|Reviews for Fear Of|
| MiseryMaker chapter 1 . 7/28/2012
Thoroughly enjoyed reading this one. Not too long. Not at all too mushy. Perfectly enjoyable read.
| Alicia9876 chapter 1 . 5/17/2012
This was fabulbous and I agree 100%. I think bones is the kind of story that you have to think on, dwell on it for a while before you see all the wonderful brilliance inside the story. This is an excellent example of why she wasn't ready, why Hannah and Maluku and Afghanistan were all necessary but terribly miserable for us to experience! This is perfect! I adore it.
| Amilyn chapter 1 . 3/27/2012
This is TOTALLY awesome. And I agree: Brennan would have felt she was being selfish, depriving Booth of something "right" and things would have crumbled. She wasn't ready then. And I like how you've shown the contrast between a them-starting-then and a them-starting-later-when-ready. Really, really nicely done. And one of the best fights I've seen written...along with the AWESOME moment where they (Booth 3 minutes faster than her) realize that they did it all wrong...and Booth realizing that letting her watch him walk away can NEVER work for her-even if she tells him to go-and her quiet little moment where he can see that flitting uncertainty and sense of loss and aloneness that no one else could have caught. And the end with them putting the crib together *together*...gorgeous. Building a life. They're ready now. This is awesome.
| tullia chapter 1 . 1/19/2012
I really really enjoy this story. The contrast between what was and what could have been. And I think you are right if she had said yes I dont think it could have worked. I hadnt though about it until i read this fic but they did need to go through all of that before starting a relationship. I specially love the parts when shes pregnant how you paint their life together. Lovely.
| BlindAssassinUK chapter 1 . 10/28/2011
This fic wasn't contentious, mushy or protracted. What it is is kind of perfect. And beautiful.
I loved the 100th episode. In fact, it’s probably in my top three Bones eps of all time. As for the conclusion to their conversation on the steps, I couldn’t see it going any other way, and that was just fine with me. That’s perhaps one of the reasons why this story struck a chord, in that the path they took, despite some ‘bumps’ along the way, readied them for that moment in Booth’s bed after Broadsky had done his worst. Sure, there are elements of S6 that did my head in, but ultimately, both Booth and Brennan came out of it knowing themselves and each other a little better.
I really like that in your story you don’t shy away from showing Booth and Brennan’s frailties, so many writers do, or at least they gloss over the ‘inconvenient’ parts. I think you laid them bare and in doing so proved the old adage – timing is everything.
Just really excellent stuff. I loved it.
| Chicklit chapter 1 . 9/12/2011
Love, love, love this story. So true that they were not ready before.
| toffeeeclairs chapter 1 . 8/27/2011
Awesome story! I hated how the 100th ended, but this is s very interesting take on things...that without all that mess and pain and pure gah! we never could have gotten to this happy baby moment. Not sure that's totally true but but I do like that take. Very well done! Hope the bday ladies loved their pressies! I sure did!
| Lazuli73 chapter 1 . 8/25/2011
I loved reading this! I got here from the mention of it in a comment over at the Bones Theory blog. I really appreciated how you tried out the other scenario, and just how badly it went (which I agree that it would have gone badly then) put S6 into such a better light. I'll admit to being initially confused when you switched stories/scenarios/outcomes, but after a few paragraphs I figured it out.
| Kat Bee Dee chapter 1 . 8/23/2011
Oh my goodness, what a fantastic story! Not at all too long! Not in the least bit too mushy! Simply incredible work. I will admit that I was MUCH more interested in the season 6 and post season 6 portions, but the AU season 5 was also entertaining. I love "what if" situations. That's most all I write about myself! So, congratulations! This was a smashingly beautiful story!
| alexindigo chapter 1 . 8/21/2011
Loved this story! We have all wondered 'What if?' but I really do think you have it right. All of it, Brennan saying no, Maluku, Afghanistan, Hannah, it all HAD to happen to strengthen their relationship and bring them together, stronger. I read another story recently that came to mind as I was reading yours. It was refreshing in that the author also posited that Gordon Gordon was referring to Brennan in his conversation to Sweets AND that for all his blustering, Booth was nowhere near in love in the 'I knew' sense that night of the 100th. The author goes on to say that he truly did fall for Brennan post Hannah. Given the scenarios in your story it is absolutely believable that this is the case.
