|Reviews for Diligo Victum Nusquam|
| antonia jane chapter 11 . 10/6/2011
This is possibly the best story i have read here!
You are so talented, keep it up :)
| Mimi chapter 11 . 9/10/2011
this was so tragic, yet so beautiful! My favourite Kuroshitsuji fic, and I have read so many I've lost count.. I love how in the end Malphas' father concludes that Ciel "consumed" Sebastian.. and for the rapid typing "asdfffff", I liked that a lot. It made me imagine a broken TV screen, or radio.. and another thing I especially loved was the pattern of repetition - how some parts would turn up ever so often, and I could recognize them like old acquaintances of sorts. Truly the most eloquent fanfic I have ever read! thank you for sharing this with all fans.
| Mimi chapter 6 . 9/9/2011
Listen. can you not hear it breaking?
I absolutely adored that line and the whole chapter... you captured the complex, half surreal nature of their feelings so wonderfully..
| Mimi chapter 1 . 9/7/2011
...this leaves me almost speechless! you write in such wonderfully macabre, yet glistening prose. I especially loved the use of the poem, scattered below the lines of reality. I'll continue reading right away..
| NowakiStar chapter 11 . 9/5/2011
This is probably one of the best fanfictions I've ever read! I'm honestly speechless! (:
I am now going to stalk your account and read more of your stories! (:
| Opacus chapter 11 . 8/17/2011
That was so incredibly sad, but a very satisfying story. One of the best ones from this series I've read.
| K8BNimble chapter 11 . 8/6/2011
This is a great story - fascinating, dark and wonderfully written!
| Nene chapter 11 . 8/1/2011
...now this is seriously disturbing.
I... I don't know what do say.
I am too disturbed to cry, to be honest Ôo but that will fix itself later and I will burst out crying once everything has settled down. Big juicy tears, as promised.
...just like that.
"Malphas cannot hear you anymore." ...SHIVERS. EVERYWHERE. COLD SHIVERS OF "OH MY GOD". I really said that out loud as I was reading this. Just... just "Oh my God".
Gone. Forever. The beginning (I suppose you're tired of me complimenting the beginnings in every chapter, but it's so true!) was... so intense. I should have known by then that Sebastian's gone. No memory of his to replay, because there is no creature to whom the memory belongs to anymore. G-gone...
Really, this chapter leaves me with a feeling of disturbed emptiness. The repition of "rolling and rolling around" etc was so effective, it helped to convey this idea of senseless, void eternity. There is nothing of Sebastian left because he cannot live without Ciel... so... so sad and powerful D':
Oh, I can feel the tears as I try to type what I think. Oh yeah, I can fell them coming.
See, you made me cry again! I hope you're happy now!
...dude, GONE. Somehow this is... intense. I mean, I knew Sebastian wouldn't make it out of this alive, but... holy-
...I am too disturbed to say something useful right now.
The whole idea is BEAUTIFUL and the way you wrote it was (both technically and plot-wise) very haunting, eery and captivating. That's why I love you and your dark fics, you have this sort of evil power which rapes your readers mind in the face while simultaneously giving him shivers of masochistic affections. Screw the sentence, I know it doesn't really make sense but it's what came into my mind first. So I shall type it.
I think it's mostly your dark fics which really define you as a top class writer and author, because you have a similar talent like Stephen King, in some ways. And that's, like, one of the best compliments I can give a writer. Screw the "I cried when I read your story", I cry often XD BUT STILL, that doesn't mean that I don't like crying over your stories because your stories are worth to make me cry heavily! ...ah, where was I?
Oh yeah, Stephie. Yeah, what I wanted to say is that Stephie has this talent of writing in a rather simple way without any sort useless overdoing. He doesn't have to state that something is terrible or gory or horrendous or dangerous, he can let it swing in the rest of the context in a subtle but still intense way that upsets the reader to great instincts. He can convey emotions without having to forcefully hammer them in his readers' minds and you can do it just as well! You (your dark fics as well as the fluffy, happy ones, but the dark ones are more intense) can make your readers feel the exact emotions you want them to without having to tell them to do so. You create an atmosphere without having to obviously describe a feeling, you just let it swing subtly in the air like a feather and it hits the reader like a train.
Enough of that. Love, that was beautiful. I adored every second of it and the entire atmosphere of the fic- it became darker with each chapter and everything came crashing down, just like the walls. Oh God *sniffles* I'm SO close...! No, I will not cry! No I won't! I have make-up on my face, it will sting terribly! Hold it back, Nene! HOLD IT BAAAACK!
