July 12, 2009

Yeaahhhh... OK... Reading all this shit I wrote about OMG!GOD LOVES ME! makes me want to sick up. Wanna know what really happened?

They changed my meds. Yep. That's it. Got on new meds, and found fucking Jesus.

If I could have God in a bottle...

Suffice it to say that the good old bad mean evil Xians_Suck is back to her normal old self. Sorry, Christians, but you all really, really suck at emulating Christ. Maybe someday I'll encounter a Christian who cares more about Jesus than about being right, or winning, or beating down another's beliefs, but until that time... Yeah, fuck all of you.

And in classic Xians_Suck tradition, I will now tear retarded comments to shreds... starting with mine.

Overly medicated me is in regular type. NORMAL, recovering, reliable me is in boldface.

Fuck me, I cannot believe I actually typed this shit. This is your brain. This is your brain on really strong prescription drugs. Warning: Side effects may include headache, sleeplessness, excitability, nausea, and a sudden inexplicable belief in God.

Just to clear up some honest confusion; this is the account formally called "Xians_Suck". I have changed it to a more appropriate name. "Lisa's Hope?" Actually, "Lisa's Drugs" would be more appropriate.

This morning I woke up with so much uncertainty. What do I do first? Do I join a church again? Do I read the Bible? Do I try to eliminate all sinful and impure things from my life? Do I stop talking to my friends who are atheists? BWOOP! BWOOP! CRAZY LADY ALERT! BWOOP! BWOOP!

And I heard Him again, as clear as anything. "Chill out, girl. One day at a time. I'm here. I'll help you. I'll show you. I will take care of you." Hey mom? Have you ever had..., well..., that Not-So-Sane feeling?

Hi folks. Just a quick request, a lot of you still have me blocked. If you want to hear from me (a reply, that is) then please unblock me. Yeah, just block me again, I guess, fuck it.

And yes, this is the real thing. Nobody hacked my account. I am alive and not well, but hope to be soon. Somebody DID hack my account. A crazy lady coked up on antidepressants. She won't be troubling us any longer, though.

Oh, one more thing, could someone please let Tonisha know what's happened? I hurt her worse than anyone I think. LOUD FARTING NOISE

Let me first begin by saying how hard this is for me to do. That's what SHE said!

Let me add to that, that I want to know God. I want Him to know me. I want Him to love me. But I know that He won't, until I have repented and come clean on my evil actions of the past few years. ...This is like a train wreck in typeface. I'm disgusted, but I can't look away.

Nothing any of you can say will hurt me any more than I already hurt. I am crippled by emotional pain. I feel that this is my last chance. If I don't make my peace with God now, this time, at this moment, I never will. I cannot go on living the way I have been. Fuck, if Puccini could put this shit to music and translate it into Italian, you'd have a helluvan opera.

I have so much evil inside me. This evil manifests itself in hurtful, appalling abuse, mostly online, because it is easier to hurt when you can't see the face of the one you are hurting. Even if I were to change right now, and never say another mean, heartless word to anyone, it would not change the fact that I have a festering boil of evil inside me. I have to lance it. i have to let out the badness in order to heal. Well at least this bit is mostly true! LOL!

That's why I am posting here. I had originally planned to send a personal message to each and every one that I have hurt, but I realize that will take too long, because I hurt so many. So I am instead posting here, and those of you who I owe apologies to will probably see it. I was, after all, something of a celebrity. Christ in a fucking miniskirt... I did go full emo, didn't I? I'm so sorry. Sorry for this truckload of melodramatic shoite.

Please, please do contact me privately if you want to talk. Or if you want to yell, scream, gloat, rant, rave, curse... as I said, I deserve all you have to throw at me and more. But until I let this out of me, I will never be whole. "Please, please fucking DO..."? When did I turn Brit? Oh God, if anyone but me wrote this, I'd be going absoloutely to town on them. Red Bull gives you Jesus!

I offer my sincerest and most humble apologies. You don't have to accept. But that does not change the fact that I owe them. Give 'em back, NOW.

Please try to forgive me, in time. I know I don't deserve it. The nominees for the Academy Award for best actress are...

To all my irreverant, heathen, atheist, and otherwise cool friends... For turning traitor and abandoning you, you're the ones I owe the real apology to... PSYCH!! Fuck that, I'm Xians_Suck, and I don't apologize, I demoralize!

They meant well.

I was the enemy. They were protecting their own.

I was the stray cat that hissed and spit and clawed

But secretly needed to be stroked

Who can blame them for turning me away.

I would do the same.

They feared my teeth and hated my claws.

And in anger, sprayed me with water and hate to send me away.

We're all just human.

We all do what we think is right and noble.

Sometimes it's lost in translation.

Sometimes asking for help sounds just like

I hate you. I'll kill you. You are evil. You liar.

Coward's sleep is the most permanent.

The pharmacist sells rest by the bottle.

I wonder if they will laugh at me.

Or forget me as soon as I go.

I was loved, even me.

Past tense.

I have no heart to break.

It went away with the one I lost.

What a shock it is, and a shame.

Now when I finally need Him.

When I am able to open up

Finally swallow my pride

Broken enough to ask for His help.

To find that He isn't there.

How funny and sad.

I never thought I would be so unhappy

To learn that I was right all along.

Somtimes the time comes when you have to admit defeat. I have lost everything, especially the one thing that mattered to me. Even now at the end, I realize that I would never be welcomed in the Christian faith.

Maybe if I had been met with understanding instead of hate by the Christians of this site, things might have turned out differently. When I needed it most, they gave it the least. Oh well. Can't chamge human nature.

Starting to feel it. I took 8 perscription sleeping pills. They say it takes less than 30 minutes. At least Tonisha will be happy.

Heh. The sad thing is, if I find out there isGod now, he won;t have me. I tried talking with him and it didn't do anything. Felt nothing like always.

Signing off.

I need to give shoutout to Name Ommitted, of Livejournal, for directing me to this. Too funny. Note how many people give She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named the smackdown for being a whiny little turd. And she eventually admits that she was in the wrong.

But guess what? I never got an apology. And guess what else? She didn't stop pestering me, either.

http://community.livejournal.com/fanficrants/2321290.html

Yeesh. Zealot Fundie in da house. Ginny Wazlib.

