"Hell is oneself; hell is alone." - Czeslaw Milosz

"Don't take life so seriously; it's not like you're gonna get out of it alive."

“Ordinary... What's ordinary?” - Valencia, “The Closest I am to Living on the Edge”

"What are these churches now if they are not the tombs and sepulchers of God?" - Friedrich Nietzsche, The Gay Science

“Ahh, my nostalgic dark youth...” - Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge: The Wallflower, Vol.1

About my fanfiction on the site...

Importante Noticia - I have learned to prioritize, people. Here is my Big-time line-up:

NUMBAH 1: Phantasms

Why? I shall focus on, and put most effort into Phantasms because...well...really, I did so much research for that story it was ridiculous. I mean, cultural accuracy, anyone? So, I love it. I think it is my crowning achievement.

NUMBAH 1.5: Nine Soldiers of Sound

Why? I actually did almost as much research on this as I did Phantasms. And I love the plot. And my set-up. I tried making it Crime/Supernatural/Sci-Fi/Cyberpunk/Drama/Action(which comes later)/Horror(due to the later gore and blood-spatter). So yeah. My first attempt at the government being corrupt...my second attempt at a drama where multiple things happening at once are crucial to the plot. I might turn it into a series.

NUMBAH 2: Nephilim: The Calling

Why? It's different.

NUMBAH 3: Stray Dogs

What? Yes, it's not even up yet. I know. Still got a few kinks to work out.

NUMBAH 4: Ambivalence in Ambiguity

Why? The others are so damned time consuming...

Also, I sort of have too many projects going on at once so, on the side, I will be trying out a few one-shots to hone my skillage and get them out of the way. Then we'll see if I can definitely update soon. But I will finish these stories if it kills me. I just won't rush it. It turns out bad if I rush it.

I'm a canon writer usually...but sometimes I mess with the personalities. I only try to bend them a little. And I use Japanese romanization because there isn't really a translation for such things -for example "youkai". I mean youkai means "haunts" and "apparitions" and "phantasms". They take the role in mythology as "faery". Not "devil" because those are fallen angels in Christianity. And did you know that the Japanese have different (like a bunch of different) classifications of "ghost"? And "spirit". And "soul". They are two different things. I use the Japanese terms in order to explain something really long-winded - like saying "bourei" instead of "a ghost that is the spirit of something that had a (violent?)death at sea(?)", but "yuurei", "ayakashi", and "obake" are also words for "ghost". It's the same as using "multitude" instead of "the quality of being numerous; a great gathering or throng; the common people or masses".

You can find my other works irrelevant to fan-fiction at:

http://lovedestructive.deviantart.com/

This is really funny:

By the way, this next one is a really good link to the degeneration of story-telling out there, it doesn't just apply to Yaoicrackfiction, it is applicable to anything. I merely thought people should be aware of this ...problem through this link and a good point being made. Just copy and paste if you wanna go see what I'm talking about:

http://snappedchopstick.deviantart.com/art/Dear-Yaoi-Fangirls-I-Hate-You-15468936

Personal Info:

Gender: I am a girl because I have all the parts.

Age: Upper Teens

Looks: I am a mixed blood. Half Guatemalan, half black. So, I'm a Blatina. (Don't know what kind of black, but I'm definitely banking on Caribbean blood.) I'm somewhere around 5'6" or something taller.

Hobbies/Skillage/Talents: ...I love reading. So I am a reader. I am a poet first and foremost. Eighth, I am a dancer. I krump. I am an artist, mostly doing sketches and working with charcoal and chalk pastels. I like oils paints. I have various interests because too many things interest me (when I was four I decided that I was going to know everything in the world, even if it killed me). I studied a bit (just a bit) of demonology and faerie lore and mythology and theology and etymology and the arts and philosophy (The Nietzsche quote clue anyone in?), different languages are fun(!!) and useful...cultural anthropology too... Secondly, I am a writer (call me Captain Obvious, ladies and gentlemen). I like writing. I like all types of writing. I found that out about myself just recently. As long as whatever I am reading or writing mixes up some elements. I like to grind and blend my genres like a smoothie. Switch things up a little.

