|Reviews for Too Deep for the Healing|
| excessivelyperky chapter 28 . 10/6/2014
Oh, yes, this is a delightful Christmas indeed. Clearly, Severus is enjoying it very much, and pledging himself to a future with Irene. I love the other presents, too; though it's sad that there is nothing for him from Slytherin (except for the ring, because that was from Narcissa).
Still, it's nice to see that he and Irene aren't alone in the struggle for his freedom. Well, at least for now; we all know how fast that can change in the Wizarding World.
But Snape isn't thinking of that now, though as a practical matter he will later on, not being a fool.
Yet today he's willing to be a fool for love, and not worry about reality.
| excessivelyperky chapter 27 . 9/12/2014
Ah. Wouldn't it have been nice if Snape had known about these newspaper debates when things were the worst for him in the camp, and he just *knew* that everyone but Irene had abandoned him?
And wouldn't it have been even nicer if Dumbledore had left a letter with someone to exonerate Snape once the war was over? But of course, that would take Albus actually caring for Snape. His will, of course, is just as ambiguous as he himself ever was-the way he set up Snape to be killed by the Order should they win, or by them during the war itself, was um, indicative of other feelings.
Of course Snape finds it hard to believe that the old Headmaster loved him, with so much evidence to the contrary. Irene would be a fool to insist that the old man did, because she's not stupid either.
Look at what happened to Harry, even with Dumbledore saying he loved the kid. That's not really heartening.
At least Snape has some hope now, though again it would have been nice if some of this had happened when things were really bad. Notice that he decided to insist on a new trial *before* he knew anyone but Irene gave a Knut.
| excessivelyperky chapter 26 . 8/31/2014
Oh, dear. Irene should feel very complimented; anyone or anything that can break through Snape's Occlumency barriers must be extraordinary indeed. Yes, he's not the lover that she probably hoped for-but he's giving her all of himself, however tattered.
(and Narcissa came through handsomely, I might add. About b* time, too!)
But he's right; he must be able to give all of himself, not just a night or two. Snape is diamond, just like the ring, and diamonds are forever; the flowers are only today.
| excessivelyperky chapter 25 . 8/12/2014
Ah; by loving Irene, he is almost immune to the lure of the Stone; of course his mother is sorry and can't help, what else is new? But he doesn't waste any more time with her, knowing it's hopeless anyway. The same goes for Lily and James; picking at that old wound is also a dry well, to mix my metaphors. And he apologizes to Charity, but doesn't beat himself bloody over it, for a nice change.
But Albus, for once, can actually help. (stunned surprised). And since Snape is focused on hope that Narcissa came through on her promise-boy, *that's* a lot of faith!-he even ignores Draco making a cake of himself yet again.
But he has enough faith to reach the sheds, and enough to unwrap what's left for him.
He's made enormous progress.
| excessivelyperky chapter 24 . 7/24/2014
Very good chapter. I'm sorry his life has been so awful-clearly, his angst is well-deserved-but I am also glad that he's not being punished for helping Draco, and that seeing Irene is enough to break him out of a deepening circle of self-torment.
And I do hope that Narcissa does get something nice; she really, really owes him, and has never done squat to pay him back (so does Draco, but I'm afraid he's a lost cause, the little brat).
| Guest chapter 40 . 7/6/2014
Five stares. Hands down! I loved it
| Guest chapter 40 . 6/10/2014
One of the best "S.S survived/EWE" I read. Great characterizations of all the known characters and a very sweet O.C. And, ( yes!) an insightful plot. Nice job.
Thanks for sharing.
| excessivelyperky chapter 23 . 6/5/2014
Yes, I can see Snape resenting the Malfoys-as stigmatized as they are by the rest of Wizarding society, they are still a family and love each other through good times and bad. Snape could easily be quite jealous of that (also, Narcissa helped Bella suck him into the Unbreakable Vow for Draco's sake, for which Snape received the usual lack of gratitude).
And the guard is probably not alone in his disbelief that McGonagall bothered to send something to Snape. One has to wonder if she actually did so, or the note just allows Irene more time to spend with Snape.
But as we see, Severus can no longer stifle his longing for Irene (and for any love at all, considering what a dry diet he's had almost all of his life. A love like Irene's is worth gold and rubies to him).
