A songwriter once sang that "there's beauty in the breakdown". I believe in this, for this is my life. This is what I feel with my whole heart, and this is what I write. My writing comes from my soul, and my soul is a black void that swallows pain and digests it slowly. I look around me and I see pain, I see death, I see emptiness.

But sometimes there are sparks of hope. This is what my writing hopes to portray. It is only through life's struggles that we learn the point of surviving at all. Without loss, there would be no reason to gain. And if we gained forever, we'd be begging to lose.

I carry post-it notes in my purse. I scribble jumbled thoughts onto them: Lorelai quips, blocks of Rory's childhood, the way Amy would decorate a room, Ephram's marriage proposal. I find my inspiration while out, anywhere, and make people pause so that I can fetch my sticky notes from my purse and jot down my writing idea. It's important, you see. For I am a writer, and if I don't write, I don't breathe any longer.

I am very much into conventional couples. I'm not sure why exactly, except that my shows have been able to so easily convince me that their love is true, and I should believe in it. I find magic in canon. I enjoy reading pairings of all kinds, but as for me, I stick to home base.

I strive toward beauty amid the pain. Feel my stories, feel them in your heart, and let me know that you have. My goal is to know that I can touch you the way these characters are able to touch me.

http://www.behrbemine.com/solemn/
My personal site for all of my fanfiction.

http://www.behrbemine.com/everfic/
Archive of high-quality 'Everwood' fanfiction. My 'Everwood' fic is housed here, too.

http://www.behrbemine.com/oblivion/
Though it is gone now, I wish for it to be remembered. Remembered as we do shows of the past that are now gone in sequential substance, but not in heart.

NEW SITE: '...Stray Upon a Muse'
http://www.behrbemine.com/muse/
It is to be a new kind of 'Gilmore' archive, one which focuses more on the author than the story.

I want to thank everyone who's taken the time to read and review my stories; all of you who have taken them into your heart and added them to your favorites; everyone who's been patient as my stories are so slowly unveiled. My muse is a finicky thing, you see. She flits from here to there; she takes her time in bringing me my inspiration. But when I can finally pin her down, my goal is always to explore her to the fullest, and bring about the best possible version I can conjure. My stories take time, but my hope is that the substance is enough to keep you for as long as it takes.

Thanks for being a part of it all,
Elise

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1. What Makes a Father » reviews

DRABBLETS. All things are in their proper place; some in public, and some in heart alone.

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Family - Chapters: 2 - Words: 699 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 6-21-08 - Published: 4-25-08

2. Sheer reviews

FITA ficlet. The tortured moments in the chapter, My Stepfather, settle uneasily in Cathy’s young mind, as she loses much more than her virginity.

Complete - V.C. Andrews - Fiction Rated: M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 722 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 5-23-08 - Published: 5-23-08

3. Forgive Us Our Trespasses » reviews

What was the biggest mistake of your life?

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: M - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 14 - Words: 57,616 - Reviews: 64 - Updated: 3-5-08 - Published: 1-2-05

4. Fallen Petal reviews

DRABBLE. Blair walks in the shadow that ensnares her, remaining powerless to penetrate past the sunshine of her dearest friend and closest rival.

Complete - Gossip Girl - Fiction Rated: K - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 167 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 2-10-08 - Published: 2-10-08

5. Yellow reviews

DRABBLEish. Cory has things he needs to tell her, just for her to know. If only she could hear him, but it just isn't so. For Carrie.

Complete - V.C. Andrews - Fiction Rated: K - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 353 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 2-10-08 - Published: 2-10-08

6. Now Leaving Childhood reviews

It was to be the first step toward independence odd, then, that the act would require two of them. Chris and Lorelai, and their mutual loss of teenage virginity.

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: M - English - Romance/General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,351 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 12-21-07 - Published: 12-21-07

7. NearLife Experience reviews

The most interesting thing to Dawn about Buffy these days is how she follows trouble and gets in its way.

Complete - Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,177 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 9-29-07 - Published: 9-29-07

8. Sensory Effect reviews

He wanted her, he wanted this... his happiness lived in her. [Trory]

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,005 - Reviews: 17 - Updated: 8-19-07 - Published: 8-19-07

9. The Goodbye Girl » reviews

Shattered glass and overturned cars drive her to dredge up questions she'd long since left behind.

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Supernatural - Chapters: 3 - Words: 15,575 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 6-27-07 - Published: 6-7-07

10. Screams reviews

The night of Cory's death, Carrie falls into a horrific dream that won't let go.

Complete - V.C. Andrews - Fiction Rated: T - English - Horror/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 817 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 5-5-07 - Published: 5-5-07

11. Some Say

She's lost both of her parents in the span of a middle school life. Now she's looking for reasons to live on without their support on which she used to rely.

Complete - Dawson's Creek - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,029 - Reviews: 0 - Updated: 4-28-07 - Published: 4-28-07

12. The Dark Side of the Moon reviews

Dawn has seen Buffy have boyfriends before. But never one quite like this.

