Lolss... The author deleted my comments because she couldn't take critics. Anyway, I am gonna repeat what I said.

I DON'T RECOMMEND THIS STORY!

The author was too delusional where she wanted to create a story about a damsel in distress Sanzo as the vulnerable princess where everyone wanted to get a hand on him for their own pleasure... You know... that kind typical of story... And what's worse that... When I thought it was enough to disgust me, the author becoming more delusional, guys...and it was just getting worse in every chapters. She bashed other characters bcs she wouldn't let any other character except Sanzo to be loved. All characters were pictured like some perverts where they must fight for Sanzo's trust yet Sanzo acted like an ungraceful character, an asshole where he become means to everyone and his friends ... it feels like I was hearing sanzo saying, "I am a weak and helpless pretty princess who got captured by many perverts guys. Please my heroes, save me. Oh, no the bad guys are so much strong so I let myself get captured again by them for fanservice."

He's a burden!

...and the author seems to enjoy it. She forgot that Gojyo was supposed to be pissed off with Sanzo acting that way in canon. Yet again, her delusional told her to make Gojyo loves Sanzo blindly and not care with Goku who suffers the most in this story (poor you, Goku). Can't believe there's author who bashed you that much

Sanzo is the oldest and a fully grown up man, he's the father of Goku and Goku is the smallest and youngest that he's the son of Sanzo. So, it's supposed to be Goku who's the baby of the group not Sanzo. SANZO IS THE DADDY AND GOKU IS SUPPOSED TO BE THIS DADDY'S LITTLE BOY! GOKU WAS THE ONE WHO'S SUPPOSED TO PLAY THAT ROLE HERE!

It's very cringy and make me sick to the stomach everytime I read the part where Sanzo the grown up man was being vulnerable but Goku -the smallest and the baby- is the one who protected and become possessive of Sanzo -_- while all Sanzo did was let himself being manipulative and rescued like a weak princess. I guess the author has a fetish of Sanzo being kidnapped, vulnerable, hypnotized and gang r. 4. p. 3. d. Don't believe me? I checked out her other Saiyuki fics and every one of them has similar tropes to this one that I regretted reading them all -_-

And the ending... Pfffttt... It just validated my guess that the author just wanted to make a story to release her delusional about Sanzo the annoying grown up adult to be seen as a cute little kid being loved by everyone and every strong man/woman that she wanted everyone to ignore the fact that it was actually Goku who is the youngest and cutest that deserve more love judging by his past in Gaiden. But no - the author instead wanted ppl to see Goku as the adult who babied Sanzo, as if Sanzo deserve all love despite his annoying character while Goku, the cute small cinnamon roll had to be seen as the opposite!

The author should read story called Insult to Injury by Kitesvara. Similar kind of story yet unlike this author (Greyliliy), Kitesvara still made Sanzo as a strong man that he wouldn't let himself being sexually harassed easily and what I like more about Kitesvara's story is that she made Sanzo as grateful person where he returned Goku's affection, resulting him also become protective and kind to Goku since Goku always helped him.

Oh, maybe this author (GreyLiliy) should rewatch all Saiyuki episodes and its manga to learn more about the moment where Sanzo being vulnerable because the author seems to forget that Sanzo still acts like a strong guy that still worries about Goku's safety despite of himself being badly injured (see Gensoumaiden Saiyuki and Even a worm arc) and Goku has grown to get used of Sanzo getting hurted that that cute small boy could leave Sanzo and did whatever he could to help the others (see Saiyuki Reload Blast). Rewatch also Saiyuki Gaiden and see by yourself how Minekura treat Goku as the son of Konzen (Sanzo) and the baby of the group that's loved almost by every important characters that Konzen, Tenpou and Kenren did everything to protect Goku even though they must paid it with their lifes. They treasure Goku a lot in the canon. Goku's safety was much more important that their own lifes. He's papa Konzen's little boy after all! He's so precious.

Overall, Sanzo never deserve so much attention and loves this author showered so much in this story. If anything, like I said many times before, it was supposed to be Goku who got all love and attention. For the God sake, Sanzo's past is less tragic than Goku. The former has a better childhood, he had a father figure who loved him so dearly, he earned sanzo's title by legacy (not even trying hard), and while he had a hard journey for a few years, he soon became a head temple and all the monks respected him so much. Yet this author still thought Sanzo is the most suffering that she put so much loves on Sanzo instead of Goku?

