Love it!

Oof- introspecting the breakup scene. Very well written!

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Perfectly captured emotional snapshot of that moment through Sarah’s eyes.

Good at catching the mood. I had not read this one before and you describe it perfectly.

Sad. To quote Chuck..."the person I keep lying to the most...is me." Nicely turned around and very appropriate way to describe Sarah's emotional state...Rhetorical question...is it the strength of her discipline, is it how deeply broken she is emotionally, or all of the above? I would say all of the above.

No one has gotten into Sarah Walker’s heart, mind, and soul like you have. This deep dive into a very early time, and important moment between her and Chuck, is no exception.

The truth serum has made her face the lies. To Chuck, to herself, to the CIA. Mostly to herself.

Then the crushing blow comes when Chuck fake breaks up the fake relationship. Adding insult to injury when she witnesses him rush to Lou’s. Ouch! The pain is so very obvious on our confused spygirl.

Thanks for dredging this short shot back up for us. A brilliant moment….

I’m not sure if I have read this before, maybe once a while back. I was looking for some one-shots to read and found this one. You Z have very eloquently articulated what I saw in her face when that event happened in canon. Yvonne played that part so well. Her face held all of your words and probably more. Especially the part between when Chuck put his hands on her shoulders to when he sat down with Lou. The emotion portrayed by Yvonne was phenomenal. Maybe one of the best scenes in the whole series.
Very good story. Thanks.

Very beautifully written and really reflected in rich inner life that Yvonne always brought through her wonderfully expressive eyes. When watching that scene again after reading this the expectant lean is so much clearer. Sarah fully expected and wanted to be kissed in that moment and Chuck disappointed her with the same devastating effect that she'd done while under the Truth Serum. Thank you for this wonderful little slice of inner life.

You have such a descriptive way to portray Sarah’s brokenness and forced disconnection from her feelings. That she experienced her emotions with her back to them and most successfully lies to herself shows how there is just so much more to her than top CIA spy. That she could still hope so strongly got a kiss from Chuck despite what had taken place the day before shows how much she does feel for him. Just great insight into the mind of Sarah Walker.

A good scene from season 1. I could never figure out why Sarah would think that Chuck was going to advance their relationship after she had just told him, apparently honestly, that they had no future together. Her lack of self awareness would explain it somewhat, but, how could she think that Chuck would see through it?

Wow, this is a good little one shot. Exploring a moment in the show that I don't think I've ever seen explored before. I mean, anybody who watched the show could see how crushed he was when he broke up with her, and you can easily even imagine that she was waiting for him to kiss her. This one shot just gives us her feelings as that moment happens. No way I won't be able to think about this next time I watch that scene. Well done.

I had to get on my computer to leave a review for this one :) Very well wrote and spot on to where I think Sarah was at this point. Clearly she had developed...something...for Chuck, but it confused her and threw her off to the point where she kept giving Chuck mixed signals.

Think back to the pilot on their first date, she comes out and says "I like you Chuck". There is no question in my mind that just popped out, that she hadn't met a guy like Chuck before being used to arrogant fellow spies and the scum bad guys she dealt with. Fast forward to the scene by the fountain where she asks Chuck if it would be so bad if he had to kiss her, he says he could suffer through it, and she says so could I then promptly takes off realizing she had let her guard down a bit.

At the point of this story I believe she wanted something with Chuck but didn't believe it could ever be possible for a multitude of reasons, one being that he was too good of a guy for a woman like her, as she seen herself as just a spy that had done so many things for the greater good that she believed he would never accept her. That doesn't mean that she still didn't want something.

It was evident on her face and I think Yvonne did an outstanding job in this scene...she expected Chuck to push the issue and try to pursue her and I think if he had, she just may have folded. Instead, he breaks up with her and her face falls and quickly becomes guarded but you can see the pain and hurt in it, and as she watches Chuck across the way with the sandwich girl Lou, the longing is evident to me.

Your line "Cover broke up. Broke up. Something broke." is spot on. What was supposed to be a cover was clearly more to her, at least her heart even though her mind refused to admit it. Well wrote, would love to see it expanded into more if you choose to do so. Thank you for your wonderful contributions to the Chuck fandom!

A well done, very insightful look into Sarah’s the type of struggles she had to deal with as her attraction to Chuck grew.
I always enjoy stories that help us to understand the complexity of her situation and the battle she had between her duty and her inclinations.

Technically Sarah didn't resist the truth serum, which was how she got around it in the first place. Chuck asked her if she saw their thing going anywhere, which at the time she honestly didn't, so she actually answered him truthfully, just very selectively.

I feel like, at this point (being season one), it wasn't so much that Sarah wouldn't allow herself to really confront how she felt, and give name to it. I feel like it was more that she was still trying to actually reconcile herself with the fact that she actually HAD feelings for Chuck at all. Season one was about coming to terms with the idea that she was still capable of really caring for someone else. My thoughts were always, even being vaguely aware of how deep those feelings ran didn't happen until he was almost taken from her in the season finale.

Absolutely loved the ending..."Behind her back, she heard sobs". What an absolutely fantastic turn of phrase to play on the idea of Sarah always turning her back on her feelings!

This is a brilliantly insightful picture of Sarah’s paradoxical inner life in that scene!

I really loved this passage: “Cover broke up. Broke up. Breaking. Something broke.”

The disjointedness is itself a form of brokenness. Sarah’s confusion, the jumble of emotions, her summarizing distance from her feelings—so well done! And Yvonne’s performance is incredible, because you can see all of this conflict playing out even though she doesn’t say a word of it.