I don't really know if you're gonna read this review, because the last update is from a long time now but... well, actually i'm speechless, so I don't really know why i'm sending a review...

This story is just... so... depressing haha... I'm on my way to crying, and I just feel sick, because of the incredible amount of feelings you've put in this fiction...

Haha, i'm sorry i'm saying weird thing... I feel as numb as ryuichi right now lol... *stop the review here* you are just amazing, thank you for such a wonderful work!

As with the last reviewer, I'm not sure if you'll even see this since the fic was written so long ago, but I can't NOT say anything.

This is beautiful writing. I see on your bio that you are published, and you deserve to be.

I'm an English major so I'm a sucker for this piece's lyrical writing and lovely imagery (even when its macabre lovely). Your characterization of Ryuichi is of course what ties it all together, and it's absolutely heartbreaking. And fascinating. Seeing this story through a fractured mind, through the point of view of someone who so desperately wants to be better but continues to break promises to himself... So human.

Good luck in whatever writing you are doing now, and I hope I get the joy of reading it!

So, I don't know if you still see reviews for this story since it was written so long ago. But I have to say how absolutely amazing this was. I just started watching anime a few months ago (and I'm 25, lol), and Gravitation was the first one I saw... I was instantly hooked. I haven't read much Gravitation fanfic yet, but I've read in lots of other fandoms, so I have an idea of what good or bad fic looks like, lol. This was beautiful... and totally made me cry at the end, too, heh. It also made me laugh a lot, though... that was something that the anime did very well, combining dark and sad with silly and funny... and it was done very well here, too. This story captures the characters so well, every one of them, including (or especially) Ryuichi, who would be a very challenging one to get right, especially in first person POV. Ryuichi's mental instability and sad backstory came through so beautifully. And the way Yuki and Tohma dealt with the whole situation was SO very in-character... I can very easily see Yuki pushing Shuichi away to keep from hurting him even more. And I think Tohma, who is so protective of Yuki, and always behind the scenes taking care of everything, would have reacted exactly like that, even if it meant having Ryuichi and Shuichi hate him. The flashbacks/dreams were handled very well, I wasn't ever confused about where I was in the timeline. And I love the butterfly story... and Ryuichi reading to the sick kids. This might be the longest review I've ever posted on a fic... Anyway, if you read this, great job! _

I really, really like this story. I seriously do. It's full of emotions, lies, love, pain, heartbreak, recovery, insanity, friendship. There's so much drama that it's really hard to guess what will happen next. There's no way of telling. All I could do is read on to find out.

The way you portrayed Ryuichi, and the rest, is so realistic in its own way. You've made the characters of Gravitation your own. You've changed them. You've improvized them. You brought them to life.

Keep up the good work! ;)

that had me in tears...really there's so much to comment on but I don't know how to-wow!

~i'm speechless~

T_T

ameths

Oh my, I don't even know where to start. All I can say is that this is one of the most memorable fanfics I ever read. It was so beautifully written, so well structured from beginning to end, each part was important to the plot, and nothing ever seemed unnecessary. I've found that in most fanfics I read they can be pretty predictable or at least very simple and not have a well articulated plot, but this fic kept dumbfounding me at every turn. I was so intrigued by all the hidden stuff, and the whole plot twist completely got me off guard. I also love the comedy in it, it was always well placed and made me giggle, and the tragedy was perfect. There was so much going on in this fic, and it made me feel so many things. Forgive me if I'm ranting. I also have to note that I've only read a few Ryuichi Sakuma POVs before but this one was the most accurate and the best described. You really got into his head, and made Gravitation your own. Seriously, this story would have worked completely without Gravitation. You need to write books if you haven't already. UGH okay I'm done, sorry for the rant. It was just so great.

This is amazing it made me cry so many times and when i saw that the word die and yuki in the same sentence that was shock TT I knew it was going to happen but it still came to me at full force I love this story your really inspering you should become an athour soon~! Im pretty sure that if you did people would be litterly killing eachother of a last copy of one of your stories~

Lol PS if that seemed weird im sorry~! Can you please write another story of ryushu?