I know about the world of acting. Practically everything about it actually.

Oh. Yeah. That attitude will go over REAL well with your directors. Seeing a lot of plays doesn't mean you know about acting. All it means is that your parents spoil you. I've worked on more than half of the shows you've only seen. Suck on that.

You are doing something very common for non-believers; you're too scared to listen to God, so you'd rather listen to Satan and pick on the believers.

And you're doing something very common to believers. Assuming I believe in God and Satan. I don't. They don't exist.

And if you really care, it says so in the Bible: "The Lord will judge His people." Hebrews 10:30. It's a pretty good book; maybe you'll check it out someday.

Read it many years ago. Hilarious book. Great fiction. Another foolish assumption, that I have not read the Bible.

One day, I know you will understand; a little something called "judgement day" will
come along for you too and you will understand everything that I understand.

This is how a Christian tries to convince you that they are NOT one of those judgemental, arrogant, overly-proud, fire-and-brimstone Christians that love to tell others that they're going to Hell. How'd she do? Snicker.

To many peope have smoked marijuana. If you haven't, write this to your profile.

Too many people cannot tell when to use "to" versus "too." If you are one of these people, you have probably already posted the above comment in your retarded-assprofile.

I am starting to understand why people believe in God. When your life sucks SO badly, that you can't hanlde it anymore, it would be great to be able to think that Someone has it All Figured Out, and that everything awful that happens to you is part of some great plan. That this Someone is watching over you, and will step in for you if things get to be too much.

How nice it must be to let go of all your troubles and stress, and let God take care of it. I'm surprised everyone isn't a believer.

Unfortunately those of us who know better can't do it. There is no God, and no amount of my wanting there to be one will change that. But at least now I think I get why so many people DO believe.

It still doesn't excuse how they abuse this belief. God should be your protective, supportive confidant, not the hired goon you use to bully those who don't agree with your beliefs. Republicans will never understand this.

NOTE: I had originally added a paragraph here in which MGW "confessed' to being a Christian all along, and trying to trick me into thinking he was an athiest. That was a Big Fat Lie on my part. I was wrong to post it. I apologize, Wolf.NOTE: I had originally added a paragraph here in which MGW "confessed' to being a Christian all along, and trying to trick me into thinking he was an athiest. That was a Big Fat Lie on my part. I was wrong to post it. I apologize, Wolf.NOTE: I had originally added a paragraph here in which MGW "confessed' to being a Christian all along, and trying to trick me into thinking he was an athiest. That was a Big Fat Lie on my part. I was wrong to post it. I apologize, Wolf.NOTE: I had originally added a paragraph here in which MGW "confessed' to being a Christian all along, and trying to trick me into thinking he was an athiest. That was a Big Fat Lie on my part. I was wrong to post it. I apologize, Wolf.NOTE: I had originally added a paragraph here in which MGW "confessed' to being a Christian all along, and trying to trick me into thinking he was an athiest. That was a Big Fat Lie on my part. I was wrong to post it. I apologize, Wolf.NOTE: I had originally added a paragraph here in which MGW "confessed' to being a Christian all along, and trying to trick me into thinking he was an athiest. That was a Big Fat Lie on my part. I was wrong to post it. I apologize, Wolf.NOTE: I had originally added a paragraph here in which MGW "confessed' to being a Christian all along, and trying to trick me into thinking he was an athiest. That was a Big Fat Lie on my part. I was wrong to post it. I apologize, Wolf.

xxMugen no Kokyokyokuxx is lying her ass off again. She posted the stuff in italics in a review on Sadista's "A Light In the Dark." My stuff is in bold.

Oh boy. I hate doing this, but I think Kikoken is off on one her lying sprees again.

I certainly had no wish to call this person's attention towards me

Which of course is why you came to my Livejournal and attakced me there, when I had not said boo to you in weeks. It's right there for everyone to see.

however hearing their inaccurate statements and hateful lies was enough to give my attention.

And as ever, dearest sweetest little Tonisha is NEVER at fault. She is Always a Good and Just Servant of Christ. It's just so sad that everyone else is too stupid to see how So Very Holy And Good Tonisha is. She always means well! She only hates others because she is So Full Of Love of Jesus! She is perfectly Just to create new screen names, like Monica and Passerby, and Ignore the Antix to attack her enemy. And of course she is Oh So Very Clever enough to try and disguise her hate by posting in Latin.

If THEY can't speak to you like a normal human being with faults and you can't have a decent conversation with them, then the best thing to do is to let them be.

Let me remind you, YOU posted a PM to ME first. When I tried to reply, you had blocked me. So I blocked you.

As for letting me be. So do it. Let me be. Don't post nastiness directed at me. Don't post it in LATIN to try and hide your true feelings, for fuck's sake. I have tried to ignore you repeatedly, and it is ALWAYS YOU who starts it up again. You're w aste of life and your mother should be glad she died, so she doesn';t have see what kind of person you have become.

I don't see anything mean about that.

Of course you don't! You're the famous Ever-So-Perfect- Tonisha! You're NEVER mean, oh NO not Tonisha! You just want to help everyone by showing what kind of hate a TRUE Christian is really capable of.

Their actions makes them mean, not the person who tries to separate from them.

You haven't tried to separate from me. When I created a livejournal to take some of my anti-Christian stuff off this site, you followed me there. As I said, you are STILL not trying to separate from me, you are just hiding behind your new sceen name "AntiX Ignorandus," and trying to disguise your meaness by typing it in Latin.

In my case, I could not have a decent conversation with this person without getting angry

That is becauase you are an angry, hate-filled person.

or just ignoring them.

Which you are incapable of.

Like I said, sometimes it's hard to share the love of Christ with many people.

It's hard to share anything that you don't have yourself.

Many will hear but few will listen.

Especially when the messenger is such a twat, like you.

You try to stay out of a situation you can't handle, and yet they drag you in.

How did I DRAG you into my Livejournal? How have I DRAGGED you into making a snotty reply to EVERY REVIEW I GIVE here? Stop blaming everyone else for your wrongdoing, Tonisha. YOU ARE AT FAULT.

God, you are some piece of work.

Is there some rule that says once you start believing in God, you can't use contractions anymore?