A-at any rate... I'm glad you wrote yet another dark and twisted master piece. And a master piece it really is. It left me with so many emotions, yet with a feeling of emptiness and loss (Oh God, getting so emotionally involved with this, it's ridiculous) and I shall now wash the make-up off so I can cry peacefully.
Until soon, love 3
| Nene chapter 10 . 8/1/2011
Just... just Oh my God...
What the Hell...?
Moony, you are raping my mind. And I have to confess that I love it.
What in the world... oh God, Ciel Q_Q Sebastian! Q_Q
The first part was EPIC, it really, was; the different pieces of memories forming one string of memory which makes absolutely no sense because it consists of different memories from different creatures, so beautifully described and written and it's so heartbreaking and twisted and mindfucking and-and-
Omg Sebastian! Q_Q OMG CIEL! *cries*
Now that is just awful D: In a good way. The plot is brilliant and the events this story took equally so and the writing style is so haunting and emotional and captivating and beautiful and this is all so tormenting and horrifying and sweet and sad and so AWFUL DDD':
Ciel possessed by different demons, demons Sebastian had slaughtered to bring him back only to create a monster and to bring Ciel even more suffering and pain. And Ciel ORDERED him to kill him and Sebastian COMPLIED and the end- Oh God, this is so sad DDD:
Forgive me that I neglect this review and continue onwards to the ending! *rushes off*
| Hikari Kame chapter 11 . 7/31/2011
This is an amazing story. Totally shows how much work you put into it. Loved every bit. Thanks!
| Hikari Kame chapter 2 . 7/31/2011
This is incredible!
| Nene chapter 9 . 7/31/2011
Nooooo! Whyyyy? I mean, I knew it would come to this! But still! NOOOOOO! WHYYYYY?
Stop, Nene! Focus! Write something good! Review!
Oh God, Sebastian...! Your suffering is so delicious! It's so beautiful! So much feeling, so much emotion! DDD':
You have a wonderful interpretation of Sebastian's character here! The entire idea about greed and longing and avarice fits him so perfectly. And that he left Heaven because he wanted a love deeper than the one Uriel could offer? *clutches chest* I love it so much!
He only wanted to revive Ciel and now he has to realize that his efforts were not only in vain, but that he also created some sort of life-draining demon-monster is heartbreaking D:
The first part of this chapter was my favourite. It hurt so much, it was beautiful. The repition of "I love him".. so sad and obsessed and maniac, it's like Sebastian is losing his sanity in the process of having his young Master back. And not only his sanity, by that. Maniac!Obsessed!Sebastian is my favourite next to Suffering!Sebastian and Weak!Imperfect!Sebastian. And you combine them all in one fic? Instant orgasm of sadness and heartbreak and bittersweetness, all at once and it's beautiful and it hurts. SO MUCH.
I'm so going to cry. I'm SO going to cry. I'll call you on Skype and sob right in your face because of it! You shall be warned!
OH GOD, MOONY, WHY ARE YOU SO AWESOME?
| Nene chapter 8 . 7/31/2011
And here I go again! :'D May I tell you that the last chapter blessed me with some very interesting and entertaining dreams? x/D
Holy fuck, this is getting more and more twisted with each passing chapter Ôo
What the Hell...? Oh my God, suffer, Sebastian, suffer! I want your suffering!
...ehm, excuse me.
Again, young!Sebastian at the beginning is always such a heartbreakingly sweet pain D': He was so naive and cute and innocent in his own matter, and now he fell for the trap he had judged others for. Baalberith, too, is awesome. I don't know if you have read the "Interview with a Vampire" series, but there is a character which reminds me greatly of Baalberith. Which is beautiful 3
Though I have to admit, I like your writing style way better than Anne Rice's. Hers was beautiful and poetic, but although she tried very hard to convey her character's emotions, it seemed rather forced and overdone after a while.
Your use of the random "Kshfhhhh"-effects is so powerful and a masterpiece itself, it really adds to the atmosphere! Somehow it makes things seem even more cold and cruel in their own way, seeing that Sebastian is struggling so hard and that the cinematic record (I suppose it's a film wheel turning or some static noise) is turning and turning so mercilessly. It connects to the idea that Sebastian's attempts will be in vain because he's fighting something he cannot stop... Oh my.
William, too, with his loathing for demons, was very well written :3 Of course he wouldn't care, but somehow he does care, or am I mistaken? He seems to worry a little, too.
And NOOOO, not the Seme!Angel D: Sebby, tell him! Tell him in his face that you're not a shota anymore! Maybe he'll leave you alone?
