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since: 08-15-08, id: 1668210, Profile Updated: 02-14-12
Author has written 51 stories for Stargate: Atlantis, and Buffy: The Vampire Slayer.

Here's a link to my LiveJournal: x-varda-x dot livejournal dot com

Check on there for your frequent fix of madness along with info on upcoming fics, insights into stories in progress/completed, icons/avatars etc etc. I post most of my stuff on LiveJournal these days, and links to my stories that are posted in other places.

I love Stargate Atlantis and especially the prickly, but rather endearing, Rodney McKay. I just love to: get under his skin, find out what makes him tick, rip him apart, break him down and then put him all back together again! I also enjoy writing the pairing of Rodney McKay/Jennifer Keller (McKeller) in a pleasantly angsty and hurt/comforty way (hey, smut is angst!)

If you want copies of any of my fics in single file PDF format or the now deleted high rated stuff, please send an email to xxvardaxx@gmail.com. An index of the high rated stories and those with links on LiveJournal can be found here

Have fun!

For now the Kindler, Varda
The Queen of the Stars, from Mount Everwhite
Has uplifted her hands like clouds
And all paths are drowned deep in shadow

(Elbereth - JRR Tolkien)

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1. Misplaced
Set in S4 shortly after Trio. Rodney is at a loss to understand what went wrong with him and Katie and tries to make amends. Canon breakup fic for Valentine's Day.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,313 - Published: 2-14-12 - Rodney M. & Katie B. - Complete
2. The Flying Horse reviews
Rodney buys Jennifer a beer. Tag for Trio. Rodney/Jennifer preship.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 678 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-21-12 - Rodney M. & Jennifer K. - Complete
3. Puddle Jumper Mayhem » reviews
...McKay wishes he hadn't gotten himself into. Including training exercises, space battles, daring rescues, space vistas, alien worlds and awe inspiring phenomena. A collection of short Jumper based one shots with McKay/Sheppard friendship and McKay whump
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 65 - Words: 236,800 - Reviews: 448 - Updated: 1-14-12 - Published: 8-25-08 - Rodney M. & John S.
4. The Last Real Knight reviews
Rodney and John find trouble in a lab on Atlantis. Rodney gets the sharp end of the sword as usual. Gen.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,599 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-1-12 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
5. All I Want For Christmas reviews
Rodney gives Jennifer a present. Too bad it's damaged.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 932 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-19-11 - Rodney M. & Jennifer K. - Complete
6. Thirteen reviews
The nightmares are all too real for Rodney. Gen.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Horror/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,884 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 10-30-11 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
7. The Sentient Saurians reviews
Rodney gets kidnapped by some natives. They aren't very nice to him. Gen.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,285 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9-25-11 - Rodney M. - Complete
8. Nine Short Bingo Fics reviews
Blood! Pain! Torture! Semi-naked dancing! Carrots! 9 x short fics written for stargateland's bingo challenge over on LiveJournal. All are gen. All but one are Rodney centric whumpfics.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,437 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 4-14-11 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
9. Five Times Rodney was Silent reviews
As it says on the tin: Five Times Rodney was Silent. Gen, Rodney whump.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 829 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 4-14-11 - Rodney M. - Complete
10. Roses are Red, Bruises are Blue reviews
Happy Valentine's Day, Rodney! Or not... ouch
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,181 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 2-14-11 - Rodney M. - Complete
11. The Darker Side of Forever reviews
How does forever sound? Tricks and traps hide secrets left behind by the Ancients that could doom Sheppard's team. Set late Season 2. Rodney whump.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 20,359 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 2-4-11 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
12. Ways Rodney Felt Pain » reviews
A collection of short Rodney whumping stories. Latest chapters - Void and Snow
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 7 - Words: 4,603 - Reviews: 38 - Updated: 1-1-11 - Published: 4-9-10 - Rodney M. & John S.
13. The Snarkmonster reviews
Faith mistakes Rodney for a demon