Complete - Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,574 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 3-16-07 - Published: 3-16-07

13. Hard to Be Faithful reviews

My girl's in the next room. Sometimes I wish she was you. RoryMartyness

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,648 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 3-5-07 - Published: 3-5-07

14. Crash Dummy » reviews

The wedding was too perfect. Something had to marr it. Luckily for Lane, 'something' was me. [HOPEFULLY all formatting is fixed now.]

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: M - English - Drama/Humor - Chapters: 2 - Words: 12,936 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 2-22-07 - Published: 2-22-07

15. Filling All Voids reviews

Amy, this isn't going to be a moment out of Cosmo. It isn't going to be a speech that you can retell to your parents and expect them to gush over later. But I'm ready to ask you something, and it's Christmas, and I figure what the hell.

Complete - Everwood - Fiction Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,835 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 2-8-07 - Published: 2-8-07

16. All Right With Me reviews

A certain song brings memories back to Ephram that cause him to act funny.

Complete - Everwood - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 799 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-26-06 - Published: 12-26-06

17. Ghosts reviews

The bat mitzvah is over. And Delia has things to think about.

Complete - Everwood - Fiction Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,716 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 8-23-06 - Published: 8-23-06

18. Often Enough reviews

He doesn't think about her often enough.

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,753 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 7-18-06 - Published: 7-18-06

19. New York, New York » reviews

AU. Amy leaves the safety net of her hometown to get away from the tragedy that haunts her.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Tragedy - Chapters: 3 - Words: 7,059 - Reviews: 11 - Updated: 3-30-06 - Published: 1-23-06

20. Loyalty reviews

Rory ponders an author's motives for things she cannot fathom. A message from me to my fans.

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,211 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 3-29-06 - Published: 3-29-06

21. Would It Offend You reviews

Would it offend you if I told you to shut up? Trory tale

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,898 - Reviews: 42 - Updated: 3-23-06 - Published: 3-23-06

22. I Love Joel reviews

RELATED fic: Rose finally comes to her true feelings about her best friend.

Complete - Misc. Tv Shows - Fiction Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,731 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 3-21-06 - Published: 3-21-06

23. Epilogue reviews

A sad Trory tale of falling in love all over again.

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 12,571 - Reviews: 17 - Updated: 3-20-06 - Published: 3-20-06

24. The Hardest Word reviews

A short letter of sadness and sorrow.

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 397 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 3-15-06 - Published: 3-15-06

25. Where Angels Fear to Tread reviews

Spike and Buffy crash into one another, and bring down a house along with them.

Complete - Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Fiction Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,255 - Reviews: 10 - Updated: 3-15-06 - Published: 3-15-06

26. Paul Anka's Wedding Day reviews

What was supposed to be Lorelai's shining day is told from the perspective of someone more unlikely.

Complete - Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - General/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,731 - Reviews: 10 - Updated: 3-10-06 - Published: 3-10-06

27. Honestly Okay reviews

Spike and Dawn find their bearings together.

Complete - Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Fiction Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,957 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 2-12-06 - Published: 2-12-06

28. Daydream Believer and a Homecoming Queen reviews

Lana and Clark may be over, but Lana just can't say goodbye.

Smallville - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 976 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 2-12-06 - Published: 2-12-06

29. The Good Son reviews

It’s what Sam can never hope to be.

Complete - Supernatural - Fiction Rated: K - English - General/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,121 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 1-21-06 - Published: 1-21-06

30. Water Colored Roses reviews

Sometimes people drift apart. When is it too late to become best friends again?

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,153 - Reviews: 17 - Updated: 1-13-06 - Published: 1-13-06

31. Beautiful Lady reviews

Ruthie's in the party. And there's no running from her.

7th Heaven - Fiction Rated: T - English - General/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,422 - Reviews: 11 - Updated: 10-4-05 - Published: 10-4-05

32. Beside the Ocean reviews

The sickening realizations of a life gone wrong.

7th Heaven - Fiction Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,846 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 9-5-05 - Published: 9-5-05

33. Flying Distraction reviews

Rory, and the fall the secret society gave to her.

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K - English - General - Chapters: 1 - Words: 232 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 7-18-05 - Published: 7-18-05

34. New York Rain reviews

Ephram and Amy, amid lightning, thunder, and rain.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,304 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 1-2-05 - Published: 1-2-05

35. Away From This Place reviews

Simon's only escape.

7th Heaven - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 808 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 12-22-04 - Published: 12-22-04

36. You Will Not Fade Away reviews

Saying goodbye to a first love.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 975 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 10-8-04 - Published: 10-8-04

37. Forgetting You reviews

Amy sees a disturbing vision, and needs Ephram's comfort.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,030 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 10-4-04 - Published: 10-4-04

38. When Doves Cry reviews

The ending of Dean and Rory.

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,157 - Reviews: 10 - Updated: 10-16-03 - Published: 10-16-03

39. Your Greatest Fan reviews

What Amy is to Colin, right up to the end.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,018 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 8-23-03 - Published: 8-23-03

40. Everything Crumbles and Falls Or Fades Away reviews

Colin. At home. Awaken from the coma. Broken.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,461 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 8-22-03 - Published: 8-22-03

41. Broken Ballerina Song of my Soul reviews

Ephram's dream, wrapped up in a girl.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,174 - Reviews: 4 - Updated: 8-16-03 - Published: 8-16-03

42. Not So Bad reviews

Paris enters the hell that is high school, but finds something that makes it worth it.