What about Goku? That cute little boy got taken to heaven, the army saw him as a monster, he lost his friends, he watched Konzen died, his memories got erased, he got imprisoned for 500 YEARS and even after Sanzo released him, he never regained the same loves and attention as much as Konzen, Kenren and Tenpou gave him! Sanzo even never stand for Goku when the monks badmouthed the latter!

Goku is the one who supposed to get attention, loves and support in this story, not that fucking bastard grown up sanzo who you treated like a baby (yuck!) Goku was supposed to be seen as everyone's favorite little boy, not Sanzo. Goku is the one who brought light and joy to the group, not Sanzo. EVERYONE SHOULD SHOWER LOVES MUCH TO GOKU, NOT SANZO. INSTEAD, SANZO WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ONE OF THAT EVERYONE WHO SHOULD GIVE GOKU LOVES THE MOST!

Lolss... The author deleted my comments because she couldn't take critics. Anyway, I am gonna repeat what I said.

I DON'T RECOMMEND THIS STORY!

The author was too delusional where she wanted to create a story about a damsel in distress Sanzo as the vulnerable princess where everyone wanted to get a hand on him for their own pleasure... You know... that kind typical of story... And what's worse that... When I thought it was enough to disgust me, the author becoming more delusional, guys...and it was just getting worse in every chapters. She bashed other characters bcs she wouldn't let any other character except Sanzo to be loved. All characters were pictured like some perverts where they must fight for Sanzo's trust yet Sanzo acted like an ungraceful character, an asshole where he become means to everyone and his friends ... it feels like I was hearing sanzo saying, "I am a weak and helpless pretty princess who got captured by many perverts guys. Please my heroes, save me. Oh, no the bad guys are so much strong so I let myself get captured again by them for fanservice."

He's a burden!

...and the author seems to enjoy it. She forgot that Gojyo was supposed to be pissed off with Sanzo acting that way in canon. Yet again, her delusional told her to make Gojyo loves Sanzo blindly and not care with Goku who suffers the most in this story (poor you, Goku). Can't believe there's author who bashed you that much

Sanzo is the oldest, he's the father of Goku and Goku is the smallest and youngest that he's the son of Sanzo. It's supposed to be Goku who's the baby of the group not Sanzo

It's very cringy and make me sick to the stomach everytime I read the part where Sanzo the grown up man was being vulnerable but Goku -the smallest and the baby- is the one who protected and become possessive of Sanzo -_- while all Sanzo did was let himself being manipulative and rescued like a weak princess. I guess the author has a fetish of Sanzo being kidnapped, vulnerable, hypnotized and gang r. 4. p. 3. d. Don't believe me? I checked out her other Saiyuki fics and every one of them has similar tropes to this one that I regretted reading them all -_-

And the ending... Pfffttt... It just validated my guess that the author just wanted to make a story to release her delusional about Sanzo the annoying grown up adult to be seen as a cute little kid being loved by everyone and every strong man/woman that she wanted everyone to ignore the fact that it was actually Goku who is the youngest and cutest that deserve more love judging by his past in Gaiden. But no - the author instead wanted ppl to see Goku as the adult who babied Sanzo, as if Sanzo deserve all love despite his annoying character while Goku, the cute small cinnamon roll had to be seen as the opposite!

The author should read story called Insult to Injury by Kitesvara. Similar kind of story yet unlike this author (Greyliliy), Kitesvara still made Sanzo as a strong man that he wouldn't let himself being sexually harassed easily and what I like more about Kitesvara's story is that she made Sanzo as grateful person where he returned Goku's affection, resulting him also become protective and kind to Goku since Goku always helped him.

