Ocean of Ashes

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since	: 09-21-05, id: 900922, Profile Updated: 09-14-09
country	: United Kingdom

Author has written 28 stories for ER, and Grey's Anatomy.

In comparison to many of the profiles on here, it has gradually dawned on me that mine has been somewhat brief and uninformative, so this is my attempt to rectify that. I also have to bake a birthday cake for my secretary's birthday tomorrow, and I'm procrastinating. I do a lot of procrastinating.

I live in the UK and am training as a Chartered Surveyor. Still. I have schoolfriends who are now qualified doctors and I am still plugging away at exams, revision, and coursework as if I was still a student. Except now I have to hold down a full time job at the same time. That, combined with the aforementioned procrastinating, is the reason I update about as often as your average solar eclipse.

One day, I want very much to live by the sea, write full time (I have about half a dozen novel-length stories lurking undisturbed in a rarely visited corner of my laptop which get worked on even less often than my fanfiction stories) and possibly run a small tea-shop where ruddy cheeked waitresses wear frilled aprons and serve cream teas and home baked cakes. Of course, in order to be able to achieve this ambition, I will have to win the lottery, so it's probably not going to happen in the immediate future.

My interests, if you're interested, are widely ranging, and include a passion bordering on addiction for the following:
Reading (my favourite authors, absolutely genuinely and somewhat pretensiously being Austen, Gaskell and Hardy)
Current affairs (particularly political)
University Challenge (this one doesn't merely border on addiction, it is a full blown obsession)
Meerkat Manor (have you seen it? It's like a soap with Meerkats - genius!)
British comedy (the old classics, like To the Manor Born, The Good Life, Porridge, Absolutely Fabulous, Men Behaving Badly, Vicar of Dibley - I feel a particular affinity to the Vicar of Dibley, the village I am from I swear to God was the inspiration for Dibley)
American dramas (ER, Grey's Anatomy, all the CSIs, House)
Horse racing (National Hunt, the real stuff)
Cricket (yes, really. And I mean test cricket, proper five day matches, none of this Twenty20 rubbish)
Baking (I made the mistake of baking a cake for work once and now have to suffer regular demands from my colleagues to be provided with baked goods)
Anything with a vaguely maritime inclination (boats, islands, beaches, the sea, surfers. Especially surfers.)
Cider (Cornish Rattler)
Gin and Tonic (with lime, not lemon. Always lime)
Banter (though by no means necessary, it helps if you are British and boarding school-educated to truly appreciate this)
Geology (Blame a particularly inspiring/enthusiastic teacher at school)
Tweed (to date I own a tweed coat, tweed jacket, tweed handbag, tweed waistcoat, tweed cap and tweed shoes. I am always looking to expand my collection.)
The countryside and rural affairs (impossible to define unless it's something you care about as well. I guess I mean farming first and foremost, and young people being able to afford to buy houses in the villages they were brought up in, and not have to move to cities to get decent jobs, the land, wildlife, hunting, crap public transport, second home owners, NIMBYS, the people from cities who buy the chocolate box cottage overlooking the village green then object to the new affordable housing development being built for local people down the road. Everything that is part of the balance.)

By no means an exhaustive list, as you can probably guess, but it gives you a fair idea of what makes me tick.

My Stories:
A full list can obviously be found below. I won't bother running through the finished ones, but as far as the unfinished ones go, a few can probably be described as dormant, but you can consider the following as active:
Back to the Beginning - ER, a particularly angsty Season 12 fic, a prequel to Against the Odds. Ray/Neela - of course.
Be careful what you wish for - Grey's Anatomy, in which Addison returns to Seattle following Callie's death to share custody of Callie's daughter with Mark. Addison/neither she nor I have quite decided yet, but it's a toss up between Alex and Mark, something of an ensemble fic though so expect an appearance from pretty much everyone
We die on the march - ER Season 15/Grey's Season 5 crossover, in which Ray accepts a post in a new PM&R department at Seattle Grace and finds Alex to be his most challenging patient. Ray/Neela, Alex/Addison and a whole lot more besides.
The New York Series - Grey's Anatomy, not a story as such, but a series of one-shots/short stories that feature the woefully underexplored Addison/Derek/Mark dynamic. Currently comprising 'Remember the Debutante Ball' and the first of what will probably be four chapters of 'The Tenth Anniversary'.

