|Reviews for Until Forever Ends|
| skydoe16 chapter 24 . 5/5
It's over... Now what am I supposed to read instead of doing homework?
| wryter501 chapter 24 . 12/5/2015
(as much as i love the idea of hunith taking charge of mordred, there's part of me that's afraid it's doomed to failure. and not b/c of mordred's 'destiny'. because hunith's care of merlin was totally and definitely prompted by love of him - which he of course responded to with love - and i'm afraid even hunith cannot love mordred... or he love anyone else...)
but yay! for your explanation of merlin's forgiveness. that arthur's injury wasn't the cause of it, but only the occasion of merlin realizing he had already forgiven him. and i love him realizing that arthur trusts him, too! i like arthur being humble enough to realize that he'd learned a lesson, and to resolve never to forget it.
and it's always good to go back to, they really do know each other. and whatever might change, they also really do like each other.
awesomely awesome. thank you so much. :D
| wryter501 chapter 23 . 12/5/2015
that's kind of amazing. i wasn't sure whether we would get here (arthur&merlin, i mean), whether it would feel right when we did, but, wow.
i was going to say, i thought excalibur would be a poor replacement as a magical support for arthur's reign, for emrys. i'm glad to find that arthur thinks the same way. :D
it's quite often that arthur has the jolt of meaning and realization, when merlin's life is threatened in some way. i liked that merlin had that in return, realizing what arthur still meant to him. not just arthur-the-destiny cannot be lost to camelot and albion, but that /merlin/ would miss /arthur/. :)
| wryter501 chapter 22 . 12/5/2015
that's an interesting comparison. merlin trying to apologize to arthur after the magic came out. trying to make him listen and accept, making it so that no one could make him leave, b/c of his magic... but in the reverse situation, merlin's magic still means that he gets his way (go or stay, talk or not), and arthur has to deal with it... i feel that's a bit unequal, actually. unfair in merlin's favor...
wow. 'sword in the stone' is always a scene that's grand and glorious (much like a first kiss), with violin music and indrawn breath and all... this is, much more visceral. i didn't want arthur to take it, and i didn't understand why - until he rejected a /sword/ as a symbol for his reign. especially after what he'd done and what he'd allowed to be done to merlin.
but... now what?
| wryter501 chapter 21 . 12/5/2015
the first friend i ever lost. someone i'd known for years, someone i'd even lived with. one of my best friends, and everyone knew it. and over the course of some weeks, this person went from not trying to spend time with me, to actively avoiding me, to outright ignoring me. didn't want to talk about it, didn't want me to apologize for whatever i'd done... just, that was it. no more friendship. and while neither of us tried to kill the other, or lied/betrayed/deceived, it was still... one of the worst things that's ever happened to me, b/c i couldn't fix it when the other person didn't care if it was fixed or not. didn't want anything to do with me.
of course it hurts merlin, what arthur did. but wouldn't it be worse if arthur shrugged and said it didn't matter. if arthur didn't care how merlin felt now, didn't care if he left and never came back. if arthur was obviously /fine/ without merlin, living with what he'd done... but this is rather obvious, arthur waiting and wanting to meet merlin halfway, trying to be sensitive. i think there's got to be some consolation in there (maybe deep down)...
who can judge how much 'sorry' is 'sorry enough'?... how can you measure the regret another person feels?
i find i'm kind of interested to see an arthur-facing-mordred scene. b/c mordred killed arthur's father, i want to see the interactions and ramifications of that, compared to how much else is going on, emotionally...
lots of times it seems like a situation of mutual - concentration, say, not necessarily danger - is good for taking the attention off the emotional complication, and restoring a little balance and normality, which is at least a good foundation for building on.
also it seems to me, the druids might look to merlin for advice/guidance/leading on whether or not /they/ should forgive arthur for what the pendragons did to them...
'i'm sorry for what father did to you and what i let happen'... and morgana can at least (in her mentally-impaired state) be grateful...
and, geez, how ironic. merlin deciding he was going to pretend to trust arthur, to buy a little time before making a decision. isn't that the way the story started? with arthur deciding to pretend he was all right with merlin's magic/lies/secrets?...
| wryter501 chapter 20 . 12/5/2015
while i understand it, it makes my heart hurt, what merlin feels when he's around arthur...
| wryter501 chapter 19 . 12/5/2015
gwaine is great for lifting merlin's spirits in an uncomplicated way, isn't he? :)
and maybe, how merlin feels at mordred's reaction, might soften him toward arthur? in a certain sense, he'd betrayed mordred, using magic against magic and taking mordred's from his control...
| wryter501 chapter 18 . 12/5/2015
and merlin can forgive kilgarrah, imprisoned and infected and repressed by uther's hate (as arthur also?) and heal him, knowing him to be /good/. even though he manipulated merlin and took advantage of his trust...