Oh, maybe this author (GreyLiliy) should rewatch all Saiyuki episodes and its manga to learn more about the moment where Sanzo being vulnerable because the author seems to forget that Sanzo still acts like a strong guy that still worries about Goku's safety despite of himself being badly injured (see Gensoumaiden Saiyuki and Even a worm arc) and Goku has grown to get used of Sanzo getting hurted that that cute small boy could leave Sanzo and did whatever he could to help the others (see Saiyuki Reload Blast). Rewatch also Saiyuki Gaiden and see by yourself how Minekura treat Goku as the son of Konzen (Sanzo) and the baby of the group that's loved almost by every important characters that Konzen, Tenpou and Kenten did everything to protect Goku even though they must paid it with their lifes. They treasure Goku a lot in the canon. Goku's safety was much more important that their own lifes.

Overall, Sanzo never deserve so much attention and loves this author showered so much in this story. If anything, like I said many times before, it was supposed to be Goku who got all love and attention. For the God sake, Sanzo's past is less tragic than Goku. The former has a better childhood, he had a father figure who loved him so dearly, he earned sanzo's title by legacy (not even trying hard), and while he had a hard journey for a few years, he soon became a head temple and all the monks respected him so much. Yet this author still thought Sanzo is the most suffering that she put so much loves on Sanzo instead of Goku?

What about Goku? That cute little boy got taken to heaven, the army saw him as a monster, he lost his friends, he watched Konzen died, his memories got erased, he got imprisoned for 500 YEARS and even after Sanzo released him, he never regained the same loves and attention as much as Konzen, Kenren and Tenpou gave him! He even never stand for Goku when the monks badmouthed the latter!

Goku is the one who supposed to get attention, loves and support in this story, not that fucking bastard grown up sanzo who you treated like a baby (yuck!)

Lolss... The author deleted my comments because she couldn't take critics. Anyway, I am gonna repeat what I said.

I DON'T RECOMMEND THIS STORY!

The author was too delusional where she wanted to create a story about a damsel in distress Sanzo as the vulnerable princess where everyone wanted to get a hand on him for their own pleasure... You know... that kind typical of story... And what's worse that... When I thought it was enough to disgust me, the author becoming more delusional, guys...and it was just getting worse in every chapters. She bashed other characters bcs she wouldn't let any other character except Sanzo to be loved. All characters were pictured like some perverts where they must fight for Sanzo's trust yet Sanzo acted like an ungraceful character, an asshole where he become means to everyone and his friends ...

...and the author seems to enjoy it. She forgot that Gojyo was supposed to be pissed off with Sanzo acting that way in canon. Yet again, her delusional told her to make Gojyo loves Sanzo blindly and not care with Goku who suffers the most in this story (poor you, Goku). Can't believe there's author who bashed you that much

Sanzo is the oldest, he's the father of Goku and Goku is the smallest and youngest that he's the son of Sanzo. It's supposed to be Goku who's the baby of the group not Sanzo

It's very cringy and make me sick to the stomach everytime I read the part where Sanzo the grown up man was being vulnerable but Goku -the smallest and the baby- is the one who protected and become possessive of Sanzo -_- while all Sanzo did was let himself being manipulative and rescued like a weak princess. I guess the author has a fetish of Sanzo being kidnapped, vulnerable, hypnotized and gan d. Don't believe me? I checked out her other Saiyuki fics and every one of them has similar tropes to this one that I regretted reading them all -_-

And the ending... Pfffttt... It just validated my guess that the author just wanted to make a story to release her delusional about Sanzo the annoying grown up adult to be seen as a cute little kid being loved by everyone and every strong man/woman that she wanted everyone to ignore the fact that it was actually Goku who is the youngest and cutest that deserve more love judging by his past in Gaiden. But no - the author instead wanted ppl to see Goku as the adult who babied Sanzo, as if Sanzo deserve all love despite his annoying character while Goku, the cute small cinnamon roll had to be seen as the opposite!

The author should read story called Insult to Injury by Kitesvara. Similar kind of story unlike this author (Greyliliy), Kitesvara still made Sanzo as a strong man that he wouldn't let himself being sexually harassed easily and what I like more about Kitesvara's story is that she made Sanzo as grateful person where he returned Goku's affection, resulting him also become protective and kind to Goku since Goku always helped him.