And this shall be enough. ON TO THE NEXT CHAPTER :'D
| hello-cherrycaptain chapter 11 . 7/30/2011
I loved ''Diligo''! There are some aspects of it that still confuse me, but in general I thought it was brilliant. I personally loved Uriel/Ariel, and I thought you used him/her perfectly in order to provide character development. Poor Malphas. I kind of want to give him a hug, and that's not something I usually feel like doing. Most time I feel like bitch-slapping him. :P
"…there is a reason, I suppose,"[...]"that they call it Falling in love." - Favourite line. I nearly teared up. I felt the same when I read the last line.
Moony, you are a goddess of fanfic angst. 3 Please keep writing! No matter how dark your fics are, they always make my day brighter. :)
| Nene chapter 7 . 7/30/2011
...Can I read it again, yes? I'll leave the other chapters for tomorrow and read this one again, okay?
*/* May I point out how much I love your sexy times? *coughs*
on another note!
...Oh God, I don't even know where to start. All this bittersweetness,... it's so beautiful!
First of all, naive, small uke!Sebastian at the beginning of this chapter was absolutely adorable! I loved that so much! To see Sebastian change so much, become so dark and... yeah, demonic over time... it's painful and I love it. Uriel/ Ariel, too, is perfectly portrayed as the good you mentioned and described in the previous chapter, with the sadness and knowing that sometimes lies have to be told to preserve happiness.. oh God, my heaaart...
Shota!Sebastian with small wings and inexperience is just lovely and sweet and adorable! And knowing that he'll become the exact opposite makes it even better
Before I comment on the sexy times, my opinion to Baalberith.
To be honest, I was so thrilled with the entire story-element because it's exactly like the second part of the "Disturbia"-saga xD That was a pleasant surprise x3 On another note, what Baalberith said makes sense in a horrifying way D: I already thought that something like this would be the case, but I didn't want to believe it... and Sebastian tries so hard to save Ciel by offering his strength. Ciel is like a black hole, sucking out his servant's life forces D': And Sebastian knows it and lets it happen *prepares to cry juicy tears*
The "Salva me" at the end made me shiver. It really did. It send goosebumps down my spine and my eyes saddened and I was like: "Aw Hell no. D':" So powerful! Both cry out the same, but because of different reasons... Oh God, just stab me already with your awesomeness, Moony! Stab me right in my chest in my sobbing heart!
..okay, now to the delicious part.
Did I ever tell you how much I love your sexy times? Yes? Screw those, this one reminded me of Shina Himetsuka's "Ice Coffin"- and it really shows Sebastian's love and sadness and grieve and desperation. Oh God, how hard he was trying and how careful he was with Ciel as not to break him any more... that was just torture. Of course it was hot and stuff, imagining Sebastian jerking off is always nice (I hope you're enjoying chapter 25 of "Phobia", speaking of Sebastian jerking off, btw), but at the same time, I dare to say that it was more sad and bittersweet than sexy. It still made me shiver (OH YES), but it captured me more in an emotional than physical way. ...which is good. :3
The way you described him was so POWERFUL, you could really feel his desperation and longing and how he wants everything to be normal again. How much he misses Ciel, not only in a physical way, but in a way soulmates do... OUCH. MY HEART... D': IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL!
I don't find anything disturbing in Sebastian having his way in front/ with Ciel's lifeless body. Not at all. At least not here where it really shows that it's not about the sexual aspects, but because of the unbearable need and desire and loneliness...
...it was the boy, wasn't it? The boy Sebastian lured away to relieve some tension :'D The boy really pissed Mako off, haha xDD I'm glad you brought him in! I really am! In your face, haters!
If not the boy, then may I say that I felt very excited about the bath-sexy-time? Oh God, bath-sexy-times are such a heavy kink of mine, I'm glad you included those!
May I tell you the more I read, the sadder I become? My ex-literature teacher once sad that in order to invoke the saddiest feelings in a reader, one must first show him the complete opposite to make him understand how much is lost. She was right. That you show us how happy they were back then, touching each other and loving each other makes things only worse.
Sebastian slowly seems to understand what he's gotten himself into, right? D': That desperate "Salva me"... from him...
Stab me. Right here and now so I can cry big fat juicy tears and then everything will be fine again, yeah? Yeah?
I'll leave it here for today and try to do something productive for my own scrips... Diligo!Sebastian is so awesome, Disturbia!Sebastian should take a leaf out of his book! ...ugh, this might take a while.
Thank you so much for this beautiful, beautiful piece of brilliance, Moony! 3 Utter, sheer brilliance in it's most epic, purest form! 3333