Crossover - Buffy: The Vampire Slayer & Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,508 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 10-24-10 - Faith L. & Rodney M. - Complete
14. A Hundred Ways Rodney Felt Pain » reviews
...in both mind and body. One hundred short scenes for the fabled Fanfic100 Challenge from LiveJournal. Now complete!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 100 - Words: 95,731 - Reviews: 787 - Updated: 10-14-10 - Published: 4-5-09 - Rodney M. - Complete
15. Two of a Kind reviews
When Rodney is kidnapped, it's up to Jennifer to rescue him. But will she get to him in time when she's all alone on a world where men are treated as second class citizens?
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,814 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 10-3-10 - Jennifer K. & Rodney M. - Complete
16. Trinity Squared » reviews
Three years post Doranda and the fates of two worlds hang in the balance. Rodney's past is about to come back to terrify and destroy him in a way he had never anticipated. Now complete!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Adventure/Angst - Chapters: 6 - Words: 18,561 - Reviews: 50 - Updated: 9-16-10 - Published: 8-20-10 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
17. Vivarium reviews
First Rodney gets shrunk in a gate malfunction. Then he gets captured by an avid bug collector. Ouch!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Horror - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,245 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 6-6-10 - Rodney M. - Complete
18. Planet England » reviews
John and Rodney visit a strange world, where Jumpers have gears, potty mouthed locals lay in wait, and down and out heroes drown their sorrows. There's also the dragon... that might need slaying. Poor Rodney.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Parody/Humor - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,622 - Reviews: 12 - Updated: 4-25-10 - Published: 4-23-10 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
19. Silent Enemy reviews
After an earthquake, Rodney and Teyla get stranded offworld on a seemingly deserted planet. Complete.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Friendship/Adventure - Chapters: 1 - Words: 21,913 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 4-2-10 - Teyla E. & Rodney M. - Complete
20. Combat reviews
Rodney and Jennifer get taken by the locals. Rodney has to fight for his life in 'The Arena' while they wait for rescue. Because rescue is coming, right?
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 12,848 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 3-11-10 - Rodney M. & Jennifer K. - Complete
21. Searching for Emptiness » reviews
Complete! After Rodney is brutally tortured, can he get back what he lost? Aftermath fic. Tag for my fics: Reavengeance and Reavengeance II - although it is not necessary to have read them. Ever so slightly AU.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 7 - Words: 25,209 - Reviews: 45 - Updated: 2-12-10 - Published: 1-17-10 - Rodney M. - Complete
22. It Was Never Meant to be This Way » reviews
Teyla is being targeted and Rodney's just trying to help. But he always ends up being the one on the receiving end. Who's doing it? And, more importantly, why do they keep on hurting Rodney?
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 6 - Words: 21,608 - Reviews: 26 - Published: 1-16-10 - Teyla E. & Rodney M. - Complete
23. Not All That Barks is a Dog reviews
Rodney finally goes nuts and his minions are the ones on the receiving end. Crack!fic
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,206 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 1-9-10 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
24. The Accidental Incident reviews
Escaping from an offworld pursuer, Rodney and John take shelter in an Ancient building.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,770 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 1-9-10 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
25. And the Sky Was Full of Stars reviews
Rodney is seriously injured on what should have been just another simple planetary survey mission. Because nothing's ever easy in the Pegasus Galaxy... Warnings: Darkfic, deathfic
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Friendship/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,367 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 1-4-10 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
26. The Party of the Year reviews
Rodney doesn't see the funny side of the Christmas pranks, nor the results of too much cheer. A bit of Rodney and Jennifer friendship, and a lot of team love. Set in Season Four.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,023 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 12-21-09 - Rodney M. - Complete
27. Perfectly Heartless » reviews
Complete! Rodney and Radek activate an Ancient and possibly dangerous robot on Atlantis, which then kidnaps and holds them hostage. But to what end?