Mystic Golden Wolf was freely using "don't" and "can't" and "won't" and now that he's OMG!SAVED! it's all "do not" and "cannot" and "will not."

Personally I think it's just all part of the pretentiousness of being a Christian.

Oh yeah, Mystic Golden Wolf has sold out. He has declared his LURVE FER JAYSUS! Actually no, all he's done is finally stopped the atheist act.

MGW claimed to be an atheist who found the idea of God laughable (as most atheists do). For weeks on the forums he touted himself as a atheist, and even went as far to call himself a satanist for awhile. But it turns out it was all an act. He was a Christian all along. He pretended to be an Atheist, in order to gain the trust of other Atheists. Then he figured when he "converted", he'd drag a few of us along with him.

I've had this tried on me before. I have to admit, MGW was the best at it. He had me fooled. But then right after his declaration of being "saved" he sent me the following PM:

Jesus threw the money changers out of His temple, we are not to tolerate sin in our congregations, if I see someone sinning I will help them quit, but I cannot force them, unless it is a legal crime. heh, then they're in deep with me, ;)

Please note how this brand new believer, who yesterday was verbally berating other believers, is now suddenly OMG!HOLY! I smell a rat. A big rat.

Abaddon once said do not worry about the big picture but instead forcus on what you alone can do, which is much if you have faith. And I intend to continue with all I am doing in my community.

People see the church and it has problems, yes, many join certain churches for ease of sinning, lol but they forget, when the final judgment is at hand, God will not judge churches but individual people... if the doctrine they follow was a lie and they did not see it, they will burn. Their false religion will not save them, true Christians must be cautious about that.

Yeah, right. It doesn't happen instantaneously, asshole. You don't go from atheist to monk overnight.

Moving on to better things had better include job hunting, Cyborg.I conacted that pissant Christian radio station you work for, and directed them to your online antics. Surely a radio station that claims to be "100 Christian" shouldn't have a hate-monger on its payroll. :-)

Hey Cyborg? You said this on your blog emulating me:

MSN allows most other people groups to say whatever they want, but if you're a Conservative or a Christian, or both; like me; then you get hit with 'hate speech' emails threatening to cancell your Space if you don't remove an entry that THEY say is naughty.

You know, you may own a mint condition Spiderman Comic Book Issue #1. Worth who knows how much. But you know what? If nobody wants to buy it, it's worthless.

A thing cannot be offensive unless somebody is offended by it.

A complaint was made about YOUR MSN space because someone DID find it offensive. If YOU find other sites offensive, then you are welcome to report them.

The fact that those other sites that you are petulantly whining about are still up doesn't mean that MSN hates Conservative Christians, as you imply. It means they haven't had enough complaints to remove them.

I find it funny that you are bothered that people lump all Christians into the Ultra-Rightist Nazi-esque Kill-All-Athiests pigeonhole, yet you have no problem, and in fact think you are some kind of a hero, for doing the exact same thing to Muslims. You want the right to lash out at Islam, but boy nobody better say anything bad about YOUR religion. After all, it's only Free Speech (which you clearly defend) if it agrees with YOUR opinion.

You say you hate Islam but not Muslims. So you would be all right with me saying I hate Christianity, but not Christians. No, I didn't think so.

I realize that it's redundant caling a Christian a hypocrite, but you are big, fat, legless, stupid, fucking Hypocrite. And I would bet money that Teresa is, too. Except for the legless part.

You're very lucky that I don't live in Australia. I would take great pleasure in ruining your life.

OMG! I was wrong! CyborgGarfield DIDN'T just dedicate the first page of his MSN space to me.

He created an ENTIRE. FUCKING. BLOG dedicated to me! To ME!

http://cyborggarfield.blogspot.com/

I'd like to thank The Acadmey...

Who da man? I da man. Oh yeah.

It's interesting, isn't it? How all these people who are angry at me have never stopped to consider that they might DESERVE to be hated? That maybe I DON'T hate them just because I have nothing better to do, but because they are actually, honestly, hate-able?

Yay! Cyborggardfield (remember him? The Muslim-hater that likes to touch his niece?) has dedicated the entire front page of his website to ME. Because I own his ass, and he has finally come to realize this fact.

http://spaces.msn.com/cyborggarfield

The problem with some people is that they don't know the difference between a person and a thing.

As a Christian I am able to say I hate things, but not people - a big difference. I know non-Christians who are the same. We all have one thing in common; we have an IQ bigger thanour shoe size.

The real reason some people can't tell the difference is because they are so caught up in their own hatred of people (because they cannot distinguish between a human being and a thing or object) so they assume everyone else is just as deluded as they are and can't understand the difference either.

So they resort to going onto the web sites of 14 year old girls and leave their hatred there because they can't actually get to the person they really want to attack because they have been blocked.

Then, a person who has/spreads/rants more hatred than anyone else I have ever seen, reports people to MSN and complains that they are 'offended' by someones blog entry, because they can't leave hate messages on thier pages.

Then my really good freind, his name is Xian's Sucks; go to his page and take a look at real hate: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/981578/- Then go to: http://www.fanfiction.net/r/2900838/0/1/http://www.fanfiction.net/r/2732986/0/1/http://xians-suck.livejournal.com/; says "Because he was embarrassed that my profile was bringing people to his site, and he didn't want people to see the real him."

Tell me my friend, if I didn't want people to go to my MSN page; if I didn't want them to know 'the real me' as you say; then why do I link to it from my FanFic.Net page, from my MySpacespace and my Christian Blog; and why do other bloggers, some Christian, some not; link to my Space?

Besides, your link brings more people to my MSN Space that ever before and maybe one of them, or more, will see through your hate filled lies and maybe look at some of the links I have and who knows, maybe they will come to know Christ too. You're evengelising mate! Doing God's work, well done!

Oh and it's not a Christian's job to save people - it's the duty of Christians to tell people about the Good News of Jesus Christ and then let them sort it out with God. So you see, it's no skin off my nose if you get saved or not; I'd like it to happen, but I'm not going tolose any sleepover it. Nope, I'm just going to shake the dust from my feet, sorry; foot;and move on.

