|Reviews for The Sharpest Lives|
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 40 . 11/5/2016
I know your wondering why I'm still reading and I guess so do I...I feel no love connection between these two which makes me sad. Why does everything involve a plan? Why can't she just wait for him and tell him how she feels? You have not shown any of this friendship rebuilding so it's hard for me to understand why they love each other. She isn't the girl she used to be, he has lost all of his confidence...there has been zero talk of the future because last time Bella checked, Edward refused to change her which was a major sticking point for her. She seems like such a miserable person who focuses on the most ridiculous things...like the cost of the necklace but she spends the money the Cullen's allotted to her? Why would she care? She probably spent hundreds of thousands on drugs but she's still worried about who is paying for what? And let's not forget that she probably forked over $1000 to Diego and Fred of the Cullen's money.
Here's the problem, suddenly Bella is Bella again with trust issues and that's not who she was for 35 chapters. The anger is gone, the hurt is gone, and she is running on fear which she was in Forks too I mean what was that comment about Alice and Jasper's apartment usage? She was a WHORE...I think she of all people would be pretty open minded to sex! Also, where is the shame! She was a never been kissed virgin along with Edward in Forks...don't you think that fear would be driving her more than his leaving? That no matter how accepting Edward appears that he will always have it in the back of his head that she literally shoved her ass hole in his face and fucked Riley when he was outside the door? Did every reader and Edward contract amnesia? What was the point of the shocking behavior if it has no repercussions? Does Bella ever apologize or address any of her behavior?
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 39 . 11/5/2016
Realistic is what I think...there is a reason that you aren't supposed to get into a relationship in early sobriety...the emotions, focusing on someone else, forgetting that you are fragile. This is the smartest move Bella has made in the whole story...now she needs to move out and into a recovery center. That house is poison for recovery because no one can even begin to fathom how to handle her, and even Jasper with his yearn for human blood can't understand because he is still feeding his craving...like methadone. Five years of addiction and using takes it toll and after 3 months, the fog is just starting to clear. Please GOD, let's not have one of the Cullen's step in and try to fix this and push Bella. She needs at a minimum some outside counseling ...her drinking problem has never been addressed and I would think that would be a much easier fall back for her.
And Edward? Well, he just broke his promise and he knew this could happen and he said he would accept it but come on...a person can only take so much rejection from Bella AND his family...he needs to leave and really give Bella her space. Let her go to him. His staying is just sad and it's not helping anything
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 38 . 11/4/2016
Out of ally your characters, Jasper is far and away my favorite. He loves Bella and is supportive in her recovery in the most proactive and healthy way yet he has always had Edward's back too. Emmett, on the other hand, has been a complete jack and I have no clue why Edward would involve him in this plan. Based on everything you wrote mainly Emmett and Esme have led the effort to save Bella and to hell with Edward...he has never been able to say a peep about his feelings to either of them so I would like to see both of them fade into the back ground like Rose has idk where Rose went because she seemed to. Care at least.
Lastly, wouldn't it be a good idea for Bella to be checked for disease since she was a needle using prostitute?
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 37 . 11/4/2016
I think Edward did a good job expressing himself but he needs to stop blaming himself...why would an 112 year old vampire even fathom the downward spiral of his squeaky clean, virginal girlfriend? I can't believe that Bella said "after Edward convinced me what Sue said was wrong"..,she wasn't wrong and Bella knows it! She caused a lot of damage and we haven't even touched what her behavior did to Renee...I was really hoping she was at the funeral...it would have made more sense for her to attack Bella versus Sue but that's symantics. Bella and her time and processing...how much more does she need to process? Everything Edward said was in his journal...hasn't she had time to accept why he did what he did? Why is everything based on what Bella needs? What about what Edward needs?