Oh, maybe this author (GreyLiliy) should rewatch all Saiyuki episodes and its manga to learn more about the moment where Sanzo being vulnerable because the author seems to forget that Sanzo still acts like a strong guy that still worries about Goku's safety despite of himself being badly injured (see Gensoumaiden Saiyuki and Even a worm arc) and Goku has grown to get used of Sanzo getting hurted that that cute small boy could leave Sanzo and did whatever he could to help the others (see Saiyuki Reload Blast). Rewatch also Saiyuki Gaiden and see by yourself how Minekura treat Goku as the son of Konzen (Sanzo) and the baby of the group that's loved almost by every important characters that the Konzen, Tenpou and Kenten did everything to protect Goku even though they must paid it with their lifes. They treasure Goku a lot in the canon. Goku's safety was much more important that their own lifes.

Holy shit! Nii you asshole! No wonder he turned sanzo into a kid. He didn't have Allis mental defenses. Brainwash him as a kid then age him back up. This is not good.
You're such a devious writer!

Rereading this, and oh my goodness, poor Goku.

This story just breaks my heart all over again :(

Excellent writing job btw!

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I don't know how to feel about this chapter. Yes everyone seems to be moving on, but it just feels so bittersweet, like there's a big hole or the proverbial elephant in the room that really shouldn't be there. I didn't like Sanzo being reincarnated that way since it took away from the real tragedy that befell the group and changed their family dynamic. (I do know that this is non-canon to your fic and I believe that it doesn't hurt your actual story in any way. I can't blame you for wanting to lighten the mood after those last few chapters though.) I completely agreed with Ale's review overall in terms of the story. I too had be expecting for Sanzo to come around, or due to this tragedy genre, that Goku would've been hurt or killed bringing Sanzo back. Sanzo's death totally enhanced the power of this story and made it much better than a happy ending. Again, this is a story that I won't likely forget any time soon.

I don't think I can put any words together to explain how I feel about this story. This is the first fanfic in my 9 years of reading to actually make me cry; I applaud you very loudly for that. My heart was on the edge of its own seat more so than I ever was. I feel like the real victims in this tragedy are Sanzo and Goku; the poor kid suffered enough for the entire group and was powerless to do anything. I think I cried more for the son (Goku) losing his father (Sanzo) above all else. Ironically, I noticed some of Sanzo's traits rubbing off on Goku with his anger and impatience at the situation. As for Hakkai and Gojyo, don't even get me started with them. I felt so bad for Hakkai since it seemed he was the only one who practically (albeit with a lot of his own willpower) held everything together. The weight of the world was on his shoulders and he had to keep those shoulders up from start to finish, which can't have been an easy feat. Gojyo was totally the big brother who had to be the sturdy rock for the devastated parent (Hakkai). It broke my heart when he purposely chose to become the bad guy in order to protect the other two and I love him even more for that.

I can effectively say that you have me loving the Hwang/Nii pairing, but that doesn't change how much I hate Dr. Nii now. That selfish, perverted bastard ripped a family apart and turned their leader into something he totally wasn't. I feel like Sanzo died not knowing how much they meant to him (loved him), especially Goku. (I will say that you are right about the last chapter; I did want to hurt you for writing it, but I'm slowly getting over it :)...) Also, if I were in their shoes I think I would be angry that all of a sudden Dokugakuji wants to care, little good that will do for Gojyo and the others. I am happy that they are choosing not to continue the journey West since it really wouldn't make any sense to do so; I'm also happy that Hakkai and Gojyo will take Goku and the Maten sutra with them back East. My favorite line of it all was what Hakkai said: "Goku, the only people I care about are in this room." It was so final, yet so somber and comforting.

You definitely have a fan in me. Thank you for such a wonderfully angsty and heart-wrenching piece.

First off, even though I'm sad that it was a 'bad ending' I really did love the story. Actually, the 'bad ending' probably made the story 10x better even though it wasn't what I wanted/expected. I just kept waiting for Goku to save Sanzo or for Sanzo to not be able to go through with killing Goku and semi-snapping out of it. Wang's hints kinda helped me with thinking that (plus the fact that most of the stories on this site that I've read have happy ends Actually the majority of everything I've ever read had a reasonably happy end). I was expecting a happy end, and that made it even more bitter sweet when it ended the way it did. Though I really loved it too. It made everything more poignant. At least everyone's moving on, and maybe they can find Sanzo again if he reincarnates...
You said something about him being with Koumyo again and I had a sad thought about what if he can't remember him anymore. Or worse, he remembers everything and is horrified/shamed by everything that happened. I can't imagine how bad it would feel to have everything come back to him after he was already dead.
Everyone's reactions to the double death were so gut-wrenchingly sad. *sob* I wasn't expecting a sad story, but I certainly enjoyed it.
Oh yeah, I totally thought the thing in the bunny was like a seed or a DNA something to make a Nii/Hwang baby haha. I didn't even think of a scripture until I read the description on this chapter. The scripture definitely makes more sense.