And no, I don't lay awake at night and wonder if my wife really loves me, like you wrote,do you? Maybe you need someone to love you, maybe that's why you are so filled with bitterness and hatred.

And you have the gaul to call me psychotic. HAH! At least I have the guts to admit my faults! My disabilities and depression are mentioned on all of my web profiles, I'm not ashamed of them.

Bless Ya †

PS: If you want to know what it was that I wrote on my blog here at MSN Spaces andwas threatened with termination of my space by MSNif it wasn't removed; the stuff that Xian's Sucks has been raving on about;go here: http://cyborggarfield.blogspot.com/

Whoohoo! Go MSN! I am The Man. And you know what, Cyborg? MSN is watching you now. You'd better watch your step, gimpy. Ha! Get it? Step?

Isn't it funny that a Christian had to be warned that his website promoted hate? You and your kind do so amuse me. And I do like ever so much to be right, so thanks for everything. You've reacted exactly the way I wanted you to. I was about to move on, actually, because I was bored with your lack of response. Thanks for making my day. :-)

By the way, I said that you deleted the anti-Muslim ranting on your page because you didn't want people to see the real you. Your reading comprehension skills are about as good as those of your 14 year old niece.

And about my evangelizing, oh little man, little man. Funny little man. NOBODY will ever come to Christ through YOU. Trust me. You're no more Christlike than Osama Bin Laden. You're a coward like your father was. And your son would be one too, that is, if you hadn't lost your Man Marbles in the motrocycle wreck.

Why are Christians like tampons? Because they're all stuck up cunts.

Do Christians really believe in God? I don't think they all do.

God supposedly sees all, right? So if a Christian were to post hurtful reviews under a different name to hide her identity, God would know, wouldn't he? I mean, she wouldn't be able to hide her identity from him. So the only logical answer is that she doesn't really believe in God.

I've seen a lot of Christians doing this sort of thing. Apparently laboring under a belief that the all-knowing, all-seeing God isn't paying attention to Fanfiction Dot Net.

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This is my advice for any Christian who decides they have the stones to take on an atheist. I've discovered since writing this, though, that it was a waste of time, because the kind of Christian that will try to witness already thinks he or she is perfect. They will not listen to any advice from an atheist.

You want to know how to witness? That is, how to impress an atheist?

First, what NOT to do.

1) Don't read me scripture. I'm an atheist. Your Bible is meaningless to me.

2) Don't be offended that I don't believe in God. I'm not doing it just to piss you off.

3) Don't look at me as a source of Brownie Points. That is, don't decide that you will gain favor with God by "saving" me.

4) Don't tell me schmoozy stories about how your sick friend was OMG!CURED! by God. I don't believe in God. Don't build the house when you haven't poured the slab, yet.

5) Don't assume that I chose to be an atheist in a spur-of-the-moment decision. Most atheists have spent as much time finding their beliefs as Christians have spent finding theirs.

6) Don't assume that I am an atheist because I am:
a) Angry at God.
b) Disappointed in God.
c) Just don't understand God.
d) Angry at believers in God.
Because a, b and c would mean I am NOT an atheist. D is of course possible, but I garuntee you that it's not the primary reason most atheists are atheists.

7) Don't threaten me with Hell. I don't believe in Hell.

8) Don't tempt me with Heaven. I don't believe in Heaven.

9) Don't tell me that Satan is controlling me. I don't believe in Satan.

10) Don't counter my claims that there is no God with "Oh yes there is!" We will be at it all day and get nowhere.

Now here's what you SHOULD do.

1) Be kind.

2) Be sincere.

3) Respect the path that brought me to atheism, rather than writing it off.

4) Be honest.

5) Give me YOUR words. Not a preacher's. Not the Bible's. Not whatever celebrity Christian is big that week. Not something you read on WWW Dot SchmoozyXian Dot Com.

6) Show me you are a follower of Christ by the way you live, not by how loudly you insist that you are. If you emulate Jesus, I should be able to see it without you holding a big neon sign over your head that blinks "CHRISTIAN...CHRISTIAN...CHRISTIAN!"

7) Don't talk down to me. Don't simper. Don't be arrogant. Don't lie.

8) Reflect before you speak to me at all. Ask yourself if you will honestly be a good representative for Jesus. If after honest reflection, the answer is "no" or "possibly not," then don't try and witness to me. You will only drive me further away. Work on yourself until the answer is "yes," and THEN witness to me, IF you can follow the guidelines I've laid out.

9) Don't be offended if you don't get anywhere with me. And don't see it as MY failing.

Thank you, and Dog Bless.

Today Christian Hatemonger Award goes to cyborggarfield.

Just remember, kiddies, you're not a TRUE Christian unless you hate non-Christians! http://cyborggarfield.blogspot.com/

Legless, dickless, jobless, brainless, and heartless. Sounds like a Heavenbound Angel to me! LOL

People like thisover-the-hill faggot-in-denial make my job SO much easier. What's funny is how indignant he got when i told him I hate Christianity.

This just in...cyborggarfield his moved Anti-Muslim ranting to Blogspot, and replaced it on his MSN space with Biblical Scripture. There are three possible reasons why he did this:

1) Because MSN forced him to, after I lodged a formal legal complaint against him (smiles sweetly at cyborg). It turns out that this is the reason! Go me. And Go MSN.

2) Because he was embarrassed that my profile was bringing people to his site, and he didn't want people to see the real him.

3) Because he felt bad. SNORT! Nah, I just threw that one in to make it three.

Hey Cyborg...do you ever lie awake at night, knowing that the only reason Teresa married you is so she will have a better chance of going to Heaven? Seriously, dude. What better way to get into God's good graces than to take pity on a psychotic cripple. She didn't see YOU, sweetie, she saw a gar-uhn-teed first class ticket to the Pearly Gates. I hope you aren't laboring under some silly idea that she loves you.

Deliver me from Born Again Christians. Why can't Born Again Christians just fucking die?

Whoohoo, I got a Livejournal!

http://xians-suck.livejournal.com/

If you don't like me, and you post there, then don't be surprised by the reply you get.

Oh I see now. Browneyedangelofwhateverthefuckitwas is the adopted sister of piratesswriter. Isn't that just so sweet you could barf.