It took them to get through a lot to get to this point and I really hope HH and Co explore the ramifications of S6's events on Booth and Brennan's 'present' relationship.
Thank you for sharing! ) I look forward to reading more of your work.
| anthropologist chapter 1 . 8/16/2011
I truly enjoyed reading this - because it was two stories, I thought it was just the right length, and I do love your epic fics. I think that you've written the complexity of Brennan and Booth's relationship perfectly this time. It's so easy for us, as fans and viewers, to say, 'DAMMIT just get together already' and maybe after only two years or even three, that might be able to happen. But after six years, somehow there's so much more of a risk, and I can only say that you've written the most realistic portraits that I've read so far of what their relationship could become or could have become. I'm always very impressed with how easily your stories come together, and how what may have been foggy before becomes startingly clear by the end. You know the characters so well, it's like you made them out of clay all on your own. These alternate universes that you have created for Brennan and Booth could easily and understandably be the 'real' Bones universe. This story was heartbreaking at times, fulfilling at other times, and always beautiful. The combination of a strong plot (it's clear you knew what you were doing when you sat down to write this) and your flawless writing makes this piece so moving and so incredible. The characterisation is perfect. I can't praise you enough for your lovely stories. Thank you for writing x
| sunsetdreamer chapter 1 . 8/13/2011
You know that super pretty, super smart, super charismatic friend that you have, that other people seem to fall all over themselves to be close to? And your heart kind of swells a little when you watch things like this happen, because you think, “That’s MY friend. They like me.” And it makes you feel like you’ve got something on everyone else in the room. Like, there has to be something about you that’s special if someone as amazing as that person chooses to enjoy your company as much as you enjoy theirs. That’s how I feel when I read your fics. I read them and they blow my mind because they are so flawless and beautiful, and I know everyone sees it. Everyone sees it, but not everyone gets to fangirl everywhere with you on Twitter. Not everyone gets to do intercontinental tea exchanges. Not everyone gets fourteen thousand words of poetic narrative dedicated to them on their birthday. But I do. And it’s kind of an awesome feeling.
The hundredth is in my top two favourite episodes. My absolute favourites tend to fluctuate a little bit from time to time, rotating between the same ten I’d say, but this is a constant. It’s the episode that actually made me first fall in love with Bones last year. I can’t remember if we’ve talked about this before or not, so if we have, good on you for your excellent memory, and if we haven’t, good on you for having super powers and knowing on some level that this would be absolutely perfect for me. They weren’t ready, then. I had only seen three episodes of the show in my life before watching it, and that was clear even to me. And THAT is what makes it so amazing. They’re both heartbroken and so totally wrong in what they say, and it’s a miss. But you KNOW it’s for the better even as you watch it happen. Because scenario A? It. Can’t. Happen. The whole Hannah mess is a cakewalk compared to this. I love your portrayal of Brennan here. She’s not the Brennan of S6 who had her heart broken and persevered without retreating back to her safe box of logic and reason; she’s not that evolved. She’s terrified of losing what she has and terrified of losing herself in Booth, and you can FEEL the emotions rising up and choking her. You can feel Booth’s helplessness and his frustration and confusion and the sense that something is wrong, and they do so. Much. Damage.
And then they'd just... looked at each other for a while, rocking on their feet and all but drowning in the silence that suddenly seemed to be hovering around them. It was then that she coughed out her request to go home, and he'd understood right away that she'd meant to do so alone.