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 5 - Words: 17,414 - Reviews: 51 - Updated: 10-31-09 - Published: 10-17-09 - Rodney M. & Radek Z. - Complete
28. The Ice Fortress reviews
A continuation on from the balcony scene at the end of 'Enemy at the Gate.' Atlantis' return to Earth activates something long dormant and opens the door. Rodney and John friendship with a bit of Teyla, Jennifer and Jeannie.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K - English - Hurt/Comfort/Adventure - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,941 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 10-10-09 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
29. Reavengeance II reviews
Michael gets his psychotic hybrid mits on poor McKay. Michael then places him in a really fun maze full of monsters. But there's even more unimaginable torture and pain to follow for Rodney. Very dark.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 13,466 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 9-20-09 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
30. Oh, For the Wings of a Dove! » reviews
Complete! Rodney has a couple of things he's very attached to stolen from him and replaced. Will he get back what he lost? And more importantly, will he want them returned? Wingfic
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Fantasy/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 11,191 - Reviews: 38 - Updated: 9-14-09 - Published: 9-3-09 - Rodney M. - Complete
31. Like a Monkey to a Banana reviews
Rodney gets badly hurt when he saves someone he's only just met. How will they react to his heroism? Rodney whump with some crack humour...
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,489 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 9-5-09 - Rodney M. - Complete
32. The Edge of Winter » reviews
Jennifer's actions during an offworld medical crisis lead to Atlantis being gifted with a most valuable object. Rodney is grateful, but when disaster strikes, they both end up fighting to survive on a hostile ice world. Preship McKeller with McKay whump
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 18 - Words: 71,940 - Reviews: 178 - Updated: 8-22-09 - Published: 7-12-09 - Rodney M. & Jennifer K. - Complete
33. Before a Fall reviews
Dr Rodney McKay's arrogance was going to get the better of him one day. Too bad for him that day finally came today. Written for the H/C Flashfic #1 challenge on LiveJournal The prompt: pride, mercy and forgiveness. Teamfic
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,192 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 7-10-09 - Rodney M. - Complete
34. Flogged! reviews
Rodney McKay is sold to the highest bidder. Hurt/comfort as usual for poor Rodney, with added McKeller to finish it all off.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,970 - Reviews: 15 - Published: 6-16-09 - Rodney M. & Jennifer K. - Complete
35. Tales From the Pegasus Galaxy » reviews
A collection of Rodney centric oneshots. All stories are independent and summaries are at the start of each tale. Styles include: crack, hurt/comfort, humour, angst... in fact, just about anything. Enjoy!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 6 - Words: 25,971 - Reviews: 49 - Updated: 6-14-09 - Published: 4-25-09 - Rodney M.
36. Whump, ‘Tis Better Than Porn! reviews
Shameless Self-Parody/Humour/Hurt/Comfort. Crack!Fic. This was going to be an essay about why I enjoy whumping Rodney/whumping in general, but to make it more interesting and relevant I turned it into this slightly surreal heart-to-heart
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Parody/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,800 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 5-18-09 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
37. Reavengeance » reviews
Michael is looking for payback after the events of 'Vengeance' and has his sights set on McKay. Cue more of those bug monster thingies, guns, running around, blood, violence, torture and screaming… Set just after the events of 'Life Line.'
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 13,193 - Reviews: 21 - Published: 5-3-09 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
38. Dead in the Water » reviews
When a weapons test on the Daedalus goes disastrously wrong, the ship is left in the middle of deep space without any power. The crew have very little hope of surviving whilst they await rescue. That's not the only thing they have to worry about though...
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Drama/Adventure - Chapters: 11 - Words: 28,095 - Reviews: 109 - Updated: 4-7-09 - Published: 3-18-09 - Rodney M. - Complete
39. Sunset reviews
What's up with Rodney? Why has he stopped complaining about things? He gets injured during an offworld mission and John has to keep him alive while they wait to be rescued. He decides it's high time for a long talk with his friend. McKeller.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K+ - English - Hurt/Comfort/Friendship - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,670 - Reviews: 15 - Published: 3-13-09 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
