Heey guys,

Ok first something about me.

Who am I: Well my name is Eline, I'm twenty years old and I live in a small town in the upper half of the Netherlands. I have dark blond/brown hair and chocolate brown eyes, I used to wear glasses but now I wear contacts.
Hobby: Writing stories, well okay that one was to be expected, also writing poems, I mostly write poems when I have a lot on my mind and I just feel miserable, I guess I just write it all away, it's my way of keeping a dairy without writing in it everyday. I tried keeping a real dairy once but I'm not that loyal, I guess I'm just not a dairy person. Also I love to play hockey, it's great when you need to lose a bit of agression, you slam that ball into the goal and hear the bang when it hits the wood, it feels so good. There's one more thing that I love to do and that is dancing, I used to do ballet and jazz even though I never had the figure. I've always been the fat girl and when I was dancing those mirrors weren't denying anything. But that is not the reason why I quit dancing, I love to dance no matter what, mostly I would just close my eyes and move my body to the rhythm of the music, just for a couple of minutes be in a world where no one would look at me and I could just do what I want. But I had to stop dancing because there were troubles at my dancing school and it became to much with school. But I just want to say to every other chubby girl out there who wants to dance, just go for it! I still love to dance and that liberating feeling is amazing.
Where do I come from: The Netherlands of course, I live in the northern part though my family comes from the south so I sometimes have a bit of an accent, some people just think that I have a preppy accent but it's mostly just because we speak a different dialect at home.
Favorite...
Fic.: My love for you is insatiable, Let love be your energy, My little Bride, Know your stars a la DBZ, Just Shut Up, It's all about the eyes, Teletubbies are not educational (hilarious!), A Cool Change and many more...
Pairs: Pan&Trunks, Gohan&Videl, Bra&Goten(DBZ/GT), Paige&Kyle, Paige&Henry, Piper&Leo (Charmed) Ross&Rachel, Chandler& Monica (Friends)
Authors: Mystic Dodo, Innocent Slayer, Moondalian (Evil Moony), Gaetagirl, Dragon Agility, aZnFantasygoddess and many more but I forgot the names of most of them...
Show: Charmed, Grey's Anatomy and Friends!
Movie: Kingdom of Heaven (this movie inspired me to write my new fic Fallen Angel), Mona Lisa Smile, Phantom of the Opera (I've seen that play on Broadway, it was amazing!), Schlinder's List, Save the last dance, Never Been Kissed, Bad Girls and many more...
Book: Het Lelietheater from Lulu Wang and Les Miserable from Victor Hugo and almost everything from Thea Beckman.

My stories:

The Lake (Complete) 30 chapters
Summary: She doesn't know who or what she is, but what she does know is that something odd is happening. Who is behind the strange things that happen at the Lake. Will she be able to figure everything out in time to save the ones she love? T/P
The lake in this story actually exists, it's a small lake in the forest nearby a campsite. I've been there a couple of times and we brought our old dog with us and I used to walk with him to that lake. It took me a while, I was already half way through the story, that I realised that the lake I was picturing was the one I used to go too with my old dog. (He died october 2006)

Fallen Angel (In Progress) 8 chapters
Pan hardly tasted life on Earth before she died, fourteen years later on the age of sixteen she gets a chance to go back, only with a task. Though if she fails or gets tempted by one of the seven sins then she goes straight to hell. AU TP
In the beginning this story was more a protest against everything that went wrong in the world, I was watching Kingdom of Heaven, a story about the crusades. It was ridiculous how many times people were slaughtered where words could have saved them and now in our modern time that hasn't changed. Only a few of you can name all the seven virtues however when someone asks to name the sins or the virtues, they would most likely chose for the sins because they actually know them better. With my story I want to teach a few people the values of the virtues and how the sins have taken over the planet. Not that I can say that I don't sin, nobody's perfect, but I try to prefend to sin.

Christmas Disaster (In slow progress) 7 chapters
Summary: What do you get when you put a couple of teenagers in one big house? Chaos, Love, foodfights and a lot of trouble!
This is a story me and a friend of mine (Moondalian) made up in a weird mood and since I'm writing it, it's on my account. But I guess that's logical.

Real to Me (Complete) 1 chapter (oneshot)
Summary: A songfic about Trunks and Pan. They love each other but Trunks is almost always gone for business. What effect will this have on their marriage?
My first songfic, I was writing The Lake but I wanted something different and then I heard this song and I thought of a story around it, thus we have Real to Me.

The Black Diamond (No inspiration :( ) 2 chapters
Summary: She promised herself revenge but to do that she has to become two persons at once. She became the fair maiden Pan and a fearsome pirate called The Black Diamond. What happens when someone sees through the lies and her mask? AU TP
This was supposed to be the next big story after The Lake but then I've got the idea for Fallen Angel and I lost all inspiration for this one, I'm keeping it on my account though so I can finish it later.

