Hi everyone, thank you for patience for this update. As some of you know, we lost my stepdad a week ago. Things have been horrible lately, but I wanted to get this chapter out. I don't know when the next one will post, soon I hope, just need a little time. I hope you all understand. Okay, lets get back to these two... and whether or not Edward will stay...
"What about your dinner?" Edward asked in between their kisses.
"It can wait," Bella replied, kissing his jawline. "Later... I'll make dinner later. Right now... god, Edward... please. I've wanted you for so long."
"Jesus, Bella," Edward sighed. "I want you so much. I've wanted you since you put me in my place in my office. I wanted to push you down on my desk and take you right there."
"Well, I don't have a desk in here... would you settle for my bed?"
"God damn," Edward hissed, kissing her again. He pulled back and grinned at her. "Lead the way."
Bella grinned back at him and then stood to her feet. She reached out her hand to Edward and he took it. Bella led him down the hall to her bedroom, before they got to the room. Edward's jaw dropped when Bella lifted her scrub shirt over her head and then untied the drawstring of her pants and stepped out of them, leaving her in her plum bra and matching lace boy shorts.
"Fuck, Bella, you're killing me," Edward groaned. She definitely was a firecracker. He looked at her body up and down as he stood in the doorway of her bedroom. Her breasts were amazing, her stomach flat and toned, and her legs... he always had a thing for her legs.
"Are you just going to stand there, or are you going to touch me?" Bella asked from where she stood at the side of her bed.
"Are you baiting me, Miss Swan?" Edward asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Bet your ass I am, Mr. Masen," she replied.
"Oh, you really shouldn't have said that."
Edward moved across the room, unbuttoning his shirt and shrugging it off in the process. When he got to Bella, he lunged for her and knocked her down on the bed, his body coming down on top of hers.
Then he once again crashed his lips to hers, kissing her hard and with so much passion. Bella wrapped her arms around Edward's neck, pulling him closer to her body. Edward reached for her bare thigh and groaned when he felt her silken skin for the first time. He hitched her leg over his thigh and rubbed her thigh.
Edward felt so much inside of him. Feelings that he never felt before. He broke the kiss and pulled Bella into his arms as he buried his face in her hair.
Bella felt a shift in his body and then she inhaled sharply when she felt wetness on her shoulder.
"Hey," she said, rubbing his back. "Edward, it's okay."
"I'm sorry," he declared through his tears "I want to be with you... you have no idea... but it all just hit me: my mom, my feelings for you. I don't know how to feel right now. I miss my mom so much, but I'm so happy here with you... I'm sorry."
Edward rolled off Bella and onto his back. He covered his eyes with his forearm, feeling completely defeated. Bella turned to her side and rose up on her elbow to look at Edward.
"Edward, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere; this doesn't have to happen tonight," she reassured him. "I promise, I'm not going anywhere."
Bella ran her hand up and down Edward's bare chest, hoping she was soothing him. His skin was so warm and he had just the right amount of chest hair that traveled down his toned stomach and disappeared into his jeans. Edward touched Bella's hand and relaxed some. He felt safe with her, he felt loved. He sighed in contentment as he thought about his mother and how this is what she wanted for him.
It's what he wanted for himself.
He wanted Bella.
A short while later, Edward had fallen asleep in Bella's bed and Bella quietly got up out of the bed and found his button-down shirt on the floor. She removed her bra and then slipped the shirt on and buttoned it up, leaving a few buttons undone. She looked at Edward's sleeping body one last time and then went into the kitchen.
As much as she wanted him, Bella knew Edward had a lot on his mind. He had just found his way to her after going through such a profound loss that she understood all too well. She was just happy he was there with her after all this time. She would wait for him; as long as he needed, she would wait. She would help him in any way he allowed her to. She would be there for him to lean on.
Bella opened her fridge and pulled out some eggs and bacon. She was moving the eggs around the pan when she felt strong arms around her.
"I didn't mean to fall asleep," Edward said, holding her close.
"It's okay, you were exhausted."
"You look too fucking good in my shirt," Edward said, running his hands down Bella's sides. "And that smells amazing."
Bella turned around and gasped when she saw Edward had taken off his jeans and was standing in her kitchen in only his boxer briefs. She couldn't help but rake her eyes up and down his lean body, her eyes stopping at the bulge in his briefs.
"Are you hungry?" she asked, clearing her throat. She turned her attention back to the pan full of eggs.
"Can you get us some juice?" Bella asked.
Edward reached for two glasses and filled them with orange juice from the fridge. He took both glasses to the table and Bella followed with two full plates of food.
Edward sat down across from Bella and began to eat the meal she had prepared for them.
"You are such a good cook, Bella. This is delicious."
"Glad you like it, but it's just eggs."
Edward smiled, and after taking a few more bites, he lowered his fork and wiped his mouth with his napkin.
