|Reviews for With Your Crooked Heart|
| Guest chapter 1 . 11/14/2017
I love this story! Poor Loki! And Thor is such a good big brother! It's so caring and sweet and angsty and funny but still in character! I'm impressed. It's so well-written, and the brothers' relationship makes me want to cry sad and happy tears all at once! Thank you for sharing!
| winegoldsayuri chapter 1 . 6/3/2016
And another punch in the feels. I just can't get enough of their complicated relationship. I loved this.
| Grac3 chapter 1 . 8/28/2014
| Wicked R chapter 1 . 6/24/2014
| thatcrazyjellyfish chapter 1 . 5/21/2014
This story was so sad and sweet great job
| Guest chapter 1 . 3/30/2014
Loveeeeeeeeeeee it xxxxxxxxxxx
| Alibi Nonsense chapter 1 . 3/25/2014
Aww! Poor Loki! I just love all the sane madness in that chapter. It's brilliant! And the fluff is so frothy... :) I am in Heaven.
| Jill O'Brien chapter 1 . 10/18/2013
I can totally empathize with a brain than just will. Not! Shut! Up! I hate it! Stop thinking? Tell me to stop my heart from beating. I think I'd have more success doing that. Great job with showing us what's going on inside Loki's head and hitting me right in the feels.
| JTReads chapter 1 . 7/24/2013
All of your fics of Loki and Thor I love so far ; They're rather sweet.
| Mystic 777 chapter 1 . 6/10/2013
Wow, you really have a way of tugging at the emotions. Every piece is so masterfully crafted I can't help but feel a little jealous... Great writing!
| Maia2 chapter 1 . 5/27/2013
*sighs* Why do I keep expecting that my heart won't be broken when I click on one of your stories? Makes absolutely no sense. And yet.. it always kind of catches me off-guard.
I should say something helpful, for once, right? I think you did a really nice job of interspersing the flashbacks into the story in the present day. The transition between them flowed really nicely and each served to further enlighten the other exponentially as the story progresses. Well done.
| Rue and SneakWriter chapter 1 . 1/28/2013
Just like your other fics, this one is awesome too :D. I love your writing.
| wbss21 chapter 1 . 10/13/2012
Man, I don't know how you do this, but you do this. Your writing is so unbelievably beautiful, and so emotive and captures such an essence of who these characters are, it's literally rendering me speechless at the end of each one.
This was just... damn, I don't even know what to say anymore. It was just so amazing, and powerful.
First of all, I just adored again how you wove between the past and the present, contrasting Loki's interactions with Thor from his childhood and younger days, to his interaction with him now, showing just how sharp the difference is, and showing how, gradually, it came to this. Again, you've just broken my heart here. You really have.
The first flashback, with Loki coming to Thor's room and just sort of lingering in the doorway, waiting for Thor to give him permission to come in, there's just something so devastatingly sweet and innocent about it. You can literally feel Loki's longing for approval from his older brother here, and when he starts talking, it just tears you up inside, because you can hear his embarrassment and the fact that he thinks he's being stupid and pathetic. And Thor's reactions are just so in line with who he is, being constantly reassuring and telling Loki, even though he likely won't understand what he's saying (an acknowledgment by Thor, and thus a compliment, that he understands and accepts Loki's superior brain). It was just so sweet and beautiful. And you have Loki saying again to Thor how he doesn't feel real, how the sheer size of the universe, and everything in it is essentially so intimidating to him, because it makes him feel so insignificant. When Thor says to him "If you would only stop thinking.", and Loki almost sobs because of it, because he can't. I think that's got to be part of Loki's problem, being so incredibly intelligent, being that smart, he can never slow his brain down, or stop thinking about or trying to grasp and comprehend everything around him. And that's got to be so painful. He thinks so much, that he drives himself into a corner, where he feels useless and worthless and small.