Ah, yes, loved ones. Snape now realizes that he is among the happy number of people who have them-and what's more, loves him back.
And it's clear that Draco has learned absolutely nothing about being a Slytherin, or even having his brains on.
| excessivelyperky chapter 22 . 5/26/2014
Snape is absolutely right that Irene must learn how to defend herself. There are a lot of circumstances where he won't be able to defend her, especially if he's in Azkaban for defending her from Tanner. The Unsurprising Dose that Tanner received is kind of a good start, but not as helpful as it could be for the long run.
And he's also absolutely right about Dumbledore; there is almost nothing he could say to the Wizengamot to convince them in the absence of anything from the Daft Auld Coote himself (which of course will never be forthcoming, even though testimony from his portrait should be considered voluntary since Snape is no longer Headmaster. They won't ask the portrait, of course). Besides, they would have to believe that St. Albus deliberately set Snape up to die by the wands of the Order and/or was too cowardly to face the death he inflicted on himself. And given that the mastery of the Elder Wand ended up going to Draco anyway...well, that's not going to help much.
But keeping Irene out of camp may well be saving her life.
What does her family think of her relationship with Snape, or has she told them yet?
| excessivelyperky chapter 21 . 4/26/2014
With a life like that, no wonder Snape feels he'll ruin anyone who cares for them (and that they won't care for him if they're around him for more than five minutes.
One thing he did not mention, because he probably still can't quite digest it-Albus kept the Cloak after Lily asked for it back-the Cloak that might have saved her life. And then blamed Snape for everything. But then, that would ruin Snape's idealization of Dumbledore, whom he still cannot blame for hosing him for most of his life. (and it was clear in DH that Snape had read that letter)
And yet he still chose the side of the Light, when a normal person would have said farewell to Mother Britain and found a life somewhere else, or at least hidden on the Muggle side of life.
I'm glad Irene loves him, and can get over what happened to Charity; but it's pretty clear she's the only one who does. Or ever has, actually.
| excessivelyperky chapter 20 . 4/9/2014
Of course they added more years to his sentence (let's face it, they were never really going to let him go).
I wish Irene good luck with the High Warlock, though. Alas, the more she tries to help Snape, the more that Tanner is going to go after her.
I wonder when Snape is going to remember that he can fly? Or does he think there's no point?
| excessivelyperky chapter 19 . 3/27/2014
Oh, my. He might not believe any words; but he will believe a potion. Now he knows in his heart how Irene really does feel about him.
And that will mean that she is in danger from Tanner, too, as well as him (and if she makes Tanner believe that she really loves Snape, it could be Snape's death sentence, and possibly hers).
After all, Tanner could easily get help from the real DEs in camp who have already attacked Snape and gone unpunished.
But Snape should enjoy being loved, for however long he and Irene can manage it.
| excessivelyperky chapter 18 . 2/16/2014
Yes, I think Snape may realize that Irene cares for him; but both of them are ultimately powerless in the face of Ministry bureaucracy. Everything could be taken away at any time, and even Irene should realize that.
And everyone that Snape has ever trusted before has betrayed him. Especially Dumbledore. How special that the Headmaster never left any exonerating evidence behind.
I don't think Irene sees a way out, either; she doesn't even have any real power over Tanner, and it seems like she's afraid of him, too. Their only real hope is Percy Weasley, and he's probably getting flack from everyone around him for cosseting An Evil Slytherin.
I'm glad that Irene and Snape see that Dumbledore's plans basically sucked rocks, though of course nobody else ever will, or be brave enough to say so. Harry Potter has a short attention span, and wasn't even able to keep Snape out of prison.
Yes, they can love each other all they want, but just how long is it going to last? Snape is right to have doubts, given Tanner's obvious prejudice and power, and no real help from anyone but Percy.
| excessivelyperky chapter 17 . 12/23/2013
To answer Snape's question, it *does* matter what he feels-but only to one person so far. And he's been fooled before by those who appeared to care for him, only to toss him into hell when they were done pretending.
He is beginning to trust Irene, if only a little, but she is aware that she needs to go slowly because of that.
And she is the first one who cared if he had to go back to a place with terrible memories. He was a prison of Hogwarts for such a long time, after all.
| inkandlilacs chapter 40 . 12/18/2013