Filling the emptiness (Complete) 2 chapters (twoshot)
Summary: You never really know what you do when someone dear to you dies unless you actually experience it. But how to you survive the next weeks, Pan is about to find out. AU
This story is my most personal story, it's about the day my dog died and the weeks after, it's a short but raw piece of work and it was just something I needed to write. Because Tycho was not only my dog, he was my best friend and I saw him as my little brother.

Murder She Wrote (Complete) 1 chapter (oneshot)
Summary: In her final letter she explains why she killed the man she loves. Going through the letter she shows her family what really was the reason why she acted the way she did. AU, oneshot, TP
This is an angst, just for warning. It's a really dramatic oneshot and I'm actually pretty proud of this one because it made several people cry. Not that I'm glad that people are crying or anything but in some way it's a complement because they were touched by my story.

Not Really Spirited Away (In Progress) 3 chapter
Summary: An insane parody on the movie Spirited Away. Chihiro is a devillish girl who has a whole bag of weapons... Not really suited for the younger ones, lots of talking about murder, taking over the world and icecream! (This is my insane story, read it and see that I have absolutely no life at all :P )
I was watching the movie Spirited Away by Hayao Miyazaki when I thought of this insane story, I just added some twists here and there... ok that's a lie, I added a lot of twists, including a whole character change for everybody. Chihiro turned into a little demon, she loves to burn toddlers with her friend mr. Flamethrower and she's Miss. Sarcasm herself. Just read it when you're in a really weird mood and no this story makes no sense whatsoever.

Coming soon (Actually coming when I've overcome my laziness and got my ass over to that computer... Let's see coming in a year... or two):

Painted Secret, yes this is the sequal to the Lake! (which will come in about a year or two... could be longer)

The sequal to the Black Diamond and Fallen Angel... yes I know I'm insane but I've already thought of those...

Jamie!She's Gohan twin sister, has blond hair and blue eyes. She can be really stubborn but is great with children and well you don't want to get her pissed off. She really loves surfing, and if anyone ever does something to her friends and family, that one's dead. She is Geta's girlfriend.

"Yeah why not tell my complete personal life while you're at it!" Jamie said angry.

:Again annoying showhost voice: Sorry no time and now for our second guest heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeere's:

Geta! He is Gohan's best friend and well he's always SS 3 so that would do for the looks. He can be really stubborn, unless he has an argument with Jamie because she always wins.He also loves surfing and kills everybody that harms his friends and family.

"Could you just change your voice for one sec? You're really annoying!" Geta said annoyed.

"Now I have to agree with that! Who are you anyway?" Jamie asked.

"I'm the annoying Show-host that Nalurah hired to introduce you!" The annoying show-host said cheery.

"Remind me that I'm going to kill Nalurah I've she ever does that again!" Jamie said angry.

"Ooh, mind if I help?" A new voice said from behind Jamie.

Jamie quickly turned around to see a lavender haired boy smiling at her. "And who might you be?" She asked while raising her eyebrow.

Again the annoying showhost had to interrupt. "Ladies and Gentlemen meet Hirou, he's the guardian of love, but for all you girls who just started drooling, he's offlimits for he's Pan's boyfriend and you don't want to mess with her. He loves painting, games, long walks on the beach of the lake, romantic dinners by candlelight and of course Pan.

"Ok Jamie/ Geta I agree, his voice is really annoying! I think Nalurah has to pay for this, let's get her!" Hirou said as the three of them started chasing Nalurah.

Well, that's for the OC's, but I gotta run because those three don't look happy with my little surprise.

By the way don't forget: As finishing touch, God greated the Dutch! (yeah I'm Dutch! But you already knew that of course! And no I'm not on repeat.)

I decided to bore you so here are some poems:

This poem is from the Lake, I wrote it a few years ago.

Pieces of my heart

You’ve broken my heart
Shattered it into pieces
Every piece I try to forget
Yet they’re all glued in my mind

Every piece reflects a memory
One moment I shared with you
Each memory I try to forget
But I can’t seem to forget you

I want to hate you
For all you’ve done
I want to forget you
I want to move on

Why don’t my hands want to let go
Why does my heart keep longing for you
My soul is grieving inside
It’s praying to be with you

I want to hate you
For all you’ve done
I want to forget you
I want to move on

A cry

My voice may sound like a cry
Soft teardrops from the sky
My heart is soken in rain
The cold of the weather and my lonelyness combine
Destroys the live that used to be mine...

Voices

Your voice may sound as a whisper
But your heart may scream out loud
Who you are...
Who you want to be...
And who you’re not...
Listen to that voice
Let it scream once in a while

Fly

If I could
I would disappear
Fly away
Away from here
To a place where nowhone knows me
Have a new start
Be free

One word

One word may mean a thousend things
But still brings it back to one
Maybe I sound stupid
The only reason I acted like that is to be accepted
I wish I could find another word
But I can’t
It’s just stupid
Thinking about your actions in the past
You’d might decide to change everything
‘Cause in your eyes it all seemes wrong
That one word you’ve said
Might be to much...

