|Reviews for Selfless, Cold and Composed|
| reve2weaver chapter 15 . 6/23/2013
Okay, I started reading this knowing that it was unfinished. That doesn't scare me off because I would rather read a quality story that is unfinished, than something crass and unoriginal that is finished.
I always look for stories that take risks, and write outside the twi-box.
This story is the bomb. It takes an pairing that goes against the grain of the twi-fandom rule book, and worse, drives in a deep sliver of betrayal, not only does Edward cheat against Bella, Rose and he wrong the second biggest martyr character, Emmett (the first being Esme). You can't do that!
here's why not only can it be done, but it makes such a compelling story for why they should be together.
I want them to be together because of this story. They are better in this un-together, even for mere moments in this clusterfcuk of a HS bad-romance. It never has lemons for the sake of lemons: what drives them to each others arms, drives the story, and it remains a character driven tinder-box in a hot desert riddled with broken glass. I haven't stayed up all night reading in a while, and this delivers not only the blackest angst, but the sweetest a-ha's. Rather than titillate, it scratches; rather than tease, it tortures; rather than the soft lens of soft-core, it's a creosote bushfire to the ever-damp Forks.
I hate what they do... and yet... and yet, I want them to be together. This hot and cold mess makes sense. Why? Damn fine writing, that's why.
I never want to feel sorry for Rose (an often fatal mistake for her characterization, even at Meyer's hands). I want to respect her. This Rose deserves our respect. No: she demands it. I love her all the more for it because of her self-loathing vitriol never panders or pouts. This is the Rose I always wanted to read. Edward just barely deserves her, just barely. He seems like he might be up to the task, but it won't be easy. What great task is ever easy? Make him crawl.
On a personal note: I, too, had babies, and I, too, found that not only did my writing time peter out, but even if I did have time (and I wasn't napping or cleaning or drinking with the other mommies) my muse was far, far away. I felt guilty about it, and I didn't need to.
You see, at the time it was still all old school Feminism. As I sat feeding a babe in front of mindless TV, in my head I heard the tsking from my English proffs about women having babies, or having success. What I didn't know, and needed to know, was how unfair and short-sighted that was.
Not only does your writing time come back, but your drive returns with a vengeance, and even better: you get a new and improved muse. The writing that had sufficed for me before, didn't meet my high-water-broke mark. My new perspective meant I strove to improve my writing, and I did. I got better because I had a keener and deeper insight. I also met with other moms who write, and they said the same thing. It was like taking the break helped us. We were even more determined to write, and what's more, we wrote better characters, more developed story-lines and it was because we demanded more from ourselves. Having that time away from my writing to spend on myself and my family had a huge pay-off.
So I'm thinking: If this is how you write before you had the babes, I just know you will be a force to be reckoned with when you pick up your mighty pen again. Oh, and if you finished this story, it will make into my personal top ten. Next to greats like 'With Teeth' and 'There is a Light'. This story deserves to be read, no matter how you end it. So I won't say 'if' you finish, I will say 'when'. How ever long it takes, never think you won't write again, and remember this review. Nothing worthwhile is easy. Just ask your Rose and your Edward.
| Guest chapter 15 . 5/18/2013
| Nami ABC chapter 15 . 5/20/2012
pleasee i beg you update soon!
| LuckyStar815 chapter 15 . 8/15/2011
Great chapter, bb! Took me a while to get there because I had somehow managed to remove it from alerts, no idea how.
Anyway, I like the fact that you make me sympathize with Edward, even though he's being a prick. Okay, not a prick, but just a clueless teenager.
| furious kitten chapter 15 . 7/27/2011
You had the baby? Congrats, dear!
| LightStarDusting chapter 15 . 7/19/2011
Awww buddies. I feel like giving them all hugs. You know, if that were possible. ;)
Hope the baby is treating you well and you're enjoying! Take your time with the story because they're only so small for such a short amount of time. xoxoxo
| DNTK chapter 15 . 7/19/2011
Great chapter. I am anxious to see a Rose pov because as of now she just seems in shock,but again who wouldn't be? Her long tike relationship with her boyfried fell apart and she had no way of preparing for it, I mean they were THAT couple at the dance, that person who was suppose to be her longtime best friends, Alice an Jasper, spilled the beans in a drop of hate, and not to mention how if she doesn't handle the Edward situation just right, every will have tuned their back on her. Oh and she has to deal with the rest of Forks finding out and judging her since it will most likely get out,either by them bitches Alice or Bella or by rumours going around about why exactly Rose and Em's relationship ended so suddenly..Oh and we don't even know how Emmett is going to react and retaliate because he's not thinking clearly. Rose has really set herself up bad because when you fall you never just fall,but you fall hard and that's definitely what is happening to her. Oh and can Rose pleasssseee kick Alice's ass? Please, with a cherry on top? Can't say she doesn't deserve it...I wonder how she is going to feel when she see's her brother and all her friends hurting because she is a selfish asshole...she'll complain about how everything isn't the same and she mises the way it used to be and then she'll feel guilty about Edward getting hurt and all will probably be forgiven..What a joke!
| Chaerinnie chapter 15 . 7/19/2011
I know that Alice has this way of interceding on everything, but she should've minded her own business. I feel that Edward really is getting all the blame from everyone- except Carlisle that is. And I really do feel sorry for him.
