NATSUHIBOSHI

"My characters will have all that they desire."

Natsuhiboshi naze akai?

Yuube kanashii yumi wo mita

Naite hanashita

Akai me yo...

Natsuhiboshi naze mayou?

Kieta warashi wo sagashiteru

Dakara kanashii yume wo miru.

"Let's pretend we're artists and everything we feel is something new to be proud of. Let's take our imaginary friends on a double date and ditch them in a movie and hope they get along while we kiss outside on the sidewalk. Let's take the dreams you mumbled in your sleep and paint a child's nursery. And if we don't finish today, we've always got tomorrow."

Wha's up?

I'm a person of small but many words but said words are usually uttered very quietly. I don't like it when people do things to peeve me and they think it's funny, and I hate it even more when people ask you things they shouldn't ask you.

I have kick ass friends and family and they all play an incredibly important part in my life. I'd be lost without them.

I'm easy to push around even though I try not to be. I'm sensitive so once I'm hurt I can't shake it off. My heart's made of glass and sometimes I'm afraid to listen to it because it might shatter in the process. There are already too many cracks to count. I'm afraid of a lot of things and one of them is to trust other people even though I trust them all the time, and too easily.

"You think if you quit, the missions will stop? Someone's gotta do it. Your comrades will be sent out again, on other mssions with someone else leading them. They'll face the same risks and some of them might not make it - one's you might've been able to save if you've been there to lead them. How are you going to feel then? You've got a chance to reflect on your mistakes and to learn from them. Use your failures to make yourself a better leader."

Shikaku Nara, Naruto

So yeah. I am a proud Mercy Techie... if you don't know what that is then oh well. But anyway, I love to do the things I do and I am the world's most accomplished slacker. Not counting Emily, of course. But oh well.

"We're still on the run. That's for sure. Right on. This time we're on. And we won't stop till we win."

- Shuya Nanahara, Battle Royale

Ok... down to the fun stuff:

MUSIC: It is the finest sense of expression - There is no genre. Just music.

I don't know about you guys, but personally I like music as a whole. Anything can be music - from the soothing sound of a violin or the ruckus of an electric guitar. My favorite artists are: Within Temptation, Linkin Park, Three Days Grace, Flyleaf, Evanescence, Fall Out Boy, Schubert, Beethoven, Pachelbel, Debussy, Chopin, Joplin, Ne-Yo, Jordin Sparks, Enya, Carrie Underwood, Gavin Degraw, Maroon 5, Relient K, Keane, M-Flo, BoA, Epik High, Big Bang, and Namie Amuro.

Top Pairings I Ship:

Naruto: Sasuke/Sakura - Because I just feel like it's meant to be. Sai/Sakura and Sasuke/Naruto

GALS!: Yuuya/Aya - Because he makes her smile and he smiles just for her. Rei/Aya

Avatar the Last Airbender: Zuko/Katara - Because Fire and Water make steam. Sokka/Azula

Code Geass: Lelouch/Kallen - "I deemed you Q-1, Kallen, because you are my Queen." It is inevitable.

Twilight: Jacob/Reneesme - She holds me down : "I love wolf people like my Jacob." Jared/Kim - I've opened my eyes, you see, and now I cannot close them. Quil/Calire - I am a Quileute Protector, and it is you I protect.

Zoey 101: Logan/Quinn - BECAUSE IT MAKES THE MOST FRIKKIN SENSE!! DON'T QUESTION IT.

Reasons to Why I am Who I am

I think going to the beach at twilight with the person you love is heart warming - that's because when I was younger, my mother and father took me to the beach. I remember digging through the sand for sand dollars and I kept hearing this 'click, click, click' from my dad's lighter. When I turned around, I saw my mom cupping my father's hands (which were cupping the lighter) and finally, because they worked together to keep the wind from blowing the flame out, my dad got his cigarette lit up.

When my dad comes home he walks through the door and says, "I'm home." and my mom, no matter what she's doing comes to greet him with a, "Welcome back."