As a writer I am inclined to better myself, yet I cannot do so if I do not receive feedback on what is wrong in my fan-fiction. Do not be a stranger to criticism. Criticism is your friend. Remember that. And I am immune to Flames (Ho ho ho ho ho! Think'st thou canst char mine hide?) because I just get pissed and start cussing people out. You'd be doing the writers a disservice if you don't tell them what is inaccurate and misspelled and if the plot is all over the place... But it's also good to tell the writer what makes the story great and what needs to be kept...ehh, whatever.

Now, do not get me wrong, I'm not DEMANDing reviews. Not at all. I am stressing the importance of peer editing. It's just helpful to tell me -to tell anybody really- what mistakes I have made...spelling, grammar, anything I have missed or any information I might have gotten wrong. I try to put effort into stories because I'm not gonna go in without being properly equipped for it- I write religiously and, with me, grammar mistakes that I make put me into a sort of panic...sort of. Okay, actually, I flip shit and go off, frantically searching for a nearby computer so that I can correct my errors...

Stuff you do not to know unless you feel like it...Commence Ramble

Ah...BOOKS! Books are da shiznit!

Manga and manhwa I love... Skip Beat!, Dogs, Dogs - Hardcore Twins, Dogs - Bullets & Carnage, Fairy Tail, Eternal Sabbath, Beauty Pop, GOTH, NORA: the Last Chronicles of Devildom, Princess Ai, Hot-blooded Woman, Kyoukai no Rinne, Inuyasha, Beast Master, Crescent Moon, Yankee-kun to Megane-chan, H2O (The MANHWA! Not the manga that was made into an anime...), Her Majesty's Dog, Arakure, Until Death Do Us Part, Code: BREAKER, XBlade, Ludwig Kakumei, BLEACH, Kare First Love, Boku wa Shitte Shimatta, Beauty is the Beast, Backstage Prince, Akuma de Sourou, Koukou Debut, Hoshi wa Utau, The Wallflower- Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge, Cardcaptor Sakura, Clover, Magic Knight Rayearth, Ayashi no Ceres, Naruto, Togari, Alichino, Qwan, Beelzebub, Blue Dragon - Ral Grado, Ranma1/2, O-Parts Hunter -(Masashi Kishimoto's lil' bro made it! It's amazing.)

Check these manga-ka out; they're the best with the best stories:

Kanoko Sakurakouji Ao Mimori Hwang Sook Ji Hwang Mi Ri Tite Kubo Vin Lee Hideaki Sorachi Yuu Watase Nishi Yoshiyuki Yukiru Sugisaki Yuki Kaori Julietta Suzuki Fuyumi Souryu Mick Takeuchi Yuki Midorikawa Kamijyo Akimine Seishi Kishimoto Masashi Kishimoto Shirow Miwa Rumiko Takahashi

I do like anime But, now, I am like X-tremely super-elitist about my anime. I have standards, oddly enough. (It's good sometimes, but lately it seems to be getting harder to find anything that appeals to me or seems excellent.) but not as much as I love books or manga or manhwa. I'll watch:

Blade of the Immortal

Baccano!

Gintama

Samurai Champloo

Gundam Wing

Toradora!

Vandread

Demon Lord Dante/Mao Dante

Devilman, Amon

YuYu Hakusho

Ouran High School Host Club

Peach Girl

Gantz

Claymore

GTO

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei! Zoku Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei! Goku Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei!

Ergo Proxy

Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex, Ghost in the Shell SAC: 2nd Gig

Nodame Cantabile, Nodame Cantabile: Paris Hen

Fullmetal Panic, Fullmetal Panic! Fumoffu??, Fullmetal Panic: The Second Raid

I love The Boondocks.

Still love kid shows/cartoons. I love Ben 10 and Ben 10: Alien Force (Kevin kicks ASSSSS! And Ben's cool too...). And Chowder. And Samurai Jack. And Courage the Cowardly Dog. And Danny Phantom. And Static Shock. And Teen Titans. And Flapjack. And Batman Beyond. And ThunderCats! (HOOOOO!)