PR, your sister contacted ME. I didn't contact her. Read for yourself, I posted her PM to me. Tell the little twat that if she doesn't want to deal with me, don't contact me. And FYI, she had me blocked before you set it up, because when I tried to reply to her, I couldn't. That's why she's up on this profile. Stupid cow asks me questions, and then blocks me so I can't answer. Geez, is she retarded or what? No wonder her real parents didn't want her.

Hey, Piratesswriter?

Look, I don't know what you have against Christians or Jews. Take my
sister off your profile, please. She hasn't done anything to you - I
went on her computer and blocked you. Leave her alone. I don't care
what you say about me; but she has nothing to do with whatever I believe
or don't. Just take her off your profile and leave her alone.

OK. You wanna maybe TELL ME who your sister is, Brainfart? Then MAYBE I will take her down, maybe not.

OK, Ninjitsu has just said the funniest thing of all time on my LiveJournal.

If you stop stalking me, then I will leave you alone.

Kikoken, aka Ninjitsu, aka Ohimesama, has changed her name, inexplicably, to K9999 and deleted all her stories

http://www.fanfiction.net/u/225018/

Check out this link for my analysis of her entries in my LiveJournal. http://xians-suck.livejournal.com/963.html And take note of the fact that she got her little friends to come after me. LOL! One of them calls me a troll on my own LiveJournal. Cute.

Nellas is spiraling out of control into insanity.

Have you yet to look upon the fig tree?(Matthew 24:32-33) Have you yet to look at these days and judge what comes nigh? Some will not be aware, and I am here to warn these ones who refuse God's name. I do not want them to be left behind. I try to talk to them: they fight back. I hold up my sheild: they walk away. I put down my shield and try to talk to them. They swing their swords and they jab at me from left to right. I hold up my shield: they attack. I attack: they fall to the ground. I stop attacking because of sheer pity for them. I put down my shield again: They plunge their sword into my belly. I lift up my sword to end it: they fall to the ground again. I try to help, and they attack. I must attack again to defeat their bitter words. They continue the process and I cannot stop their actions. I pull back and try to explain things before they attack again. They raise their swords and I am forced to raise my shield. I am forced to try to explain during a hostile battle and they cannot hear for the clanging of their swords on my shield.

I have a quick announcement, everyone.

Since Ninjitsu felt the need to invade my Livejournal today and make accusations that she has refused to back up with any evidence, I have decided that I am going to INCREASE the amount of flaming I unleash on those who write crap in the Bible section. So if I flame you, remember, it's because of Ninjistu, aka Tonisha of Hunter College.

Please go here to enjoy a major wankfest between me and Ninjitsu, because despite our claims to ignore each other,she decided to visit my Livejournal. Now keep in mind that I have not said a word to her in weeks. Like I said, I thought we were going to ignore each other.

http://xians-suck.livejournal.com/415.html?view=8095#t8095

Please take note of how she denies that it's her until I PWN! her ass with the help of the handy-dandy IP address.

Just another Christian liar.

And Mad A Hatter, can you please contact me? By PM or on one of my forums. I want to know who you are, since according to Ninjitsu, we are the same person.

Best Harry Potter joke ever:

Remus: Harry, I have something I have to tell you.

Harry: What is it, sir?

Remus: I'm a werewolf.

Harry: ARE YOU bleepING SERIOUS?

Remus; Well yes, that too.

I have been accused of "making Christians look stupid". This is not true. Christians make themselves look stupid. I just draw everyone's attention to it. :-)

Classacte just posted an anti-abortion fic in The Bible section. Now to her credit, she doesn't vilify the mothers who made the decision to terminate. But just for yucks, let's see what Classacte's own Lord has to say about killing babies:

"The glory of Israel will fly away like a bird, for your children will die at birth or perish in the womb or never even be conceived. Even if your children do survive to grow up, I will take them from you."

"Show no mercy; have no pity! Kill them all – old and young, girls and women and little children."

"And at midnight the LORD killed all the firstborn sons in the land of Egypt, from the firstborn son of Pharaoh, who sat on the throne, to the firstborn son of the captive in the dungeon."

"With you I will shatter men and women, old people and children, young men and maidens."

"I will release wild animals that will kill your children and destroy your cattle, so your numbers will dwindle and your roads will be deserted. "

"Their little children will be dashed to death right before their eyes."

"They will have no mercy on helpless babies and will show no compassion for the children."

Believers are fucking hypocrites. Your own God isn't Pro-Life.

Some numb no-account cunt named Arreya said in the review section that anyone who denied the truth of the fic (which was loaded with scientific innaccuracies) was "denying scientific reality with random and completely false statements"

That is a poor choice of words from anyone who believes in God. Join me in laughing at her. Ha haha ha.

(aka Aura Redesto) has officially Checked Out. They're coming to take her away. Ha Ha. They're coming to take her away. Ho Ho.

Believe what you will, but it has been prophecied that Jesus will return. Believe what you will; or that I am crazy.Number 2! Final answer, Regis.

Believe what you will, I cannot choose it for you. Believe what you will, for I cannot make you believe what I want. Believe what you will, but I believe in Jesus. You will one day see and regret your choice. Nyah nyah nyah-nyah nyahh nyahh.

You will one day find that Jesus did return and take God's children to the marriage supper of the Lamb. WTF?

God will send his Son. To pick up milk and bread.

And you accuse me of not being an intelligent Christian. This is intelligent my friend. This is obviously some use of the word 'intelligent'of which I am not aware. It looks like the psychotic zealot rantings of a 16-year-old teenage girl to me.

What is this which I speak? We have a team of specialists trying to figure that out right now.

Wisdom, knowledge, understanding. Those three things that the world does not own. I am not of this world. I am of God. I am born of God. Yikes. Now she thinks she's Jesus kid sister.

I am born again and saved by the blood of Christ Jesus the Annointed One.
The prophets of the Bible wrote these things, and they have come to pass, you cannot deny.
Genesis 15:18 Uh yeah, we can actually.

On that day the Lord made a covenant with Abram and said, "To your descendants I give this land, from the river of Egypt to the great river, the Euphrates…"

And it has come to pass.