'something integral had been severed'... i hope that's not an analogy for arthur&merlin...
and. am i seeing parallels where there are none? merlin chose to lock mordred's magic away, but is that really a lot different from what arthur thought he was doing with merlin? the test-proof that merlin hadn't enchanted him (and maybe, not one /arthur/ needed, but one he could turn back on his father?)...
| wryter501 chapter 17 . 12/5/2015
it occurred to me also, uther pulled the same trick with arthur that he pulled with balinor and kilgarrah. assuring him, i only want peace do this for me and there will be peace. using that desire to believe the best, and hope and trust... if we don't blame balinor for uther tricking him and getting kilgarrah imprisoned for twenty years - don't see how we can blame arthur for believing his own father. not really. i suppose arthur wanted to believe the best of uther also, in a sense. arthur was betrayed in the same instance that merlin was, he was just caught in the middle. betrayer and betrayed...
also it seems to me, merlin might take a moment to remember times when he felt remorse for his mistakes - the great dragon, like he told arthur. maybe he was manipulated by someone older and wiser and who he mostly trusted, and then innocent people died. he didn't mean for that to happen, but it could be argued, what did you think was going to happen... did he even go and confess and apologize to those hurt by his 'mistake' (or you could argue, it wasn't a mistake, it was fulfilling a vow of honor)? even though the dragon was ultimately to blame... i appreciate merlin /feeling/ like this, but logically he should admit circumstances were quite similar...
and. we all know merlin will defend and save, no matter what. sweetheart. give 'em all a chance to work things out! (except mordred/morgana, of course...)
| wryter501 chapter 16 . 12/5/2015
beautiful and terrible. it isn't often the boys are maneuvered into circumstances where they're at such desperate odds, but the reader can feel sympathy for both of them... well done on that. and thanks also, i guess, for not rushing them back into their relationship, often when that's done it feels too fast, but yours is perfect.
| wryter501 chapter 15 . 12/5/2015
seems to me that gwen might have a peculiar insight into helping merlin through this. b/c when she was poisoned, she might decided that merlin was to blame, indirectly. she might have decided that arthur was complicit too, knowing that his father's intended to poison merlin, but not worrying about complications like collateral damage until after the fact. part of it is forgiveness, and a big part, but part of it also is recognizing who is truly to blame - uther - and not holding the whole thing against others who were involved. like, leon who was still taking orders, or den who tried to kill merlin just after merlin saved his life. of course, the deception is probably harder to forgive than a heat-of-the-moment attack, so...
| wryter501 chapter 14 . 12/5/2015
seems to me, something of this magnitude. there are those who won't admit they ever did anything wrong. they'll shove the problem out of sight, out of mind, and allow the guilt to fester unseen as they try to carry on. there are also those who will keep humbling themselves every time it comes up, keep admitting they were wrong, even to strangers, even to people who are angry and shouting and insulting... one is uther. the other... well, it takes the bigger man, right? merlin always owned his mistakes (probably more than he actually earned, imo)... i like to see arthur accepting the blame, rather than trying to excuse himself at all.
and. i think this is also the first i've read of arthur trying to be more... democratic? even without merlin's direct influence... i like that very much, too.
| wryter501 chapter 12 . 12/4/2015
i can't help but think how /alone/ arthur is. i mean, without merlin, gaius, gwen. but also, he's alienating the knights that liked merlin, as well as his father's associates who hated magic but might've helped him at least begin to rule...
okay. i really love arthur's decisions - there's no vacillating on whether the people will accept it, maybe we should start small and go slow. there's no trampling the council and forcing them to accept. i like the detail that uther had taken complete control in matters of magic years ago, which makes it easier and legal for arthur to do it this way. i really appreciate the clear and concise way he outlines the new policy - no violence or /other/ lawbreaking, for anyone, magic or no.
i like the dragon showing up to give arthur a piece of his mind, but really, you know, get in line. poor arthur.
but also, /poor/ merlin! wow, have you got a long way to go! ;)
| wryter501 chapter 11 . 12/4/2015
wow. just, wow. i actually have to take a breather now (along with arthur) and think about what this means.
so uther's dead b/c merlin wasn't there to protect him. mordred hasn't killed him yet but still wants to - and now arthur is king. quite suddenly, quite violently, and i can't help thinking, he's not ready for this mentally. is the freedom really worth the great and irreversible personal loss (for arthur, i mean)...
and, holy cows. as if that wasn't epic enough - hunith's magic saves merlin's life! triple-hooray for mothers! i was worried he'd have had to go to or he'd have been taken by one of the strongest (read, one of the most ruthlessly ambitious) witches... and now this at the end? what?
| wryter501 chapter 9 . 12/4/2015
seems to me like a person really /can't/ challenge a king with impunity... you either have to genuinely convince the king, or else be prepared to bow to his authority...
seems to me also, arthur's choice is 'now or later'. to save one person now and maybe lose his inheritance (and his chance to benefit the kingdom for decades under his rule), or to step back and sacrifice one person and retain that right to change things, once he's king...
and wow. the tension in the second half of this chapter was exquisite - very well done! (oh my poor merlin!)