(this is after I read this chapter, the above is before the chapter, but after reading your disclaimer thing at the top confirming that the events in this chapter aren't story-canon)

As far as this last chapter goes. It was ok. I liked seeing the others being able to move on. I liked hearing that Hwang probably would be able to finish everything where Nii left off (it was an even more satisfying conclusion for her imo). I didn't really like the Sanzo part, though. I understand where you were going with it, but I did feel that it took away from the story as a whole. Actually, I felt the whole tone of this last part sort of took away from the previous parts. I still loved the story as a whole though.

Anyway, awesome story, I really enjoyed it, especially the (to me) surprise ending. :D I'll be reading your other Saiyuki fics over the next few days. I hope they are as good as this one was!

Oh gosh, please no! I was expecting a happy ending. There's still two more chapters, so maybe...*doesn't hold breath*

If it is a 'bad ending' I have to say that it was super unexpected, and I actually like it! It made me gasp aloud haha. *sniffle*

Here's hoping the next two chapters will have something happy.

I somehow doubt Nii is actually dead, though...Though maybe...he is pretty crazy. But he's too cunning not to have a back-up plan...but he left his bunny behind and kissed Hwang...But it's Nii...Gaaah, I can see it panning out either way. I can totally see this being a preferred way for him to die (in his own mind), though.

Well that's an interesting plot twist. I didn't see that coming. I mean, I kinda did, but I definitely didn't see it coming this soon, you know. I like it. It was enough to make me pause me reading to comment haha.

While I'm here, I wanted to tell you that I'm really enjoying this story so far. It's not the most creative of plots, but I really love what you are doing with it (and I kinda love this kinda plot anyway haha). Little Kouryuu is really cute and Nii is as creepy as ever.

I liked the interactions between the characters. Gojyo and little Kouryuu was especially cute with the admiration of his hair/eyes and Gojyo's unfounded worries about the kid's reaction.

The parts where the had to lie got me increasingly tense until where Gojyo had to be the bad guy. That part was pretty sad, and I'm actually kinda glad that Goku punched him (even though it only made things worse).

I actually really like how you write Nii's parts. I haven't read too many fics that include him, and those that do tend to either gloss over him or mangle his character. You, however, make me really interested in what he has in store. I actually am somewhat enjoying the parts with him (even though I still don't like him or his actions haha). It's just that you write him so well and it keeps me guessing on what's going to happen. His interactions here (with his associates, not Kouryuu) are rather amusing (particularly with Hwang).

Um...there were several other aspects that I've enjoyed (like pacing, tone, and characterization), but I'm going to get back to reading now! Thanks for writing such a great story!

This is an amazing story, I thoroughly enjoyed it from start to finish. Keep up the good work :)

Oh, my Bob, that last extra special epilogue was amusing. Especially the part about Sanzo becoming a Dog in the end.

Anyways, loved the story. it's been a while since I let myself indulge in Saiyuki in any form, and this fic was a lucky find. Well written, depressing, and Nii... Oh that evil bastard. I was sad to see him die. Granted, knowing that Hwang got the scripture in this one was ever so amusing.

And I can so see the NiixHwang part. SO much chemistry between them.

It was a great story but still super sad! I love the way you made Kouryu he was just too cute but the ending was way too sad for me, but i still enjoyed it.

Evil death fic of evilness! Pretty awesome and I'm glad it took me by surprise rather than expecting it the whole time and distancing myself in preparation of future pain. I wish I'd read this faster, I had a bit of a break between adorable kid and brainwashed adult which dulled the impact I think. You have great story ideas, I'm going to enjoy going through them all. :) Keep on writing!