One more time (this poem is for my hamster, who died a while ago)

Heart, tears and soul
I give to you
If I could see you one more time
I know I haven’t been nice
But I just want to see you one more time
Give me a sign
So I can have Hope

Raindrops (also a poem for The Lake)

Raindrops fallen from heaven
Can’t you help me
Can’t you wash away my sorrow
Can’t you let me be free

Spell (once more for the lake, yes I know it's becoming annoying)

Hear my cry
Make this happen when I die
Show yourself, true feeling inside.
You no longer have to hide
When asked for a bit, show your full force
Your power will become the new source.

Fear

Here I stand in the darkness
In clouds of rain
My heart is beating of fear
Dark shadows are closing in on me
I run away
I feel the fear
It is making me weaker...

Sometimes

Sometimes I want to be alone
Feel miserable about nothing
Hide in the shadows
and watch how the world moves on

Sometimes I want all the attention
I want everybody to like me
In the middle of the spotlights
I stand with a smile

Sometimes I want to be happy
But there's nothing to laugh about
Sometimes I want to cry
But I can't seem to find my tears

Sometimes I want to be me
sometimes I want to be someone else
Sometimes I want to be water
Yet the next day burn as fire

Sometimes I want to realize
That I'm only human
That I want to be everything
Yet nothing...

The Shadow ( a poem I wrote at a request of a friend)

Equally noticed as a shadow,
Though unfortunately hit by cupids’ arrow
changing every time you pas by,
yet never seen by your eye.
my heart is imagening,
our bodies intwining.
The passion burning
A wild, uncontrolled yearning
suddenly reality returns
So cold that it almost burns
You’ll walk right through me,
For there is nothing you can see…

This is a poem about someone very close to me, I've first written it in dutch and after that translated it in English.

Iemand vaarwel zeggen is altijd moeilijk,
Maar een vriend zien lijden,
wetend dat je snel vaarwel zal moeten zeggen
Scheurt je in stukken
Een plotselinge gebeurtenis
Van de ene dag op de andere
Jij werd ziek
En alles ging berg afwaarts
Mijn vriend
Ik wil niet vaarwel zeggen
Ik wil je omarmen
Zorgen dat jij bij mij blijft.
Nooit zal ik je vergeten
Nooit zal ik je laten gaan.
Ook al weet ik
Dat jij misschien verder moet gaan
Blijf bij mij, mijn vriend
Blijf bij mij…

To say goodbye to someone is always hard,
But to see a friend suffer,
Knowing you must soon say goodbye
Tears you apart
A sudden event
From one day to another
You became ill
Everything went down the road
My friend...
I don’t want to say goodbye
I want hold you
Make sure you stay with me
Never will I forget you
Never will I let you go
Although I know
That you maybe have to move one
Stay with me, my friend
Stay with me

The maze (A sonnet 2x4, 2x3)

The sun is setting
Darkness takes a hold of me
A new world has opened
One I can’t see

Blood runs over my face
Voices echo through my mind
Let me out of this maze
Freedom is what is need to find.

Dark imprisoning walls
A bleeding heart
A love that forever falls

A broken soul
Broken by the mirror of reality
Never to be whole.

This poem is about an event that happened in my childhood, once when I was eight years old and once when I was just fifteen.

Let me go now

A wall, everywhere water
I was unsure
You captured me
This was the end
And a new beginning

I was still young
You laughed at me
Was this normal?
Your hands caressed my body
Let me go now!

So many questions
So many houres
Locked within those grey walls
Again and again my story
Let it go, all of it.

Let it fly
Far away
Again problems
I lock myself up
The fear didn’t go away

I push it all away
Let me go now
Keep your hands away from my body
Can I still trust?
Can I still love?

This is how I feel now, over one year after the last time this happened.

Another heart broken

Your arm around me
Your shoulder against mine
A shock runs through my body
I wish it could all be just fine

Flashes through my head
Fear in my eyes
Laying together on this bed
Memories begin to rise

A stupid excuse
It all ends
I didn’t need to choose
We’ll still be friends

Another heart broken
Another shy goodbye at the door
My fears have again awoken
I can’t take it anymore

Don’t touch me
Just stay away
I need to be free
That’s all I wanted to say

The songs of the choir of Vevina (Fallen Angel)

Come, little angel
Close your eyes
Reach for the sky
May fall your disguise

Come, little angel
Dance with me
Dance in the dark
'Till the stars set you free

Come, little angel
Fall into night
Leave your body
And dance in the light

Have faith little angel
Captured in Serena's light
Soon your confusion will end
With the white owl's flight

My poems mean a lot to me, it's my way of telling people how I feel. So if you want to borrow my poems for a story or something, please ask me, just send me a PM and I'll reply to it a.s.a.p.

Ok people have fun reading if you ever decide to read my story... and by the way you're nuts that you even took the time to read this whole profile.

Love, Nalurah (Eline (my real name), Lien-chan, Lien, Aulilas, Sletje and all my other nicknames)