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - General/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,237 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 11-29-02 - Published: 11-29-02

43. Rae reviews

a 'DISTURBING BEHAVIOR' fic: Steve thinks about the most precious thing he has left.

Misc. Movies - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,328 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 11-24-02 - Published: 11-24-02

44. Stop Whispering reviews

Dawn deals with Buffy's absence. Post 'Becoming (Part 2)'

Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,583 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 11-20-02 - Published: 11-20-02

45. Waiting to Exhale reviews

Ephram endures the excruciating task of waiting for Colin's surgery; waiting to see if it will help him... Endures it for the girl he loves.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,965 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 10-26-02 - Published: 10-26-02

46. Fragile as Glass reviews

It's the nature of Dawson and Joey's love.

Dawson's Creek - Fiction Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,167 - Reviews: 10 - Updated: 10-6-02 - Published: 10-6-02

47. Daddy's Promises reviews

Promises may be enough for Delia, but they'll never be enough for Ephram.

Everwood - Fiction Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 728 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 10-3-02 - Published: 10-3-02

48. Waiting reviews

Max, Liz, and the end of the world.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,003 - Reviews: 6 - Updated: 9-17-02 - Published: 9-17-02

49. Lana's Shadow reviews

It's where Clark's heart believes Chloe belongs.

Smallville - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,033 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 9-16-02 - Published: 9-16-02

50. Goodbye to My Girl reviews

Dean lets go of his first love.

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,943 - Reviews: 16 - Updated: 9-15-02 - Published: 9-15-02

51. Blue at Seventeen reviews

A glimpse into the horror of teen pregnancy. (M/M)

Roswell - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,668 - Reviews: 12 - Updated: 6-14-02 - Published: 6-14-02

52. Legal Guardian reviews

A slip-slap of childhood memories carrying Michael on the way to letting go of the only piece of family he's ever thought he had.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,766 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 4-26-02 - Published: 4-26-02

53. When Forever's Gone reviews

As Max made love to Tess, it was the brunette beauty that was on his mind.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,520 - Reviews: 10 - Updated: 4-5-02 - Published: 4-5-02

54. Far Away from Here reviews

Life goes on. Even without Alex.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 5,769 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 3-15-02 - Published: 3-15-02

55. When Opportunity Knocks reviews

Madeline's party (from 'The Breakup, Part 2') turns out a little different. (major Troryness ensues)

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,439 - Reviews: 16 - Updated: 2-23-02 - Published: 2-23-02

56. Pieces of You reviews

As the events of 'Departure' unfold before her eyes, Liz can't help but agonize over what she's lost.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,056 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 2-10-02 - Published: 2-10-02

57. Missing You reviews

Dawson misses his Joey.

Dawson's Creek - Fiction Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,256 - Reviews: 2 - Updated: 12-30-01 - Published: 12-30-01

58. Casual Observer reviews

Liz notices Michael before the secret comes out.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 743 - Reviews: 3 - Updated: 12-30-01 - Published: 12-30-01

59. Stolen Away reviews

Kyle misses Liz.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,237 - Reviews: 1 - Updated: 12-30-01 - Published: 12-30-01

60. Just a Girl reviews

Dealing with being the world's only Savior is sometimes too much to bear.

Buffy: The Vampire Slayer - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,669 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 11-18-01 - Published: 11-18-01

61. Minutes Before the Fall reviews

An 'End of the World' fiction.  Liz, in the granolith chamber, looks back on the memories that will be erased from her seventeen year-old mind as Future Max is on his quest to save the world.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,920 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 11-18-01 - Published: 11-18-01

62. One True Thing reviews

Over ten years in the future, Max thinks back on what he once had.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,323 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 9-27-01 - Published: 9-27-01

63. Killing Me Softly reviews

Upon finding out she had to turn Max away from her to prevent the end of the world, Liz ran from Roswell. Five years later, she's confronted by Max, who refuses to give up hope that their saga is over. Fair warning: it's sad.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,839 - Reviews: 13 - Updated: 9-20-01 - Published: 9-20-01

64. Sober reviews

Sequel to 'Beer Bad'. Max and Liz confront the decisions they can't ignore.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,265 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 9-19-01 - Published: 9-19-01

65. Examining Michael reviews

Just a quick dip into the mind of Michael Guerin.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,932 - Reviews: 9 - Updated: 9-17-01 - Published: 9-17-01

66. Beautiful to Me reviews

Maria's pleased with what's hers.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,143 - Reviews: 15 - Updated: 9-16-01 - Published: 9-16-01

67. Beer Bad reviews

Blind Date in reverse. Kind of.

Roswell - Fiction Rated: M - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,367 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 9-16-01 - Published: 9-16-01

68. It Figures reviews

Basically just a small visit into the mind of Paris on a regular schoolday at Chilton.

Gilmore Girls - Fiction Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 496 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 9-16-01 - Published: 9-16-01