40. Touch of Chaos » reviews
Complete! When a mysterious doorway is found on Atlantis, Dr Rodney McKay becomes trapped alone and out of his own reality. He soon discovers that every place where he ends up has one disturbing thing in common and he gets hurt.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Angst/Drama - Chapters: 13 - Words: 62,521 - Reviews: 148 - Updated: 3-8-09 - Published: 2-16-09 - Rodney M. - Complete
41. May The Best Man Win » reviews
Complete! Written as a tag for Season 5 'Tracker,' it runs on from the last scene. It features the McKay/Ronon/Keller love triangle along with large amounts Rodney h/c and angst for all!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 4 - Words: 8,669 - Reviews: 37 - Updated: 1-18-09 - Published: 1-15-09 - Rodney M. & Ronon D. - Complete
42. Timeless » reviews
Complete! What if you could control time? What if something never ended or changed because it could be frozen in time forever? Dr Rodney McKay is about to find out the hard way.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 12 - Words: 40,135 - Reviews: 106 - Updated: 1-12-09 - Published: 12-31-08 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
43. The Twelve Days of Christmas » reviews
…Atlantis style. Twelve independent oneshots based on an Atlantis version of the song. Ranging from parody to hurt/comfort, from angst to romance and many other things in between! Many focus on McKay and he gets hurt frequently... Now complete!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Drama/Adventure - Chapters: 13 - Words: 28,568 - Reviews: 54 - Updated: 1-5-09 - Published: 12-25-08 - Rodney M. - Complete
44. Crash Landing » reviews
Missing scenes/tag for 'Infection.' This story deals with the immediate aftermath of the crash and then the infirmary scenes. Needless to say, whump for all!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 6,531 - Reviews: 35 - Updated: 12-8-08 - Published: 12-7-08 - Complete
45. No More Tears » reviews
Complete! Jennifer and Rodney go off-world together and run into some unexpected trouble. Contains whump, along with hints of McKeller.
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Drama/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 7 - Words: 15,026 - Reviews: 35 - Updated: 12-4-08 - Published: 11-28-08 - Jennifer K. & Rodney M. - Complete
46. Separating the Men from the Boys reviews
A Crack!Fic written for the week one challenge on the GW Forum. Rodney and John get themselves into the usual trouble offworld...
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: K - English - Humor/Parody - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,870 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 11-24-08 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
47. The Heart of Darkness » reviews
Complete!The team go off-world where something happens to McKay,causing him to act strangely.Can Sheppard figure out what it is and save his friend before it's too late? Will McKay be able to survive for long enough to prevent the destruction of Atlantis?
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Horror/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 4 - Words: 16,391 - Reviews: 22 - Updated: 11-23-08 - Published: 11-20-08 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
48. The Key to The End » reviews
Complete! A series of painful and dangerous malfunctions begin to affect the inhabitants of Atlantis. Is it just random or is something more sinister and deadly going on?
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 22 - Words: 57,410 - Reviews: 116 - Updated: 11-11-08 - Published: 10-15-08 - Rodney M. - Complete
49. Ghost Ship reviews
Oneshot horror fic to celebrate Hallowe'en. Includes: Wraith, Zombies, scary noises, darkness and the like…
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Horror/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 7,182 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 10-31-08 - Rodney M. - Complete
50. Avenging Angel » reviews
Complete! A being fuelled by nothing but fury and vengeance awakens in Atlantis. Cue scary hallucinations, mind control and McKay whump!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Horror/Supernatural - Chapters: 6 - Words: 11,084 - Reviews: 16 - Updated: 9-22-08 - Published: 9-18-08 - Rodney M. - Complete
51. Shattered » reviews
Complete! The team are left stranded on a planet with a brutal history of medieval war - complete with knights and swords - and wraith culls that they are about to experience first hand. Paradoxes and serious McKay whump abound!
Stargate: Atlantis - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Angst - Chapters: 9 - Words: 25,759 - Reviews: 33 - Updated: 9-13-08 - Published: 9-5-08 - Rodney M. & John S. - Complete
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