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 36 . 11/4/2016
It was ok, Edward seems so desperate and let's not forget his old fashioned values... He needs to address how her choices have hurt him...and here is a news flash, life isn't fair! Bella needs to learn about gratitude...she has had so much support and she's yelling about being alone? That made no sense at all
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 35 . 11/3/2016
This is what I think...an addict sitting there with a needles would have done it, it doesn't mean she overdoses but once again, someone SAVED her...I feel like I am on a perpetual roller coaster with this story...just when I think you've got the mentality of an addict, you flip the script and make her a normie. Addicts are not normal, they can't cope and she can get angry but THAT is what she bought the drugs for...the emotions are dulled but they don't go away! What do I think of Edward being back? See comments above. This IS HER FAULT, but once again a Cullen is going to co-sign her bull shit, and not just any Cullen but the Cullen she has treated like less than a person...so once again, someone's going to apologize to Bella and tell her Sue was wrong (when she wasn't)...I just want ONE PERSON, other than Sue to get real here...this is just unbelievable!
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 34 . 11/3/2016
YES! That was awesome! Truth hurts and what Sue said is true Bella continued to be selfish by making Charlie come to her and not facing her fears. If Bella would have stopped for a minute and really thought of how to make a true amends, the people of Forks would have seen that Charlie was at peace. The Cullen's need to let Bella stand on her own 2 feet. That's why relapse is so natural to her because they are making her stay clean through guilt and shame. Bella needs to hit rock bottom and truly want sobriety. She wants acceptance and love from the Cullen's and that's not the same
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 33 . 11/3/2016
Well, I'm sure you know what I'm going to say...once again Bella has zero tools to cope with this loss, she didn't truly make amends and now she can't and she has to go to a small town that will ridicule and judge her...relapse FOR SURE! She may need to consider rethinking the change since she may kill herself this time around. Also, people don't apologize to addicts, they are the root cause of every problem...will everyone quit kissing her ass!
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 32 . 11/2/2016
This is out of left field! I was really hoping this wasn't going to turn to the wolves...always hated that part of Twilight and I think Jacob is an ass and had zero chemistry with Bella unless it was forced. I hope your Jacob has some maturity because if he is modeled after SM's Jacob then he will be clueless on how to deal with Bella and will probably send her into another spiral since he is so domineering and thinks he knows best...17 year old know it all! The only thing I can fathom is that Charlie is dead
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 23 . 10/31/2016
I haven't said anything regarding this story but I do have to say this...was Bella hurt? YES, is her anger justified? YES but, leaving that extra ticket and knowing Edward may be there and the being hurt? She is a typical drug addict / alcoholic! Takes ZERO responsibly for her own actions! The Cullen's need to get her treatment or leave her to her own devices. They are enabling her bad behavior...this is an addicts dream...money, housing, no judgement...that's not realistic. This is her fault, not Edwards. She made a snap decision that guess what has consequences. She is a whore, slut, addict and is 100% self centered. She cares nothing about how she is hurting all these people...she feels justified. So for her to have "that look on her face"? GOOD! She needs to hit rock bottom and the Cullen's need to walk away because she will never get better
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 31 . 11/1/2016
I wasn't too hopeful for this chapter so I was pleasantly surprised. Personally, I don't think it's just Edward she needs time and space from, but all the Cullen clans meddling and being oh so helpful. Standing on her own 2 feet means just that...not relying on hand outs with money, pity, unwavering support because she buys her own bull shit because they support her no matter what. The biggest thing is that she needs to take charge of her own recovery and AT LEAST see a therapist. I have given up hope that she will go to NA but a substance abuse expert could fit (even though I'm not big on that avenue because you have to live it to get it). I almost feel like Bella has gone from one addiction to another but the another is like a cult. You know Charles Manson called his group "The Family" too? I really hope what Bella said to Edward isn't just "talk" for Edward is what I'm saying...I would actually really like to see her either live on her own or go stay with her Mom or Dad for some time. Carlisle's comment that they don't view her as a failure is complete and utter crap that she doesn't need...she so values honesty but she DID FAIL, most addicts do and it's a lesson to discover more about yourself and why you make self destructive choices...failing can be a opportunity for growth and as a doctor and someone who is 400 years old, that should be the message, not "no worries we love you"...this is what an addict hears "use us some more" and that's the honest truth
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 30 . 11/1/2016
Rush rush rush...she sitting up and ready to talk after a week in a coma? That's all I have to say, time time time keeps getting repeated but time doesn't seem to matter when shit gets real?
