|Reviews for Gratitude|
| Guest chapter 1 . 12/25/2013
Good story! That always pissed me off! Dean could never see how badly his death tore Sam apart and broke him!
| himrqwerty chapter 1 . 10/8/2013
OMG NO YOU ARE BREAKING ME THIS IS FAR TOO PERFECT 0/10 STARS BECAUSE THERE IS NO OTHER MORE EFFICIENT WAY TO BREAK MY HEART INTO LITTLE ITTY BITTY PIECES AND THEN STEP ON THEM
| Jamaican Princess Rocquellan chapter 1 . 12/30/2012
I cried through most of this. I wish that message thing was at least resolved in some way in the show, but I really love your version. Thanks for the awesome work! :D
| xcloudx chapter 1 . 8/25/2011
Holy jiminey cricket, batman! This is freakin awesome, more awesome than..than...DONUTS with extra sprinkles! Oh my god this was just so angsty and I've been looking for a story like this! You are amazing, oh please write more on Luci and Sam!
| xXxrouxXx chapter 1 . 6/27/2011
I cried reading this, and my stomach tingled, I loved it :D Dark, yet amazing and sad :D
| Naimeria chapter 1 . 10/27/2010
I think my favorite thing about this little fic is that I can totally see this playing out in an actual episode. Hell, I would have loved for this to happen.
I also adore the way you wrote Lucifer. That touch of sincere insanity that makes you fear him twice as much as if he were just a simple evil being. I've always loved that about Kripke's Lucy, and you wrote him perfectly.
And, of course, bleeding Sam never ceases to please. Torture is fun. As morbid as that is.
| Aerith Queen of Cetra chapter 1 . 4/10/2010
Wow! That was... intense! This story is amazingly good, disturbing but good! Haha I look forward to reading more of your stories
| Menthol Pixie chapter 1 . 2/17/2010
That was great, dark but great. The torture was brutal but worked very well for the story. Everyone was in character and yay for the happy...ish ending. Well, yay for Sam and Dean together again.
I got your pen name from one of Phx's stories - well, from a few if I try to think about it - and thought that, if Phx liked your stuff and I liked Phx's stuff I'd probably like your stuff. Yeah. Oh, and I do! Like your stuff, that is.
I read that you're addicted to reviews (who isn't on this site? I almost compulsively check my emails to see if I have any new ones) so I thought I'd better drop you a line and say great story! Keep up the good work!
| EternalEccentric chapter 1 . 12/13/2009
You are one scary good writer sweetie. Seriously, Sammy and Lucifer and Dean...it just exceeds words.
Wonderful job, keep up the phenomenal work,
| wolfish-willow chapter 1 . 12/13/2009
That was so sad and so good and I wish they would figure that sh*t out in the show already. This was great.
| Darktales chapter 1 . 10/17/2009
Very intereting and cool. I liked your way of doing things better than the show. sam being tortured as gratude? That is so messed up. I'd love to see that on the show.
| godsdaughter77 chapter 1 . 10/3/2009
Wonderful story! Thanks for sharing it!
| Sony Boy chapter 1 . 10/2/2009
Lucifer is one twisted * being. He repays his debt by torturing Sam into admitting his problems. Not therapy, not magically trapping the boys together-torture.
If that's how he repays his debts I'm never doing him a favor.
| irismay42 chapter 1 . 9/28/2009
I'm kind of sorry I didn't read this before I saw 5.3, but in a way I think I enjoyed this more for having read it after! I really think you've hit Lucifer's characterisation in the show on the head here - he's coming across as the truthful one, the one who tells it like it is, while all the angels (Castiel unwittingly) have ever done is lie.
I did wonder about Ruby's words - that Lucifer would be grateful. I still think you might be right about him being responsible for getting the boys back together, but not exactly in the way he does in your story. (Although I'm unspoilered, so who knows?)
I really hope Kripke hasn't forgotten about the voicemail anyway! That needs explaining. I'd not really thought about it, but you're right, that could in some ways be responsible for some of Sam's hurt, some of his feeling that Dean actually WANTS Sam to leave. Hmm.
Really enjoyed this anyway! And I'm hoping the boys get back together again soon!
| rahne2 chapter 1 . 9/27/2009
Read this late last night, and had to tell you how much I enjoyed it. You know, as sick as it sounds, Lucifer was probably right that Sam needed the torture to expiate his deep guilt. He was definitely right about his need to be reconciled with his brother. And it has been driving me crazy that the show has yet to make it clear whether or not the boys have compared notes and figured out how much the angels screwed them when trying to push Sam into killing Lilith and starting the apocalypse for them. I couldn't really understand in the first year 5 episodes why Dean accused Sam of "choosing a demon over your own brother", since he never actually did. But you're right, it makes sense if Dean didn't know that Sam never got his apology, or what Sam had actually heard in that phone message. Good catch! I just hope that the show deals with this, and Dean's ridiculous idea that Sam did what he did because he was under the sway of a demon, or had turned evil. He really did know what he was doing, and that he was selling his life and soul.
He wanted to save the world, whatever the cost. He really hadn't planned to survive the convent. And no one seems to be noticing that Dean didn't really "try to save him". He yelled at Sam, told him how weak and worthless he was, ordered him to obey without explanation, and gave him ridiculous ultimatums he had to know Sam could never accept. He knew that Sam would respond to reason, logic, and love, yet he never tried any of them. All he had to do was understand why Sam was sacrificing himself, and talk to Sam, tell him that he didn't want to watch him sell his soul whatever the cause, or better yet, try to find another way. Tell him what he told Bobby, that he would die for Sam in a second, but he couldn't let him sacrifice himself like that. (A bit hypocritical of him, after selling his soul for Sam.) At least then, Sam would have known his brother still loved him, even if he had continued to try to stop him. But how could he have expected Sam to let the world fall when he knew he could prevent it, when he knew in his heart that Dean would not be able to kill Lilith? When Dean tried to force him to choose Dean's condescending love at the price of killing the one being Sam needed most to finish his task? After all, Ruby had never lied to him, had been his only companion for all those terrible months, had truly cared for him, and he for her. (It still angers me that no one seems to remember that the angels' deceit was far more extensive and destructive than Ruby's, who really believed that she was saving the world by freeing Lucifer, her god. Castiel knew for weeks that Lilith was the final seal; what if Sam had asked Dean to kill him without evidence in order to keep Sam? Even at the convent, all Dean had to do was yell out to Sam that Lilith was the last seal.) His irrational fear of Sam's powers, no matter how much good he was doing with them, pushed Sam away, forced him to make all his choices alone and afraid. Dean never gave his brother his trust that he was strong enough to use the power without turning. (Notice that Castiel lied to him about that, too, when he forced Dean to swear to the angels.) Sorry, I get to ranting a bit at Dean's total misunderstanding of his brother, and the general consensus of the show that he was right and Sam was totally wrong. Still, it might take something as drastic as this story to wake Dean up to Sam's strength and courage and brokenness. And it seems to me that you've nailed Lucifer perfectly. The demons in the SN universe have always been more honest with themselves about who they were and what they were doing than the angels, who are totally inhuman in their motivations. Only those angels who have "fallen" have any empathy for mankind. Makes you think, doesn't it? Keep writing!