Kissing like this, deciding to give THIS a try and then having her get in a cab and go home alone... my angst sensitive heart split in two. Seriously, it is SO relieving knowing that you require a happy ending as much as I do. I would have had a very hard time handling this line otherwise. And this;
And now all he can do is laugh wryly to himself, shrug it off because of course they weren't going to walk off together into the night. Of course she wouldn't curl her arm into his, tuck her head into the crook of his neck, staying close to him as they walked.
Because AU Booth doesn’t know about our reality, and that walking off into the night, huddled together, it wouldn’t have been any less heartbreaking than what happens to him. In fact, either way he still feels like his heart gets ripped out of his chest.
The bad sex. Oh. My God. I can’t even... you’re so good at this. It was awkward and heartbreaking and so not what you know they should have been, and the fact that Booth knows it’s coming just adds to the brilliance of it all.
... which leads to OUR B&B’s first time. Holy shit, friend. I love your way of writing sex. It’s sensual and it’s that same poetry to it, that fluidity that’s stamped all over your writing, that makes it so damn perfect. And the whole bit at the end where “it” isn’t said but “it” is implied and they’re both feeling “it” so strongly even though they’re waiting to put words to it? Amazing.
I love the marked differences between the “desired” ending to the 100th and the given ending to the 100th. She rejected him but the first time they have sex it’s wonderful and they love each other and they don’t hide it from their friends; everyone just knows. They exude happiness. They’re in a good place. They fall together and it makes sense given the years they have spent falling apart. It’s their time. And the fight is just as monumental and just as CRUEL in both “realities,” but our B&B can come back together and the AU version of them can’t because the truth is they haven’t been together since they’ve been together, and they don’t even know how to be themselves anymore.
“It takes him about fifteen minutes – partly because he is a little less exact than his famously precise other half and partly because he tends to work that little bit more quickly when it comes to matters of the heart – for Booth to realize the whole fight was a clusterfuck of epic proportions and that he never should have walked out.”
Loved this. And the Boy in the Answer play? SO good! The way their relationship (if you can call it that) changes things JUST enough to make a few sentences go just a little differently and make this much of an impact, it’s awesome. I love that you thought of it.
And the end scene *grins*.
"Bones would you-" Booth sighs, "Would you please pass me the hammer."
He beckons towards it in her hand, but Brennan just shakes her head.
"Let's just set some ground rules for this thing, okay? You are seven months pregnant – you do not need a hammer."
I smiled like a fucking crazy person throughout the whole thing. The angst may have been all about Biba but this has got Ren stamped all over it and I love that you did it, ha. I’ve read it four times already. They are absolutely ridiculous. Like, what the hell does Brennan think she needs a hammer for? And you KNOW she realises it’s not at all necessary; she’s just too stubborn to hand it over to Booth. I love that he charm smiles her, and that she thinks she can resist it but can’t and then has to try and goad a reaction out of him to distract from her epic resistance failure. And then it ends as perfectly as it could have, with them just sliding into place. *happy sigh*
This was not too long or too mushy or contentious, and I love it. Thanks lady!
| wicherwill chapter 1 . 8/13/2011
Like a better version of the typical "Five Things _" type story. Great job!
| xAppleDownx chapter 1 . 8/13/2011
I think I've said it before but I'll gladly say it again. I truly find your writing style to be one of a kind and I solely mean that as a compliment. I loved the composition of this piece; the comparisons of two possibilities and how you investigated both thoroughly. It justifies the road not taken in the show and the road they're now (finally!) headed down. Thank you for writing this :)
| Aching Bones chapter 1 . 8/13/2011
Excellently written...That said, Am I ever so glad that things worked out they way that they did in reality for them...So glad that she said no on the steps of the Hoover...As hard as that was, with everything that came after...it was more what they both needed...and the alternative does not sit well on me at all...Thank you for this...
Looking forward to more from you...