On a final note, reviews are almost as good as a pint of Rattler on a sunny day overlooking the beach. Admittedly, there is an element of ego-feeding to have a complete stranger leave you a nice little message telling you they enjoyed your writing, but they serve a purpose as well. Tell me what you liked, what you didn't, and why. If I've tried a different style of writing, tell me if you think it worked or not. It helps make whatever the next thing I write better. On behalf of all writers on here, trust me when I say that whatever it is you are reviewing took a Hell of a lot longer to write than however long it will take you to review it. Well, as a rule, because I have to say, there are some excellent reviewers on here and some not so excellent writers, so swings and roundabouts I guess.

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1. Be careful what you wish for » reviews
Five years ago, I went to unforgivable lengths to not have a child with Mark Sloan. And now, suddenly... I have one." A tragedy brings Addison back to Seattle...
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 19 - Words: 32,860 - Reviews: 117 - Updated: 11-10-09 - Published: 1-12-09 - Addison. M

2. The Tenth Anniversary » reviews
Second in my New York series, a short story about a particular anniversary that Addison, Derek and Mark can't help but share.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 4 - Words: 6,430 - Reviews: 10 - Updated: 10-2-09 - Published: 9-14-09

3. We die on the march » reviews
Alex finds himself fighting a battle he doesn't know how to win, with help from a doctor who is a few steps further down the same path but with a formidable set of demons of his own. Grey's/ER crossover.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 5 - Words: 13,909 - Reviews: 25 - Updated: 9-28-09 - Published: 8-6-09 - Alex. K & Addison. M

4. Remember the Debutante Ball reviews
‘The Debutante Ball, Derek. The summer of 1985. Do you remember?’ History is written by the winners, and after one too many whiskies, Mark decides he has had enough of Derek's version of events. First of my New York Series, Mark/Derek/Addison of course.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,453 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 9-6-09 - Mark. S & Derek. S - Complete

5. Back to the Beginning » reviews
A prequel to Against the Odds. A slightly alternative Season 12 fic chronicling events that led up to the start of Against the Odds. When Michael proposes, Neela is faced with a hard decision.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 29 - Words: 70,782 - Reviews: 175 - Updated: 7-8-09 - Published: 6-10-07 - Ray B. & Neela R.

6. Some nightmares you don't wake up from reviews
You make a decision when she tells you that the cancer is terminal and that its weeks not months that you’re going to be strong and hold it together for as long as she needs you to. Then, and only then, you’re going to fall to pieces."
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,492 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 5-23-09 - Alex. K - Complete

7. A Million Tides reviews
An indulgent expansion on Addison's dream in the latest chapter of my ongoing story, Be Careful What You Wish For, based on Alex and Addison's kiss at Joe's in Episode 3.12. One Shot.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,617 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 4-20-09 - Addison. M & Alex. K - Complete

8. You can run » reviews
... But you can't hide. Alex Karev has unexpectedly swept all before him in his career, or out-Cristina'd Cristina as Izzie likes to put it, but it's been an empty success. He needs a new start, and it isn't going to be in California. Alex and Addison
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 34 - Words: 57,829 - Reviews: 258 - Updated: 4-8-09 - Published: 7-20-08 - Addison. M & Alex. K - Complete

9. Hold the Dice and swear reviews
Ten songs, and ten moments. Ray and Neela
ER - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,772 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 1-22-09 - Neela R. & Ray B. - Complete

10. Great Expectations reviews
Addison surprises herself with her choice of morning coffee.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 847 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 12-5-08 - Addison. M - Complete

11. I Am » reviews
Short recollections from various characters on what has made them who they are. Hints of Addison/Alex, Izzie/Alex and by the time I'm done, probably a whole lot more besides.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/General - Chapters: 5 - Words: 2,543 - Reviews: 15 - Updated: 11-15-08 - Published: 8-17-08

12. Epistles of a Fragmented Friendship » reviews
Letters that pass between Ray and Neela following the accident. AU in terms of season 14 timeframe but in terms of content isn't too contradictory.
ER - Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 28 - Words: 42,841 - Reviews: 239 - Updated: 10-29-08 - Published: 10-22-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