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 29 . 11/1/2016
Another good chapter..any addicts call what Bella experience as the "committee" the negative voices in your head that won't shut up...those voices turn into the "fuck it's" and nothing is worth it and you just want the negative feedback to stop. It's a vicious cycle and with no program, you are highly likely to give into the temptation. I hope Bella dies or ends up in a hospital, I really don't want her changed when she has never asked for it nor is she ready...if she is an addict in life then blood would be the ultimate drug.
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 28 . 11/1/2016
That chapter was great! That's an addict right there...Edward apologized, Bella didn't even though she should have for sleeping with Riley the same night she decided to profess her love for Edward. Edward's anger was 100% justified and Bella was not a victim, she has a part in ALL this too. She even has a part in Edward leaving. She could never accept that she was human and they were vampires. She knew best...she went off with James, she was careless with her habits (clumsy) but because she was so self conscious around all them it made her more accident prone. She refused a newer vehicle because she knew best and didn't care about her safety. Her stubbornness is more than being independent, she is a control freak in a martyrs costume. What's the old saying? Mirrors hurt. Her and Edward have always thought they knew what was best for the other so from an addicts POV, reading that she was not in control would be a huge trigger (good job). That's the thing that we have to learn to let go of is the idea that we are the directors in everyone's lives. Loss of control is one of the toughest lessons to learn when getting sober. With only a month of sobriety, she would not be able to process all of this, she would just be angry. In the real world, you would hope she would call her sponsor but, she doesn't have one so she is running back to what she knows. And the "family" better not be pissed at Edward. He gave her an Olive Branch that she could read, burn, shelve for as long as she liked so this choice she made is also the consequences she has to deal with and accept.
| LesleyLunaCullen chapter 27 . 11/1/2016
I have liked this story because you have really been daring with the subject matter and I think your scenario is way more likely then what went down in New Moon. I say this because you may ask yourself why I continue to read after what I say...you obviously put your heart into this material and I feel the anger, Bella's selfish behavior, Edward's feelings have all been pretty good but now, I have to ask, did you do any research on a heroin addict getting sober? Or even an alcoholic? When you are 2 weeks sober, you are still going through DTs, your brain in completely fried and all you can do is try and fight not going to get what your body craves. I don't care if Bella was a genius, she could NOT study and bringing up Charlie would have such horrible ripple effect that she would have more than likely relapsed. That's why making amends is the 9th step and not the 1st...you can't even process the damage you have done. And this phone call? Anger, he would be angry that he thought she was dead, shame in knowing she was a prostitute, disappointment in the fact he raised a person like her, fear of saying something that may impact her staying sober, pity for the life she has led. Then, for her to say "Daddy" is so totally manipulative for a girl who called him Charlie or Dad. This character you are writing would have already relapsed. You are giving her no tools, just this family. Someone else can't keep you sober. Not your children, not your spouse, and not your father. It is 100% you, relearning how to live. Oh, and what a gift for an addict, an endless supply of money. At this point with that, she would be DONE! But the kicker was the karaoke...she stripped, fucked, and sang at that club...that's a red light trigger. That would have opened such a flood gate of emotions of how she disgraced herself. That's why a family member should NEVER be a sobriety sponsor. They are too close to the situation. Then to top it off, Carlisle's offer of being changed? Let Charlie think she's dead if that's the road she wants to travel...she's gonna pop up just to vanish again? In recovery NOTHING is done on a whim because it can have consequences that someone with zero coping skills (without drugs) can't face. Sometimes it takes years before someone's reckage can be dealt with and apologies can be accepted. This isn't an oops I messed up, her choices had a ripple effect that hurt a lot of people and you have to face that and own your part and know what your sorry about...that's sobriety! Stopping the drugs is just a small part, you have to change everything and really know who you are to have a happy sober life