"Bella, I'm really sorry about earlier. I'm sorry I turned into an emotional fool."
"Edward, please stop." Bella looked up at him. "You just lost your mother. You've been through a lot—even the strongest of men can stumble and fall—and that's okay."
"I just don't want you to think I didn't want to... I want to—badly," he said with a grin.
"I want to, too," she replied. "But we have time; like I told you, I'm not going anywhere."
"Neither am I," Edward said. "There is no one else in this world that I want to be with."
"So, we're doing this then?" Bella asked, looking in his green eyes. "I mean... we're—I mean..."
"Bella... it's been a long ass time since I've really wanted to be with a woman. I mean longer than one night or two. I was content with just empty sex and leaving my heart at the door, but then you happened. You're the first woman that I want to share my life with, to give my cold heart to so you can warm it up... so—if you'll have me, then yes... we're doing this."
"It's strange, it seems like yesterday I was so scared to talk to you in the office. You were my boss and now you're here half naked in my apartment."
"Was I really that bad?"
"You were kind of... intimidating. That was just your way, it didn't make you a bad boss," Bella admitted. "But I was always attracted to you from the first minute I met you."
"Really, you were?" Edward questioned with a cocked eyebrow.
"I was," Bella smiled. "You are devastatingly handsome, Edward." Bella then blushed and lowered her head as she pushed her uneaten eggs around on her plate.
"Truth?" Edward asked, getting her attention.
"Please," Bella replied, looking back up at him. The way he was looking at her made Bella tingle between her legs. She squeezed her thighs together.
"The first thing I noticed about you were your long legs. I thought about what they'd feel like wrapped around me. And that day you came into my office to tell me you were leaving... damn, your legs were so fucking sexy that I..." Edward paused, "...was so hard. That's why I never stood up from my desk."
"My legs, huh?" Bella questioned. She got up from her chair and moved around the table to where Edward sat. She sat down on his lap and crossed her legs. "You mean these legs?"
Edward looked down at her crossed legs on his lap. His shirt that she wore had ridden up to her upper thighs, exposing most of her legs. Edward inhaled sharply as his hand grazed her thigh and then ran down the length of it to her knee and then down her calf. When he reached her ankle, his hand came back up her legs.
"Oh yeah, those legs," Edward groaned. "So soft. I could touch them all night."
"What else do you want to touch, Edward?" Bella breathed, the air thickening between them.
"Well..." Edward moved his hand up her stomach. "I want to touch... your amazing breasts. I want to feel them in my hands." Edward moved his hand up to her left breast and palmed it through the shirt she wore, making Bella moan. Edward moaned when he felt she had taken off her bra and then began to kiss her neck as he spoke. "I want to touch your... wet pussy." Edward moved his hand under the shirt and groaned when he felt her lace panties. He pushed the fabric to the side and touched her flesh for the first time. "So wet... fuck, I want to taste you here, too."
Bella could feel Edward's erection, hard and throbbing under her ass. While Edward kept his fingers between her legs, he found Bella's mouth and kissed her hard. He drove his tongue in her mouth and they both moaned. Edward withdrew his fingers and then gripped Bella's hips, moving her so she was now straddling hm. As Edward returned his mouth to hers, he went to work on unbuttoning the buttons of his designer shirt that Bella wore. After he was finished, he spread the material open and licked his lips when Bella's pert breasts were revealed to him. Edward cupped one breast and then lowered his head so he could take the other in his mouth.
"Edward..." Bella hissed, raking her fingers through his hair.
"Shouldn't we go on a date before we do this?" Edward asked breathlessly while still kissing Bella's beasts.
Edward continued to suck on her nipple and then he switched to the other, giving it equal attention.
"Ah, god," Bella moaned. "Yes... a date, we should... ah... go on one... but after. You can take me out after we do this."
"Do you want to stop, Bella?" Edward asked as he tore himself away from Bella's breasts. "I'll stop if you want me to. I will."
"Edward... I don't want you to stop. I do want to go out with you. I want to be your girl, but right now, god help me, I want you to fuck me."
Edward looked in her eyes, and when he saw all that he needed, Edward gripped her hips and stood to his feet keeping her legs wrapped around him. As he carried her back to the bedroom, Bella kissed and sucked on Edward's neck, tasting his skin.
When Edward got to Bella's bed, he laid her down and moved so he was on top of her between her inviting legs.
"I want to touch you everywhere," Edward said in her mouth. "I want to make you come... I want you, Bella. Right here, right now. I need to be inside you."
"Yes... oh god, Edward. Please."
Bella leaned up and pushed Edward to his back so she was once again straddling him. Bella held her shirt closed as she looked down at Edward as he rested his hand on her thigh. Bella grinned as she parted the shirt and then slid it off her body, leaving her topless on top of Edward.