13. Whiskey and Fear » reviews
Post season three finale. Lost after Ava's departure, Alex wanders aimlessly for hours until he finds himself seeking shelter with the one person he has left. Alex and Addison
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 6,438 - Reviews: 13 - Updated: 9-19-08 - Published: 9-3-08 - Addison. M & Alex. K - Complete

14. An afternoon in Chicago reviews
A companion piece to "An afternoon in Baton Rouge". Severe season 15 spoiler warning.
ER - Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,449 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 7-6-08 - Neela R. & Ray B. - Complete

15. An afternoon in Baton Rouge reviews
Ray reflects... Beyond that I will not say as this goes with an extreme spoiler warning. Spoilers for Season 15 inside.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,076 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 4-29-08 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

16. Power Cut reviews
After a simmering argument, Ray and Neela find themselves thrown together, pushing them to breaking point. Warning: note the rating please.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,425 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 4-19-08 - Neela R. & Ray B. - Complete

17. Pushing Charts » reviews
Ray has always enjoyed being a doctor, but accusations that he doesn't take his job entirely seriously haven't always been amiss. One day though, something happens and he realises there's a lot more to it than just pushing charts.
ER - Rated: T - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 14 - Words: 33,292 - Reviews: 79 - Updated: 1-10-08 - Published: 7-4-07 - Ray B. & Neela R.

18. The End » reviews
Ray and Neela's story after the accident told through snapshots of the lives of other members of the team at County.
ER - Rated: T - English - General - Chapters: 13 - Words: 82,429 - Reviews: 94 - Updated: 8-10-07 - Published: 4-13-07

19. The Wedding Gift » reviews
Neela is excited that Michael's tour in Iraq is finally over, and she plans a belated wedding gift as a welcome home surprise for him. But even the best made plans can go awry, and as always, Ray is there to pick up the pieces.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 3 - Words: 7,873 - Reviews: 27 - Updated: 8-2-07 - Published: 7-29-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

20. London Calling » reviews
A sequel to Against the Odds. When Lucy Barnett goes to university in London, she is vaguely aware that son of old family friends, Joe Kovac, is also there, but soon gets swept up in her new life. But will childhood bonds catch up with them?
ER - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 5 - Words: 11,952 - Reviews: 30 - Updated: 7-29-07 - Published: 7-2-07

21. Against the Odds » reviews
A few months after Gallant dies, Neela gives birth, and finds motherhood, and coming to terms with her husband's death, hard. But there's someone who's willing to help her.
ER - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 27 - Words: 68,208 - Reviews: 300 - Updated: 6-13-07 - Published: 3-22-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

22. Two can play at that game » reviews
A fun little two parter set back in the day when Ray and Neela were roomies and life was a whole lot simpler
ER - Rated: M - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,355 - Reviews: 19 - Updated: 6-4-07 - Published: 5-29-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

23. Bright Lights Pounding Feet reviews
They say, when staring death in the face, your life flashes before your eyes. Ray and Neela find out that's true.
ER - Rated: K - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 802 - Reviews: 19 - Published: 5-22-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

24. You set the tone reviews
Abby's thoughts and feelings at the end of her final shift as an intern, sparked by Carter's departure. Season 11 finale
ER - Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,405 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 5-10-07 - Abby L. - Complete

25. Choices » reviews
Begins in the episode Strange Bedfellows. What might have happened if, when Ray leaned towards her in the doorway, Neela hadn't turned away? Note the rating: applicable from the first chapter.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst/General - Chapters: 21 - Words: 51,615 - Reviews: 135 - Updated: 5-10-07 - Published: 3-15-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

26. Strange and Beautiful reviews
A brief oneshot regarding Ray's feelings towards Neela, roundabouts earlymid season 13.
ER - Rated: K - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,143 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-21-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

27. Home » reviews
My take on how things pan out after 13.17. Obviously spoilers for up until then. This story is now complete.
ER - Rated: T - English - General/Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 27,392 - Reviews: 71 - Updated: 3-13-07 - Published: 2-25-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

28. Looking Back reviews
A snapshot of a much older Ray reflecting back on his life with Neela. Just a oneshot, please have a read and tell me what you think of it.
ER - Rated: K+ - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,276 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 3-9-07 - Ray B. & Neela R. - Complete

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