Hats off to you...After all these years, this is still the most beautiful fic i've ever read! Ryuichi is probably the most enigmatic character in Gravitation and yet you captured him perfectly. My friend got me to read this a few years back and i still love it so much. This story got me into BL ;)

Awesome ending! Totally original. Well, in the way that you had Shuichi get onto Ryu for not telling the story right. Loved it!

Excuse my French, but you are a fucking genius! I'm seriously blown away! The things that you managed to incorporate in your story are fantastic. It's so in depth and you can see straight into Ryuichi's heart through it. I can't even begin to imagine how you managed to balance the hyperness and spontanaeity of the child-like Ryu with the angst of the adult Ryuichi. You really nailed him and I thought that it was nigh on impossible to do. Despite how people see him, I really think that Ryuichi Sakuma is the most complex character of the entire series. (Maki Murakami could do a whole series just about him!) I tried writing him once and failed miserably. But somehow you just crawled inside him and made him talk! And I love that you made this from his POV. That was perfect for this story.

This is actually my second time reading you story and it just gets better and better. I mean, there are metaphors and anaplogies in here that just fit Ryu so well. And his battle with his own demons, while trying to fight Shuichi's, coupled with his many psychological problems is just amazing. It's really hard to do. All in all, this whole story would have been impossible for most authors.

Another thing that impressed me was the way you protrayed Ryu's many psychological issues. Like when he didn't take his medicine and the buzzing was overwhelming? Or the nightmares? The panic attacks and his dependency on Kumagoro was great. Wow. You did your homework. And, typically, an angsty Shuichi is really hard to do, since he's such a happy character naturally, especially with a rape being envolved. So many people handle it wrong. They try to have the alternate couple from the rapist and victim get it on in like two days from then or suck the original character out of the story and make him 'emo'. However, you've painted a realistic picture of the suffering that Shuichi would go through, but made it so that he retained most of himself in the process. You eased the reader into the idead without making it OOC. Kudos!

I also thought that the addition of Molly was right on the money. It lets the reader know just how bad-off Ryu is and adds another layer to his life. By using her and Ryu's thoughts on her, you can see that Ryu wants a normal life, but doesn't know how. It's amazing.

And Tomi! How Ryu adapted the 'na no da' from his previous lover's speech, and kept Kuma from all those years ago, coupled with the bass guitar Tomi gave him and the jilted lovers of his past. Woah, Angrybee, you -really- thought this through. It just shows how much he loved Tomi, how he's trying to hide from the world and hanging onto the past.

One thing that really made me smile was the fact that you didn't make one of the fatal blunders of angst writers. You didn't give Ryuichi so many problems that you couldn't dig him back out...well, you gave him a ton, but I think that the fact he's been dealing with all of it, and in such a manner that's a cross between childish and mature, gives it more validity to be able to come out the other side.

All in all, this story gets five ginormous stars from me! I doubt there are many stories out there (and next to none for Gravi) that convey our Ryu so well. You really inspired me and gave so good insight into his character. You sure you're not related to Maki? lol. jk. Thanks for writing such an awesome story. You are going on the Fav's wall of fame!

It's really great.

Great.

Great story *u*

I love the little bits of philosophy and the butterfly theme.

You write beautifully, dear!

I love Ryuichi's characterization. :)

WOW. All I can think of to say at this moment is WOW. This has to be one of the best written stories that I've ever read.

I had so many emotions going on through me the whole time I was reading this. I think I probably experienced almost everyone there is. I do have to say I was angry a lot though. But now I feel bad for being so. Besides anger I think sadness was the next emotion that I felt the most of. Your last chapter just killed me and I started crying on two or three different occasions (thinking about it now is making me a bit teary).

Although I said that I was mostly either angry or sad during your story I absolutely loved it none-the-less. The ending was great and I think it probably couldn't have been done better. I do wish that Yuki didn't have to die, but his death was done with taste and without it the story wouldn't have ended as cleanly.

Thanks for writing this. And thanks to the person who sent me the link to this and told me to read it. )