|Reviews for Imagine|
| kmgale chapter 16 . 1/31/2009
This was an awesome chapter. I love your Hyde-you write his inner monologue so perfectly. Great job! I can't wait to read more-don't leave us hanging for too long, ok? Is Kitty ok? Will Hyde ever admit he loves Jackie? I'm anxious! :)
| MirrorKate chapter 16 . 1/31/2009
So excited to see a posting on this - I can't wait to read the rest!
| Starlight77 chapter 15 . 1/21/2009
You have such an amazing grasp of the characters, their motivations and their intentions and their desires and needs. It makes for such an awesome read. You describe what they're thinking and feeling so vividly, that when their stomach clenches, I swear I feel mine clench a bit and when their heart constricts in their chest, I feel a pain in my own.
I really love how you describe their physical responses in particular. And you show how they react physically reflects how they're feeling emotionally.
And you just show why they react they do, brilliantly. Each of their behaviors make sense, because you explain it - making use of their inherent personality traits and their complicated histories from childhood and of their relationship. Like the chapter when Hyde realized he was treating Jackie like Bud treated Edna, and he felt compelled to act better for her.
Or, how, Hyde couldn't help but feel his annoyance at the little, shallow things Jackie sometimes indulges in - like when she was telling him what flowers she liked at the memorial. And that prompted him to wonder if he was making the right choice.
And so the whole back-and-forth between them - every time they seem to get closer but then retreat from each other once more - it all makes sense. you don't just do it as an unnecessary way of prolonging the story but you do it because you're having Jackie and Hyde work through each and every issue, each and every doubt.
This final chapter was brilliant with how you had Jackie realize that she couldn't love him enough to make up for the fact that he might never know how he feels about her. And it's fair of her to feel that way, it's completely logical for her to feel that way and not be able to wait. Because she's right. If he realizes he doesn't love her after all that waiting, her spirit will really be shred. She can't put herself through the heartbreak. She's human. We all instinctively act towards our own self-preservation. And while love made her able to stand all his taunts and all the other stuff he'd put her through - she could only do so because of that "naive yet endearing optimism" that was so sure of the fact that her love was returned wholeheartedly. It is beyond hard to give so much of yourself away for not enough back.
Not to say that I can't see where Hyde is coming from too. You've done a beyond amazing job of showing how deeply his childhood and all his life experiences have affected to him to this point where he doesn't know what love is. If he can feel it at all. If he does feel it and just doesn't know it. He doesn't recognize it. He doesn't understand it. The truths ingrained to him since he can remember aren't going to easily go away. Because, as you've shown, the only time he thought he truly loved someone was with Jackie. But with how much crap their relationship has gone through since then, of course he has to doubt if it was love. Or if it was something else that couldn't seem to last, couldn't seem to save them both from all this pain.
What he has to realize is that love doesn't mean an absence of suffering. He has to realize how love is strengthened through suffering, purified by pain. That the fact that they still feel so strongly about each other, that Jackie can still love him so much and forever, after all the pain they've both been through just makes it all the more beautiful. And the love they can share, the good they can have, makes it all worth it. The sweet moments he gives her, the glimpses she gets of the real Steven underneath all the Zen and BS, that's enough to thrill her and make her want to be with him. But to give him her heart, to love him again in the way she wants to, she's going to need a little more than that. She's going to need a certainty of feeling to match her own.
I really really am so interested in seeing how you will get them there. How you will get Hyde to the point where he can admit he loves her and wants her forever, even if he doesn't know what may happen in the future.
Please update again when you can. I enjoy this story more than I can say.
| DeeJ22 chapter 15 . 1/17/2009
I just read this entire story in one sitting on a friday night. It's great, please update soon!
| ANONYMOUS chapter 15 . 12/1/2008
I AM SO CURIOUS HOW YOU ARE GOING TO END IT!
| JH4eva chapter 15 . 11/1/2008
Has this been abandoned again? :(
I hope hot, this is really good!
| aliensister chapter 15 . 9/26/2008
OH MY GOD! I am in such freaking awe! I have been reading this for the last two days...I mean I actually came home early from a night out drinking and dancing with my friends, cause I just couldn't stop thinking about what was gonna happen next, and then I finish the latest chapter with a slight hang over but I could sleep any more cause I kept thinking about the story(I'm a slightly obsessive reader lmao) but I just NEED to BEG you to update soon, please!...PLEASE?
HUGS!...I don't do this for many stories, WIPs especially but this story is going on my Fav list, it's just so amazing... I just...wow, am so in awe of you and your story and your writing ability right now...
Hugs Mel x x x
| anon chapter 15 . 9/11/2008
Hey, I just wanted to say that I love this story and I'm dying to know what happens next!
| rebeldivaluv chapter 15 . 8/21/2008
I hate reading works in progress. I'm so impatient to know what happens next, and you know better than just about anyone how to end with the reader wanting more. You had Hyde step on his glasses - with the boots Jackie bought him. That's just...that's pretty much my favorite moment in Zen fanfic ever.
But GAH! Those two! Jackie's so caught in that conflict between whether she can make him love her and protecting herself from getting hurt again that she can't freakin' make up her mind.
And Hyde's just as clueless and in his self-protection mode, and, damn it, can't they ever just get it together?
I hope you realize that my insane ramblings are testament to how good this story is and how much I want more - especially that happy ending you've promised.