Genesis 28:10-15
Jacob ... had a dream in which he saw a stairway resting on the earth, with its top reaching to heaven, and the angels of God were ascending and descending on it. There above it stood the Lord, and he said: "I am the Lord, the God of your father Abraham and the God of Isaac. I will give you and your descendants the land on which you are lying. Your descendants will be like the dust of the earth, and you will spread out to the west and to the east, to the north and to the south. All peoples on earth will be blessed through you and your offspring. I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you."

Jacob's decendants being Israel. And this has come to pass.

Genesis 15:5
He took him outside and said, "Look up at the heavens and count the stars - if indeed you can count them." Then he said to him, "So shall your offspring be."

And indeed, this has come to pass.

Deuteronomy 28:64
Then the Lord will scatter you among all nations, from one end of the earth to the other.

These people being of Israel. And it has happened.

Genesis 12:2-3
"I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you."

And indeed, is not Israel a world issue?

Joel 3:2
I will gather all nations and bring them down to the Valley of Jehoshaphat. There I will enter into judgment against them concerning my inheritance, my people Israel, for they scattered my people among the nations and divided up my land.
(NOTE: "Jehoshaphat" means "the Lord judges.")

And it has happened. Israel has been divided after this prophecy.

Ezekiel 36:8-10
"But you, O mountains of Israel, will produce branches and fruit for my people Israel, for they will soon come home. I am concerned for you and will look on you with favor; you will be plowed and sown, and I will multiply the number of people upon you, even the whole house of Israel. The towns will be inhabited and the ruins rebuilt.

And Israel has been restored!

Isaiah 42:1-9
"Here is my servant, whom I uphold, my chosen one in whom I delight; I will put my Spirit on him and he will bring justice to the nations. … In faithfulness he will bring forth justice; he will not falter or be discouraged till he establishes justice on earth. … "I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles, to open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness. "I am the Lord; that is my name! I will not give my glory to another or my praise to idols. See, the former things have taken place, and new things I declare; before they spring into being I announce them to you."

The life of Jesus was prophecied and he came!

Luke 21:33
Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.

And his words have never passed away, for they will always be in this universe and in the hearts of many who believe on him.

AND THESE ARE THE ENDTIME PROPHECIES

Zechariah 12:1-5
This is the word of the Lord concerning Israel. The Lord, who stretches out the heavens, who lays the foundation of the earth, and who forms the spirit of man within him, declares: "I am going to make Jerusalem a cup that sends all the surrounding peoples reeling. Judah will be besieged as well as Jerusalem. On that day, when all the nations of the earth are gathered against her, I will make Jerusalem an immovable rock for all the nations. All who try to move it will injure themselves. On that day I will strike every horse with panic and its rider with madness," declares the Lord. "I will keep a watchful eye over the house of Judah, but I will blind all the horses of the nations. Then the leaders of Judah will say in their hearts, The people of Jerusalem are strong, because the Lord Almighty is their God.'

Jerusalem became and international problem, which is written in that verse.

Luke 21:29-31
He told them this parable: "Look at the fig tree and all the trees. When they sprout leaves, you can see for yourselves and know that summer is near. Even so, when you see these things happening, you know that the kingdom of God is near.

And if those are true, then read this one. When Israel blooms again, the Kingdom of God is near.

Jeremiah 23:3-6
"I myself will gather the remnant of my flock out of all the countries where I have driven them and will bring them back to their pasture, where they will be fruitful and increase in number. I will place shepherds over them who will tend them, and they will no longer be afraid or terrified, nor will any be missing," declares the Lord. "The days are coming," declares the Lord, "when I will raise up to David a righteous Branch, a King who will reign wisely and do what is just and right in the land. In his days Judah will be saved and Israel will live in safety. This is the name by which he will be called: The Lord Our Righteousness.

The Messiah will appear after the Jews return to Israel.

If you want to read more on this or find out. Go to http://100prophecies.org/page9.htm

For what I say unto you, I say unto all, WATCH. (Mark 13:37)

The hills are alive with the sound of splooging. Splooging for JAYSUS!

Be vewy vewy quiet. It's open season on Phangirls. They'll wish their mothers had never met their fathers when I'm done with them.

I hate Phangirls almost as much as I hate Christians. And if it's a Christian Phangirl I can practically blow them up with my mind.

Anna...By Grapthar's Hammer...by the Sons of Mordor...Bob will be AVENGED.

Oh it's ON now...

I think I forgot to mention something. Be sure and take note of "Aura Redesto1's" posts on the forums and in the review section. Nellas was trying to hide her identity, you know, pretend that Aura WASN'T Nellas?

I'm pretty sure God would consider that lying. Uh oh! I know I've said this before, Nellas, but I'll say it again. Jesus doesn't want you representing him anymore, because you suck sooo bad. You make him look bad. You're going to Hell. :-)

Oh boy! Nellas is repenting again! How many times is this, now? Five or six? I wonder if God is buying it, because I sure ain't.

Xians, this is my final apology. I have been thinking this over. I realized that by talking to you I was like a tiger being tempted for meat over a pit. I kept falling in the pit and I had to climb out, but I still wanted the meat, so I kept falling in. So, this is the last time I'm going to talk to you, but before I stop talking to you, I'm going to apologize. I don't know if you'll accept, which you probably won't, but that's okay, because Jesus forgives. I already asked him for forgiveness. I already thought about this entire blather that kept going on between us; silly crap that I kept saying to you. But it doesn't matter anymore (to me atleast) because I have other things to do than to make my heart hard as stone by argueing with people all the time. Especially people who like to argue back :). Anyway, I'm glad I had atleast one way of talking to you. You're right though, I never should have said anything about your greatgrandmother. As a matter of fact I shouldn't have said that entire paragraph. So, I guess it's goodbye.

Nellas, Nellas, Nellas... You are NEVER going to stop talking to me. You can't. You have no willpower or self-control. :-) You are MY PROPERTY. And so is Redesto.

Heh. Aftershe sentme that racist PM stating that my great grandmother was an ape, I blocked Nellas Elendil. So she created a new account, Aura Redesto1, so she could keep PMing me.

