AN: I know most of you think that I've given up on this fic. I almost did. But I didn't. I've rewriten the next part over 9 times. My computer died a few times and it deleted my notes, my older chapters, and the new chapters. And then with the fifth book coming out I didn't know if I should follow it or not. Though there were parts where I screamed and even did a little dance (Petunia knowing about the dementors... I woke up my mother at 3am because I screamed...)

That is undecided for the moment since it wont come up till later.

Then I was having problems with Toms reaction to everything.

Anyway. This is a small chapter, but its the end and I couldn't say anything more without giving anything away. My friend Mudds said that it was a great way to start off with the next part

I hope you like it

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot and a few original characters... and the world... insert evil laughter


"Lily is off with her friends in some distant country. From her letters I know that it's very beautiful there and she's with people who care for her... She's a lot stronger then Petunia, but she still wishes you were with us..."

I paused, feeling like I was about to cry before speaking softly to the grave of a man I was once married to. "I wish you were still with us. I cannot tell you how sorry I am. But I am sorry that I couldn't tell you the truth before you died. You deserved so much more then me. But you still loved me..."

It was at that moment that I felt something, a feeling so intense that I shivered. It felt as if my very instinct was warning me, screaming at me, like if my body knew it was a matter of life and death. I whirled around and stared into the dazed eyes of the old caretaker of the cemetery. I could feel my heart beating through my skin and hear its drum like rhythm inside of my head. I tried to back away when I finally noticed an ordinary kitchen knife in his raised hand.

He looked like a puppet without strings; he swayed slightly before bringing down his arm. I backed away as much as I could, only to slam hard against the headstone behind me.

I heard a scream behind me as I myself gasped for air when the knife struck my abdomen. Tears ran down my face when the image of my baby flashed in front of my eyes. My baby... The thought of my unborn child kept running through my mind. I could envision everything that could have happened, but never would. I could almost see the lovely nursery that I had already prepared. I could almost hear the sweet melody emanating from the spinning mobile. I could almost touch the soft blanket inside the crib, the color of fresh snow.

Another gasp escaped my lips when the knife cut through the side of my face. I thought of Petunia, my poor girl, my darling orphan... I don't want to the cause of your pain... I'm so sorry... Can you ever forgive me?

The knife ran down my arm, slicing through my veins easily... so much blood... Please don't cry, Lily. It breaks my heart to see you cry... You are what kept me going in life... You are what gave me hope...

The final blow was struck at the side of my neck, just above my collarbone. I thought of Tom as I slumped sideways off the headstone, never removing my tear stained eyes from the caretaker. I watched as he stabbed himself and drew the knife across his stomach. His eyes stayed still, his hand was limp as it cut through his major organs easily.

I heard sirens in the distance and voices coming towards me. I hugged my bloody form with one arm and clutched my throat with my free hand. I sobbed silently, as the caretaker fell backwards, out of relief and confusion.

I lay on the ground and barely acknowledging that there were people around me now. I could hear music, but I believe that it was all in my head because I could see someone yelling at me to keep me awake. But I couldn't hear them, the music was getting louder, I could hear the piano keys being stroked by expert fingers. I stared at the clouds above me. I could see them moving, as if the world was sped up and I lay perfectly still. My vision blurred, it became harder to breathe. The pain was unbearable, and through it all I could still hear the soft playing of a piano.

'Tom where are you?'

The world dimmed around me, the clouds stopped moving, and the music stopped playing.


AN: The next part is in the works, I dont know when it will be up but it will be up. My friends have threatened me with my life if I dont...

It should be called Requiem for the Fallen. Might change though... dunno yet.

HPIceAngel: Thanks for the review and I'm sorry that its so late...

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Ashes Of Roses: -- u would be robbed in el salvador...

Kaho:I do think Tom is out of character a bit but we dont really see him other then as Voldemort and the memory in the Diary. I didn't have much to go on but I think I'm doing an OK job on him.

Dagon Lily: Well, Lily is supposed to die eventually.

Miss Mina Murray: ;; sorry for making you wait so long...

Kilohana: waves hi everyone! sorry for the late update, and Tom, dont worry... you will eventually get ur revenge... (I always love your reviews Kilohana...very imaginative... )

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WhiteZinfandelBijou: You know fluffy... you scare me sometimes...

(no name was given): Toms reaction will be in the next story

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PG: Thank you for writting the review. I know I spell Gryffindor wrong all the time but I usually forget how to spell it and my spell check never picks it up. Sorry. And its not supposed to be Minerva McGonagall, its her neice. It says so in one of the earlier chapters when Cassandra meets Lily.

Ann: The Sequel is in the works. I've had to rewrite it more then once but I think I worked out a few of the kinks in it.

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Mella deRanged: he's not completely sure but he will soon. And Lily hasn't made the connection either.

Joy4eva: You'll see what he does to her...

Mimi: Thats why I wrote this story, everyone just assumes that he was always evil. I try to make him look a little better in peoples eyes.

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sals: sequel-y thingie is coming up soon if all goes well.

Thanks for those of you who emailed me and IM'd me and even threatened me... ;; I appreciate all of your feedback. I even thank those of you who haven't reviewed but still read this dumb ass fic.

GIR: Waves bye baby!

EDIT: For those of you who haven't seen it, there is a sequel to this, its on my bio thingie so go check it out. Its called Eternal Requiem.