephiroth! And having just completed Disc 1 of FFVII, I was not in the most friendly mood towards him to say the least... but luckily he's completely OOC so all went well.

So for now that's what there's to read. :)

Hopefully I'll get round to the daunting task of rounding up 'All that I need is you...' sometime soon. :D

Ayeshagirl xx

DATE WRITTEN: July 2008

Damn, it's May, I missed my deadline by a month! :p

Ok, so it has perhaps been a while since I've posted anything, or written anything for that matter. I have my reasons, but as I'm sure you don't really want to know (or care) I shall simply say that I intend to start writing at the end of June!

Hope to get some posts out then.

Thanks to everyone who keeps favouriting my story (even if it makes me feel guilty for not updating...)

Ayeshagirl xx

DATE WRITTEN: May 2008

Update by July 08, if I've written anything, which I will, honest...

:hits delete button for the entire of my old profile:

Ok, hands up honestly, I'm sorry to anyone who actually bothered to read that crap, because that's what it was, absolute. total. crap.

I mean seriously, who wants to read a page about me rambling about me obsession with trees and hate of kairi and such?

No one.

Exactly.

I'm not really the most organised person, and I don't have the faintest clue as to the date of when I last even realised I had a profile, or that I had written a bunch of egotistical rubbish on it. This is a pretty dramatic contrast, and it was inspired by a review I recieved, which at first I was slightly hurt by, then amused, then confused, then I smacked myself in the head. So here is my public response because you guys deserve it, and by you I mean everyone who hasn't tried to shoot me yet, and those who didn't use a machine gun to do so.

Firstly, the review I left. I'm not going to name any names, because for the purpose of this comment those who need to know what I'm talking about will know. I know it's a lame excuse, but looking at the date it was written, I was a mess at that time, seriously, and I was mainly just pissed because I had been reading that story forever and I loved it, and I was upset that Riku and Sora didn't live happily ever after. Also because the author gave the impression that they didn't care that they would be upsetting everyone reading the story. The worst thing is, I got a reply to that review, an angry one, and it was having a go at ME. Not my writing, or about me as an author, but about me as a person, and that is what annoys me. Because no matter how pissed I get, I never personally insult anybody, I just swear at their writing :P

Secondly, the impression I seem to have given some people that I am 'holy-er than thou' and can judge writing like an expert. Which I can't. I can however offer my advice as a fanfiction author and give a valid opinion. I like helping people, and it makes me happy when someone takes my criticism the way it's meant.

I've said before that I work in strange ways. Like with newbies who write a slightly 'amusing in a bad way' story. You can generally judge a person by their ANs and if that person has actually tried then they deserve all the praise and constructive criticism they can get, because everyone's gotta start somewhere, and it is bloody hard sometimes to put yourself out there. However if said newbie has a big ramble about how they don't care what you think because they rule and you're a big spoil sport who will be stabbed if you try to 'flame' them (which includes anything short of a review of worship) then you generally get a better response if you're rather harsh and kick them off their hypothetical cloud.

So to anyone who's ever got a seeminly pissed or insulting review from me, or one that is not just 'keep up the good work', then well done. Because regardless of the situation, you've got me off my butt to write that review, you've done something different.

And writers, if you want to write what you want, then by all means do and don't listen to me, but could you possibly admit to writing it for yourself without having a go at miffed readers?

Now, storywise.

The ending of Brotherly Love, it was short, I know. But to be honest I'd lost the meaning of the story and I just wanted to finish it and get back to my one true love, All that I need is you.

I write that story because I want to, and in a way it is me, or at least my mind and past experiences.

And I promise I will eventually finish All I wanna do, one day, soon.

To anyone who's read this far, you are a star. Whether you're a writer or just a reader, thankyou.

Feel free to shoot me now, or just email me. :D

Oh, and I'm looking for a beta. Someone who can put up with me, because the last person I asked said 'no'. :(

DATE WRITTEN: April 2007 (note to self: update by April 2008)

: Write real reviews people! All I'm asking for is at least one comment relating to the story. Be it sarcastic or constructive. Just don't leave a big bunch of xs and :D :D XD XD XD etc.. :