I'm not the kind of girl who sits and takes the beatings and screams of another. I'm not the kind of girl you can walk all over. I'm not that girl who craves the spotlight, not the one standing with the crowd and pretending to have a good time and being someone I'm not. Trying to be like them.To me, there's no point, so if I am not them, Who am I?
I am the girl who sits in the bleachers, wearing blue jeans and a T-shirt even if its above ninety-degrees outside. I'm the girl who could care less about the ones who are fake. I don't try to fit in, I try to be my own person, my own mind. Having my own will and expressing myself as I want to. I am the firl whom everyone picks on because of her hair, what she looks like, how she deals with her rage or missery. How she sits, walks, talks, acts. I am the girl that fights back in the end.
No, I don't sit and play games all day. No, I don't hide in my room all the time. No, I don't fit into the crowd. I don't listen to the same music as those who fake themselves, I don't watch or read the same things. I don't act the same. I am different and will stay as should. I am my own person and don't need others to show me what I should be. I know what I should be.
I am the person who listens to the music of old rock, alternative, and orchestra. I am the one who watches horror films and doesn't scream, but once toast pops out of the toaster, I scream my heart our. I am the one who reads books that strike her interest just by the title and being able to be locked in the world in the pages. I draw, yes, to relieve my rage and pain, hurt and missery. My feelings alone give me ideas, my motivation to write and draw. So you know what? I don't need to be in the crowd of others, when I am my own person and I can find those like me who are not in a crowd of twentey-some-odd people who laugh as the ones who can't stand fall.
My Will Is My Own. And I Am My Own Will.