"Fuck," Edward hissed. His hand reached up and once again cupped Bella's breasts. Bella moaned and threw her head back. Edward sat up and held her close to him as he sucked on her nipples and licked her soft skin.
Edward then rolled them so he was again between her legs. The remainder of their clothing was shed and Edward settled himself back between Bella's legs as he kissed her. Bella looked down at Edward and gasped when she saw his long thick cock for the first time. She reached out and stroked him with her small hand.
"Ah, fuck... Bella, you're going to make me come," Edward said, moving her hand away from him. "I want to come inside you."
"Shit," Bella hissed. "Yes, Edward, please."
Edward leaned back down to kiss her and they both moaned when the tip of Edward's dick grazed Bella's center. Edward reached down between them to grasp himself. Just as he was about to guide himself inside, he held himself back.
"Wait," Edward said, backing up. "Do we need..."
"I'm on the pill and it's been some time for me," Bella answered.
"I've been tested and I'm clean, Bella, but I'll wear a condom if you want me to. I'll do anything you want me to."
"I trust you, Edward," Bella replied, touching his face. "And right now, I just want to feel you inside me. I trust you."
Edward grinned and then guided himself into her slick body. Bella gasped from the initial stab she felt, but then she cried out when Edward pushed all the way in, leaving her in nothing but pleasure.
"Bella... you feel—oh fuck. So good," Edward growled.
Edward thrusts became more steady as Bella moved with him. She gripped his biceps for leverage and moaned with each thrust.
As Edward moved inside Bella, he looked in her eyes and he saw his entire world, his whole heart looking back at him.
"Bella, I love you," Edward said in her ear, "so fucking much."
"I love you, too, Edward," Bella replied. "You feel so good... Edward, please don't stop. So close."
"Yes, Bella... I need you to come. I want to feel you explode all over me. Let me feel you."
"Oh good," Bella cried out. Edward reached down between their joined bodies and rubbed Bella's clit, making her cry out. "Edward..." Bella's body rocked as he felt her orgasm rip through her.
"That's it, baby," Edward said, continuing to rub her clit. Once she relaxed again, his thrusts became more urgent. He was so hard inside of her and he need to come. He thrust deep as he pulled Bella towards him by her hips.
Edward let out a groan as he released everything he had inside of her. He pumped a few more times as he emptied the last drop and then collapsed on top of Bella. His breathing was labored and both of them were slick with sweat.
"Jesus Christ," Edward sighed as he rolled off Bella. "That was... god damn."
Bella giggled from Edward's reaction. She felt the exact same way. After she caught her breath, she turned to her side and looked at Edward. The words they had said to each other in the middle of their lovemaking came back to her.
"Did we just say what I think we said to each other?" she asked. She looked down at his chest and played with his hair.
Edward turned his head to look at her, knowing exactly what she was referring to.
"I think we did," Edward replied. He then moved off his back and once again pushed Bella to her back. He turned her head to look at him and then he placed a soft kiss on her lips. "I love you, Bella."
Bella smiled and ran her hands through Edward's hair. "I love you, too," she said. "I am so in love with you, it hurts."
Edward leaned down and kissed her again and then he pulled back. "Wow, we really did do things a little backwards. We've gotten together, had sex, and said I love you for the first time all in the same night." Bella laughed and buried her face in Edward's chest. "Seriously, Bella, tonight was amazing, but I really do want to take you out on a date."
"That sounds nice, Edward, I'd like that very much," Bella said. "And as far as doing things backwards, maybe we did, but who cares. This is us, Edward. You and me and that's all that matters."
"I wish my mom could have seen us together." Edward sighed.
"She did," Bella stated. "She knew this would happen before we did. She saw enough to know that this would happen."
"I guess you're right," Edward agreed. Edward leaned up and over, causing Bella to move to her back. Edward looked down at her and brushed her hair off her face. "I know I have said it before, but, Bella... thank you. Thank you for taking care of my mom, of my dad, and of me. I'm not sure we would have survived any of it had it not been for you."
"You're welcome, Edward," Bella said. She reached up and wiped away a stray tear from Edward's eye. "I'm glad I got to know your mom, even if it was just for a short time. I came to love her. I came to love all of you."
Edward leaned down and softly kissed Bella's lips. She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him back. A short time later, sleep took them both over as they lay in each other's arms, finally feeling some kind of peace.
A/N: A collective AWWWW I'm sure. I hope that was worth the wait. I have posted a sexy pic from this chapter on my FB group, Awish's Fanfiction. Check it out.
Thanks again and always to my beta, Chandrakanta.
And again, I'm not sure when I'm going to post the next update. It will be soon, just not sure when. I'm still dealing with some things and trying to be there for my Mom, so soon, I promise.
Okay so please tell me your thoughts, it will make me feel better.