Here's what she sent me with her new account:

Xians, I was making fun of your belief in evolution. Like...didn't your
greatgrandmother 'ape' as in EVOLUTION! That's real funny about my
grandma...she isn't even dead yet. And I find it funny that you call me
racist and then say my grandma is burning in hell...yeah. Tell me in all
my doings, what is wrong with letting your belief in 'evolution' be
known in a silly little comment that you take way too offensively. I'll
bet you wouldn't put what YOU have said on your profile page. With all
the cursing and racist comments. And yes, American is a race, making
Alabamaian a race, making you racist of your own country. Kid, you need a
new flashlight. It might be a little dim.

Remember how mad she and the other Christians get when I say that Christians don't care about sinning, because they can always ask for forgiveness? Well, this is at least the fifth time that Nellas has lashed out at me in hatred, and I assume she asks for forgiveness from God each time. I wonder how many chances you get, before God decides you're not REALLY sorry at all, and have no intention of trying to change. :-)

Some of you may recall Nellas Elendil accusing me of being a racist because I believe in Evolution. See below for more details. She also accused me of bing a racist because I don't like her, and she's from Alabama. She thinks Alabamian is a race.

Here is a private message Nellas just sent me. Remember, this is the New and Improved, Changed, and Much Better Christian!Nellas. Remember, she CHANGED.

Anyway, this is her comment to me.

Laughs Ha ha ha! That's real funny. How did you find this out? Did
your evolutionist greatgrandmother the 'ape' talk to him?

Wow. How much more racist can someone get? Calling my great grandma an 'ape'. Disgusting.

Nellas, my Great Grandmother was a better person than you will EVER be. And she had more Christian love in her little toe then you and your family have in your enitre bloated bodies.

Callout to Bishop J.R.Hunter, the latest in a long line of Christian retards.

She said: There are some of you on this site-notably Anna Vashdala, Xians Suck, and The All-Knowing God of Hats-who simply hate Jesus with such a passion. Why?

Not that I think she really wants an answer, or will listen to one. But I don't hate Jesus at all. He was da bomb. He was the most wonderful man who ever lived. Unfortunately his followers (whom I DO hate, unreservedly) have perverted and twisted his message into something that doesn't resemble anything close to what he originally taught.

Considering that Bishop referred to Nellas Elendil as a good Christian, I'm tempted to think this actually IS Nellas with a new account.

Ninjitsu, aka Kkikoen, had an abortion. That's right, the good Christian with the dead mother and the heart of gold ENDED A HUMAN LIFE. It was a one-night-stand, and she knew that she couldn't have a child while in college. So because that baby was going to be an INCONVENIENCE, she terminated the pregnancy.

Callout to xxxNinjitsuxxx

You cannot ignore me. You are incapable. You have said that you will ignore me 100 times and EVERY time you come back after me.

See, dear child, you need to understand that I CONTROL you. You are MY trained poodle. You dance when I tell you to dance, roll over when I tell you to roll over, and that is the way it will always be. And you know it.

Heehee. More fun from Nellas Elendil.

Evolution has a lot to do with race, and as a matter of FACT, it has EVERYTHING to do with it. If evolution were true, some races of people WOULD with out any doubt in the worlds mind, and with out anything to prove them wrong, BE BETTER THAN OTHERS. What is this thing about criticizing me for being racist, when you yourself are racist. Racist against Alabamians, which are Americans, and I suppose that you live in the United States; therefore, you are hating people of your own race and culture.

I tried getting hammered and reading it again, but it still didn't make sense. Nellas has checked out. I have driven her over the edge. I hope someone took pictures.

OK, callout to FFNET...what's with the freaking random deletion of spaces between words? It's not just my profile, I see it on a lot of them. WTF, dudes?

One more callout to Nellas Elendil, before I discard her like the psychotic turd that she is. Here's her latest:

Before this goes any farther, let me state that we are a little off track and we need to start talking about Intellegent Design again,

Or, if you're NOT a retarded redneck, Intelligent Design. If you can't SPELL 'intelligent', you probably aren't. And it was Nellas who sent the "debate" off track, by calling the first non-Creationist who posted a moron.

and if another post is posted here that does not relate to Intellegent Design IN FULL CONTENT it will be unread, and deleted.

Apparently Nellas is a psychic that could give John Edward a run for his money. How else could she possibly be able to tell the content of a post WITHOUT READING IT?

She is beyond really stupid. She's like SCARY stupid.

Another quick callout to Nellas Elendil. Actually just a quote. This is her reply to me when I called her a redneck, based on her lack of intelligence, her ignorance, and her hailing from Alabama.

you are racist, especially for believing in evolution, because if evolution were true, that would mean that some people really were better than others, for example, whites are more civil than blacks.

So, for any of you who do believe in Evolution, Nellas thinks you're racist. Even if you're a Christian.

This callout is to brown-eyed angelofmusic. Sweetie, if you're going to PM me with questions that you want answers to, it's easier for me to respond IF YOU DON'T HAVE ME BLOCKED. Doi. Think for yourself instead of listening to your little friend piratesswriter, why don't you?

Anyway, you asked:

I have a question for ya! I'm not saying im against christians and i'm
not saying i'm for christians but do you hate all religions? im being
quite serious actually i would like to know if you just hate christians
or if you hate jews and other religions!

Yes, I hate all religion. Religion is a bad thing. It gives good people bad ideas and makes smart people do stupid shit. A personal relationship with whatever God one chooses to believe in is great, but as soon as you get a lot of same-minded people doing the God thing together, there's bound to be trouble. When the rituals and the churches start to become more important than that personal relationship, is when things go all to Hell.

As for specifically hating the members OF a particular religion, I don't have any problem with Jews. I don't like Muslims, because of the terrorist crap, AND because those who claim not to be "like that" don't lift a finger to do anything about their extrmist cohorts. ButI really, REALLY hate Christians. I find them phony, hypocritical, conceited, snide, and hateful.

OK, that aside...your profile is annoying and retarded. You're not special. You're just like every other teenage girl out there who thinks she's SO different and SO non-conformist. Stop trying topretend you're unique or cool or "insane" or anything like that. You're not. Niether are your friends.

I have a fabulous and utterly hilarious callout today to Nellas Elendil. Nellas has a forum to debate Intelligent Design versus Evolution. So I gave my two cents. Very politely, in fact. here's what I said:

I really don't like the whole Intelligent Design thing. Not because it goes against my beliefs, but because it's basically the Christians being underhanded. They've slapped a new name onto the Creation Theory, and are now trying to sneak it into the public school system science curriculum. Like I said, underhanded.