Love it! Can't wait for more!
| rebeldivaluv chapter 14 . 8/21/2008
Huh. Okay, so Hyde's epiphany last chapter wasn't as much of an epiphany as I thought. Seriously, what does he think he feels for Jackie if it's not love? Stupid screwed-up boy. And yet one can't help but love him. I guess that's poor Jackie's problem, too. I liked that Jackie said it didn't matter; it's so like her to put it off, to think she can fix it, or make him, if she just gives him time.
Oh! And I loved her line about Donna needing friendship lessons. Damn right, she does.
But someone needs to knock Hyde upside the head and explain to him what love is. Preferably Jackie. She's certainly earned the right.
Almost forgot! Good call on the Chrissy reference; I was wondering if you were going to bring that up again. Chrissy was the girl who, on paper, is best for Hyde, but she never really was. She could never change him, or push him, or make him crazy, or make him better. Which are all the reasons he both hates and loves - and most especially needs - Jackie.
| rebeldivaluv chapter 13 . 8/21/2008
Okay, sorry about the last review, but I really did need to see what was next, and now I can be all happy and try to put something real together.
First of all, I forgot to mention last chapter, how I loved that Jackie didn't even have to think before choosing Hyde, that's her natural reaction after all.
Secondly, I'm not a huge John Lennon fan, but I admit that I completely adore "Oh My Love" and have for a long time. It's just such a sweet, simple song with so much emotion streaming through it, so I was pretty much happy from the very beginning.
I love the flashback; it was along the lines of what I was expecting, but I loved that you had Hyde finally realizing what he'd done to her, and having that be what enabled him to stop it. Also, the apologies were so beautiful - and long overdue. *grumbles*Stupid Season 8*grumbles*
Jackie saying she wished it was still their summer kinda broke my heart, because don't we all? But then that nice little piece of hope at the end brought the smile back.
| rebeldivaluv chapter 12 . 8/21/2008
GAH! Okay, I can't even formulate a coherent review after that last teaser of a scene. I so need to go onto the next chapter now.
But, um, I loved Hyde telling Shawn he didn't want to mess with him "not about her." Swoon.
And poor drunk Jackie. All her truths and all her insecurities do have a way of flowing out of her, don't they? Loved the dance, and the lap-sitting and the Yoko reference. But, mostly, I just need to know what happened, so I'm going to read the next chapter now. Wonderful, as always.
| rebeldivaluv chapter 11 . 8/21/2008
Oh, Hyde and Jackie and the games they play. They never can make things easy on themselves, can they? Hyde's jealousy is, as always, a highlight. And I loved the little John Lennon/Yoko Ono connection you had Willow throw out.
I'm not sure I'd agree with you on Hyde being afraid of heights (he never had a problem at the water tower, after all), but I definitely agree about him being scared of Jackie. She has too much potential to hurt him, and he knows that.
Jackie is definitely a butterfly, and, in a way, you can draw that metaphor into how she is with Hyde. He's such a very *still* person, so she doesn't have to flit with him; she can just settle and rest. That little bit with him teaching her the guitar was so sweet and well-written - I could see it in my head. And I loved how Jackie was already planning to slap him after she'd kissed him. Hee. That girl.
Oh! And I loved how Hyde tried to look at anything but Jackie and couldn't manage it.
And once again, you've ended wonderfully. Hyde's got a plan, and an ally, and it's Jackie's turn to be off-balance.
| rebeldivaluv chapter 10 . 8/21/2008
I feel like you're dissecting Jackie and Hyde into their smallest, truest parts, labeling them and categorizing them, seeing what it was about them that was right and what it was that made them go wrong.
And it's so bloody tragic and beautiful I can hardly stand it.
I love the quintessentially Jackie lines you gave her in the chapter - like her connection of fat girls to chocolate. And, again, you called out some show history with Jackie being able to defend herself against the mugger - as well as the whole "badass" exchange. But more than that, I thought it was kind of a wakeup call to Hyde, since he always sees himself as her protector, and now he was forced to see that she could take care of herself - and that just made him angrier.
I loved how you handled Jackie's resignation, and the effect that it had on Hyde. It's one thing for him to question if he loved her, but he's always had her love to rely on, hasn't he? That conversation in the dark was so brutally honest I nearly cried, but I'm glad they're saying it all aloud and not burying it anymore.
Man, I hope this story has a happy ending, or you may just break me as well as them.
| rebeldivaluv chapter 9 . 8/21/2008
And once again, you turn in a completely angsty chapter that is still completely Jackie & Hyde. I liked that Hyde couldn't hurt Jackie the way he'd planned, and what he said to Pam, but what I really loved was this line:
"Why was his first impulse always to hurt her?"
You have such a grasp of Hyde's psyche. The way he thinks, the way he doesn't *let* himself think. And it's true - he purposely sets out to hurt Jackie a lot of the time, as a form of self-preservation, I believe, but that doesn't change the fact that he does, and that certainly doesn't make for a healthy relationship.
I love that you're not afraid to take on Jackie & Hyde's dysfunctions, even as you work to get them back together. And for every flaw of Hyde's, there's one of Jackie's, too.
I loved her note to Steven. So succinct, and yet piercing. And your take on the Kelso/Jackie connection is right on the money.
But then you set out one of Jackie's flaws: she sets right out to plot and plan and manipulate, which Hyde of course sees through, and which just makes the whole thing that much worse.
I wish everyone could write our couple with the clarity with which you do.