|Reviews for Watercolour|
| klu chapter 15 . 8/6/2014
I do think that Leon's torture was just as horrific to Dean as it was to Alex, if not more so. I think knowing it was Dean's body, but seeing Leon was bad for Alex, but she had seen Leon causing her pain and assaulting her enough times that the attach had to be harder knowing that she was experiencing Dean without actually getting to 'experience' him. But for Dean, the fact that Leon kept him 'awake' and made him feel all the sensations, knowing he did not and would not want them to be experienced like that... I doubt Dean understood that Alex was seeing Leon, so also thinking that she 'saw' Dean as her attacker the entire time, even thought she knew he was possessed by Leon - it wouldn't make it any easier for Dean.
Knowing that he won't even face her - and it's not because of all the atrocities she committed, but because of the fact he feels he hurt her so badly... That tells a lot of where Dean's head is right now. Even though I understand how he must hold some guilt and pain over what happened with Leon... The fact that Alex was terrorizing people, running those sick clubs and what she did to Cassie (and he doesn't even know the half of the disgusting things Cassie endured), yet Dean is still looking at Alex as more of a 'victim' than a 'monster' here tells us just how much he still loves her.
Didn't they go and get Sorcha? Leon (the bastard) left her in a hotel room and the management probably turned her over to animal control! Bobby could have picked her up on his way to meet Sam at the hospital or something... None of the other terrible things he did can be undone, but that one thing can be corrected. I just would like to see it 'fixed'. That is just the dog lover in me coming out a little strong, maybe? But I always tell my family that if I'm driving w/ my dogs (who always ride in a safety carrier) and I end up in some terrible accident and I'm taken to the hospital, they had better not bother coming to visit me until they have the receipt from animal control showing that they've picked up my babies first because I will be P.O.'d if my Hellhound and Devil-Dog (nicknames given to them by my family) have to spend the night in 'county lock up'.
I think Sam's feelings toward Astarte are very valid. I seriously don't see how he could fully love a goddess who is so into destruction of the majority of the world's population and frankly, her loving him seems rather counter-productive as well, because he's always going to be trying to save everybody while she's trying to stomp them flat and wipe them off the bottom of her feet. That's a bigger 'core issue' than "Bears versus Packers" or even 'Catholic versus Muslim'... Actually I've known the second one working out better than the first, but Football is sometimes more sacred than God, sadly...
| klu chapter 12 . 8/6/2014
Isn't Leon worried about pissing off Luci? If he messes with Luci's little 'Antichrist weapon' that would royally was up the Morningstar's knickers, wouldn't it? Plus he could end up having some archangels on his tail because he screwing with Michael's vessel... And when Astarte gets a whiff of this whole 'Leon joyriding in Dean's meat' plan... Better lookout. He's basically looking to make enemies of everyone, so his 'secret skills' better be really, really impressive.
| klu chapter 10 . 8/6/2014
I'm still having a love/hate debate with the Alex character right now... I love that she's strong and holding her own against Hell's worst and blackest; I love that she blew off Luci like he was a loser trying to feel her up at a frat party, but I hate that she seems to have nothing left of her humanity and I hate her behavior more than I ever hated her for befriending/giving in to Ruby and sleeping with Sam. I hate my thoughts - because I am not holding out any hope that when she sees Dean any of her humanity will come back. No, in fact, I think she will turn her hurting ways into him and break him down more than Alastair and Hell ever did.
I do love the twist here that she ran into Cassie; I think it's a great way to lure Dean to Alex.
The time Sam is spending with Von/Astarte is both interesting and confusing. The whole 'rebirth' was unnerving and a bit difficult to follow, but I feel I am intelligent enough to get the gist of it. I did like how Sam managed to take his role as Alpha and Mate seriously and force her to feed when she was so weak - proving that he would care for her - and that he does care for her, even though he made mistakes that hurt her deeply in the past. I think present action shows a lot about one's character and he could cower to try and constantly be timid and not upset her again; but he decided to prove he would not let her hurt and I think that speaks volumes about where his head is now.
| klu chapter 4 . 8/6/2014
This is certainly the darkest piece so far and I am both loving and hating where it sits as of now... I had grown to embrace the characters of Von and Alex - maybe because we all have that question of 'are we good and compassionate, full of love with the potential for evil and hate? Or, are we evil at our core, with the potential for good/capacity for love and compassion?' Just like your version of Sam and his lycanthropy... Although with Sam, I do feel that he is a truly good and kind individual who made some (VERY) bad decisions, both morally and strategically due to pride and trusting the wrong 'person'. I don't really consider demons 'people', Alex being the exception - or at least she was, but it seems like she's now fully demon and not really human at all anymore.
Lucifer talking to Leon about his plans for Alex has me wondering and VERY concerned... I thought he'd 'used' her as much as he possibly could; killing her to set himself free... But if he wants her soul twisted even more and turned loose; that could spell more disaster yet for the world and I don't know how much more breaking Dean could take. if he were to see what's happened/ currently happening to her.
I still find Von/Astarte's personality to be a contradiction on itself to a degree, but it seems a little more explained. So she loves nature and that type of creation and fertility, just not humans who destroy nature... Kind of like that song where they chorus is something like 'they paved paradise and put up a parking lot'? I'm gathering she doesn't necessarily want to completely want to eradicate humans, but keep a select few, and maybe not keep them 'completely 'human', but make more hybrids like the Loup Garou - is that why she allowed that one mother to survive, even after killing her husband and new born child? It seems she has plans for Dean, too; and in her mind at least they are not ill in intent.
As far as Sam's infidelity and his sleeping with Alex and Ruby: Again, (I cannot stress this enough) I do believe that it was wrong and he should not just get a 'pass' on it. However, he was tricked into drinking the demons' blood and it did alter his perceptions of what was right and wrong, it did make him 'high' in a sense and he did deeply regret his actions of sex even before the bog battle with Lilith and the two women in his 'family' were killed. Something tells me that had things gone they way he thought they would, meaning, he and Alex go with Ruby, Lilith dies, Lucifer stays in Hell, Von is safe at the hotel, angels bring Dean back from wherever they stashed him... He and Alex would have seen that Ruby still manipulated them and they would have killed her - or the four of them would have done it together, because Sam and Alex would have been so guilt ridden they would have come clean and told those they loved about their indiscretion and begged forgiveness versus letting it remain hidden... Alex has already proven that she doesn't want to keep something like that from Dean and while this was different than when she was under Luca's spell, it wasn't entirely without some preternatural influence. That blood sharing is very powerful and Ruby's dirty hands were all over the manipulating of it.
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awww Cas :[
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