I'd really like to see what happens next! I still really hope that Edward can make things work with Rose.
PS: Congrats on the baby :)
| jmrbear chapter 15 . 7/18/2011
The grief Edward gets from everyone is beyond ridiculous. If my teenage son was physically attacked by someone, I don't care what the reason was, I would be contacting the police and pressing charges. In no way is it acceptable for one person to attack another like that.
Less than 2 months ago an incident just like this and for similar reasons happened at my son's highschool between two seniors. The attacker was taken away by the police and expelled while the boy that he punched was hospitalized for a severe concussion. In no way can I find it believable that his mother would be lecturing him at this point unless there is something severely wrong with her as a parent.
Quite frankly, as a mother, my primary concern would be finding out more about the relationship my son was having with an older girl and determining whether or not she should be charged with statutory rape.
| soobliette chapter 15 . 7/18/2011
I'm so glad everything is now out in the open. I'm curious what happens from here in terms of Rose and Edward's relationship with everyone, include to themselves. Thanks so much for updating and congratulations on your little one!
| jmrbear chapter 14 . 6/11/2011
WOW! That was quite the cliff hanger. I just stumbled across your story today and I love it. The dynamic between Edward and Rose is electric and I can't help but feel badly for Edward, trying and failing to do the right thing. It's more than apparent that Rose knew exactly what she was doing when she initiated the relationship with him at such a young age and sadly it seems more than likely that he will be the one to suffer the fallout from it.
I can't help but notice that you haven't updated for a while. I hope you are able to soon.
| Howl3 chapter 14 . 6/6/2011
Okay, well, I have to say that I feel really sorry for Edward.
I don't like what he's doing, but as I read this, I feel really bad for him because the people in his life, aren't really who he could call friends or family.
They all push him around and tell him what to do, not willing to let him do what he wants to do and then they make him feel bad about him not doing what they want him to do.
Emmett with all his you need to have sex stuff.
Rose...being a giant hypocrite and basically treating him like a boy toy that she could toss aside anytime she wants if he doesn't follow her every rule.
Jasper with him telling him what he should and shouldn't do and being a general asshole about it while acting like everything is Edward's fault and he has to be the one to fix everyone else's problems when he shouldn't have to.
And Alice...the stupid ass sister who obviously cares more about a girl she just met than her brother. And Alice really has no right to be angry at Edward over the mess with Bella? Why? First of all, he's not a sucky boyfriend just because he didn't sleep with the girl. It makes it better that he didn't, otherwise it would have been bad.
Second, Alice was pushing Bella on him since the get go wwithout anycare to any of his feelings on the matter, like he's not allowed to choose who he wants to be with and nagging him until he does what she wants.
So really, its Alice's fault and she should be the one to feel bad because she wouldn't let it go.
And telling Emmett? Wow, Alice...now we know who you really care about because obviously blood doesn't matter to you. So Alice can go to hell and take Jasper right along with her.
And I'm a little pissed at Bella too. Yeah she's basically innocent during the whole thing, and I know Alice is her friend, but what the hell was she thinking telling Alice something personal like that about Edward knowing that it would probably affect their relationship being as Alice is obviously more Bella's friend than Edward's sister.
Edward definetly isn't innocent, and I want to smack him for being stupid but as it is I'm more aware of how much everyone else walks all over him and how he's the one they all put the blame on. I don't even know why he bothers talking to any of them.
He's who I feel sorry for the most.
| revrag chapter 14 . 5/15/2011
You know I love you with that. This is like my only Roseward that I read... the only one that stands up imo.
I'm curious to see what's gonna happen when Alice spills the beans. If she really does. Oy.
I love you...hope you're having a baby! Can't wait to see pictures sweetheart!
| queenboogie16 chapter 14 . 5/15/2011
Oh my god Alice is annoying. She would rather force attraction on Edward so he and Bella could be lovers than have him be happy in a relationship? That's so selfish. And then to say she's going to tell Emmett is extremely messed up. I don't know which is worse, the fact she has more loyalty to Bella than her own brother, or the fact she's gonna tell Emmett about Rose and Edward. And she's not even doing it to be a good friend. She knows it'll ruin a relationship, a friendship, and crush Emmett. She's doing it to get back at Edward for not having her plan work and she wants to hurt him. Talk about spoiled, self-centered bitch of a sister.
If Alice does tell Emmett, I hope Rose kicks her ass. That would be a sight to see! Anyway I'm rooting for Edward and Rose. I can't wait to see what happens next! Keep up the great work!
| soobliette chapter 14 . 5/4/2011
Great update. Bella's revelation about Rose was a surprise but what's even more surprising is Alice's intent about informing Emmett. Truly, I didn't think that would occur and it says something important about Alice - she has more loyalty to Bella, someone she hasn't been friends with for very long, than to her brother Edward. That's interesting.
I'm curious how the entire group is going to react to the news and what it will mean for Edward and Rose. I'd say that the ball will be in Rose's court when it comes to Edward but she'll have no control over how her friends will treat her from that point on. Your updates always make me happy. Thank you, thank you, thank you for continuing to write this. Well done!