(These shows and graphic novels and novels and books are my influences. And that's basically the only reason why I am telling you readers all of this. So you know how this all came about... I mean, you could otherwise care less, right?)

Favorite characters (I'm warning you because I might use them in settings or make 'em act in a way that you might not agree with...this does not mean crackfiction): Nougami Neuro, Jio Freed, Mugen, Naraku (oh, he is so bad-ass, you know it, he is the most villainous dastardly evil antagonist out there), Yamanaka Ino, Sabaku no Gaara, Itoshiki Nozomu ("I'm in DESPAAAAAIIIIR!!"), Taishou no Sesshoumaru, Sesshoumaru's Mom(cool as shit, that one, and hilarious too), Uzumaki Naruto (yessuh, the eighth tail is too awesome for words...), Natsu Dragoneel, Erza Scarlet, Aisaka "Palmtop Tiger" Taiga, Kyuubi no Youko(YEAH! He DOMINATES, ANNHILIATES!), Kurosaki Ichigo/Hichigo, Hyuuga Neji, Kuchiki Rukia, Tobei, Noda "Nodame" Megumi, Chiaki, Kuchiki Byakuga, Sai, Saotome Ranma, Daniel Fenton, Jack Fenton, Jazz Fenton, Ember McClain(she calls Danny Dipstick!, hahahaha), Samantha Manson, the Box Ghost ("...BEWARE!"), Zaraki Kenpachi, Hyuuga Hinata (Anyone every noticed that her teammate Aburame Shino looks like a drug dealer or a DJ?), Ulquiorra Cifer ("I will show you...the true meaning...of despair."), Kurosaki Karin, Kurosaki Isshin, Tokei Hibiki (Mr. Alien!), Ryuk, Yagami Light (Light is so dastardly...), Higurashi Kagome...

RANT: Why does everyone hate Kagome? I don't get it! In the manga she's pretty cool. In fact, it's sort of unnatural how cool-headed she is. Seriously? She's only in her last year of junior high school. That means she is a ninth grader. Her family is actually normal. They are typical, and kind. Kagome is not a troubled kid in any way. Her family supports her every step of the way. She has a happy life, there in Japan. The TV series in English portrays her as a twit, I know, but still...would YOU have survived in feudal era Japan (constantly being attacked by youkai that aren't supposed exist, failing all of your classes, you only get to see your family once in a millenia, you're in love with a person who's only half human themselves -but you see past the youkai part of your true love immediately- and who isn't over the death of their walking-dead/dead/undead/living-dead/animated/corpse/doll/mannequin/clay-construct ex-lover and who is almost always getting killed, and your one time love's soulless ex -which, by the way, you're supposedly a reincarnation of- keeps trying to kill you just because, and your lover -who keeps cheating on you with a dead girl!! - can we say...necrophilia?!- is having some fucked up issues with their family - Yeah, umm, brotherly murder attempts=sibling rivalry and childish horseplay...? Can we say dysfunctional?! Anyone? Anyone? No...? - and trying to cope with diseases and plagues and all manner of nastiness while you trek through lands exhausted and your body isn't used to such stress) without some normalcy to help you survive?! No! Lay off would you, Kagome-haters?! She is only a character. She's pretty reasonable, and relatively sane for someone who goes through that shit every day and still loves her frickin' boyfriend. And stays with him. She stays with him! That is a miracle, ladies and gentlemen. A friggin' miracle! Of course she would go off to her time and eat at Mickey D's and do homework/want to finish out junior high so she can be a successful high school student with have a great future and chat about boys in the manga and anime - she is only fifteen years old! It makes sense! Ugh! She's not shallow, she's normal. And don't hate Kikyou, she's what we call "a tragic hero". It's her dead/undead/clay/animated-statue/corpse character that people hate. That isn't the real Kikyou. It's a shadow, a disgusting dark piece of what she had been. And don't hate Naraku, he's the victim of the human heart which we are all cursed with...unrequited love...it's a curse, I tell you, a torment. ...If you want someone to hate, hate the author, she's responsible for her characters' personalities and stories.

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