My mom always says, "Ann, I hope you find someone like your father." and I smile and laugh because I know they don't make boys like that anymore. When I say this out loud my dad answers, "Yes they do. He's out there - just for you." and my mom nods and they smile at each other and I can feel tears build up at the back of my eyes because I know that even if I don't find this guy - I have my parents.

My twin soul, Angie, comes to my house after her volleyball practice and asks me to rub her shoulders. "Please Bug," she whines, "You want me to win the game don't you?" and she's on the court kicking the other team's ass and she looks up at me in the stands and stick her tongue out. Her message is clear: 'That kill was for our warped friendship.' It's lunch time and she eyes my burrito and I eye her sandwich. "Switch?" we ask at the same time. "Yeah." we do it again. She's the only one who can finish my sentence. She knows when I'm lying. She knows when I'm sad and always cheers me up - sometimes she doesn't even try.

Kelsey calls me on the phone and mumbles, "I had a dream where I married this guy named... eh, uhm, Sou..." and I smile and laugh. "This is a sign!" I insist. "Can't you see?! Look for that boy." and she snorts and hisses at me. "Ann, keep dreaming." and I giggle because I know that no guy is good enough for her and when this guy does show up, he'll have to impress me more than he has to impress her. I tell her everything - Really, EVERYTHING. All of my insecurities and my fears of the future and she listens intently - like there's nothing else in the world but my problems. And she's so sarcastic and cynical it makes me appreicate life. You rock. You know you do, so you have reason to be cocky.

Clarissa and Jessica thrust a picture of a boy in my face. "That's Lee Jun Ki." I mutter, hearts forming in my eyes. "We know!" they shriek and people look as the three of us jump up and down in the middle of the street. "He's coming out with a new drama." Clarissa gushes. "And I hear he's the voice actor for a new anime character." Jessica adds. "I'm watching it!" I shout and they scream their agreement. I write my fanfiction for them.

"Nothing's wrong." Liz deadpans before I have a chance to ask. It's her defensiveness that clues me in. "Nothing for you is almost always something to me. Now, spill please." I stare her down and she crumbles, telling me everything that's wrong. I worry about her all the time, a little bit more than the rest of my friends, but hey, no biggie. Though she does owe me big time for this, ne, osito?

He doesn't talk to me anymore. And it kind of makes me sad, but I knew that the moment the words would leave my mouth I'd be severing the ties of our friendship forever. But what's done is done. He sold me out for that pretty little freshmen and even though that hurt's like a bitch come from hell, it's ok. Because I know my someone is out there somewhere and it's better to have loved and hurt then to never have loved at all. It just sucks you, know, that he doesn't let me know he still cares. Even if he pretends, it's better than this, than nothing at all. I'm sorry I'm not her. I'm so, so, sorry. He taught me something important - that not everything goes the way you want it too, and that sometimes, friendship is not as strong as you think it is. He taught me that it's not good to live in the past, no matter how beautiful the past may be. Thanks, Nico. And yeah, I'll always love you.

He smiles a little at me - more of an affectionate sneer than a smile - and he squeezes the back of my neck. "You will be fine, Mothergooose. Don't worry." I roll my eyes but smile anyway. "Thanks." I turn around and give him a hug. "You're reaching your dream, Mr. Pyun. Congrats. I hope to be reaching mine soon too, ne?" There is no teacher out there who is as great as him. Thanks so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you...

These are the people who make me special.

Ongoing Fics:

Code of Conduct: Working vigorously on the second chapter in hopes to get it up before school begins again. XD

My Secretary : My Boss: Like my friends say, "That is some crazy shit right there." I just updated it and I hope to get one more chapter up soon. REALLY SOON. Because honestly, I MISS IT SO MUCH!! XD I was deprived for the months that I didn't work on it. Toph and Zuko were getting upset with me. Jet wasn't too happy either. Anyway, I hope you guys go check it out... and a word of warning! You think it's crazy now?! Oh no, just wait until Aang gets in there... full time.