|Reviews for Don't Be There|
| Frakking Toasters chapter 1 . 2/26/2014
I'll just be over here in the corner pulling that knife out of my chest. Yeah...
OMG! I just want to hold Sam in my arms and whisper "You is kind... You is smart... You is important... YOU IS NOT EVIL" aka The Help (with a little custom extra) over and over and over until he starts believing it.
Even when he does good he thinks he's bad. He died a hero and he didn't even know. He just can't forgive himself for anything including the things that were never in his control, and it's the most heartbreaking thing in the world. And you write him to perfection. You really, really "get" Sam... and his awesome *snort* family dynamics and the demons and the dick angels. You just "get" it all.
This was soul destroyingly brilliant.
| Sphinixius chapter 1 . 2/1/2014
I hate you, you made me cry. But damn, I just have to love you for it, too.
| Eternal Grey chapter 1 . 5/23/2012
This stopped my breath. I haven't gotten this far in the show series but from what I've read of yours so far... it wouldn't even matter if I had because there's no way it will be as good as this described Sam's death. There's no way. This is too good. It's just too damn good.
| MarzBarz chapter 1 . 5/2/2011
Oh man, I don't think there are even words for how completely and utterly heartbreaking this is. For me at least there's a point where something is just so completely and utterly sad that I can't even cry, and this definitely hit that point. I stared at the ending paragraph for a good 5 minutes just going "Oh my God, SAM." Kind of in a good way, but mostly in a "I can't...even...I...", cathartic kind of way. Jesus, this was incredibly powerful and, just, I mean...I don't even know what to say. It was amazing and heartbreaking and I actually can't think of a better ending to Sam's life than giving everything he has to save the world, and I desperately wish that this had been what happened in Lucifer Rising. Desperately. It was that good.
| xXxShiniXKazexXx chapter 1 . 8/18/2010
Excellent. ) I would love to see a oneshot on Dean's reaction is he ever arrived. Brilliant work, otherwise. D
| lena chapter 1 . 12/22/2009
It doesn't need it but it would be cool to see a follow up to this. Would Dean find out what Sam did? Or would the Angels cover it up?
| Silwyna chapter 1 . 5/3/2009
This is perfect and heartbreaking and totally awesome!
| Nana56 chapter 1 . 5/1/2009
I didn't really get it that this was a deathfic. I don't read those. I can't.
It seems like a victory for Sam, tho. Well done. Just hit me over the head next time you write one so I don't read it. :(
| Lenayvonne chapter 1 . 4/21/2009
This was very moving. Thank you so much for sharing it.
| Suzie chapter 1 . 4/19/2009
Its funny I see you say that so many fics show good Dean and bad Sam. I see the opposite. So many seem to try to blame Dean for everything Sam does - even when we are clearly meant to be concerned about Some of Sam's choices. Choices which we understand however because they come from grief and heartbrokeness caused by Dean's death and his fears about his destiny.
Neither boy is innocent here, both are deeply screwed up and wonderfully rounded and complex characters. I see too many fics trying to make Dean the bad guy and blame him for Sam's darker path this season. Its trite and ignores the complexities of these amazing characetrs. You are a great writer, but i find it hard to see you talking about fics which make Dean the good guy and Sam Bad when I have seen you- in other stories of yours do the opposite. Making Dean to blame for any and all Sam's dubious actions. You don't do it here - instead you just remove Dean from the story. Its a shame, since I see the show as being about both fascinating characters, and that is why I love it.
Its a shame a writer of your great skill doesn't take the time to show that anymore. I realise Sam is your preferred character, but surely it is possible to have a preference without having to ditch the other character completely. Or worse resort to doing the black and white Sam good, Deanbad/at fault that you accuse others of doing in reverse.
| kooie chapter 1 . 4/17/2009
This was beautiful and overwhelming (and I'm waiting for the sequel and the moment when Sam "wakes up" and finds Dean and they leave together to live happily ever after... because Sam is just sleeping, yes? Yes? YES?). Thanks for sharing a very powerful story.
| carocali chapter 1 . 4/15/2009
I can't believe you wrote a death fic, but I'm so glad you did this. I think this is what Sam needs for himself. Even if he dies alone, it will be for Dean - the self-sacrificing that this family is known for. Redemption. Thank you!
| irismay42 chapter 1 . 4/15/2009
I had to wait till I was slightly less hormonal before I read this one otherwise I might have electrocuted myself blubbing on my keyboard!
Ooh nasty Ruby. I'd like to think she really is on Sam's side and that she really does love him in her own way, but you can't help thinking she's got some agenda of her own going on. Whether it's just getting rid of Lilith I don't know, although I think it's more than plausible that she wants to get rid of Lilith to pave the way for Lucifer.
If anything like this did happen in the show, I'd like to think Dean would be there with Sam at the end. Sam was there when Dean got taken by the Hellhounds. I'd like to think Dean would do Sam the same favour. If you can call it a favour! I wouldn't want to think Sam would sneak out on Dean to face Lilith by himself, but it really is something I could totally see him doing, and he probably doesn't realise it would kill Dean just as surely as if he was there and got caught in the crossfire. "If Dean will forgive him, if Dean will miss him at all." Yep, I could totally see Sam thinking that this season - which is of course completely the opposite of what Dean is feeling - because they're just so completely out of sync with each other now, neither really knows what the other is thinking or feeling, yet they both ought to know that nothing's ever going to be more important to either of them than the other.
Eesh. Makes you want to bang their pretty heads together.
Still, death never really kills a Winchester, so I'd be interested to see where you took this if you did decide to continue!
| ROBINV chapter 1 . 4/15/2009
Oh, Sam! For him to die alone, without his brother, after all this-for him to die AT ALL!-is so unfair. I don't want this to be Sam's real fate, yet it seems almost inevitable.
You wrote this so well, brilliantly, in fact, and it's made me cry. I want Sam to be at peace, but LIVING and at peace. Dean will be so sad without him, but I hope that this time, he allows what is dead to remain so.
| Holly Lukeman chapter 1 . 4/13/2009
Honestly, when I first finished your story, I wasn't sure what to think about it. But then I thought about it for a minute, and I have since concluded that it's a great story that you wrote very well. This story was really good, especially since it helps alleviate the painful lack of Sam in this season.
In your A/N, you said you were disappointed with the season and frustrated that Sam is always portrayed as being in the wrong and in need of saving. I was actually surprised to learn people felt Sam was being duped by Ruby, going evil without really knowing it, hated Dean, or was just being a jerk. I never saw it that way. I saw Sam being destroyed by Dean's death and not caring what it took to get revenge (hello, John Winchester Jr.), even if he had to use his demon powers. I think he trusts that Ruby wants Lilith dead, and that's good enough for Sam; he doesn't care what it'll cost him.
One of the reasons I enjoyed your story so much is that you pretty much addressed Sam and his motivations in an intelligent and appropriately complex way; you avoided (the now rampant) dualistic and ultimately flawed thinking about Sam and acknowledged the gray area of the issues. Also, you have an entertaining writing style and portrayed Sam's character very well. When you said the ending could be really sad OR hopeful, that was so not true - it's very, VERY sad no matter how I look at it. :( I am slightly appeased that Sam's sacrifices weren't for nothing, but it's still painful.
I'm still hoping Kripke and his slightly disturbing man-crush on Dean/Ackles won't end up cutting Sam out of the interesting story line. I'm not hugely optimistic, though. It's really frustrating - he's a fascinating character, and I REALLY want to know more about him and what's going on with him.
To conclude my lengthy rant... Very well written and well thought out story. It made me think, contemplate, and all around ponder Sam's fate.