And then the other memory, when Loki is older, and Thor confronts him in his room, and asks him why he hasn't been coming to him for help, what's so interesting about this is how it explores Loki's sort of natural inclination towards believing himself worthless, and believing himself weak and pathetic and unlovable. This is particularly heartbreaking, because he doesn't ask for Thor's help because he's absolutely terrified Thor will hate him for being weak. And the way you write Loki here is just perfect, because he reacts at first by being hostile and defensive, but as Thor keeps pushing him, and not giving up, he eventually relents, and I swear to God, by heart just about broke in two when he says to Thor "I'm asking now?" And he poses it as a question, because he's still so uncertain of Thor's reaction, still so afraid of it. I don't know how it is you manage you at once capture Loki's biting wit and sometimes cruelty, and at the same time, capture his overwhelming vulnerability and fragility. But you manage it without losing any aspect of his character, and contrast it absolutely beautifully with Thor's own openness and loyalty and outward affection, and it just makes for the most amazing portrayal of their relationship I think I've ever seen.
What I also found so fascinating about this story was how you showed that Loki really is his own worst enemy and, really, how he's just simply too smart for his own good. He's SO smart, and always knows so exactly what to say to cut Thor down, to just run him out of the room, basically. But what's so sad here is that Loki doesn't WANT to do that. He hates himself for being so mean, and so cutting and for making Thor feel stupid, or useless or like he's hurting, not helping. The part where Loki takes Thor's offer to get him whatever he needs and tells him to bring him a knife so he can cut his own ears off and not have to listen to Thor anymore, that was just so damn heartbreaking. You can actually hear Loki saying it with this feigned merriment, like he's just making some casual comment, or a joke. But it's like he's regretting it even as it comes out of his mouth, and he has to look away when he sees the deflation on Thor's own face, because he hates himself for causing Thor pain. Well, this is the great thing about Loki, and something you capture so incredibly well, this immense complexity of the character. How he can't help himself, even though he doesn't want to, he can't stop his own mind from coming up with the exact things to say to just destroy somebody and then spitting them out. And how afterwards, he just despises himself for it. He's trying to be a monster, to be a villain, he's trying so hard because he's convinced that's what he is, and that everyone should and does hate him, and he can't bear their rejection, so he tries to dictate it, tries to control their hate. But the thing is, he's NOT a monster, and he's NOT villain, and every time he does something mean or cruel, he hates himself for it most of all, and wishes he hadn't.
And man, the last part of this story, talk about pulling at the heartstrings. The way Loki just sort of dissolves, and starts saying "I can't do this. I can't, I can't..." echoing exactly what he used to say, and how frantic he used to become as a boy, how he just starts falling apart. And Thor getting up and just going to him.
Loki, I think, essentially denies himself what he really wants because, ultimately, I think, he doesn't think he deserves it. He doesn't think he deserves kindness, or love, or warmth, and that's just so, so sad. Like when he's lying awake in one of his memories, and he's thinking about how all of Asgard is asleep, except for him, and you see from that just how out of place Loki has always felt, how alone and weird, like he's never really belonged.
I think the fact that this story is based off of Loki's inability to sleep, and how you use scenes of that trouble from various points in his life, all the way to the present, was just genius.
And Thor telling Loki to just let him help him at the end here, and approaching him slowly, because he himself is so afraid of setting Loki off and scaring him away. And it was just pure perfection the way you have Thor finally just putting his hands on Loki, and Loki's mind telling him to push Thor away, but his heart telling him that he WANTS this so much, that he even NEEDS it, and he just sort of melts into Thor's touch then and lets him help him. Seriously, it's just gorgeous writing here. And when Loki tries one last time to protest, and it instead slips into a plea to Thor to not let him fall, to not let what's in the dark take him again, God, seriously, I don't think my heart can take too much more of it. It just kills me man. It's just so heavy, and so real. That's the thing. The emotion in your stories is just so real, that it's absolutely breathtaking.
I can't get over your stories, and the way you write these characters. I know I keep saying that over and over and you're probably sick to death of hearing it now, but I can't help it. You just do the most amazing job, period.
| rockpaperscissor chapter 1 . 9/9/2012
This is brilliant. I love Loki's stubborn determination to refuse Thor and insult him, but give in to instinct once the option presents itself and he's too tired to fight it, because at his very core he trusts him. It seems so very characteristic. And Thor was wonderfully solid and stubborn himself.
| Charlotte chapter 1 . 8/7/2012
Aw wow, that was really amazing. I love these sort of fics. You really captured their characters well :)