Frankly I have no problem with it being taught in a philosophy class, or even a religious studies class. But it doesn't belong in the science classroom, because it has no basis in science.

I don't think they've quite gotten Evolution right either, but it makes much more sense than Creation/Intelligent Design.

Pretty polite, no? I was interested in a debate, since that is what Nellas advertised that forum as being for. So I gave my opinion. And Nellas' reply to my opinion was:

I'm sorry, but what kind of a moron are you?

And when I called her on it, pointing out that she had violated the rulesthat SHE HERSELF set up for HER FORUM, her reply was:

I did not call you a moron, I asked you what kind were you.

I don't have to say anything else. Just enjoy this laugh, courtesy of the Good Christian, Nellas Elendil.

Sorry, Kikoken, I didn't read your private messages. Any of them. After all, if you have me blocked, you can't expect me to read anything you send me, can you? Doesn't work that way, half-breed.

Callout city today, kiddies! This one goes out to xxxninjitsuxx, or the Artist (snort) formerly known as xxxKikokenxxx. As some of you may recall, I apologized to kikoken. But that was when I thought she might be trying to change. Guess what? She didn't.

And since she, too, has asked me for clarification, but blocked me before I could give it, I'll post it here:

Well since you blocked my PMs and my reviews, I guess I'll have to reply here. You were abusive to youngsters on greatestjournal. In fact, it looks as if you had your account there banned for it.

THAT kind of behavior is why you will never be considered a Christian by anyone other than yourself and those that you lie to. Sure you can call yourself a follower of Christ, but if you don't care about being like him, then you're no different than Fred Phelps or the Klan. They call themselves Christians, too.

And you're lying about your mother being sick. If she was so sick she'd have died by now, It's been, what, a year and a half?

See, Kikoken always insisted that she only flamed people who were bad writers because she wanted them to do better. However, when a writer responded to her overly harsh "constructive criticism," was Kikoken's good, loving, Christian method of ops to back off? Perhaps say she was sorry for being so harsh? Nope. Not Kikoken. Her response was to lash back and be even more hurtful. How DARE someone not take her insults as the God-given advice as it was intended? How DARE anyone be offended by her saintly feedback? And it got one of her stories deleted, which she fully deserved.

She's a lot of fun. And she's also one of the top ten reasons why I will never be a Christian again.

Another quick callout to vashsunglasses. Sunny, you asked me questions in your private messages, but when I tried to reply, I discovered you had blocked me. Well that's not very sporting, is it? OK, so I'll answer them here:

The fat girl and the gym analogy was not meant to say that you are fat. It was meant to say that you go through the motions, have the credentials, belong to all the right "clubs" so that an outsider would think you were a Christian. But when it comes down to walking the walk, to actually BEING a Christian, or rather, being Christ-like, well that's beyond you. It's too hard. Too much work. It's much easier to simply say you belong to certain organizations, rather than to actually try and show your "Christlike nature" with your actions.

And as for whether or not I hurt your feelings, well I don't think you have any. You certainly have never given much thought to the feelings of others you hurt. And frankly, darling, just being YOU should be enough to hurt your feelings.

Just to clear up some honest confusion...Anna Vashdala and I really are two different people. I know, I know. If I didn't know better I would swear she was me. LOL! Who would've thought that there could be TWO people as incredibly cool, funny, and intelligent as myself, let alone that both of us would be crusaders against Christians!

Secondly, if you don't like a story, you're free to flame it. But don't insist someone stop writing just because you don't like the topic, or because it offends your poor wittle bewiefs (sniffle). Suck it up and STFU. Don't be a friggin' child. Debate it if you must, or if you have the mental capacity. But don't just scream for someone to take a story down just because it contains a little rough God-on-Satan action.

Now if that person is a completely crap writer, that's another story. But most of what I've seen is Christians getting their Underoos in a wad because someone dared to write a story that mocked God or some such dung. Life sucks, buy a helmet.

Two words for you: Shut.Up. The majority of the world doesn't CARE about your feelings. I don't CARE if I offend your beliefs, just as you don't care if you offend mine. I DO plan to write stories in the Bible section, and yes, they WILL mock God and Christianity, because they are so very mockable.

Jesus loves you. Everyone else thinks you're an a-hole.

A few quick call-outs:

Danny, aka almostinsane...STFU. Stop trying to sound wise and sage. You're a mentally ill, semi-retarded teenage boy. You are unimportant. Stop trying to be everyone's friend. It's phony and pathetic. You were more entertaining when you were flaming slash writers disguised as a priest.

M.V., Currently Deceased and Not Happy About It...ditto. You're a teenager. You don't count. Your opinion doesn't count. Come back when it does. Don't send me pages of PMs about your life. I don't care. Truly. Yes, I live to offend you. That's my singular goal in life. Happy now? Good. Now go byebyes.

Yeah, it's me. The real Xians Suck. Or Xtians Suck. Either way is actually accurate. And no, saying Xian or Xtian in place of Christian is NOT a slur and NOT disrespectful. It's based on an ancient abbreviation based on the Greek letter resembling "X" for the word "Christos". So nyah.

On the other hand, I am VERY disrespectful of Christians. And I am not ashmed of it. No, you aren't going to "reach" me. You aren't going to "open my heart to THE LURVE OF JAYSUS!" If you try you'll most likely only succeed in pissing me off.

I finally created an account for several reasons:

1) I wanted one so I can post stories.

2) I wanted to be able to review stories that didn't allow anonymous reviewers.

3) I wanted to avoid trolls impersonating me. Pippagethetook. (glares)

4) I wanted to provide a way for my fans (ha!) and un-fans to contact me without filling up an author's review board with crappola, which is teh_rudeness.

I despise Christians for a multitude of reasons. Too many to list here in fact.

By the way, if you're one of those people who fills up their profile with how OMG!TEH_HOLY! you are, and how you love Jesus, and how your belief is the TRUTH and the ONLY TRUTH, well in my opinion, you deserve to be kicked repeatedly in the nuts. Just FYI.

Thanks and dog bless.